[2:32:30 AM] Mayutchi: Hey Kilian, I was just wondering how the drawings were going?
[2:34:09 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Babe
[2:34:13 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I'm moving
[2:34:19 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: The drawings aren't going anywhere
[2:34:24 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: If you read my facebook update
[2:34:36 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: There was a likelihood I was getting sent to a mental institute called Circles of Care
[2:34:41 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I'm in no current state to do shit
[2:34:51 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I will do the drawings just as soon as I get well enough in theh ead to do them
[2:34:56 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I promise
[2:37:01 AM] Mayutchi: Right, okay.
[2:38:08 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I'm sorry it's taking forever but you know I will do your shit for you
[2:38:20 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I have it still on my computer, I put a lot of effort into them already
[2:38:32 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: So as soon as I can, I will be back on them but I need anxiety medication first
[2:38:35 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: BEcause I'm freaking the fuck out
[2:38:58 AM] Mayutchi: All right. I'm not going to get into it right now, since you're going through a hard time. So I'm just gonna shut up.
[2:39:10 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Are you upset because you've had to wait?
[2:40:08 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Because if your character has changed, or you'dl ike me to scrap the idea- and draw something else, I'd be happy to do that as well.
[2:40:29 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: You can ask for whatevery ou want, sans asking for the money BACK because I literally don't have it to give.
[2:40:46 AM] Mayutchi: No, I'm upset because I feel like this friendship is one-sided. You say I mean a lot to you, but you've never once asked how I'm doing, what I'm up to, nothing. The last few months you've said anything to me, it was just to invite me to watch you draw, or to read your story and leave a review, or to give you even MORE money for your sick dog. Which I realize is a shitty thing to complain about, and I hope your dog is okay, but I'm just irritated with it all.
[2:41:16 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Our friendship isn't one sided..
[2:41:26 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I do this to everyone when I'm in a bad place
[2:41:42 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: You're not the only one getting shafted
[2:41:42 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I'm dating Alex
[2:41:44 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Do you know how frequently I've been talking to him?
[2:42:01 AM] Mayutchi: No I don't, because you never talk to me.
[2:42:16 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I literally had this very nearly same conversation with him
[2:42:20 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Not 2 weeks ago
[2:42:24 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: When I'm in a bad place...
[2:42:28 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I don't talk to anyone
[2:42:50 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I wish I could explain to you the amount of crippling anxiety I feel right now
[2:43:04 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: But nothing I say or do
[2:43:08 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Ever seems to reach anyone
[2:43:12 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Alex FINALLY got it
[2:43:16 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: and I've been telling him for months
[2:44:07 AM] Mayutchi: See, I don't think it's just when you're in a bad place. I don't know if you've ever asked me things even when you were in a good place.
[2:44:20 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Do you know when I was in a good place?
[2:44:40 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Since I met you, do you actually know when I've been in a good place?
[2:44:52 AM] Mayutchi: I would guess a few months ago, when you were writing and drawing consistently, and kept inviting me to watch.
[2:45:00 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: No.
[2:45:21 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: The reason I am in such a terrible, broken down- and potentially harmful place right now
[2:45:28 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Is because I was working on shit
[2:45:32 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: When I was at my breaking point
[2:45:44 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: Since I met you- I have been good.. maybe.. once
[2:45:50 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: For like a few weeks.
[2:46:12 AM] Mayutchi: Ah.
[2:46:18 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: I need medication
[2:46:21 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: That I don't have
[2:46:33 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: And won't have access to, until I'm living with Alex in Iowa
[2:46:38 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: By the 3rd of Nov.
[2:46:48 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: At which point I need to apply to the Iowan govt
[2:46:51 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: for healthcare
[2:47:03 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: once I get anti anxiety meds
[2:47:09 AM] junglejim4322@yahoo.com: EVERYONE will hear from me more often
[2:47:17 AM] Mayutchi: All right.