__: um.. okay.. night then
pOppet: huh? im still here
pOppet: i did message to say i was logging over
__: you're in a game?
__: over to what
pOppet: i can still talk
__: lol
pOppet: this acc
__: neh dw
__: go play
pOppet: im not retarded
pOppet: i know how to multitask
__: honestly, not well
__: lol
__: go play
pOppet: :/
pOppet: sigh.
__: Yeah, Sigh, i'm coming to the realisation that there might not be a friendship here for me, you don't offer any of the things i want with my friends, there is no bond, you don't open up, you constantly make me feel like you are busy, i never feel like i have your attention or interest, "no one is ever too busy, it's about priorities".
__: if someone means the world to you, they find the time.
pOppet: im not even busy
__: but you're still playing a game
pOppet: and talking to you
__: you still jumped from a movie to me to a game in mins
pOppet: at the same time, look at that
__: yeah
__: and i put everything else a side to talk to you
__: i get gappy convo
pOppet: i dont ask you to do that
pOppet: im happy for you to do whatever you desire
__: its oh hi... 4 mins later.. hi
__: whatever, stop making excuses. fact is you're always divided and i'm quite over it
pOppet: right
__: come and find me when you find enough interest to not have to multitask, cuz im done chasing you
pOppet: wow.
__: Don't wow me ash, i've been dealing with this feeling for over a week
pOppet: okay kyle.
pOppet: im sorry thats how you feel
pOppet: that there is 0 friendship here
__: I'm sorry that you'd rather play a game you can play and do play any other time than ever hold a real convo with me, one that isn't broken over the space of 2 hours when i was already saying that i feel like shit and would be breaking away soon. a conversation that even if i did get you to have with me would be about nothing personal or i dunno remotely bond worthy because you don't share. i'm sorry that 5 times in a row you said you'd do something and allowed something to come up every time. I'm sorry i don't think that's.. "friendly"
__: I'm sorry that you're setting a prime eg of exactly what i'm talking about right now. You shouldn't still be in a game, i shoudln't feel like i'm breaking a law by phoning you. how is that a friendship.
pOppet: i am still in a game
__: yeah,, no shit?
pOppet: alright
pOppet: well youve obviously made your mind up
pOppet: and that is how you see things
pOppet: so
pOppet: im not arguing
pOppet: cause theres no p[oint
__: well if that's the cop out you want to use for not really giving a shit either way
pOppet: its not a cop out
pOppet: or an excuse
pOppet: you clearly believe that shit
__: he replies to her 5mins after waiting for another reply
__: well if you're not gonna quit ya fuckin game and talk to
__: me
__: what am i supposed to believe?
pOppet: im in competitive
pOppet: yhou cant just quit
__: yeah well you shouldn't fucking be there in the 1st place
__: i am sick!
pOppet: DUDE
__: i stayed up a bit longer to talk to you!
__: not 45 fucking mins
__: you heartless bitch
pOppet: wow
pOppet: i have no words
pOppet: i didnt ASK you to do that for me
pOppet: you dont delegate when is a good time for me to play one game of competitive man, thats fucked
__: you stay up all night every night, you can play competitive any blooody time, i tell you im sick, i say it i dunno how many times, you make it sound like you finished a movie and started talking to me, the next thing i know i'm waiting for you to long back in on one of your computers on snow because i dunno what the fuck you're talking about with juming or whatever the hell you said. so i sit there and i wait for like 6 mins before im like where the hell is she
__: and then i find you in a fucking game
__: do you know how that feels after all the other shit ever already talked about
__: fucked
pOppet: i specifically said to you
__: no i dont delegate, but you dont make time
pOppet: i am logging over accounts
__: its fucked
__: PM - Snow: im just logging over
__: over to what
__: to your lappy
__: obv not
__: but thats what i thought
__: fuck
pOppet: logging over just means changing accounts
__: YEAH WELL I DIDNOT KNOW
__: doesnt change the fact that mid convo
__: you enter a game
__: what the fuck
pOppet: youre acting like i went into a game and completely ignored you
__: oh that's cool, mid convo with the dude dying for bed
pOppet: which didnt happen
__: who stayed up a bit longer to chat
__: fuuuck
__: fuuck him
pOppet: you never fucking told me you were dying for bed
pOppet: DUDE
__: I DID
__: 11:45 PM - __: life's battles. i really wanna CS right now but i'm fkn dying :(
11:45 PM - __: plus just queued Idiocracy up
pOppet: you are being fucked right now, you said earlier you were going to bed, and then didnt - because you wanted to remind me i hadnt replied (because i thought you were in bed)
pOppet: and then acting like i flat out ignored you
__: i was heading to bed and then shannon extended his story
pOppet: and that im a bitch because YOURE sick?
__: so i was up for like 10 mins more
pOppet: and want to go to bned
__: heard nothing from you
pOppet: im so fucking confused
__: thought id say saomething
__: cuz whats new
pOppet: then you know what
pOppet: if this doesnt make yu happy
pOppet: you*
pOppet: dont take part in it
__: what having you hold half assed convos with me?
pOppet: all you do is this
pOppet: get mad at me, all the time
__: or telling me you'll call but never do
__: you're never gonna get it.
pOppet: i told you my reasons about not liking voice chat, and the few times i would have, shit came up
pOppet: i dont care if you dont believe that
__: so why tell me you're gonna call me
pOppet: because i was
__: and how do you think it makes me feel when you dont
__: again
pOppet: its not like im not talking to you AT ALL
__: at that current moment, when you don't and i don't know the reason, you don't know what it does, you clearly don't, otherwise you wouldn't do it to me
pOppet: and yes, im not a huge talker for the record, about my own life. because it takes me ten years to trust anyone
pOppet: I DONT 'DO' IT TO YOU
pOppet: THINGS COME UP
pOppet: how the
pOppet: dude
pOppet: THINGS
__: and you've known me what 2 days ay?
pOppet: legit
pOppet: came up
pOppet: ive known you for ages, but not personally, like truly deeply.
pOppet: and the way you go off at me, doesnt exactly help
pOppet: and you do it a lot\
__: well clearly that won't happen when you brick wall me
pOppet: i dont feel comfortable
pOppet: about it
pOppet: talking about my life
pOppet: to anyone
pOppet: dont take it personally, i did tell you that ages ago
__: yeah well, i'm never going to stop when you wont give me 100% of you for more than 3 seconds
__: i cant do that
__: its not a friendship
pOppet: well i can't do the fighting
pOppet: seriously
__: i don't wanna fight
pOppet: all it does is upset ,e
pOppet: and make me anxious
__: but you make me feel like shit when you do this shit
pOppet: and im trying really hard to be better with that
__: and what the fuck am i gonna do, say nothing?
__: i say nothing already, a lot
__: until i burst
pOppet: you were acting so controlling before
__: and then we fight
pOppet: that made me really upset
pOppet: saying that i shouldnt even be in a game
pOppet: when youre sickl
pOppet: etc
pOppet: like
pOppet: that really caught me off guard
__: i'm sorry but get on my level, you make me feel the worst.
pOppet: it is not like you to tell me what i can and cant do
__: you mean a lot to me and when you'd rather play a fucking video game than talk to me
pOppet: i havent played anything all day
pOppet: and i wanted to play a match
__: it breaks me down, i snap, until i stop feeling like an outsider to you, it's not going to change
pOppet: because i was offered a spot
pOppet: i seriously
pOppet: cant
pOppet: do the fighting
pOppet: i cant
pOppet: it makes me panic
__: i'm sorry but priorities, that slot, was more important to you than i was