Letter to Erik

My Dearest Erik,

I love you and always will but last night your lack of compassion after having seemed to understand the situation and how it had began to effect me in real life.  Syr, Karli and myself all explained this to you and you made it seem you grasped the understanding but then when we went to LaLa's it was a different story.  A complete lack of heart and or want of understanding.  To love someone, and i mean truly love them you will deal with situations that you may not like or may feel uncomfortable in.  Imagine how I am feeling right now.  I feel disgusting in real life, what that idiot did was bring back memories I never wanted to remember and now i cannot get the images out of my head.  It haunts me right now.  I feel a part of me was stolen that night, several nights ago,, that i worked so hard to get back.  You may not understand how I couldnt leave the room..simple.  Fear...my haunting memories.  It made it all seem like it was real.  I felt that I was fighting for myself again.  My brain no longer seen the computer side of it.  You called it a game...well partially it is, but the people controlling the avis...well they are real, our feelings are real hun.  What you said and did last night when i needed you, tore my heart to pieces.  I will always love you but I cannot be with someone who can be so heartless and shut down like you did after knowing my emotions were real, not "rp" as you called it.  If i cannot rely on you during the worst, then you do not deserve me at my best anymore.  I will always wish you the best my darling but this is the end for us.  Take care my love.


With all my love,

Sylvia Nightingale