[4:16 AM] Bum: i feel as if im coming up to a crossroads in my life, a hard one
[4:16 AM] Bum: path one, continue what im doing, stay home and fuck myself over for a month till college, then struggle until i learn some self control
[4:18 AM] Bum: path two. go back to boston until college, and quit video games cold turkey alltogether, because i cant control how much i spend on the computer. it dominates me, when im not on the computer i think about what im gonna do when i go back on it, i love video games too much. i left an internship i was earning 500$/ wk with mostly to get back to this team
[4:19 AM] Bum: i care about the people in here, i bailed on my life for this team, and im not sure if i can do that anymore
[4:19 AM] Bum: anyway, most likely week 8 will be the last time i load up tf2
[1:58 PM] wise: A break is good too sometimes, you don't need to view it as never coming back
[1:59 PM] wise: I didn't actually play TF2 seriously until I was a senior in college, but at that point I did have my life figured out.
[1:59 PM] wise: At least I thought I did.
[2:07 PM] Bum: the thing is
[2:07 PM] Bum: i love this game too much
[2:07 PM] Bum: so if i come back im worried im going to ruin my life again
[3:56 PM] The Nightman: learn self control before you go to college
[3:56 PM] The Nightman: if you're having a hard time with a troll yelling at you in the same house you'll have a harder time when you're more of an independent in college
[4:05 PM] Bum: aaron
[4:05 PM] Bum: im having trouble doing the things im supposed to do
[4:05 PM] Bum: like i get sucked in and cant get off the damn video games @The Nightman
[4:07 PM] Bum: like
[4:07 PM] Bum: there are large amounts of times where i just eat dinner because i dont get off the computer to get food
[4:09 PM] The Nightman: practice turning it off
[4:10 PM] The Nightman: alternatively
[4:10 PM] The Nightman: schedule "computer time"
[4:10 PM] The Nightman: 7-9 only
[4:10 PM] The Nightman: try to find stuff to do outside that time frame
[4:19 PM] Bum: like aaron
[4:19 PM] Bum: ill turn my pc off, go to bed
[4:19 PM] Bum: if i cant sleep ill just like get stuck on thoughts of getting back on the computer
[4:19 PM] Bum: and alot of the time after hours of thinking i wanna get back up and go on the computer at 3 am i do
[4:19 PM] Bum: and it fucks me up
[4:22 PM] The Nightman: get other hobbies you enjoy then
[4:29 PM] Bum: i do other things sometimes, but like
[4:29 PM] Bum: idk
[4:29 PM] Bum: part of why im quitting is to focus on other things
[4:29 PM] Jen™: you ever just market garden abortions and feel great after it?
[4:29 PM] Bum: im running again and im gonna start lifting in college
[4:30 PM] Bum: my goal is to play soccer again, because that is the other thing im super passionate about
[4:30 PM] Bum: i read but like i only will read a book 2 or 3 times, and the libraries are shit around here
[4:34 PM] Bum: @The Nightman i have no self control at all
[4:36 PM] Bum: and until i can have some self control, im restricting myself from the games i enjoy the most
[4:36 PM] The Nightman: that's good
[4:37 PM] Bum: one of my biggest dreams has been accomplished in tf2, and when im around that game i dont want to do anything but play it