√ O p r a h	I don't mean that you're a failure of a mother. I know how hard it is on you

√ O p r a h	You're nothing more than a broken possession of my father.

√ O p r a h	I don't get why you constantly favor my sister, you almost died with her in the hospital

√ O p r a h	you spent 11 weeks in that hell hole, and the only time I once saw you happy in there was when you were sneaking jello

√ O p r a h	and watching Oprah on tv.

√ O p r a h	She just whines about you, when she doesn't get her way

√ O p r a h	she bitches about you, she bitches to you, and says bluntly that you don't even do anything

√ O p r a h	Yet you consistently favor her. I don't say things like that. You're the only thing I have. I never want to hurt you like that.

√ O p r a h	Yet, my sister always go before me. Even though I had to help take care of all three of you when I was only a child myself.

√ O p r a h	I gave up my childhood so I could see my sisters be happy...maybe they're too happier than me and that's why I can't compare to them

√ O p r a h	Maybe I'm just angry you can't recongize that the man you married is a monster

√ O p r a h	or if you do recognize it, you won't do anything about it.

√ O p r a h	You took two and a half years to even consider getting out of bed, one half to one of those years you were under watch for suicide

√ O p r a h	and I was just strung along like a puppy and told to watch you or check on you ever so often and don't let you on the roof

√ O p r a h	...hell, when your best friend threw herself off the roof and tried to take you with her,

√ O p r a h	and all of the drama surrounding that I was quiet, shameful and tried to make you happy

√ O p r a h	I promised myself I would never cry in public, never breakdown, or anything. I was your rock and I had to accept that.

√ O p r a h	But seeing you bury me for some overweight tattle tale baby hurts me. I did a lot more for you than that girl ever could

√ O p r a h	And when I don't get my way from you, I try to argue, but I never drag it personally.

√ O p r a h	I'm sick and tired of no one noticing just how desperate and in pain/numb I am. I am sick and tired of crying myself to sleep

√ O p r a h	everynight because I can't cry in public anymore. I just wish I could sleep for 2 1/2 years like you, mama. At least you didn't play

√ O p r a h	favorites then.

√ O p r a h	Most of all, I wish I was never born because I can't seem to make anyone happy and all I do is fuck up.

√ O p r a h	I hate myself. asfsdhdf long emo plurk over.