Retaliation (2017) Eng

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Listen up, people.
Listen.

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Like a sinner, like a crawling animal ...

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... like a boar
that has trampled sacred things ...

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Let me tell you
how I endured the dark gospel ...

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... and how I can still breathe
while the mucus ...

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... to my broken leper lips
rising ...

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... and pornography, the threat
and the violence ...

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... rise to my braised throat.

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... while I'm not from it.

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And through which I can swim in hell,
without drowning in the bile.

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I'll tell you.
By love.

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By love, you beautiful people.
Love.

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Love is not a fleeting encounter
with a immoral angel.

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What I am talking about when I am
talk about love, is the kingdom ...

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... the land of cooling water
and where there is much love.

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It is a place that really exists.

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If that wasn't there, why tell
the Lord of balance then ...

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... that he has a place for you
and will prepare for me ...

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... and that he will return?

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Because there he is.

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You always became a girl
since.

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People often commented on it.

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You just went to high school.

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That was very expensive.
I remember that.

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A new uniform, a suitcase, pens,
a compass set, pencils ...

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It took me a week
to get it out.

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You loved those shoes.

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Written with 'George Best' on the sole.
You didn't want to wear anything else.

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George Best and Julie Beech.

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In that time
you were only interested in them.

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She wrote my name with a pen
on her jeans.

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She now lives in South Africa.

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She's doing well.

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Leave that damned.

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It is a slice.

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We demolished things,
we get hurt, we don't complain.

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Emma.
A real woman.

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She is a real woman.

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- Could you make me a steak?
- Joe?

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I dont need anything.
I have ten bags of chips on.

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And he has already eaten a Cow Pie.

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That's a forbidden fruit, boy.

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Forbidden.

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Do you already know my steak story?
-What steak story?

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Malky and I were in an Indian tent
after a visit to a night club ...

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This lightweight
slept in his tikka masala.

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He got no further than the starter.

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I ordered what I always take:
vindaloo, extra pedis.

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Malky has ordered a T-bean steak
because that jerk does not eat anything else.

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The steak is coming
and he just wants to take a bite if ...

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Boom.
It is completely free.

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It is just like the wild west.
There is a buzz party in the corner.

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Real acorns.
Firefighters who were not employed.

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Stupid drunk.

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They injured the immigrant waiters.

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Like in a slaughter room
in a slaughterhouse.

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So I'm telling Malky ...
I say, "Hey."

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He works away half a cow.
I say: "Hey."

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We have to go there
and help those poor ones ...

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... otherwise there will still be deaths. "

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And Malky says like a true Christian
with a heart of gold:

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"I have no service."

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Afterwards
one of those bastards jumps up ...

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... and damn he runs
over our table.

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He runs after a screaming waiter
with a bread knife.

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And then he stands ...

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... on Malky's steak.

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I mean it.

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We tackled them, boy.

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Ah, when you talk about the devil.
Now that you are there, dude.

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Please dear.
-Thank you, Emma.

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I'll take a look at it, Billy.
I was a nurse.

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Come here.

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O my God, have you seen this?

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It is a slice.

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Did you injure yourself on the demolition site?
Has he been treated for infections?

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No, he must go immediately
to the emergency department.

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Can you drive him there, Joe?
-What is it?

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No, I'm tired.
I can't even have a conversation.

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He may already have spread.

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Goddamnit.

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What do you mean?
-The infection.

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An infection can cost you your arm.
-No, he has to go to the hospital, Malky.

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The infection must not reach your heart.
-My heart?

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There is perhaps an alternative.

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It remains a gamble, but ...

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My mother?
-Yes.

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She can give a kiss on it, Billy.
Then you are fine again.

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Are you goddamn blind or something?

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Hey, where did that make sense?

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Nothing.

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It didn't seem like it was nothing.

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I'm just tired.

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It's okay. Just go.
Just go. It's okay.

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Can you get that black currant jam?
grab me?

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That?
-Yes thank you.

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I want some cookies.

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Chocolate cookies.
No, not that.

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Yes that one.

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And chips?
Do you want chips?

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Are you blind or something?
-Ho, what are you doing?

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Come, dude.
It is retarded.

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Do you want some coffee?

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Do you want a candy, Mom?

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You like it the best.
-No thanks.

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Are you mad at me?

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It looks like you're mad at me.

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Mom?
-No, I'm not mad at you.

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What do you want me to say?

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Those bastards didn't look out.
-Do you not want to use that language?

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I'm sorry, okay?

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He almost knocked you over.
I won't let that happen.

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But I didn't raise you like that.

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Do you want a cup of tea, Malcolm?

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You don't feel well.

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I can see it on your face.
Your face is tense.

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I'm just tired.

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You don't have too much ...
-Mam.

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You are my son.
I feel it when something is wrong.

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Can't I just be tired?

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Is it hard work?
Demolish churches?

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It's God's house.
-Yes. Well, it's being demolished.

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You should go to confession.

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That new church is very beautiful.
I've seen it. It is very beautiful.

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I have to go back to work.

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Are you Malky?
I'm Paul.

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The cross is mine. The foreman
said you had to take it down.

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Give me a minute.

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It is a beautiful building. I am
always been fond of Saint Michael's.

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Shall I tackle it?

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Get out of the way.

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Hey, friend.
Thank you very much.

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I have a new place for it.

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I'm going to cum.
Oh my God.

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When I was little,
I went to church here.

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It is a pity.
It was a beautiful place.

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It's just me
a lot of stones and cement.

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I did not see you.

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I came by last week.
I knocked on the door.

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I thought I heard the TV on.

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I'm working, Em.

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Is it me?

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I have to go back to work.
-You didn't come by.

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I thought
that our relationship was not serious.

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Is it over now?

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You know, you always do this to me, Malky.
You do it every time.

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It is my fault.

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It's not you.

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It is my fault.

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Whose girl are you?

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I'm your girl.

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Mom, what are you doing?

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My damn back almost breaks.

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That doesn't surprise me.
Where do you want it?

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In addition to the other one.

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Why do you also wear heavy pots?
I said that I will lift the heavy things.

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You can't do everything for me.

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I am independant. I have to
to do something yourself.

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How is your back?
- He's slowing down, that's the way it is.

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And old, like me.
I'll make some tea.

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One tea bag is enough
for two cups.

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Hey, can you give me a ride?
On the way to work?

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It's not on your route, is it?
Do not you mind?

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Is something wrong?

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I'm fine.
Okay?

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I'm just tired.

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Your cell phone rang.

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It's just Pete.
He picks me up on the way to work.

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I didn't know I was sleeping with you.
He comes by my house, so ...

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He picks you up and drops you off ...

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I'm just saying
that it's nice of him.

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Did I do something wrong?

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I didn't do anything wrong, right?

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You know what, I don't need a lift. I will go
walk. I need a fresh nose.

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What should I think about it?

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I'm going to the pub for you.
Often you don't see me standing.

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That is not true.
-Then I'll go there ...

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... to surprise you because I thought
that you would like that ...

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... and then you get into the car with a guy.

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He calls everyone baby.
- He calls you damn sweetheart.

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Don't scold me.
Is it me or am I missing something?

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Is it because I don't often
have come by?

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Have you had enough of me?

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I did not do anything.
- If you don't want me, say so.

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Then say what I would have done.
-If you want to leave, you can leave.

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I do not need you.

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Do you think I need you?

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I don't need you damn you.
I do not need anyone.

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It looks like it's over.

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It is not out.
You do what you always do.

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You get angry because you are scared.

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Anxious? What am I afraid of then?
-I do not know.

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I do not know.
You tell me.

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You always care
and then blame me for it.

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I'm too old for these games, Malky.
You're too old for that.

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I'm still there?
-No you're not.

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You are not there.

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I mean, you look like yourself,
but you are not yourself.

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You are a stranger to me.

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I'm just tired, okay?
-Liar.

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God.
You can't even be honest with me.

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You don't trust me.

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Do you trust me?

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You don't trust me.

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No, why would you too?

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I mean, we only have
four years a relationship.

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I take off my pants for you.
I suck your dick for you.

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I fuck you in a dirty pub cellar
if it suits you.

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And why? Oh yeah. I know. Yes.
Because it's not serious.

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Another glass, please, honey.

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By the way, I talked to your guy.
I told him clearly ...

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... that if he doesn't take care of you,
I add you to my harem.

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I don't know what's wrong.
- How do you think I feel?

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I introduced you to each other.
- So it's your fault.

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Have I ever told you my steak story?
-Only 100 times or so.

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Malky and I were in an Indian
restaurant when it all started.

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I told you.

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... to spill some blood.

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But he didn't want to do it.

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"I can't do it, Joe. My mother
sits at home. My mom is home.'

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You know what he is like
with his old mother.

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Malky and I beat everything that moved.

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Bodies fell to the ground
and heads fell open.

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Everything turned red rather quickly.

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Then there were police officers
at the door.

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And I stand there with a ...

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... hammer in my hand.

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Blood is dripping from it.

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I mean, I'm really crying
because...

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... I know what I did
and can't believe I did it.

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And I say to Malky ...
I beg him, I say:

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"I can't turn around, Malky.

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I can't serve a prison sentence.

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I have children at home.

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So...

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... Malky takes the hammer
and throws it through the doors.

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The agents are coming in
and arrest him.

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He is brave.

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He said I had nothing to do with it.

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He took it all on himself.

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I know you know ...

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... that he was in jail
before you met.

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But you don't know
that he was in jail for me.

245
00:39:09,166 --> 00:39:10,208
Come here.

246
00:39:22,000 --> 00:39:26,875
'After all, we now look through it
of a mirror in a mystery ...

247
00:39:27,000 --> 00:39:30,291
... but then we will see
face to face.

248
00:39:30,416 --> 00:39:33,875
Now I know in part ...

249
00:39:34,000 --> 00:39:38,500
... but then I will know,
as I am known myself.

250
00:39:38,625 --> 00:39:44,291
And now faith, hope and love remain. "

251
00:42:21,750 --> 00:42:23,458
Is it at work?

252
00:42:25,333 --> 00:42:30,708
There is hard work today
to find. Do your best in this position.

253
00:42:30,833 --> 00:42:32,541
It's not working, mom.

254
00:42:38,583 --> 00:42:40,208
You ...

255
00:42:40,333 --> 00:42:44,041
The police won't
stop by again, boy?

256
00:42:44,916 --> 00:42:46,541
I couldn't handle it.

257
00:42:49,000 --> 00:42:51,041
I'm tonight
went to that church of yours.

258
00:42:54,291 --> 00:42:55,916
The new.

259
00:42:59,166 --> 00:43:03,375
You probably want to put your hammer in there,
or not?

260
00:43:04,958 --> 00:43:08,666
There are many churches.
You cannot demolish them all.

261
00:43:16,708 --> 00:43:18,500
He's not a good person, mom.

262
00:43:24,375 --> 00:43:27,916
He was always nice to us.

263
00:43:30,250 --> 00:43:36,458
He has a family, you know that?
He has nephews and nieces.

264
00:43:36,583 --> 00:43:38,833
He doesn't deserve this.

265
00:43:42,916 --> 00:43:45,458
See you.
You should see your face.

266
00:43:46,916 --> 00:43:50,916
You are ice cold. You judge people.
That's wrong with you.

267
00:43:51,041 --> 00:43:52,958
Judging is a sin.

268
00:43:56,916 --> 00:44:01,250
That's the bad behavior
so you ended up in jail ...

269
00:44:01,375 --> 00:44:05,583
... and you damn me for two years
left alone.

270
00:44:05,708 --> 00:44:09,333
The neighbors gossiped behind my back.

271
00:44:09,458 --> 00:44:11,375
The shame ...

272
00:44:13,583 --> 00:44:14,958
Sorry.

273
00:44:18,583 --> 00:44:20,791
I don't know what has happened lately
is wrong with you.

274
00:44:22,750 --> 00:44:25,541
You have no compassion.
You think I can handle it.

275
00:44:25,666 --> 00:44:27,833
Well, I can't handle it.

276
00:44:27,958 --> 00:44:31,833
My nerves can't handle it.
I can not handle it any longer.

277
00:45:37,416 --> 00:45:38,750
Are you okay?

278
00:45:39,958 --> 00:45:41,500
What do you want again?

279
00:45:45,458 --> 00:45:47,041
I do like a fire.

280
00:45:58,041 --> 00:46:00,750
I killed my own father
when I was 16.

281
00:46:01,750 --> 00:46:05,541
I had to go from the age of seven
sucking his cock.

282
00:46:07,083 --> 00:46:09,375
My father forced me
to suck his cock.

283
00:46:10,541 --> 00:46:12,833
He said it was ok
to enjoy it.

284
00:46:27,833 --> 00:46:30,250
I beheaded him
with my mother's meat cleaver.

285
00:46:30,375 --> 00:46:32,083
I neatly chopped it off.

286
00:46:55,458 --> 00:46:58,166
Do you know how heavy a severed head is?

287
00:47:00,333 --> 00:47:02,375
I know all about anger.

288
00:47:02,500 --> 00:47:05,583
I have two years
in a psychiatric ward.

289
00:47:05,708 --> 00:47:09,750
Seven years under the treatment of one
prison psychiatrist and then I found God.

290
00:47:09,875 --> 00:47:11,833
That's not why I'm here.

291
00:47:13,416 --> 00:47:15,833
They tried everything with me,
do you know.

292
00:47:15,958 --> 00:47:18,666
Psychoanalysis, therapy ...

293
00:47:24,375 --> 00:47:26,958
It was not enough.
There was too much shame.

294
00:47:28,541 --> 00:47:32,250
I couldn't tell anyone, you know?
Who can you tell?

295
00:47:33,625 --> 00:47:35,583
People judge, brother.

296
00:47:37,291 --> 00:47:38,750
You can't trust people.

297
00:47:39,708 --> 00:47:43,416
They even unconsciously judge.

298
00:47:47,416 --> 00:47:49,208
An old priest in prison ...

299
00:47:52,625 --> 00:47:54,125
... gave me this one.

300
00:47:56,125 --> 00:47:58,166
"Tell him everything," he said.

301
00:47:59,041 --> 00:48:01,958
"All the dirty details,
especially the gore details.

302
00:48:02,083 --> 00:48:05,458
The parts, the images, the memories.
Throw it all out.

303
00:48:07,375 --> 00:48:09,416
Drive out the demons. "

304
00:48:24,166 --> 00:48:30,666
He won't judge you.

305
00:48:31,708 --> 00:48:33,916
He gives no sense of shame.

306
00:50:45,458 --> 00:50:47,125
I don't trust you, Em.

307
00:51:24,500 --> 00:51:25,916
Are you ready for Hull?

308
00:51:28,041 --> 00:51:30,125
I don't feel like Hull.

309
00:51:32,791 --> 00:51:35,000
Hull?
The next job.

310
00:51:36,166 --> 00:51:38,208
Apparently it is full of holes.

311
00:51:39,666 --> 00:51:43,000
I did a job there. That has to be
have been ten years ago.

312
00:51:43,125 --> 00:51:45,291
What a bloody hole.

313
00:51:45,416 --> 00:51:47,958
It is damn rough.

314
00:51:48,083 --> 00:51:51,833
But it is two months of work.
That has to be.

315
00:51:52,750 --> 00:51:55,083
That's what it's ultimately all about, brother.

316
00:52:04,666 --> 00:52:07,541
Do something different?
What do you mean?

317
00:52:08,500 --> 00:52:10,708
You know, something else.

318
00:52:10,833 --> 00:52:12,875
Instead of demolishing things.

319
00:52:13,750 --> 00:52:15,500
I like to demolish things.

320
00:52:15,625 --> 00:52:17,625
I know that, but ...
-I am good at it.

321
00:52:18,625 --> 00:52:20,416
You're damn good at it too.

322
00:52:22,041 --> 00:52:25,291
Nobody can demolish a building
like you, dude.

323
00:52:25,416 --> 00:52:26,708
Besides...

324
00:52:27,708 --> 00:52:30,333
... I can only handle it
with wrecking balls and hammers.

325
00:52:41,625 --> 00:52:43,416
I always have a certain dream.

326
00:52:46,000 --> 00:52:48,500
It is not really a dream,
it's a nightmare.

327
00:52:51,333 --> 00:52:54,875
I appear at the next demolition,
the next job ...

328
00:52:55,000 --> 00:52:58,916
... I am coming in my car
with my hammer and my tools ...

329
00:53:00,041 --> 00:53:02,041
... and it appears
to be my mother's house.

330
00:53:03,750 --> 00:53:05,250
My mother's house.

331
00:53:09,583 --> 00:53:11,666
I talk to the foreman.
I say:

332
00:53:14,166 --> 00:53:16,208
"That's my mother's house, damn it."

333
00:53:17,125 --> 00:53:18,458
He does...

334
00:53:19,791 --> 00:53:21,958
He doesn't care.

335
00:53:22,083 --> 00:53:25,166
He has the address of a building,
goes there and breaks it.

336
00:53:25,291 --> 00:53:29,375
"It's a job,
it's not personal. " I say no.

337
00:53:33,166 --> 00:53:37,125
It's damn very personal.
It's my mother's damn house.

338
00:53:38,125 --> 00:53:41,166
It is my mother's house. "

339
00:53:43,250 --> 00:53:45,791
The crane swings the wrecking ball.

340
00:53:47,000 --> 00:53:48,458
My heart is pounding.

341
00:53:48,583 --> 00:53:51,333
The foreman walks away.
'Not my problem.'

342
00:53:51,458 --> 00:53:52,833
And I'm going crazy ...

343
00:53:52,958 --> 00:53:55,500
... because I don't even know
if my mother is still inside.

344
00:53:55,625 --> 00:53:58,833
I'm trying to call her,
but the phone does not ring.

345
00:53:58,958 --> 00:54:02,000
I gesture to the crane driver,
but he doesn't see me.

346
00:54:02,125 --> 00:54:04,708
I'm trying to tell someone
to everyone:

347
00:54:13,583 --> 00:54:14,791
And what happens then?

348
00:54:15,791 --> 00:54:18,166
I wake up like the wrecking ball
hit her roof.

349
00:54:18,291 --> 00:54:19,625
I can't save her.

350
00:54:53,833 --> 00:54:56,291
Malky, what the hell is going on,
man?

351
00:55:11,541 --> 00:55:13,250
Malky, don't.
No.

352
00:55:15,750 --> 00:55:18,416
Don't be stupid.
Malky.

353
00:55:56,791 --> 00:55:59,250
What the hell are you doing here?

354
00:56:01,791 --> 00:56:05,041
Look at me.

355
00:56:55,041 --> 00:56:56,625
I don't trust you, Em.

356
00:57:01,541 --> 00:57:03,000
I do not trust you.

357
00:57:04,291 --> 00:57:06,333
I don't trust myself, Emma.

358
00:57:07,541 --> 00:57:09,541
I'm afraid to trust someone.

359
00:57:10,500 --> 00:57:12,750
I'm afraid not to trust anyone.

360
00:57:22,291 --> 00:57:24,583
... I don't trust my own hands.

361
00:57:56,541 --> 00:58:00,791
The tendons are severely damaged
and surgery must be performed immediately.

362
00:58:01,708 --> 00:58:05,541
Just attach it.
-He needs surgery.

363
00:58:08,916 --> 00:58:13,416
Okay, I can't force you, but you will
can then no longer use that hand.

364
00:58:31,500 --> 00:58:33,125
How are you, Mom?

365
00:58:34,625 --> 00:58:37,000
I can't come by tonight.
I'm normal...

366
00:58:37,125 --> 00:58:39,708
No, I'm fine.
I am alone...

367
00:58:40,750 --> 00:58:42,250
I'm busy, mom.

368
00:58:43,125 --> 00:58:44,958
With work and all that, you know?

369
00:58:48,208 --> 00:58:50,041
Shall I come by tomorrow?

370
00:58:52,958 --> 00:58:54,458
See you tomorrow.

371
01:00:27,666 --> 01:00:30,708
What do you think?
Which one do you want?

372
01:00:31,583 --> 01:00:32,708
That.

373
01:00:36,208 --> 01:00:37,458
B-ten ...

374
01:01:57,708 --> 01:01:58,875
God?

375
01:02:00,916 --> 01:02:02,708
He didn't let you down

376
01:02:04,333 --> 01:02:06,583
You have abandoned yourself.

377
01:02:06,708 --> 01:02:10,833
Have you abandoned yourself?
-What do you want from me?

378
01:02:17,833 --> 01:02:20,625
Why do you keep trying
to attract my attention?

379
01:02:35,083 --> 01:02:36,791
I'll listen to you.

380
01:02:36,916 --> 01:02:39,166
Sometimes you have
only need a listening ear.

381
01:02:41,041 --> 01:02:45,208
Why should I talk to you?
I do not know you. I don't trust you.

382
01:02:46,291 --> 01:02:49,750
You don't know yourself.
You don't trust yourself.

383
01:02:58,708 --> 01:03:03,291
I see God in you, Malky.
You must be very brave now.

384
01:03:03,416 --> 01:03:06,458
Put your burden on the feet
of Jesus Christ, brother.

385
01:03:47,333 --> 01:03:49,541
Do you know what I see in you, priest?

386
01:03:52,125 --> 01:03:53,625
I see a boy.

387
01:03:54,583 --> 01:03:59,041
I see a little boy
with a large knife ...

388
01:03:59,166 --> 01:04:02,500
... that still has the taste of a cock
trying to get out of his throat.

389
01:04:05,166 --> 01:04:09,083
So what did you enjoy more, brother?

390
01:04:10,750 --> 01:04:15,458
Blow your dad or behead him
with your mother's meat cleaver?

391
01:04:25,083 --> 01:04:28,916
You bastard.
I'll break you, you bastard.

392
01:04:39,625 --> 01:04:43,291
Jesus. Sorry, brother.
Forgive me, man.

393
01:05:02,750 --> 01:05:06,958
You cannot wear this cross yourself.
I will help you to bear the burden.

394
01:05:07,083 --> 01:05:10,041
Please let me ease your burden.

395
01:05:23,958 --> 01:05:26,333
He didn't even know it was me, Em.

396
01:05:27,458 --> 01:05:31,375
I swear.
He didn't know it was me.

397
01:05:33,333 --> 01:05:35,541
He was blinded by anger.

398
01:05:36,750 --> 01:05:40,875
It could have been anyone.
But that wasn't true, right, Joe?

399
01:05:41,000 --> 01:05:44,666
No, it was you. You stood there.
His best friend.

400
01:05:46,666 --> 01:05:50,250
Well, if this is the worst
what happens to me this week is fine with me.

401
01:05:53,958 --> 01:05:55,916
I don't talk his behavior well.

402
01:05:59,208 --> 01:06:00,500
I am indebted to him.

403
01:06:02,916 --> 01:06:04,166
You know?

404
01:06:05,541 --> 01:06:07,125
I really owe him.

405
01:06:11,125 --> 01:06:13,291
Every time I go to him again ...

406
01:06:14,208 --> 01:06:17,375
Every time I go to his apartment
or to work ...

407
01:06:18,291 --> 01:06:19,708
... then I know.

408
01:06:19,833 --> 01:06:23,291
Before I arrive
even before I leave ...

409
01:06:23,416 --> 01:06:26,208
... I know that's the worst
what can I do.

410
01:06:27,208 --> 01:06:29,833
It's the last thing I should do,
but...

411
01:06:30,833 --> 01:06:32,333
And after that...

412
01:06:38,541 --> 01:06:42,500
And then I ask him again:
'Is it me?

413
01:06:42,625 --> 01:06:44,541
Did I do something wrong? "

414
01:06:45,958 --> 01:06:50,125
Come on, Em.
- It's okay.

415
01:06:51,208 --> 01:06:55,125
Please don't feel sorry for me.
Then I don't have it anymore.

416
01:07:51,333 --> 01:07:52,625
Mom?

417
01:09:17,291 --> 01:09:19,458
Do you remember when I was 12, Mom?

418
01:09:21,791 --> 01:09:23,041
Do you remember that?

419
01:09:27,083 --> 01:09:29,166
When I returned from the church?

420
01:09:30,625 --> 01:09:33,041
When I slept in church?

421
01:09:34,291 --> 01:09:35,583
When I...

422
01:09:37,708 --> 01:09:39,208
I was quiet.

423
01:09:42,666 --> 01:09:43,916
Quiet.

424
01:09:47,666 --> 01:09:49,375
You said I was quiet.

425
01:09:51,125 --> 01:09:53,166
I was silent for three days.

426
01:09:56,250 --> 01:09:57,708
Silent, damn it.

427
01:10:00,916 --> 01:10:02,583
I was lifeless.

428
01:10:05,958 --> 01:10:07,666
You said to me ...

429
01:10:09,958 --> 01:10:11,500
You provoked me.

430
01:10:14,458 --> 01:10:16,583
You teased me.

431
01:10:19,958 --> 01:10:23,041
"Talk to me, Malcolm.
Tell me.

432
01:10:23,166 --> 01:10:27,416
You don't feel well.
I can see it on your face.

433
01:10:27,541 --> 01:10:29,750
Your face is tense.

434
01:10:34,625 --> 01:10:36,875
What happened to you?

435
01:10:37,000 --> 01:10:40,750
You can tell me.
I am your mother.

436
01:10:41,875 --> 01:10:43,541
You can trust me. "

437
01:10:56,125 --> 01:10:57,541
So I'll tell you.

438
01:10:59,875 --> 01:11:01,375
I trust you.

439
01:11:09,208 --> 01:11:11,125
I have to trust you.

440
01:11:15,333 --> 01:11:16,833
I suffer.

441
01:11:17,875 --> 01:11:20,500
And why should I not trust you?
You are my mother.

442
01:11:23,375 --> 01:11:26,875
I have to tell someone.
I suffer.

443
01:11:34,041 --> 01:11:36,125
Do you remember what you said to me, Mom?

444
01:11:38,166 --> 01:11:40,125
Do you remember what you said?

445
01:11:46,000 --> 01:11:48,083
... and I was devastated.

446
01:11:49,208 --> 01:11:51,208
I cried and cried.

447
01:11:53,750 --> 01:11:55,291
And what did you say to me?

448
01:11:58,750 --> 01:12:02,583
"That didn't happen to you."

449
01:12:06,125 --> 01:12:07,875
That hurt, Mom.

450
01:12:10,875 --> 01:12:13,375
"That didn't happen to you."

451
01:12:14,250 --> 01:12:16,958
Your guilt
is not my responsibility.

452
01:12:17,875 --> 01:12:21,250
Your shame
is not my responsibility.

453
01:12:23,500 --> 01:12:26,625
I damn my own shame
what I'm struggling with.

454
01:12:26,750 --> 01:12:30,166
I'm lying there while he touches me.

455
01:12:33,625 --> 01:12:35,875
I'm a goddamn 12 year old.

456
01:12:39,500 --> 01:12:45,166
How dare you, mom?
How the hell do you dare? How dare you?

457
01:12:47,791 --> 01:12:51,291
I lay there crying and praying
and in my head I begged ...

458
01:12:51,416 --> 01:12:56,708
... and the only thing I thought is:
my mother...

459
01:12:56,833 --> 01:13:00,125
My mother will be so mad at me.

460
01:13:02,500 --> 01:13:06,458
Tell me what to do. I promise I will
everything will do what you say. I promise.

461
01:13:06,583 --> 01:13:09,375
I just want everything to be
as it used to be.

462
01:13:10,416 --> 01:13:12,208
I will not disappoint you.

463
01:13:13,125 --> 01:13:15,875
I will not shame you.

464
01:13:16,000 --> 01:13:17,583
I promise.

465
01:14:08,958 --> 01:14:11,500
ROMANS 12, 13

466
01:14:18,083 --> 01:14:20,375
IF THEN YOUR ENEMY HAVES HUNGER,
GIVE HIM TO EAT

467
01:14:22,583 --> 01:14:25,875
FOR BY DOING THAT, YOU WILL
FIERY COALS ON HIS HEAD

468
01:14:52,541 --> 01:14:54,958
I'll be that priest
never forgotten in prison.

469
01:14:55,083 --> 01:14:57,416
The one who saved me.

470
01:14:57,541 --> 01:15:00,541
Everyone else had my ragged soul
already specified.

471
01:15:02,333 --> 01:15:04,750
He offered me salvation.

472
01:15:04,875 --> 01:15:07,916
Absolution.
But I had to make the effort myself.

473
01:15:08,916 --> 01:15:11,125
He gave me the tape recorder.

474
01:15:11,250 --> 01:15:14,625
"Tell him your secrets," he said.
"Tell him everything.

475
01:15:14,750 --> 01:15:19,083
Cleaves every piece of wood,
lift each stone ...

476
01:15:19,208 --> 01:15:21,416
... and leave everything else to God. "

477
01:15:28,708 --> 01:15:32,500
'Don't you think you are this burden
long enough with you?

478
01:15:32,625 --> 01:15:35,083
And it's not even
your burden to wear. "

479
01:15:36,000 --> 01:15:37,583
I said...
I almost spit this out.

480
01:15:37,708 --> 01:15:41,625
"I don't want him to get away
what he did to me. "

481
01:15:45,083 --> 01:15:48,458
That old priest laughed.
He kept smiling.

482
01:15:48,583 --> 01:15:54,375
He said: "Aha.
Well, Paul, I can really help you with this.

483
01:15:54,500 --> 01:15:57,291
I know something in this area
what you don't know.

484
01:15:57,416 --> 01:16:01,708
No one
escapes the master of balance.

485
01:16:05,583 --> 01:16:07,250
Not even in death. "

486
01:16:10,416 --> 01:16:12,416
I promise you, Malcolm ...

487
01:16:13,875 --> 01:16:17,583
I will make a solemn promise to you
on this holy ground.

488
01:16:17,708 --> 01:16:22,916
The day will come that even his own skin
will testify against him.

489
01:16:56,875 --> 01:16:58,791
I abuse myself.

490
01:17:04,916 --> 01:17:06,875
I hurt myself ...

491
01:17:08,500 --> 01:17:10,166
...physical.

492
01:17:23,916 --> 01:17:26,541
I hurt myself sexually.

493
01:17:35,708 --> 01:17:37,916
I raped myself.

494
01:17:42,125 --> 01:17:45,500
I raped myself until I bleed.

495
01:18:05,250 --> 01:18:09,250
I dig and dig ...

496
01:18:11,791 --> 01:18:14,166
... and try its roots in me
to delete.

497
01:18:53,125 --> 01:18:55,458
Forgive me, father, because I have sinned.

498
01:19:00,791 --> 01:19:02,333
Twenty five years ...

499
01:19:03,625 --> 01:19:09,958
... eleven months and three days ago
that I have confessed for the last time.

500
01:19:14,416 --> 01:19:18,583
Twenty five years?
What do you want to confess?

501
01:19:20,541 --> 01:19:22,458
Something I haven't done yet.

502
01:19:23,958 --> 01:19:27,041
Tell.
- I have to hurt someone.

503
01:19:29,125 --> 01:19:31,833
I have to hurt a lot.

504
01:19:34,166 --> 01:19:35,416
Continue.

505
01:19:41,541 --> 01:19:44,250
I trusted a man 25 years ago.

506
01:19:47,416 --> 01:19:49,375
No, that is actually not true.

507
01:19:51,041 --> 01:19:52,541
I didn't trust him.

508
01:19:55,416 --> 01:19:57,000
I was 12 years old.

509
01:19:59,833 --> 01:20:01,833
It had nothing to do with confidence.

510
01:20:04,041 --> 01:20:05,791
I worshiped him.

511
01:20:16,583 --> 01:20:20,791
He said I had something other boys did
did not have. He said I was special.

512
01:20:22,250 --> 01:20:24,041
Special.

513
01:20:31,875 --> 01:20:33,666
I was only 12.

514
01:20:35,375 --> 01:20:38,625
When I woke up the next day,
I felt 100 years old.

515
01:20:42,791 --> 01:20:45,958
He said God would know
if I would tell someone.

516
01:20:46,083 --> 01:20:48,291
That God would punish me.

517
01:20:53,166 --> 01:20:55,291
God didn't have to punish me.

518
01:20:56,833 --> 01:20:59,291
I punished myself ...

519
01:20:59,416 --> 01:21:05,208
...every day.
Every day for 25 years.

520
01:21:08,958 --> 01:21:10,750
What do you want?

521
01:21:11,791 --> 01:21:13,833
Revenge.

522
01:21:16,750 --> 01:21:19,625
I'm not sure
whether you are in the right place here.

523
01:21:25,625 --> 01:21:28,166
I don't think I ...
- He abused me.

524
01:21:35,958 --> 01:21:38,208
When he put his cock in me ...

525
01:21:39,916 --> 01:21:45,916
When he put his avid cock in me,
he shortened my life.

526
01:21:47,375 --> 01:21:48,958
He is my enemy.

527
01:21:49,875 --> 01:21:54,083
He's damn my enemy.
Go ...

528
01:21:55,208 --> 01:21:56,791
...to sit.

529
01:21:58,625 --> 01:22:00,458
Sit down.

530
01:22:02,916 --> 01:22:04,708
Sit down, damn it.

531
01:22:33,916 --> 01:22:35,291
I was a boy.

532
01:22:37,208 --> 01:22:38,708
I was just a boy.

533
01:22:43,708 --> 01:22:45,458
Why are you here?

534
01:22:53,541 --> 01:22:55,541
Do you know Romans?

535
01:22:59,958 --> 01:23:01,708
Verse 12:20?

536
01:23:07,416 --> 01:23:10,875
Do you know Romans?
-Yes.

537
01:23:11,000 --> 01:23:13,208
Well, you know why I'm here.

538
01:23:28,458 --> 01:23:32,541
He abused me
when I was a boy, father.

539
01:23:58,666 --> 01:24:00,791
... that I forgive him.

540
01:24:08,125 --> 01:24:09,916
I forgive him.

541
01:27:02,375 --> 01:27:04,166
A reading from ...

542
01:27:05,125 --> 01:27:06,791
... the book of Paul ...

543
01:27:09,333 --> 01:27:12,375
... and his letters to the Romans.

544
01:27:15,666 --> 01:27:17,666
Chapter 12.

545
01:27:19,833 --> 01:27:21,541
Verse 20.

546
01:27:25,083 --> 01:27:26,750
'Me...

547
01:27:27,791 --> 01:27:29,958
... revenge is due.

548
01:27:35,500 --> 01:27:37,000
I will ...

549
01:27:38,000 --> 01:27:39,458
... return ...

550
01:27:40,500 --> 01:27:42,458
... says the Lord.

551
01:27:44,833 --> 01:27:46,208
If then...

552
01:27:47,083 --> 01:27:51,250
... your enemy is hungry,
feed him.

553
01:27:55,250 --> 01:27:57,041
When he is thirsty ...

554
01:27:59,000 --> 01:28:00,916
... give him a drink ...

555
01:28:05,125 --> 01:28:07,416
... because by doing that ...

556
01:28:09,833 --> 01:28:12,458
... you will have fiery coals ...

557
01:28:14,666 --> 01:28:16,750
... hope for his head. "

558
01:29:12,708 --> 01:29:18,041
Congratulations, dear Sophie