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- (11:22:41 PM) ++harmaa++ Will you talk to me at all?
- (11:24:39 PM) ++harmaa++ I was going to call but I figured you'd get mad.
- (11:35:02 PM) ++harmaa++ Please...
- (11:35:59 PM) Crow I have said my piece in its entirety. Do not contact me anymore.
- (11:36:42 PM) ++harmaa++ How can you do this to me?
- (11:37:06 PM) ++harmaa++ Please, I can't bear you hating me.
- (11:37:47 PM) Crow I've never hated anyone in my life. That doesn't change the fact that I'm not going to speak to you anymore.
- (11:38:27 PM) ++harmaa++ That hurts more than I can take.
- (11:39:53 PM) Crow This is going to continue to go as every other conversation has. I suggest dropping it. The more you press and tell me how destroyed your life is "because of me", the more frustrated I become and the less willing I'll be to deal with you.
- (11:40:27 PM) ++harmaa++ We don't need to talk about anything like that. I know it's my own actions that have made things worse for me.
- (11:40:45 PM) ++harmaa++ I don't blame you for anything... Don't you realize that?
- (11:41:45 PM) ++harmaa++ I just miss you very much.
- (11:44:21 PM) Crow And I've told you that if you ever manage to fix yourself we can have a friendship again. But not as things are, and not as you are.
- (11:44:47 PM) ++harmaa++ You don't know how I am... You don't know anything about me right now.
- (11:45:13 PM) Crow You have done yourself no credit in any of your communications with me.
- (11:46:07 PM) ++harmaa++ I have been desperate for a friend and desperate to try and get through to you. I'm sorry.
- (11:46:19 PM) ++harmaa++ Doing this alone is very hard.
- (11:46:39 PM) ++harmaa++ It's the hardest thing I've ever done.
- (11:47:32 PM) ++harmaa++ I'm sorry I don't have the control you have. I really am.
- (11:48:11 PM) Crow I have nothing particularly nice to say in response to any of this, so I think it's best to drop this completely. Either way, things are not changing. I'm stretching just be talking to you right now.
- (11:49:00 PM) ++harmaa++ You really aren't here...
- (11:49:37 PM) ++harmaa++ People told me you changed, but I didn't want to believe it.
- (11:50:32 PM) ++harmaa++ After everything we've been through... am I really never going to see you again before I'm gone?
- (11:51:36 PM) ++harmaa++ I thought the depths of our friendship and love when we had it was stronger than anything negative could be
- (11:52:17 PM) ++harmaa++ I believed you.
- (11:52:32 PM) Crow I'm not sure what changes you're talking about aside from me trying to prevent further damage in my life. The negative you've done has been lasting and continues still.
- (11:52:48 PM) Crow As I've said, if things change we could pursue a friendship again.
- (11:52:52 PM) Crow As things are, we can't.
- (11:52:57 PM) ++harmaa++ I never meant to do anything to you...
- (11:53:11 PM) ++harmaa++ Please believe me.
- (11:53:21 PM) Crow I'm sure you didn't. This doesn't change the fact that you did.
- (11:54:04 PM) ++harmaa++ People have said and done so much worse to you....but you've treated me worse than any of your exes
- (11:54:58 PM) ++harmaa++ I don't understand how you can say you don't hate and still treat someone weak this way...
- (11:55:15 PM) Crow You have said and done many things. And I have yet to return many of the attacks or anger or guilt you've put on me.
- (11:55:53 PM) ++harmaa++ No, you left me. You left me to stew and fret and eat at myself wondering what I'd done wrong.
- (11:56:42 PM) ++harmaa++ You've hurt me more than anyone I've known. I didn't know hurt like this was possible.
- (11:57:05 PM) ++harmaa++ I know a lot of it is due to me being insane.
- (11:57:16 PM) ++harmaa++ But you left.
- (11:57:26 PM) ++harmaa++ You broke your promise...
- (11:57:33 PM) Crow Yes. I did. Because you gave me no choice.
- (11:58:07 PM) ++harmaa++ I would have done anything if I'd known...
- (12:00:06 AM) Crow The relationship ended. I tried to maintain a friendship. You continued to make me feel guilty, and anxious, and horrible. I broke contact. I renewed it again. It wasn't enough for you and you started it all again, with your verbal attacks and abuse. I have heard from your friends, some of which you have even pushed to the brink as you always do, in regards to your suffering thanks to me.
- (12:00:21 AM) Crow I have ended things again and stand by my terms.
- (12:00:37 AM) ++harmaa++ You are heartless...
- (12:01:01 AM) ++harmaa++ You almost punish people who fall in love with you. It's weird.
- (12:01:10 AM) ++harmaa++ I hate thinking that of you.
- (12:01:28 AM) ++harmaa++ I loved you so much.
- (12:01:52 AM) Crow I am really reigning myself in here, so I suggest we end this conversation now before I actually start expressing myself.
- (12:02:22 AM) ++harmaa++ You won't make me hate myself anymore than I do already.
- (12:03:07 AM) ++harmaa++ I never meant to push anyone to the edge. Believe me or not.
- (12:03:17 AM) Crow I'm sure you didn't. But you did.
- (12:03:29 AM) ++harmaa++ people make mistakes!
- (12:03:35 AM) ++harmaa++ you do too!
- (12:04:11 AM) ++harmaa++ You're the one who taught me forgiveness...
- (12:05:11 AM) Crow There is a point when you need to take responsibility for the things you do even if you don't mean to, and find a way to fix it. Though as you've said, you don't know how to fix it.
- (12:05:21 AM) Crow It's up to you to learn how.
- (12:05:23 AM) ++harmaa++ Not alone.
- (12:05:34 AM) Crow I am not the one to help you.
- (12:05:53 AM) ++harmaa++ I was getting better with you... but then you left...
- (12:05:54 AM) ++harmaa++ I am not asking you for help.
- (12:05:58 AM) ++harmaa++ I would never.
- (12:06:01 AM) ++harmaa++ Not now.
- (12:07:08 AM) ++harmaa++ I still don't understand. I still don't have closure.
- (12:07:21 AM) ++harmaa++ I don't think I'll ever understand this.
- (12:08:50 AM) Crow What the hell else kind of closure can I provide past "You are destructive and need to fix yourself and we are not talking until you do?"
- (12:09:08 AM) ++harmaa++ But I'll leave you to everything you replaced me with... Hopefully after tonight you'll never have to hear from me again.
- (12:10:02 AM) ++harmaa++ I miss you. Not this you.
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