Failure

To most of you, this may come as a surprise, to others not. I jumped off a bridge Saturday evening, and I've woken up from my unconscious state.

I don't remember falling, i don't remember much from that day, I was told the force of hitting the water at that speed was enough to knock me out, and I was fished out of the water unconscious.

I won't go into much detail, but rn, I feel like the biggest failure on the planet... I can't do anything right, not even successfully kill myself. I'm sorry to all the friends on the internet, maybe I shouldn't post this, as I don't want to live more than I did before. Surviving just showed to me how weak and useless I am. Again, won't go into detail, but I am very unwell mentally and have been for years, I dont talk about it much, but its affected me so much that I no longer wish to suffer... I guess I'll have to wait. I'm sorry for not giving warning before deleting everything, but now you know. I'm keeping my socials closed for the time, so if you have any questions or just want to chat, comment please.

TLDR: Suicide attempt doesn't work, I'm such a failure I can't even kill myself.