h*ck: Look dude, I'm sorry. Yeah, he's right, I would'a done it anyway. Sorry. All I can really say, tbh. I literally read all your logs for the past month or so, obviously not cool, you're not the first person I've done it to, but I'm pretty confident you're the last. Sorry.
Jaüri: I mean you do you, just a bit spooked something like this could be done.
h*ck: Lmao, you've no idea.
Jaüri: Yeah, ignorance is bliss for me
h*ck: Sorry.
h*ck: And LITERALLY the worst fucking thing to read at the end there, good fucking lord after the constant arguments we've had after I saved him from Florida and he went back there, jesus Christ.
h*ck: *Sorry.*
h*ck: Guess my alias for AKARaccoon was AKAHackoon for a reason, lmao.
h*ck: Okay I'm shutting up, sorry.
Jaüri: I kind of want to ask if calling you Heck is still fine
h*ck: instead of...?
Jaüri: Hack
h*ck: LMfao.
h*ck: If you still want to talk to me, you can call me literally whatever you want.
Jaüri: Talking with you is fine, if a bit fun
h*ck: Oh, most good! :D
Jaüri: Oh, not sure if you're still expecting war thunder tonight, but Chris said he's too tired
h*ck: We can still play. <3
h*ck: We won't, but technically we could. :v
h*ck: I'm about to head to bed.
h*ck: I'm pretty sure he's gonna break up with me, lol so it is what it is. Hoo boy, what a time to be alive. Let me just make our conversation as awkward as possible before I go to bed though, because that's always fuckin' fun, eh? WIth literally someone you just met. |3
Jaüri: Nahh, I'm guessing you just need someone to say it or talk about it, not too awkward with me
h*ck: LMao, lord yeah it'd be nice to have someone to fucking talk to about it.
Jaüri: I'm all ears if you need it then
h*ck: Fucking lied to three years about how Ras wasn't a fucking issue. He wasn't rping with Ras. Ras was a good friend, he didn't love Ras, ras wasn't a fucking love interest.
h*ck: WOOPS just kidding, he actually *is* a love interest, and I'm the fucking side guy. *I'M* the fucking side guy.
h*ck: Woopdie fucking doo, that's great to learn.
h*ck: Oh, shit, you love Ras more than me? Well, fuck me in the ass and call me Sally.
h*ck: oh, shit, your'e picking me over him? Great, wonder if that has anything to do with the fact that I'm literally a fucking resident that can give you status and he's a fucking Finlandfag
h*ck: Oh, shit, you forgot to mention you actually had a Master that you were very frequently Rping with, but when I'm begging for your love, affection and attention, you barely give it to me because you've already jerked off to some other guy?
h*ck: Great, good fucking news. FUCKING FANTASTIC. Cucked again.
h*ck: c u c k e d again
h*ck: who could fucking love that, eh?
h*ck: Who. Could. Love. That.
h*ck: What a weird fucking thing for people to be into.
h*ck: You're right. You're absolutely FUCKING RIGHT.
h*ck: I literally get an apartment
h*ck: spend fucking 2k getting an apartment for two months while my house is built
h*ck: drive down to florida from FUCKING VERMONT
h*ck: Rent a car 'cause fuck my jeep in that drive
h*ck: go to florida
h*ck: get a hotel down there
h*ck: pick him up, drive back to vt and stay in hotels
h*ck: buy shit at ikea for us
h*ck: fucking, idfk, 3.5k for this whole process?
h*ck: get to the FUCKING APARTMENT
h*ck: first night
h*ck: first fucking night
h*ck: "i think i'm going back..."
Jaüri: oh christ
h*ck: "my mother and sister, WHO HAVE BEEN TERRIBLE TO ME FOR THE PAST 19 YAERS OF MY FUCKING LIFE"
h*ck: ARE SAD.
h*ck: FUCK YOU
h*ck: FUCK YOU THEY'RE SAD
h*ck: THEY LITERALLY TREAT YOU LIKE SHIT AND YOUR MOTHER BEATS YOU
h*ck: FUCK
h*ck: OFF.
h*ck: FUCKING NEARLY FOUR THOUSAND DOLLARS I SPEND ON YOUR BITCH ASS FOR THIS TRIP BECAUSE I FUCKING LOVE YOU AND WANT TO DO FUCKING E V E R Y T H I N G
h*ck: FOR YOU
h*ck: AND HE FUCKING GOES BACK THE NEXT FUCKING DAY
h*ck: gets a fucking bus ticket
h*ck: NIGGA IF YOU COULD TAKE THE BUS, YOUR STUPID ILLEGAL ASS COULD TAKE THE BUS
h*ck: HAD I KNOWN THAT
h*ck: CAUSE YOU SAID YOU COULDN'T DO THAT
h*ck: I WOULDN'T HAVE DRIVEN TO FLORIDA
h*ck: WASTE 40 VACATION DAYS
h*ck: FUCKING SO MUCH TIME.
h*ck: So much fucking money
h*ck: And you literally leave me the next day to go back to the people that torment you.
Jaüri: Yeah, shit, sorry if I'm not providing too much input but that is seriously bananas
h*ck: and he keeps lying to me...
h*ck: fucking said "no more lies"
h*ck: "it's done no more lies i won't lie anymore"
h*ck: keeps lying about you
h*ck: keeps lying about other shit
h*ck: nigga i KNOW WHAT YOU'RE LYING
h*ck: THREE YEARS YOU DON'T THINK I FUCKING NKOW
h*ck: THREE.
h*ck: FUCKING.
h*ck: YEARS.
h*ck: fuck off I know everything about your bullshit mannerisms, I'm a fucking sociopath, I pick up on this shit.
h*ck: and then you
h*ck: and your stupid fucking comments
h*ck: like, why the fuck cant he look at me like you
h*ck: i wanna fucking turn him on too you know, his fucking partner, cant even do that shit
h*ck: which REALLY reinforces the whole "he chose me over ras because i can make him legal"
h*ck: There, happy you offered to listen?
h*ck: (Nope)
Jaüri: If it got some things off your chest then I suppose so, nothing taken from me but time and I got plenty of that
h*ck: I don't know if I feel better.
h*ck: Lmao, might sound stupid, but I was about to log off your account right as you made the cuck comment
h*ck: and I'm like, wow, fuck this cunt.
h*ck: Had I logged out five seconds earlier, ayy, maybe he'd still wanna be with me, right?
h*ck: Ughhhhhhhhhh
Jaüri: Oh geez, dunno if I'm reading that wrong but I wasn't talking of anyone specific
h*ck: tch
h*ck: Like it would fucking matter.
h*ck: I was getting cucked the past three years by you apparently.
Jaüri: and I'm sure you read the chat logs, didn't even know you two were a thing until
Jaüri: yesterday?
h*ck: Yup.
h*ck: Literally tells NO ONE about me.
h*ck: Fucking embarrassed of me.
h*ck: Fucking people knew about Ras
h*ck: Why the fuck did I have to be a fucking secret
h*ck: why the fuck can't he be proud of me?
h*ck: I'm not fucking stupid.
h*ck: I'm NOT fucking stupid.
h*ck: I'm something to be proud of, right?
h*ck: I'm not fucking ugly, I have a good fucking personality when THIS BULLSHIT isn't happening, right?
h*ck: You liked me on voice?
Jaüri: I definitely had fun with you, yeah
h*ck: He always says he loves it when we voicechat because that's the real me, ugh.
h*ck: Then the moment I get off I do this shit because I know the lies start up again.
h*ck: "Why can't you always act like you do on voice"
h*ck: Why can't he fucking be proud of me
h*ck: i'm fucking proud of him
h*ck: i fucking wanna show him off
h*ck: why do YOU get to be the one he fucks
h*ck: why does ras get to be the one hes fucking proud of?
h*ck: why does ras get to parade him around like a fucking prize
h*ck: when do i get that
h*ck: when is it MY FUCKING TURN FOR THAT
h*ck: Sorry.
h*ck: God, fuck you though.
h*ck: LMao.
h*ck: In a..."Not your fault, but still fuck you and this situation" kind'a scenario.
Jaüri: Yeah, I get that
h*ck: Never fucking once lied to him.
h*ck: Except about being a dom, I guess? Idfk
h*ck: Wasn't fucking comfortable being submissive.
h*ck: God I loved it when he would take control away though, ugh it was so freeing.
h*ck: He's known I've doxxed people before
h*ck: And he's always say or ask "don't do it again, are you going to do it again?"
h*ck: and I'd always answer in a way that would leave me open to doing it again, 'cause I hate lying, but I didn't wanna stop, but I didn't wanna tell him I'd keep going
h*ck: Welp, here we are. Literally deleting everything relating to all my shit.
h*ck: All the history I've taken from people, the shit I use to get into accounts, ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. told him i'd never do it again
h*ck: three fucking years, i know he's gonna fucking leave my stupid fucking pathetic ass
h*ck: lord please if he didn't though that'd be certainly swell
h*ck: he is. ugh. well i know whatll happen when he does rofl
Jaüri: tbh I'm still just confused as to how he thought he could get away with it?
h*ck: thank you
h*ck: thank you...
Jaüri: the lies, that is