I´m lost

I think I have a problem. Whenever a tragic event or bit of drama(i.e. someone cheating on a speedrun)comes up,I don´t have boiling anger/deep sadness inside and tend to take a position that most people might think of as equivalent to defending the person who committed the act. Compared to most other people that have this sort of position though,I legitimately feel deep remorse. Every single time this sort of thing comes up(which is pretty much daily at this point with all the crap going on already in 2018),I wonder why I don´t have deep seething anger or deep sadness like everyone else does. The almost unconscious decision my mind goes to is to not stress over it,but I have tweets and general thoughts about these sorts of issues thrown at me over social media(especially on Twitter)that basically say the exact opposite,that I have to be angry/sad. But my brain says the opposite. I´m not putting blame on anyone(or my own brain for that matter)for my own mistakes.

Additionally,when people go the extra step and put down the person that made a mistake by relentlessly putting them down,I get upset. For people that did particularly heinous acts,that makes sense,I get that. But for the most part,I am a firm believer in just simply scorning someone for making a mistake and having them amend for it,not putting them down relentlessly. Particular instances I see this in are when someone cheats on a speedrun(like the recent drama with leewith4as and exo),the Twin Galaxies Dragster fiasco,and people making ridiculous inquiries on the speedrun.com forums.

I usually don´t talk about this because I don´t like stressing about things like this,and thereafter bringing it upon other people. But I´ve been stressing about it far too much over the past 4 months. I need to sort out my thoughts on such issues as the ones mentioned above,and finally be completely comfortable with who I am.

If anyone was offended and/or shocked by the information I splurged in this pastebin,I am deeply sorry. If anyone viewing this decides that I´m evil and/or a horrible person,I hope I can make it up to you.