#PastebinMonday 10/31/2022 Neglecting My Needs Edition

'Sup, doods!

Last week was not good for me, doods. It was bad enough for my boss to confront me on something I did wrong to the point of nearly triggering a panic attack, but the second half of PPL V-Hard very much let me down yesterday. All of that is leaving me in a fairly foul mood. It's gotten me quite introspective about what I want to do with my life for money as well as for fun. One takeaway that I am finally coming to grips with:

I have been neglecting my needs for far too long.

I have not slept well. I don't eat all of the things that are best for me. I have not exercised very often. I haven't even bathed as much as I need to. Yeah, it's been that bad. If I'm going to do better for my stream, if I'm going to do better for the tournaments, if I'm going to take care of all of my duties with leaderboard moderation, I need to rewire my priorities to make sure I have myself taken care of before I can take care of anything else. I can only hope that this week has been enough of a wake up call to motivate me to change. It is really helping that the tournament is closing in on its conclusion to give me more time to myself. We'll see if I can follow through on those pledges. I'd say I wouldn't hold my breath, but I couldn't hold my breath that long if I tried.

Today's (permanent) extra streaming goals:

Goal #4c: catch up on uploading personal bests. My two Easy – S-Hards are in the queue and awaiting thumbnails. We also made a new category in PPL, Easy – Hard, and I have a video for that, as well. I may need to wait until after the tournament.
Goal #5: script and record footage for my Puzzle League tutorial series. I want to compile all of the technical specifications common to the series before working on videos for each individual game. I feel like I will end up writing all of the scripts before filming anything.
Goal #6: clean up my own stream layout. I am brainstorming how I want the final theming to be. I probably want to lean into the Puzzle League aesthetic, but I have multiple ideas rattling around. I don't expect to get to this anytime soon.

Races on Friday for sure. Not sure besides that. I will Tweet if I stream any other sessions.

That’s my life story for the week. Later, doods!

--Cards