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- [4:50 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i just realized why he lost interest in me
- [4:50 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: he couldn't touch me
- [4:50 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: because he lives in canada
- [4:50 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: and he needs that
- [4:50 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: damn
- [5:00 PM] julian^jUjU: I feel like you're gonna hate me for saying this
- [5:00 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: but guys need sex?
- [5:00 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: yeah
- [5:00 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i know
- [5:00 PM] julian^jUjU: Not even sex
- [5:00 PM] julian^jUjU: Just some kind of sexual something
- [5:00 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: why?
- [5:01 PM] julian^jUjU: Idk most girls need it too
- [5:01 PM] julian^jUjU: Its just how were programmed
- [5:01 PM] julian^jUjU: U might be asexual
- [5:02 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i'm scared i'll be scarred
- [5:02 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: if i do something sexual
- [5:02 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: like
- [5:03 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i won't be able to forgive myself
- [5:03 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: or something
- [5:03 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: idk
- [5:03 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: like
- [5:03 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: when i was younger
- [5:03 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: my first ever bf tried to touch me down there
- [5:03 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: and i was traumatized
- [5:03 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i broke up with him
- [5:03 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: never talked to him again
- [5:03 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: if he ever tried to talk to me i was awful to him
- [5:04 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i didn't want him to
- [5:04 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: but he tried anyway
- [5:04 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: made me think i couldn't trust him
- [5:04 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: which clearly i couldn't
- [5:04 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: so now.. i'm just
- [5:04 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: scared?
- [5:04 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: of generally everything that has to do with real life sex
- [5:04 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: or sexual things
- [5:05 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: my family also plays a role in this, because they're all christian
- [5:05 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: so i'm expected to save myself
- [5:05 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: until marriage
- [5:05 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: honestly it's so bad
- [5:05 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i'm so broken mentally when it comes to sex
- [5:05 PM] julian^jUjU: I can tell :/
- [5:05 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i had to really work on it for a while
- [5:05 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: just to accept that people have sex
- [5:05 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: and that it's normal
- [5:06 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: idk if i am asexual
- [5:06 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i think i'm just frightened
- [5:06 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i watch porn
- [5:06 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: and stuff
- [5:06 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: like
- [5:06 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i am a normal person
- [5:06 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i touch myself
- [5:06 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: like everyone
- [5:07 PM] julian^jUjU: I was scared to ask that
- [5:07 PM] julian^jUjU: Ur not asexual
- [5:07 PM] julian^jUjU: Didn't want to seem creepy tho
- [5:07 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: haha
- [5:07 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: it's ok
- [5:07 PM] julian^jUjU: Start small
- [5:07 PM] julian^jUjU: Next e boyfriend
- [5:08 PM] julian^jUjU: Touch yourselves together while talking on discord
- [5:08 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: no
- [5:08 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i can't
- [5:08 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: sorry
- [5:08 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: it's too much
- [5:08 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: :/
- [5:08 PM] julian^jUjU: That was my first sexual experience idk
- [5:08 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: see
- [5:08 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i've done things on voice
- [5:08 PM] julian^jUjU: I mean I'm not asking u to do it
- [5:08 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: and i've taken pictures
- [5:08 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: and videos
- [5:08 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: with my exes
- [5:09 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: two of them
- [5:09 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: 1 o f them i regret
- [5:09 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: the other i felt safe
- [5:09 PM] julian^jUjU: U told me about that one
- [5:09 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: but it just didn't work out
- [5:09 PM] julian^jUjU: If you've done it before why is it too much?
- [5:09 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i don't know
- [5:09 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i think i'm just so hurt
- [5:09 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: that my mind can't
- [5:10 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: my heart is aching
- [5:10 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: it hurts so fucking bad
- [5:10 PM] julian^jUjU: Do you go to therapy?
- [5:10 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: no
- [5:10 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i'm broke
- [5:10 PM] julian^jUjU: Oof
- [5:10 PM] julian^jUjU: Health insurance?
- [5:10 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: that's not a thing here
- [5:11 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i just
- [5:11 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i think it's me period cycle
- [5:11 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: too
- [5:11 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: my*
- [5:11 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i'm in the time where i'd normally be emotional
- [5:11 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: so it's making everything worse
- [5:11 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i think i'd be ok doing sexual things
- [5:11 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: as long as it's uh
- [5:11 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: someone i trust
- [5:11 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i guess
- [5:11 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: but trust takes a while
- [5:12 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: idk man
- [5:12 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i just want to disappear
- [5:12 PM] julian^jUjU: I mean were you doing sexual things with ur most recent bf
- [5:12 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: no
- [5:12 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: nothing at all
- [5:12 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: i tried to start something
- [5:12 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: but he never responded to it
- [5:13 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: he put me in this bubble of being cute and innocent
- [5:13 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: so he never showed me his friends
- [5:13 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: never let me get to know anyone
- [5:13 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: because he wanted to protect me or something
- [5:14 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: so i had to break that wall myself
- [5:14 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: to make him think i'm not all cute and innocent
- [5:14 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: that i can be sexy and fierce
- [5:14 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: idk
- [5:14 PM] πΌππΆπ·πππ: just made me look even more like a helpless puppy to him
- [5:22 PM] julian^jUjU: my gf is pissed at me
- [5:22 PM] julian^jUjU: that Im talking to u about this
- [5:22 PM] julian^jUjU: I cant
- [5:22 PM] julian^jUjU: im sorry
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