I didn't want to post this, but here we are I guess. Just things have got so bad lately.

Its like a loop of suffering, constant denial of any happiness. I'm still so so so lonely after the breakup. Losing hope of finding anyone that fits me.

Dysphoria is hitting hard and having DIY estrogen be delayed for 5 months while still being delayed further hurts so much.

Right now I'm on holiday in Germany, which means I'm away from my fem clothes, blahaj, distractions, etc. I don't know what to do.

I can't use any helplines as they charge me BC I'm abroad, I'm stuck with my family. What do I do?

This is excluding all the other stuff going on with my mind, like plurality.






I didn't want to post this, but here we are I guess. Just things have got so bad lately. Its like a loop of suffering, constant denial of any happiness. I'm still so so so lonely after the breakup. Losing hope of finding anyone that fits me. Dysphoria is hitting hard and having DIY estrogen be delayed for 5 months while still being delayed further hurts so much. Right now I'm on holiday in Germany, which means I'm away from my fem clothes, blahaj, distractions, etc. I don't know what to do. I can't use any helplines as they charge me BC I'm abroad, I'm stuck with my family. What do I do? I need help. Idk how to get help. Help. This is excluding all the other stuff going on with my mind, like plurality.