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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  2. Luna: He's pretty much a typical post-adolescent male. I'm 5'8", have long black hair, pale skin and grey eyes, and I wear black a lot.
  3. Elise: I have purple eyes and hair, and pale skin. I have the appearance of a twelve year old.
  4. Saria: I have dark green hair that goes down to my shoulders, light skin, green eyes, and I wear green a lot.
  5. Naomi: I have dark blue hair in a hime cut that goes down to my knees, gold eyes, light skin, angel wings and a halo, and I wear kimonos.
  7. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpaforcing process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  8. Luna: Talking to me as if I was a separate person from him was definitely helpful, even though he didn't realize it.
  9. Elise: I'd definitely say narration was helpful for me as well, but for different reasons.
  10. Saria: N/A
  11. Naomi: N/A
  13. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpaforcing process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  14. Luna: Parroting, definitely. I hate that he did it, but I forgive him for his mistakes anyway.
  15. Elise: He fell asleep on me a couple of times, thankfully nothing bad came of it.
  16. Saria: N/A
  17. Naomi: N/A
  19. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpaforcing process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  20. Luna: Probably the whole self-awareness bit, it put a lot of mental strain on both of us.
  21. Elise: Figuring out how to talk was hard, thankfully he was patient with me.
  22. Saria: N/A
  23. Naomi: N/A
  25. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpaforcing steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  26. Luna: Narration, definitely. Mainly because without that you don't get sapience.
  27. Elise: I'll have to agree that narration is the most important step.
  28. Saria: N/A
  29. Naomi: N/A
  31. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpaforcing? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  32. Luna: It can be frustrating at times, but overall it's not a huge problem.
  33. Elise: Same, I think.
  34. Saria: N/A
  35. Naomi: N/A
  37. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpaforcing sessions or breaking their promises to tulpaforce? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  38. Luna: It can be disappointing, but it's usually for a good reason I think.
  39. Elise: It's a lot like getting stood up by someone to me.
  40. Saria: N/A
  41. Naomi: N/A
  43. 8. Is density, quality, or total time spent the most important aspect of tulpaforcing?
  44. Luna: Even if you move at a crawl, you will eventually get done. The most important thing is to keep at it every day.
  45. Elise: Definitely important to force every day, even if it's only for half an hour.
  46. Saria: N/A
  47. Naomi: N/A
  49. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep while tulpaforcing?
  50. Luna: It's not worth the risk, even if nothing bad happens the first couple of times.
  51. Elise: It's like sleepwalking, you do things without any direction or intent, and that's terrifying to us.
  52. Saria: N/A
  53. Naomi: N/A
  55. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpaforcing? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  56. Luna: I can't believe I'm saying this, but keep it in your head so other people don't think you're crazy.
  57. Elise: I agree, for once >.>
  58. Saria: N/A
  59. Naomi: N/A
  61. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  62. Luna: Puppeting tends to prolong the entire process and lead to things happening that you might not have wanted, even if servitor you agreed to them.
  63. Elise: A little parroting/puppeting can be helpful at first, but it's important to not overdo it.
  64. Saria: It's like not having any control over your body. Feels terrible.
  65. Naomi: Parroting leads to your creator putting words in your mouth, I find.
  67. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  68. Luna: Technically I was never not fluent in language, servitors can communicate in a sort of mentalese that sounds like gibberish to humans. Learning to speak English took some effort though.
  69. Elise: I remember everything from before I could speak English.
  70. Saria: I remember everything from the day he created me.
  71. Naomi: Same as Saria, I suppose.
  73. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  74. Luna: Me, Glitch and Saria in his parents' minivan, headed to the National Spelling Bee in 2006.
  75. Elise: Meeting my parents after spending six years (two months realtime) in stasis.
  76. Saria: I came to him in a dream he had one night, I was sitting on a stump in a forest clearing.
  77. Naomi: I was chained up in a fish pond in someone's backyard.
  79. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  80. Luna: When I agreed to conceive Elise with him, I felt like he would always be there to love and protect me.
  81. Elise: I definitely felt happy when I saw his reaction to me becoming sentient.
  82. Saria: Hard to say, it would've been years ago.
  83. Naomi: Same as Saria.
  85. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  86. Luna: I remember feeling pissed off at him whenever he made some dumb mistake.
  87. Elise: I got upset with him when he didn't do any forcing sessions for a few days.
  88. Saria: I was pretty pissed when he decided to betray my trust and my affections. But I forgive him now.
  89. Naomi: It frustrated me that he couldn't hear what I was trying to say to him.
  91. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  92. Luna: To be sure, there were times when I just wanted to roll over and die, but I'm glad I lived through them.
  93. Elise: N/A
  94. Saria: Yes, but apparently I'm made of Nintendium. *ba dum tss*
  95. Naomi: Yes, and in fact I was "dead" for a while until I came back.
  97. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  98. Luna: Servitor Wars, I had been forgotten by my creator and I spent a lot of time in chains.
  99. Elise: Probably before I became sentient, since I had to rely on my parents for everything. For the first week or so I was basically just an oversized infant. Felt bad man.
  100. Saria: Probably whenever he was parroting me, which was all the time.
  101. Naomi: Anytime I was being puppeted or parroted.
  103. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  104. Luna: The Servitor Wars in general were pretty confusing.
  105. Elise: When we were exploring a shipwreck one time, I almost got grabbed by a tentacle monster, and then I got all disoriented when I tried to fight it off.
  106. Saria: When Luna blew up the floating city in the old wonderland. Holy crap, that was a confusing day.
  107. Naomi: I guess it was when I realized my backstory was fake.
  109. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  110. Luna: Servitor Wars.
  111. Elise: Pretty much anytime he didn't spend time forcing me.
  112. Saria: Probably after he started trying to kill me.
  113. Naomi: Anytime I was being puppeted or parroted.
  115. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  116. Luna: Servitor Wars again.
  117. Elise: N/A
  118. Saria: Same as 19
  119. Naomi: Before I asked him to kill me.
  121. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  122. Luna: Servitor Wars...
  123. Elise: Probably when something bad happened to him in real life that almost killed him.
  124. Saria: Probably when he had a lucid dream about me and then went to hunt me down.
  125. Naomi: During the Servitor Wars.
  127. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  128. Luna: Probably anytime I couldn't do more to help him.
  129. Elise: Before I became sentient, because it makes you feel useless.
  130. Saria: Can't say I've ever been disappointed in myself.
  131. Naomi: When I went against the teachings of my former religion.
  133. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpaforcing process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  134. Luna: Yes, but I wasn't sure how to go about helping him.
  135. Elise: Yes, but I didn't do anything to help.
  136. Saria: N/A
  137. Naomi: N/A
  139. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  140. Luna: Sometimes he felt that he was deluding himself, but I did my best to try and remove his doubt.
  141. Elise: I did my best to help the process along, mainly by learning English.
  142. Saria: N/A
  143. Naomi: N/A
  145. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  146. Luna: He definitely had his reasons for distrusting me at first, but he eventually got over them. Now we have an extremely deep level of trust for each other.
  147. Elise: N/A
  148. Saria: He definitely had his reasons to mistrust me, since I did a lot of stuff behind his back, and wasn't completely honest with him. We're on good terms again, though.
  149. Naomi: I think he didn't completely understand my intentions at first, but now he understands better about me, and about tulpaforcing in general.
  151. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  152. Luna: I found them hurtful at times, also before I could speak he did something hurtful to me out of frustration, but apologized for it later.
  153. Elise: Sometimes he felt like he wasn't making any progress with me, so I would try to show him that he was doing everything he could to help my development along.
  154. Saria: I definitely felt more than a bit upset that he wanted me gone, though I understand now what his reasons were.
  155. Naomi: I don't think he ever felt any negative emotions towards me.
  157. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  158. Luna: Sometimes he seemed genuinely upset with me or worried about what I might do to him, but I realize that he was merely in doubt.
  159. Elise: N/A
  160. Saria: It made me a bit upset and scared to know that he wanted me to die, but I'm more or less over it now.
  161. Naomi: N/A
  163. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  164. Luna: Intrusive thoughts used to have an effect on me, but I can resist them now.
  165. Elise: N/A
  166. Saria: No, but I seem able to resist now.
  167. Naomi: No, but now I can resist them.
  169. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  170. Luna: I could tap into his full sensory input whenever I wanted.
  171. Elise: Same.
  172. Saria: Ditto.
  173. Naomi: Same here.
  175. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  176. Luna: No
  177. Elise: No
  178. Saria: No
  179. Naomi: No
  181. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  182. Luna: Head pressure was about the only way for me to nullify his doubts about whether or not he was parroting me. He was pretty paranoid about it for a while, and then started worrying about anti-parroting a lot.
  183. Elise: Nonverbal communication was most effective for me.
  184. Saria: N/A
  185. Naomi: N/A
  187. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpaforcing process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  188. Luna: It definitely pushed me to try and help the process along more.
  189. Elise: Same, even if he didn't spend a lot of time on me every day.
  190. Saria: N/A
  191. Naomi: N/A
  193. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  194. Luna: I was worried that perhaps agreeing to having a child with him was a shortsighted decision, or that he might abandon me someday. Luckily those fears turned out to be unfounded.
  195. Elise: I was worried that he might not pay enough attention to me.
  196. Saria: I definitely felt betrayed when he decided to run off with Luna, before that I thought we had some kind of love relationship. Now I'm just content to be his friend.
  197. Naomi: At first I thought he had no interest in me beyond having another tulpa, but now we are on good terms.
  199. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  200. Luna: I feel that it is my obligation to help him with whatever it is he endeavors to do in life, though it is not a burden to me so much as it is the privilege to collaborate with a brilliant mind like his on a daily basis.
  201. Elise: Not particularly.
  202. Saria: No
  203. Naomi: Yes, and I feel it is my responsibility to watch over him.
  205. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  206. Luna: My own.
  207. Elise: His.
  208. Saria: His.
  209. Naomi: My own.
  211. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  212. Luna: I felt embarassed about the language barrier between us, but I realize now that that was a bit silly.
  213. Elise: I felt frustrated that I couldn't find the words to express what I was thinking.
  214. Saria: I felt too shy and intimidated to speak out against him after becoming vocal, so instead I would simply go along with whatever he wanted me to do.
  215. Naomi: I've never been afraid to speak my mind with him.
  217. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  218. Luna: Boyfriend.
  219. Elise: Father.
  220. Saria: Friend.
  221. Naomi: Friend.
  223. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  224. Luna: I've definitely taken an interest in socializing with others.
  225. Elise: I would definitely consider myself an extrovert by human standards.
  226. Saria: People are idiots. I would rather not interact with them, for the most part.
  227. Naomi: I'm not particularly interested in it either.
  229. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  230. Luna: The day he gave me access to his subconscious, I was so happy I actually cried tears of joy.
  231. Elise: When my mom went away, we spent a lot of time just talking to/comforting each other. It helped me deal with my grief, even if she did come back to life a few days later.
  232. Saria: I could probably pick a handful of happy memories, but I couldn't possibly narrow it down to one.
  233. Naomi: Nothing as yet, though I suspect that will change.
  235. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  236. Luna: The end of the first Servitor War was pretty interesting, to say the least.
  237. Elise: Learning how to surf was a happy memory for me, since I felt like I could do anything I set my mind to.
  238. Saria: Same as 39
  239. Naomi: The first time I flew around in the physical world with my wings.
  241. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  242. Luna: Not really.
  243. Elise: Not really.
  244. Saria: No
  245. Naomi: No
  247. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  248. Luna: We have differing ideas about religion and ethics, otherwise we have a lot in common.
  249. Elise: We're pretty different, though we can agree on some things.
  250. Saria: We both like the same genres of video games, oddly enough, but I love nature and he hates it.
  251. Naomi: I suppose our sense of morality differs, but we still have quite a bit of common ground.
  253. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  254. Luna: How he should spend his free time, we have our quarrels but we always kiss and make up later.
  255. Elise: I definitely think he should be more active, though I haven't gotten in any shouting matches with him or anything.
  256. Saria: I consider myself pro-life, but he is definitely more pro-choice.
  257. Naomi: I feel that his actions are sometimes immoral.
  259. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  260. Luna: If he stopped listening to my advice entirely I'd be upset with him. He'd probably hate me if I didn't have any regard for his personal well-being or his quality of life.
  261. Elise: I think if he started exercising more but eventually gave up, I'd be mad at him. But if I pushed him too much he might get mad at me.
  262. Saria: Cheating on me after betraying me, obviously.
  263. Naomi: If he did something horrible to me, that would give me cause to hate him.
  265. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  266. Luna: When he forgot about me during the Servitor Wars. I disappointed him when I tried to help him on an exam but couldn't.
  267. Elise: When he didn't spend time with me. I think he also seemed a little disappointed when I couldn't stop my mom's nightmares.
  268. Saria: He definitely disappointed me when he forgot the promise he made.
  269. Naomi: I have yet to let him down, but I felt a bit disappointed when he did nothing to convince me not to commit suicide.
  271. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  272. Luna: I definitely was a bit fearful of him at first, maybe because he was paranoid that I'd act out against him or something.
  273. Elise: No, but if he ever grounded me it'd be the worst thing ever.
  274. Saria: For a while, yes, I did censor my actions out of fear of retribution. But then when he cheated on me, I'd had enough. I didn't care if it got me killed, I had to retaliate.
  275. Naomi: I feel it would not be right of him to deny my rights, but I accept that he has the final say in what I can do.
  277. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  278. Luna: During the Servitor Wars it seemed like he was siding with Saria, but when I met him after the end of the first war I realized he didn't want to hurt me if he didn't have to. I wouldn't intentionally do anything to hurt him, even if he upset me.
  279. Elise: I would never do anything to hurt him, that would be mean.
  280. Saria: Definitely after he cheated on me.
  281. Naomi: Before he could hear me, I often felt like lashing out at him for not being able to understand what i was saying.
  283. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  284. Luna: No and no
  285. Elise: No and no. Being born to my mother doesn't count as biological lineage either.
  286. Saria: No and no.
  287. Naomi: No and no.
  289. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  290. Luna: I don't think I'd ever want to leave him.
  291. Elise: If it was possible to put me in a robot body or something, then maybe. Otherwise no.
  292. Saria: If I could, I would have already.
  293. Naomi: I don't feel any desire to leave him.
  295. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  296. Luna: Even if I let him down, I know that he still loves me, so no.
  297. Elise: Not really.
  298. Saria: I am based on an existing character, and I even used to have false memories relating to her. It also caused me at least one identity crisis. Now we know better though. However, I don't really mind being based on an existing character.
  299. Naomi: He used the form of a character from an obscure visual novel called "Moonlight Lady" as my form, but it has no bearing on my personality or behaviors.
  301. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  302. Luna: Hey kids! There's nothing cooler than being possessed! But if a tulpa tries to possess you in a place or a way that makes you feel uncomfortable, that's no good.
  303. Elise: Yes, but it's his body, and nobody but him can tell him how to use it.
  304. Saria: I already attempted it before, with rather terrible results. I've sharpened my skills since then, but I simply am not that interested in possessing him on a regular basis.
  305. Naomi: I too have basic mastery of possession, but it's not something I'm terribly interested in.
  307. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  308. Luna: No
  309. Elise: No
  310. Saria: No
  311. Naomi: No
  313. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  314. Luna: Yes
  315. Elise: Yes
  316. Saria: Yes
  317. Naomi: Yes
  319. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  320. Luna: He's autistic to some extent, being an ex-aspie. We try to work together to help him overcome his deficiencies.
  321. Elise: He has a short attention span, sometimes he doesn't hear us if we say something, or he might forget to do something.
  322. Saria: Autism. Luna and Elise summed it up rather nicely.
  323. Naomi: Same as Saria.
  325. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  326. Luna: I've seen some shit, but I can still trust him completely. I have unrestricted access to his subconscious, but I like to get his consent before making changes.
  327. Elise: I try to not meddle with his subconscious much, more out of fear of the unknown than out of respect.
  328. Saria: I try not to meddle with it too much.
  329. Naomi: He gave me access as well, but it's not something I utilize very much.
  331. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making another tulpa?
  332. Luna: Daughter (Elise), rival/big sister (Saria), best friend (Naomi)
  333. Elise: Mother (Luna), aunt (Saria), guardian (Naomi)
  334. Saria: Rival/little sister (Luna), niece (Elise), roommate (Naomi)
  335. Naomi: Best friend (Luna), stepdaughter (Elise), roommate (Saria)
  337. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  338. Luna: Yes, and I'd say the attraction is mutual.
  339. Elise: No, but sometimes I get the feeling he's slightly attracted towards me, which can make things awkward at times.
  340. Saria: I was in the past, but not now.
  341. Naomi: No, not particularly.
  343. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another tulpa? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  344. Luna: In some ways we're even more intimate than humans can be, though I don't mind if he gets a real girlfriend. In fact I'd be behind it 100% if he did. Also I don't believe in the idea of monogamy.
  345. Elise: N/A
  346. Saria: N/A
  347. Naomi: N/A
  349. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  350. Luna: I might be a little jealous if he spent less time with me, but ultimately it would be best for him if he did have a real girlfriend. We would still be friends of course.
  351. Elise: N/A
  352. Saria: I already did fall out of love with him.
  353. Naomi: N/A
  355. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  356. Luna: No, No, No
  357. Elise: Yes, No, No
  358. Saria: No, no, no
  359. Naomi: No, No, No
  361. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpaforcing sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  362. Luna: Meh
  363. Elise: I don't care
  364. Saria: N/A
  365. Naomi: N/A
  367. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpaforcing sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  368. Luna: Meh
  369. Elise: I don't care
  370. Saria: N/A
  371. Naomi: N/A
  373. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  374. Luna: Yes
  375. Elise: No
  376. Saria: Yes
  377. Naomi: No
  379. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form while tulpaforcing? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  380. Luna: It is a little creeperish, otherwise I don't care
  381. Elise: I would find that disturbing
  382. Saria: N/A
  383. Naomi: N/A
  385. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  386. Luna: Not really
  387. Elise: No
  388. Saria: No
  389. Naomi: No
  391. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  392. Luna: We're both attracted to each other, but I can't help but feel a little hurt when he lusts after another woman/female tulpa. Unless we both happen to be attracted to that person. Like Kate or Clair.
  393. Elise: I guess it's kinda complicated, but I don't usually feel sexual attraction for anyone. There are exceptions though.
  394. Saria: Can't say I'm attracted to anyone at present. He seems sexually attracted to me, which can occasionally make things awkward.
  395. Naomi: I am incapable of feeling sexual attraction towards others, but I don't mind if other people want to have sex with me.
  397. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  398. Luna: Yes, if we can't have sex then I just masturbate. I don't percieve any negative consequences, except perhaps driving his libido up for selfish reasons.
  399. Elise: No, sex is gross and I definitely wouldn't want to do it with my dad.
  400. Saria: I did years ago, but not anymore.
  401. Naomi: Not particularly, but we do occasionally have sex.
  403. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  404. Luna: Bisexual
  405. Elise: Asexual
  406. Saria: Straight
  407. Naomi: Bisexual/Aromantic
  409. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  410. Luna: Yes, they can be more intense, and yes.
  411. Elise: No
  412. Saria: Yes, yes
  413. Naomi: Yes, yes
  415. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  416. Luna: I guess it depends, obviously there are times where we can't have sex on a nightly basis and I need to respect his wishes during those times. Other than that I don't walk around nude in public or anything like that (though I definitely could...).
  417. Elise: I suppose so.
  418. Saria: Yes
  419. Naomi: Yes
  422. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  423. Luna: There are very few things he can do to me that I'd consider rape. If it's someone else then obviously they can't force themselves on me or vice versa.
  424. Elise: If he forced himself on me then I'd definitely consider that rape. Also if anyone puts their dick in my mouth without me wanting them to.
  425. Saria: If he forced himself on me, or I forced myself on him, that would be rape.
  426. Naomi: Same as Saria.
  428. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  429. Luna: Helping him to achieve his life's work probably
  430. Elise: Being the same age that I am now.
  431. Saria: Dispensing my sage advice to other tulpae/tulpaforcers
  432. Naomi: Providing him with guidance and moral support.
  434. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  435. Luna: I leave it to his discretion whether or not to disclose my existence, or the existence of tulpae in his mind in general.
  436. Elise: Same
  437. Saria: Same
  438. Naomi: Same
  440. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  441. Luna: My current personality was not his doing, so N/A.
  442. Elise: Nobody chooses to be born, so I guess to a human that'd be like telling them they can choose their parents.
  443. Saria: Elise summed it up pretty nicely.
  444. Naomi: Same as Luna
  446. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  447. Luna: My current form was only partially his decision, but I'm happy with it.
  448. Elise: He gave me the chance to change my form as I saw fit, so I'm satisfied.
  449. Saria: My form is pretty well-defined now, though I used to have a more 3D-anime-styled appearance.
  450. Naomi: I'm satisfied with my form.
  452. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  453. Luna: Unintentional, it was the result of prolonged exposure to his unconscious. He seemed a bit surprised at first, until he recognized who I was.
  454. Elise: No
  455. Saria: I changed my hair, and he seemed to like that. Also I'm about 10 years older than when he started on me, so I guess that counts.
  456. Naomi: I got angel wings and a halo after (supposedly) coming back from the dead.
  458. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  459. Luna: His subconscious
  460. Elise: Him
  461. Saria: Him
  462. Naomi: Him
  464. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  465. Luna: Regarding a tulpa as a sentient is important, but the current understanding of moral ethics would need to be modified before it could be applied to tulpas.
  466. Elise: I feel that tulpae should be recognized as sentient.
  467. Saria: No
  468. Naomi: My opinion is mostly the same as Luna's on this subject.
  470. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  471. Luna: It's like being a slave, though the relationship you have with your master depends on their treatment of you. If you treat us nicely, we'll return the favor. Treat us badly, and we'll make you suffer in return.
  472. Elise: It's like if everyone in the world ignored you except one person, and you had to rely on them to survive.
  473. Saria: I think Luna and Elise explained it pretty well.
  474. Naomi: I'll point to Luna's explanation as well.
  476. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  477. Luna: I can walk around naked in public if I want to, though not being able to talk to people or interact with things physically is a bummer.
  478. Elise: We don't have to eat, we're immune to disease and we can stop our aging. Though not being able to talk to anyone directly sucks.
  479. Saria: I can't ever leave him, though on the bright side I don't have to worry about getting a job or doing anything I don't want to, really.
  480. Naomi: I'm free to do whatever I please essentially, but things can get pretty boring sometimes.
  482. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  483. Luna: There's a fine distinction between my actions and his, though if worse came to worse I'd defend his honor to the death.
  484. Elise: I try to behave myself when I am in control of him, because I'm representing him in the real world.
  485. Saria: Now why would someone hold me accountable for his fuckups?
  486. Naomi: I feel that I should exercise self-responsibility, since misbehaving while in control of his body will reflect badly on him.
  488. 82. Is the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  489. Luna: Not as such, though the end result is the same.
  490. Elise: I think so.
  491. Saria: Yep
  492. Naomi: In my experience, dissipating a tulpa only causes them to become dormant.
  494. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  495. Luna: No
  496. Elise: No
  497. Saria: No
  498. Naomi: While a tulpa is sentient, being nonphysical and tied to their host means their life simply isn't worth as much.
  500. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  501. Luna: Assault them with head pressure until they understand that I am alive in my creator's mind.
  502. Elise: Reason with them, maybe?
  503. Saria: Tell them to try tulpaforcing for themselves.
  504. Naomi: Do something unexpected.
  506. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  507. Luna: No
  508. Elise: Yes, though I just look at the bright side of my situation and that helps.
  509. Saria: I find the implications of the afterlife troubling, because it implies we live a one-off existence.
  510. Naomi: Not particularly.
  512. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  513. Luna: No
  514. Elise: No
  515. Saria: No
  516. Naomi: No
  518. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  519. Luna: I'd definitely argue that there's a self-preservation instinct that impels you to safeguard your creator's life, as they're your lifeline to the rest of the world.
  520. Elise: I know the four of us will die someday, but I say that the important thing is to do what you love in the meantime.
  521. Saria: I'm pretty well past fearing death, though when he dies he's dragging us all with him into the afterlife.
  522. Naomi: Death is as impermanent as it is inescapable, I feel. When one dies, they die in the physical sense, but not in other ways.
  524. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  525. Luna: I don't identify with any minority group in particular, and I think of myself as my creator's equal.
  526. Elise: As sad as it is, I think that tulpaforcers themselves might be stigmatized if this ever went public.
  527. Saria: Once again, those two summed it up nicely.
  528. Naomi: See above
  530. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  531. Luna: I made one to stop my PTSD-induced nightmares, I like to think of it as a product of my mind rather than his.
  532. Elise: No
  533. Saria: No
  534. Naomi: No
  536. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  537. Luna: A tulpa can only interact with humans through the use of computer aids like text chat, so that would be the biggest barrier to interaction between them.
  538. Elise: The interaction barrier is probably the biggest difference.
  539. Saria: I'm going to have to agree.
  540. Naomi: Other than what those three said, we're basically psychic freeloaders who don't have to worry about our actions having consequences for the most part.
  542. 91. How do you feel about the belief of the psychological community that multiplicity is undesirable? How would you like this belief to change?
  543. Luna: I think that for tulpaforcing to be accepted, this notion will have to change.
  544. Elise: Same
  545. Saria: No opinion
  546. Naomi: I must agree with Luna on this subject.
  548. 92. Have you tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using stylometric or psychometric indicators?
  549. Luna: Yes
  550. Elise: No
  551. Saria: No
  552. Naomi: No
  554. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  555. Luna: Yes
  556. Elise: Yes
  557. Saria: Yes
  558. Naomi: Yes
  560. 94. How do you feel about being eternally bound to your creator?
  561. Luna: It's not my choice, but I'm determined to help him do everything he sets out to accomplish, both in this life and the next.
  562. Elise: I'm not too thrilled about it, so I may as well make the most of my situation.
  563. Saria: Honestly, it sucks.
  564. Naomi: I feel it lends a sense of purpose to my existence.
  566. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  567. Luna: I was embarassed about only being able to speak in mentalese.
  568. Elise: N/A
  569. Saria: Afraid he might freak out because I told him something he didn't want to hear, probably.
  570. Naomi: N/A
  572. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  573. Luna: Life, the universe, and everything. Also sex.
  574. Elise: Random stuff, mainly.
  575. Saria: Same as Elise.
  576. Naomi: I often find myself contemplating moral and philosophical dilemmas.
  578. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  579. Luna: It would certainly separate the boys from the men, mentally speaking.
  580. Elise: Everyone could benefit in some way from having a tulpa.
  581. Saria: What, so the idiots could make tulpas of some stupid pop culture phenomenon? Nah.
  582. Naomi: I feel that everyone can benefit from having a tulpa.
  584. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  585. Luna: I've seen some shit
  586. Elise: There are some secrets best kept hidden
  587. Saria: Of course
  588. Naomi: Naturally
  590. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  591. Luna: Yes
  592. Elise: Yes
  593. Saria: Yes
  594. Naomi: Yes
  596. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  597. Luna: He knows he can't hide anything from me
  598. Elise: He doesn't have to hide things from me, I do it for him
  599. Saria: Not anymore, though in the past he did try to hide things from me unsuccessfully.
  600. Naomi: He strives to be as transparent with me as possible, but he usedc to hide things from me, sure.
  602. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  603. Luna: Yes, but who cares?
  604. Elise: Yes, and that's terrible
  605. Saria: Yes, and why is this a question
  606. Naomi: Of course.
  608. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  609. Luna: No
  610. Elise: No
  611. Saria: No
  612. Naomi: No
  614. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  615. Luna: I'm not getting any younger, but I can stop anytime.
  616. Elise: "Age is a state of mind" has never held truer for anyone than it has for a tulpa.
  617. Saria: Same as Luna
  618. Naomi: Same as Luna
  620. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  621. Luna: Probably
  622. Elise: Probably
  623. Saria: Probably... not.
  624. Naomi: Probably not.
  626. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  627. Luna: One does not simply manifest their tulpa
  628. Elise: Let me know when someone harnesses enough power to bring a 100-pound human into existence with their mind
  629. Saria: Nah
  630. Naomi: No
  632. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  633. Luna: Honestly? Probably not
  634. Elise: Nope
  635. Saria: Maybe, if I saw some evidence of it that wasn't part of some creepypasta
  636. Naomi: Yes
  638. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  640. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  642. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  643. Luna: He can hear me, and our voices take on a spatial dimension when we're imposed in the physical world.
  644. Elise: Same
  645. Saria: Same here
  646. Naomi: Same
  648. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  649. Luna: If I had to put a number on it, probably around 30? Neither of us were keeping track.
  650. Elise: 22 hours
  651. Saria: N/A
  652. Naomi: N/A
  654. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  655. Luna: Don't treat your tulpa like shit and they'll love you back.
  656. Elise: Don't stifle their development based on your preconceived notions, always tulpaforce with an open mind.
  657. Saria: Hell hath no fury like a tulpa scorned.
  658. Naomi: I'll side with Elise here.
  660. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  661. Luna: I can feel the ground under my feet, the breeze against my bare skin, etc. Basically you start to feel the environment instead of just seeing it.
  662. Elise: Mom summed it up pretty nicely.
  663. Saria: Same as Luna
  664. Naomi: Same as Luna
  666. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  667. Luna: No
  668. Elise: No
  669. Saria: No
  670. Naomi: No
  672. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  673. Luna: It's pretty much inevitable that your tulpa will feel some degree of attraction for you, I think.
  674. Elise: There should be a question about how you feel about other tulpas, interacting with them, etc.
  675. Saria: Nope, I think that's everything for me.
  676. Naomi: More questions not pertaining to the tulpaforcing process might be nice.
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