GabrielVanLightFang: -is curled up in a ball crying and hugging his stuffed animal-
QnDebShadow: -walks over and sits next to him- Pain?
GabrielVanLightFang: I think my momma abandoned me -he sniffled wiping the tears from his eyes-
QnDebShadow: awww why do you say that?
GabrielVanLightFang: She hasnt been on in almost 2 weeks and she wont respond to my messages -he cried squeezing his stuffed animal- she doesnt love me anymore -sobs-
QnDebShadow: awww honey, maybe something happened in rl that she cant get on
GabrielVanLightFang: How would i know shes always invisible
QnDebShadow: last date she was on
GabrielVanLightFang: Idk im on mobile
QnDebShadow: whats her avi name
GabrielVanLightFang: KendalStJohn
QnDebShadow: are you Raiyu?
QnDebShadow: to her?
GabrielVanLightFang: Mhm
QnDebShadow: she hasnt been on since feb 21st
QnDebShadow: 8 days ago
QnDebShadow: unless she was checking something on her webpage
GabrielVanLightFang: But she wont reply to my messages
QnDebShadow: you 2 didnt have a fight before she stopped coming, did you?
GabrielVanLightFang: Noo i always behaved for her i was always a good boy
QnDebShadow: maybe she lost net
GabrielVanLightFang: She would find away to talk to me
GabrielVanLightFang: To let me know she didnt just leave me behind
QnDebShadow: you guys talk elsewhere besides imvu?
GabrielVanLightFang: No
GabrielVanLightFang: We were gonna talk on skype but she forget to tell me her skype name
QnDebShadow: would you like me to leave her a message?
GabrielVanLightFang: -he shook his head- its no use she doesnt love me anymore -curled up tighter and cried-
QnDebShadow: I messaged her anyways, saying how upset you are, and how i have been taking care of you until the day she returns, and if she hasnt abandoned you, to let you or I know
QnDebShadow: -pulls him onto her lap- dont asume that, i am sure there is an explanation
QnDebShadow: so, why does she go invisible?
GabrielVanLightFang: Idk
QnDebShadow: does she go to college? I see she is only 18
QnDebShadow: and lives in Australia
QnDebShadow: big time zone difference
GabrielVanLightFang: -he rose up from her lap leaving a mangled stuffed animal in his place as he moved away from Deb his sobs turned to growls his saddness turned to anger as he dropped on all fours and began slamming his fists down onto the ground sending out shockwaves like massive earthquakes- grrr i hate you -he slammed his fists down once more- you bitch -he slammed his fists down again- you will pay on blood -he let out a roar breathing out flames that covere the landscape ahead of him burning all in its path turning trees to piles of ash and rivers and ponds to steam instantly as the flames connected-
QnDebShadow: Gabriel
QnDebShadow: .what happens if you find out she lost net? Or was very sick? How would you feel about what you just did
GabrielVanLightFang: She would have found a way to tell me but she didnt -he punched the ground as it split open, he rose to his feet clinching his fist- she will pay for this pain -he growled violently- I have endured to much pain and have let it all go unpunished because i try to be nice and polite to everyone but no more -he growled- no more will i be weak and fragile, i will be strong and rutheless like a Gore should be
QnDebShadow: I see, so ruthless will get you what you want?
QnDebShadow: If she is sick, she may not be able to tell you, and without internet, how would she tell you?
GabrielVanLightFang: Would you rather i be hurt again and again for being to nice? -he looked over his shoulder to her- I know pain is apart of life but there is such a thing as to much and to much of anything is not good for you.
GabrielVanLightFang: I have been through more families than i care to remember all because i was to nice or to weak
QnDebShadow: so, you would rather hurt first? Cause being ruthless, you hurt people, and will not take pain away. Being nice is not considered weak, trust me
GabrielVanLightFang: My family before her threw me out for being to nice and i had a mental break down
QnDebShadow: .what did they expect? A monster?
GabrielVanLightFang: They expected a rutheless warrior who showed no merch a killer a vicious weapon. A true Gore.
GabrielVanLightFang: Mercy*
QnDebShadow: is that what you WANT to be? Or just because it is expected of you
GabrielVanLightFang: Being nice gets me nothing but pain
QnDebShadow: you think i am nice?
GabrielVanLightFang: My adult form feels no pain just rage n hate maybe he is right
GabrielVanLightFang: Yes you are but it is different for u
GabrielVanLightFang: You have a family and a home
GabrielVanLightFang: Your a queen
GabrielVanLightFang: Im just a weak runt that no one wants
GabrielVanLightFang: 27
QnDebShadow: i have heard of many Queens that are not nice. You think i have never been hurt?
GabrielVanLightFang: 27 families in total last i counted
QnDebShadow: my family, all are nice
QnDebShadow: i dont expect anyone to be ruthless
QnDebShadow: i would rather they were not
GabrielVanLightFang: Why are you so nice to me? Why do you care for me so much? -he looked to the desolated landscape before him- im a nobody. Your family could have killed me and no would have cared
QnDebShadow: -She walks over to him and kneels next to him- Because i can see in your heart. You are a very sweet young man. My family would never kill you because they have no reason to, they dont kill just to kill, i wont allow it and they know it
GabrielVanLightFang: A sweet young man who keeps getting hurt by the people he cares about
QnDebShadow: you know how many kids and exes have hurt me? I just move on, because in reality, they are just another stepping stone to those that care, and mean it
GabrielVanLightFang: I cannot do that
GabrielVanLightFang: I maybe be sweet but my split personality is what keeps me from letting go of all that hate and rage
QnDebShadow: there was a time i couldnt, then i stopped and looked back and realized all i did was hurt people, and thats one thing i hate to do, it tore me apart
GabrielVanLightFang: Its what makes me hate people who hurt me and that hate and hurt never go away
GabrielVanLightFang: I thought if i was nice and kind to eveyone they would be nice and kind back and he would change but he wont
GabrielVanLightFang: I cannot get rid of him
QnDebShadow: Hate is not a good emotion, will ruin the person that carries it in their heart
GabrielVanLightFang: When your family abandons you kicks you out and treats you like you never exsisted on the first place hate is all you have
GabrielVanLightFang: Hate brought me back from my breakdown
QnDebShadow: i have an rp Mother that has decided not to return, she has a rl friend that says Dad is cheating on her, which he never would, he loves her with all his being, so she quit coming, instead of being here for her kids. -Shrugs- It is her loss, not ours
QnDebShadow: We still have our Dad
GabrielVanLightFang: Its because of people that i cannot let go of my hate its because of them i cannot fully let go
QnDebShadow: -holds out her arms- let me show you
GabrielVanLightFang: My hate will always be there in the back of my mind
GabrielVanLightFang: -he hesitates and steps closer to her- i cant let go my hate is all i have its what keeps me alive
QnDebShadow: -She wraps her arms around him, hugging him, running her hand over his hair- You havent foud the right family is all. When people come on here, they seem to think they dont have to be nice. I am the same on here as i am in rl
QnDebShadow: found*
GabrielVanLightFang: I try to be the same as far as the split personality goes i am
GabrielVanLightFang: But its not severe like it is on here
GabrielVanLightFang: Irl i dont get sad i go straight to angry
GabrielVanLightFang: On here its like a light switch from sad to angry
GabrielVanLightFang: And it starting to happen when my bones hurt i get so angry that i dont feel the pain today i laid still for almost 7 hours of pain just to see if i could handle it and i did because i was angry
QnDebShadow: in RP i have a demon side, which i let out when i get angry, so i can calm down, my family knows when she comes out, they need to find out what happened
GabrielVanLightFang: I can handle physical pain
GabrielVanLightFang: I can do that because of my anger
GabrielVanLightFang: But emotional pain does not go away
QnDebShadow: it does in time, mine has
GabrielVanLightFang: It lingers around and will not leave it just builds up and builds
GabrielVanLightFang: I still hate my cousin for treating me like shit just so he could look cool infront of his gf when he was 13 and i was 9
GabrielVanLightFang: I almost bashed his skull in with a hammer for it but i still hate him
GabrielVanLightFang: I still hate my older cousin for trying to throw me out his house because his gf said she didnt like me and that was 4 years ago i put my gun to his head and beat him half to death for that
GabrielVanLightFang: I still hate my brother when we argued when i was 7 and he called me Brittle Bones and he was 15
QnDebShadow: brothers will always be that way
GabrielVanLightFang: I shoved him through a sliding glass door for that
GabrielVanLightFang: I developed a split personality because of my anger
QnDebShadow: do you see someone about it?
GabrielVanLightFang: No and i refuse to
QnDebShadow: and why is that
GabrielVanLightFang: I still hate my mother for trying to force me on medication when i was a kid
QnDebShadow: she is only trying to make you feel less pain hun
GabrielVanLightFang: Because unlike most people i like my split personality
GabrielVanLightFang: It was because a doctor said i have adhd
QnDebShadow: ohhh
GabrielVanLightFang: And those pills literally made me starve half to death
QnDebShadow: werent hungry when you took them, right?
GabrielVanLightFang: I couldnt eat
GabrielVanLightFang: I threw up whatever i ate
QnDebShadow: my grandson had no appetite on one of the meds he was on, she told the dr. to take him off, he started eating again
GabrielVanLightFang: The main difference between me irl and me in rp
GabrielVanLightFang: Is irl im so easy to set off its dangerous
GabrielVanLightFang: I get pissed at the smallest things
GabrielVanLightFang: I stub my toe i smash the dress top
GabrielVanLightFang: I hear them talk about something stupid on the news i throw the remote and shut the tv off
GabrielVanLightFang: I cut my mouth eating captn crunch i smash the bowel
GabrielVanLightFang: I cut my finger once trimming weeds and bent the steel blades on the shears
QnDebShadow: its a hard cereal
GabrielVanLightFang: I stubbed my toe once when i was 10 on a 1500lbs fourwheel and i tipped it over on its backend without breaking a sweat
QnDebShadow: that was an adrenaline rush from getting hurt
GabrielVanLightFang: So i started meditating and blacksmithing to help releive some of the stress and anger and it helps but not much
QnDebShadow: maybe you need something else
GabrielVanLightFang: Its not adrenaline anymore
GabrielVanLightFang: Its full blown rage
QnDebShadow: is your rl family afraid of you?
GabrielVanLightFang: My dad says it comes from our bloodline were 100% viking berzerkers
GabrielVanLightFang: The men are
QnDebShadow: .why the men
GabrielVanLightFang: Because no matter how angry i get i cannot hurt a woman
QnDebShadow: so what do you do instead
GabrielVanLightFang: I break things
GabrielVanLightFang: I almost smashed in the hood on a truck one time
GabrielVanLightFang: Theres a movie called Split the main chara has 23 personalities and the last one is called The Beast and he is indestructible he cant be killed
GabrielVanLightFang: He also cannot be reasoned with
QnDebShadow: so whats the name of your other personality
GabrielVanLightFang: His names Green
GabrielVanLightFang: Well thats the nickname my little brother gave him cause he thinks he is the hulk hehe
QnDebShadow: the reason this does not shock me, i have an rp son, who is like my rl son, and he has many personalities he knows of, and some he hasnt met yet
GabrielVanLightFang: But his name is Billy
GabrielVanLightFang: My dads dad says im like this because im the only son on both sides of the family that is both an Aesir and a Vanir Berzerker
GabrielVanLightFang: My dad is a pure Aesir and my mom is a pure Vanir both sides trace back to berzerkers from the viking era
QnDebShadow: I see
GabrielVanLightFang: I have 1 other personality but i dont see him much
QnDebShadow: oh?
GabrielVanLightFang: His names Kraven Sinwest he is a vampire
QnDebShadow: nice
QnDebShadow: .when has he shown himself
GabrielVanLightFang: Heh you say that but his a horn dog because he feeds through sexual energy which is 1 of the 3 ways vampires feed
GabrielVanLightFang: He showed up the first i met Logan South he opened my eyes to something that i have been doing my whole life
GabrielVanLightFang: Logan South leads the vampire court of austin in austin texas
QnDebShadow: ahhh
GabrielVanLightFang: He explained to me what a vampire is and i realised that i have been one all along
GabrielVanLightFang: And thus Kraven was born
GabrielVanLightFang: Kraven feeds through all 3 forms of feeding blood energy and sexual energy
GabrielVanLightFang: Sexual energy does not have to be a sex act just the arousel of 2 or more people
GabrielVanLightFang: Energy feeding is feeding of a crowd of people like good vibes
GabrielVanLightFang: And blood pretty much explains itself
QnDebShadow: i never knew there were three forms
GabrielVanLightFang: Mhm
GabrielVanLightFang: Not many people do cause of the movies
GabrielVanLightFang: They also think vampires have super powers cause of the movies
GabrielVanLightFang: "Can you fly can you control peoples minds? Etc"
QnDebShadow: so they dont run fast?
GabrielVanLightFang: Vampires have certain hightend human traits after they feed
GabrielVanLightFang: Smell, taste, hearing, increase in strength agility etc
GabrielVanLightFang: Stamina endurance etc
GabrielVanLightFang: And another thing
GabrielVanLightFang: I hate to burst the whole underworld bubble but no vampires do not hate "werewolves" because their not ignorant assholes
GabrielVanLightFang: And werewolves prefer to be refered to as wolves
GabrielVanLightFang: Because the term werewolves insinuates that they will change from a man into a beast and their going to drop on all fours and their skins gonna fly off
GabrielVanLightFang: Thank you movies for ruining that too
GabrielVanLightFang: No wolves have a primal instinct and understanding and they embody that at all times
GabrielVanLightFang: Its not a change "oh one day im a man one day im a wolf" no its 24/7
QnDebShadow: i thought it only happened on a full moon
GabrielVanLightFang: Nope
GabrielVanLightFang: Movies again
GabrielVanLightFang: You know superstition has ruined a great many things for example
QnDebShadow: i dont believe in superstition
GabrielVanLightFang: Did you know that in the remote regions of romania if a person dies a brutal death or commits suicide after the funeral the villiagers will go back dig up the body drive a wooden stake through the bodys heart pinning it to the ground just because of the superstition of vampires
GabrielVanLightFang: And the first known case of vampirism was not dracula that was bram stokers turning a blood drinking lunatic into an even bigger monster
GabrielVanLightFang: Nope it was Jan Valic in 1374 Prauge
GabrielVanLightFang: The church performed an ancient forbidden exorcist ritual on him that destroyed his body but the spirit remained afterwards their buried him not long after that there were reports of him being seen at night found bodies with puncture wounds on the necks and drained of blood they checked his grave and it was empty
GabrielVanLightFang: I have always been interested in monsters and creatures that live in the shadows
GabrielVanLightFang: Im sorry for rambling
QnDebShadow: its ok, i enjoy it
GabrielVanLightFang: I do that sometimes
GabrielVanLightFang: But tbh i have stopped Kraven from coming out around you
QnDebShadow: me?
GabrielVanLightFang: He would make you dislike me because he does not care about if your taken or not
GabrielVanLightFang: So long as he gets to feed
GabrielVanLightFang: Mhm
QnDebShadow: well, now that i know, i wont dislike you
GabrielVanLightFang: I can let him out if you want to meet him but im warning you he can be pretty pushy
GabrielVanLightFang: And kind of annoying and doesnt care about personal space all that much
QnDebShadow: i can be pretty stubborn lol
GabrielVanLightFang: So can he
GabrielVanLightFang: Idk who is more hard headed him or Billy
QnDebShadow: lol.
QnDebShadow: i would rather talk to you
GabrielVanLightFang: Probably Billy tbh
GabrielVanLightFang: :)
GabrielVanLightFang: Kraven and Billy could take over but they let me stay in control until they feel needed
GabrielVanLightFang: And it gives me someone to talk to
QnDebShadow: you ever go anywhere? or are you in too much pain to try?
GabrielVanLightFang: Kraven is elegant sophisticated and strong willed in his pursuit of women
GabrielVanLightFang: What you mean?
QnDebShadow: outside, shopping, do you work at all? im just curious about you
GabrielVanLightFang: Yes i work on a farm with cows and horses
GabrielVanLightFang: Im a cowboy
QnDebShadow: oh sweet
GabrielVanLightFang: And im a blacksmith too but i rarely work on that
GabrielVanLightFang: I normally do that with my dad its our bonding thing
QnDebShadow: i love horses
GabrielVanLightFang: Me too
GabrielVanLightFang: Theres a Black Andelusian on the farm but she wont let anyone ride her but im working on her
GabrielVanLightFang: I call her Freya
QnDebShadow: they are beautiful, and muscular
GabrielVanLightFang: Mhm
GabrielVanLightFang: I can get close to her and pet her no one else can
GabrielVanLightFang: I brush her down in the fields after work somedays
GabrielVanLightFang: I even give her her shots
GabrielVanLightFang: She doesnt fuss or fight but im the only one who can get close enough to do it
GabrielVanLightFang: Theres also Skull Cracker
GabrielVanLightFang: Hes a Branvieh Bull
GabrielVanLightFang: 2000lbs of pure muscle
GabrielVanLightFang: One mean sob
GabrielVanLightFang: He crept up on me awhile back and when i turned around from working on the truck he was with in arms reach
QnDebShadow: oh boy
GabrielVanLightFang: I went back to work hehe
GabrielVanLightFang: He just stood their and watched me hehe
QnDebShadow: you are one animals trust
GabrielVanLightFang: Afterwards i patted him on the head and drove off
GabrielVanLightFang: Scared the hell out my boss "he said in the 5 years Skull Crackers been on the farm no one has ever gotten that close without him going off let alone touch him"
GabrielVanLightFang: Its because i respect them
GabrielVanLightFang: But idk who would win between Billy n Skull Cracker hehe
GabrielVanLightFang: Billy did beat down a Mastif when he bit my little brother Geo
GabrielVanLightFang: Like one hit cracked the dogs skull
GabrielVanLightFang: It didnt die but it knew it had been in one hell of a fight
QnDebShadow: lol.
GabrielVanLightFang: Ive survived alot of hits because of Billy
GabrielVanLightFang: I took a beer bottle over the head, stabbed, cut, broken bones etc
GabrielVanLightFang: Billy did kill one cow cause it was attacking the boss
GabrielVanLightFang: He took a pipe wrench and hit it between the eyes
GabrielVanLightFang: I felt bad and boss was mad but he was also glad he didnt get killed
GabrielVanLightFang: Billy may be mean and coldhearted but he has his reasons ik that
GabrielVanLightFang: I may not agree with them but i accept them
GabrielVanLightFang: Im getting sleepy :(
QnDebShadow: -cuddles him-
GabrielVanLightFang: But i dont wanna sleep cause im going to wake up in pain
GabrielVanLightFang: -clings to her-
QnDebShadow: but you need sleep hun
GabrielVanLightFang: Nooo i need to stay awake cause i have it down to a science
QnDebShadow: oh?
GabrielVanLightFang: 15-20 minutes into the pain and Billy comes out then its bad all day
GabrielVanLightFang: If i can get the strength to move before then im ok
GabrielVanLightFang: But it depends on how i sleep
GabrielVanLightFang: If i blink and 8-12 hours goes by i have no energy to move
QnDebShadow: you have slept that long?
GabrielVanLightFang: It varies
GabrielVanLightFang: Sometimes i can sleep up to 16 hours
GabrielVanLightFang: But its very rare
GabrielVanLightFang: Most times i sleep 4-6 at most
GabrielVanLightFang: Then it starts hurting
GabrielVanLightFang: N thats if im lucky
GabrielVanLightFang: Last time i slept for almost 2 hours and it started hurting
GabrielVanLightFang: Grr now Kraven wants to come out but im to tired to deal with him
QnDebShadow: tell him to just relax and rest and let you rest