i'll be

I'm just layin here with a migraine
strain from the light on my phone only causin more pain
life lately has been pretty insane
and it keeps pourin like summer rains
I don't know who to trust anymore
still in love with a stupid whore
and I can't tell if my girl now even wants more
fell in love, missed her arms, broke my heart on the floor
I find myself creating raps
reminds me of the times my mother relapsed
my peers are slower than tree sap
so the genius in my mind feels trapped
I'm so alone nowadays, I watch the throne saturdayzed
but sober the bone, never blazed
I lie awake at night, thinking about life
it never feels right, like taking a wrist to a knife
why's there so much pain and strive
how come I cant make her my wife
It sucks being a teen with nothing but dreams
still at the point in my life I could be a king or a fiend
but who's to say what I can or can't be
I never let those people get the best of me
I'll be fighting to win till I pass out and bleed
cause believe it or not, I'll be an emcee