THE DARK HOUR

There comes a moment where at times
I think about one thing and one thing
alone.

The thought of me just ending my life
is as difficult as living.

When I'm on stage, I always have an air
of positivity as soon as I leave
backstage.

However, what I feel internally isn't
always such from the external shell.

As soon as I finish the final act of
my performance and head home, all I can
think about is if I gave it my all.

I honestly can't decipher if I'm doing
things by the book or following onto a
path of carelessness (like certain
people).

This is where my sanity is breached!

This is where I find myself asking should
I continue to hang onto life or jump into
the rabbit hole they call death.

I don't care anymore.
Just leave me to die.