Black Boys (2020) EN

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- Uh, right there?

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- Yeah.

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- Uh, right there?

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- Mm-hm.

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- Mmm, right there?

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- Let me see, wait one second.

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There you go.

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Okay, start right there.

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- Look, animal.

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- Animal?

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- Yeah.

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- And it is an animal?

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- Animal.
- Yeah.

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- Woo-Woop!

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- Show daddy.

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Here we go.

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The Little Engine That Could.

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- Right there.

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- Yeah, it's a
red choo-choo train.

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- There.

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- Is that Sophie?

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- Ding dong, ding dong.

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- Oh no, that makes
ding dong, yeah. - Yeah.

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- Is that an elephant?

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- Yeah, boom.
- What noise does

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an elephant make?

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- Yeah, okay.

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You ready to go night-night?

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- Okay.
- Okay.

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I love you.

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- Mm-wa.
- Mm-wa.

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- Okay, good
job buddy, I'll see you
in the morning, okay?

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- Okay.

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- You were very good today.

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- Bye-Bye.

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- Bye-bye, hey,
you're gonna be great,

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'cause Daddy says so, right?

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- Okay, bye.
- All right.

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- It's often
a double-edged sword

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to be a black boy in America.

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Because you have
to tell yourself

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that you are magnificent,
and that you are free,

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and beautiful, while
simultaneously acknowledging

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that the world is
not built for you.

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It's not built for your success,

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it's not built for
you to survive.

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And you have to live
in these two worlds

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of I am whole and worthy,

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but I am also the hunted, and
hunted down, and sought after.

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- When people
treat you as such an outsider,

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as such a threat,
where they see you

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as somebody to be feared,

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as much as we try to
hold onto our humanity,

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you realize you live in a
world where your humanity

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is constantly being challenged,

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and constantly being questioned.

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- You can't run from it.

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It doesn't matter what your
socioeconomic status is

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there is an assault
on the black mind,

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the black heart, and the
black spirit and psyche.

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- This is America.

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And this is 400 years of what

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this blood stained
soil is about.

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- The bottom line
of why things haven't changed

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is 'cause there's no
love for black boys.

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- Good, good, good, good,

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good, good, good, good, good.

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- I was fortunate
and blessed enough

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to be able to go play on
Sundays, win a couple rings.

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I had some good experiences
and bad experiences.

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So injuries kind of
cut my career short.

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The opportunity came
up to come home.

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So this is the crib.

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This is the crib.

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I grew up here.

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My mom was a single mom for
the most part, four kids.

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My father passed away
when I was eight.

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That made me kind
of grow up quick.

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It was a little rough, the
neighborhood that I was in.

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It wasn't the greatest
place I could be.

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The only thing I cared
about was making sure

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that my mother did not
have to pay for school.

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That's the only thing
that mattered to me.

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So I decided to play football.

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Man, opened the floodgates
of scholarships,

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Tennessee, Ohio State,
I mean, the big schools.

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I just worked, worked,
worked, worked,

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worked, worked, worked
for as long as I could.

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That was the only thing I knew.

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It isn't until you look at
it from a 30,000 foot view

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that you understand.

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For us as young
African American males,

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what is my vision of success?

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- Well, the only thing
I could see on TV,

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entertainment, video music
awards, or you see sports.

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So this kind of imagery
of using my body

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and being blessed with speed,

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the ability to cut
quick, jump, shoot,

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everything was
pertaining to sports.

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So.

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I mean they better
make it happen.

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I mean these, these things better

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become some money makers
real quick, real quick.

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- There's always been
a obsession with black bodies.

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That obsession became
the economic base

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of America, in slavery.

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- Cheap slave
labor owned by the planter.

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- And even during slavery

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there were still
athletic games played.

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There was fighting, and
all these things done

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with black bodies for
white entertainment.

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And that was a tradition
that kind of manifested

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its way through sports.

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- The black
athlete is the most visible,

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most important, most
influential black employee

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this country's ever produced.

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- White people like sports.

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- As a little black boy I
found out about white people as

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when you're walking out
there with your equipment on,

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white people would pick you
up and take you practice.

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They knew you was going
to the ball field.

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But when me and my buddies
was walking out there

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and we was trying to go to some
friends out and everything,

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wasn't nobody trying to pick
up us, it was dangerous then.

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- Black aggression sells.

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We love that when we
see a football player

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crunch a guy and
sack a quarterback,

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and then he does his sack dance

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and snarls at the camera,
and everybody loves it.

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That black aggression
is also being used

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as justification
for shooting you.

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How many times do we
hear the police say,

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"Well I feared for my life.

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And that's why I put 20
rounds in a teenager."

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- Like so many black
kids who are very athletic

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I dreamed of going to the NFL.

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And then when I actually
started experiencing it

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it blew my mind how
disappointed I actually was,

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starting with the combine.

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Where we get broke
down to our tights

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and we get walked on a
stage, and twirled around,

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and my weight and
height, length,

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all the above is talked about.

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And after that's done
I walk down the middle

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of 1,000 people making marks,

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talking this,
talking about that.

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One of the most humiliating
points of my life I feel,

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because there has
to be a better way.

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I grew up in Texas
and I saw cattle

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being done the same thing.

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- The sad thing about
it was they used to tell me,

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the NCAA is a meat market,
man they are looking for you,

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because you are a
gorgeous piece of meat.

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Straight like that.

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- The black
body is the commodity.

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And I think when we
talk about ownership,

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and we talk about power,

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today's black body is a
multi-billion dollar enterprise.

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- Everybody here
grew up playing sports.

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And we used to
run in these roads

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that has potholes in
them. barefooted, so,

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Like everybody here is fast,
everybody here is strong.

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We feel like if
you're black in Mart

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then you should be
playing football.

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- In this town
there's more like,

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you always want to
be a Mart panther.

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You wanted to play
up under them lights

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that everybody else
before you played.

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And you want to get out,

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get out of this town and
go play ball at college,

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and do something with yourself.

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- My dream is
to go to a division I
college, play football,

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major in business management,

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and hopefully go to the NFL.

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- Every Friday night the
whole town is really shut down.

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They come, they fill
up the stands, and

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it just feel like
all eyes on you.

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You score a touchdown
and we're winning.

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And the more we win
the more people came.

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It builds your confidence
that you was somebody,

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and people knowing you
that you don't even know.

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It just felt like you
was on top of the world.

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- I knew that I
was gonna have to be in

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the weight room every
day, run outside,

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eat healthy, get bigger.

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But I grew up big,
bigger than everybody,

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so that wasn't hard to do.

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- My sophomore year I was
up for the Dick Butkus Award,

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best linebacker in the
nation my junior year.

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The whole process of,
wow, I'm going pro.

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I just got to stay healthy
I'm gonna get a big old check,

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and I tore my ACL up.

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And it's like
everything just changed.

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I felt like the
world came down on me

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and took away what I do best.

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And then,

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I came back and tried
to get on another team

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and kept getting hurt, and
I just, it's not worth it.

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I was about 24 years old when
I decided to stop playing.

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There ain't really
that many opportunities

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outside of sports in Mart.

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You can be a correctional
officer at that prison,

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or, play sports, I
think that's about it.

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'Cause there ain't
too much else in Mart.

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- What do
sports represent to you?

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- It represents ah,

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life, represents

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courage and hope
for something better

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than what I'm living right now.

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- Come on, get up, get up!

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- Steal by
number 32, Carmelo Anthony.

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- Black kids
want hope and need hope.

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They just want people
to have faith in them

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and believe in them.

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I grew up in Baltimore, so
I know what that's like,

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you're in survival mode.

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So if I got to deal
with how to be strong,

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and being tough and surviving,

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but then there's no
one believing in me,

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I really have nothing
at the end of the day.

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It's like a bottomless pit,

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unless I can play sports.

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- Anthony!

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- And Anthony is now tied

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with the most points-

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- What happens is
you're conditioned to think

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that all you have to offer
is your body, and that's it.

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And I think psychologically
it damages you into thinking,

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well, what's the point of
working on any other part

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of who I am as a fully
realized human being,

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if this is the only part
they're gonna value and accept?

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A lot of it has seeped into how

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Black parents, and family
members, and community members

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view their own children
in the community.

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Because they see the
acceptance that athletes,

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and entertainers are able
to gain outside the world,

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and acceptance and belonging
that they've often longed for.

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- Football was the thing to do.

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There was a tremendous
amount of pressure

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to be a football player.

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When babies were born in that
community during that time,

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if it was a boy, they
put a little football

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in the crib with
them at the hospital.

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- Chatter... Ra, ra,
I'm gonna get you.

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I'm about to get you,
I'm about to get you.

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- So rather than
send them through the trials

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of maybe being a doctor,
which seems unrealistic

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in a lot of communities,
or a lawyer,

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they take them down the
path of being an athlete,

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and pushing that as
like, this your way out.

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This is how you equal
the playing field.

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When statistically
if you look at just

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the number of NBA
athletes, or NFL athletes,

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it's such a minuscule amount,

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that you basically
have a better chance

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of either getting
hit by lightening, or
winning the lottery

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than you probably do of
becoming a professional athlete.

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I mean, because
it's just that hard.

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- There are
streets littered with kids

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who believe that dream,

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didn't follow up with plan
B on the educational side,

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have nothing, and are watching
the great ones play on TV.

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And then you look at the few
that reach the NBA or the NFL.

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Man, if it wasn't for sports
I'd be dead or in jail.

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And I think about that every
time I read those stories

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and my heart breaks.

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Because I'm thinking
at this late date,

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if dead or in jail is all
there is, we have failed.

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We have failed miserably.

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- How about a peace out?

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- And yet, people look at
that dead or in jail narrative

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as progress, because
this one person

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makes $20 million a year.

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And there are graves
all around him.

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- What up?

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I'm Greg.

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I wanted to come say what up,

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'cause y'all exactly
where I used to be.

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You know what I'm
saying? Same spot.

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What you all gonna do when
you all get out of here?

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You all gonna go to high
school, and then what?

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- I want to be a football
player or a lawyer.

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- A lawyer?

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00:17:51,604 --> 00:17:54,174
- You trippin', baseball.

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- He want to be in baseball.
- Like Pro basketball.

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00:17:56,443 --> 00:17:59,279
- I bet, well you all
gonna go to college, right?

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00:17:59,312 --> 00:18:02,248
- I'm trying to go to a
college away from Mart.

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- Away from Cincinnati?
You trying to get out?

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- Yeah.

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- Man, y'all go do it.

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You say you want to go to
college and be a mechanic,

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you go do it, you
want to be a lawyer,

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you want to go play Pro, do it.

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Just have a back up plan,
you know what I mean?

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I was able to do it, was
able to get my degree.

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And you know when
I was down here,

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shoot, I'd be happy if
I graduated high school.

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Man, y'all put y'all mind to it.

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Don't let nobody tell
y'all you can't do it,

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just 'cause where y'all
are, where y'all live.

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It's the hood, so
what? I'm proud of it.

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00:18:30,210 --> 00:18:31,620
Y'all do whatever
y'all wanna do, man.

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- Yeah, that's cool.

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00:18:32,545 --> 00:18:35,582
- Yeah, all
right y'all. I'll hola.

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- There has to be a
collective belief system shift.

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It's okay to envision
something else.

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And what is that something
else gonna look like?

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I don't know.

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But this can't be all there is.

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Because this doesn't work.

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This isn't working for anybody.

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- I hope they believe me.

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- My little
brother, he was working

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to do great things
with his life.

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There was an incident where,

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I don't know the
ins and outs of it.

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But apparently there
was a misunderstanding,

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and both ended up with
firearms in their hands, and,

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my little brother caught
the short end of the stick.

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00:20:07,607 --> 00:20:10,744
- What's saddening about that,

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besides the fact that my
little brother was killed,

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is the fact that the
last text message I have

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in my phone from him

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00:20:19,619 --> 00:20:21,488
was that he was
working to be better.

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00:20:31,865 --> 00:20:34,834
- I think he was a line
worker at a restaurant.

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00:20:34,868 --> 00:20:39,506
And I always tried to challenge
him to think beyond that.

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Think bigger, because you
have the ability to do it.

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00:20:43,743 --> 00:20:44,811
But did he...

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Did he have somebody showing
him that day in and day out?

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00:20:56,790 --> 00:20:59,325
- It's just the epitome of
what goes on in our world,

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and it's so saddening and so,

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00:21:09,569 --> 00:21:12,505
- At the same time
so motivating.

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00:21:16,910 --> 00:21:20,513
What you need, you let
me know what you need.

334
00:21:20,547 --> 00:21:23,616
Huh?

335
00:21:23,650 --> 00:21:26,419
For me, coming home meant a lot,

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00:21:26,453 --> 00:21:29,656
because now I can work
with young men and women

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who might be at the same
crossroads that I was of,

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00:21:33,626 --> 00:21:36,396
you know, do I focus
more on my athletics,

339
00:21:36,429 --> 00:21:38,798
or do I focus more
on my education?

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So I get a chance to go back

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00:21:40,934 --> 00:21:43,503
and kind of
reconstruct their mind,

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00:21:43,536 --> 00:21:46,773
and rewire their brains
every single day,

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00:21:46,806 --> 00:21:50,744
to help young men know
that, there's more to it.

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There's more to
you, more to life,

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00:21:55,682 --> 00:21:58,918
despite what they
tell you, despite what

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our blinders limit us to.

347
00:22:02,856 --> 00:22:04,734
There's more, there's more,
there's more, there's more,

348
00:22:04,758 --> 00:22:07,127
you just got to believe
me, just believe me.

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00:22:07,160 --> 00:22:08,762
Here you go, argh.

350
00:23:19,499 --> 00:23:22,435
- Malcolm X
wanted to be a lawyer.

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00:23:23,536 --> 00:23:25,805
And his teacher, not
some outside person,

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00:23:25,839 --> 00:23:28,675
not someone in a KKK
robe, or some judge,

353
00:23:28,708 --> 00:23:31,011
or police officer,
his teacher told him,

354
00:23:31,044 --> 00:23:33,980
"No, you're black, you
can't be a lawyer."

355
00:23:38,051 --> 00:23:41,021
I often think of the
millions of black children

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00:23:41,054 --> 00:23:43,690
who's dreams have
been just crushed.

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00:23:45,625 --> 00:23:46,826
- Hey Mom!

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00:23:50,997 --> 00:23:55,869
- Let's go, you come here.

359
00:24:00,106 --> 00:24:02,809
- So this is Mastery
Charter Shoemaker Campus

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in Parkside, Carroll Park
neighborhood of West Philly.

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00:24:08,648 --> 00:24:11,785
As a turn around school,
this is our 13th year.

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00:24:14,888 --> 00:24:16,990
We're a 95% black school,

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00:24:17,023 --> 00:24:20,627
and half of our student
body are black boys.

364
00:24:20,660 --> 00:24:22,028
- What's up buddy?

365
00:24:23,630 --> 00:24:25,007
- Because I grew
up not too far from here,

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00:24:25,031 --> 00:24:28,768
I understood that anxiety,
that angst that a lot

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00:24:28,802 --> 00:24:30,837
of black boys experience.

368
00:24:30,870 --> 00:24:32,906
- All right you coming?

369
00:24:32,939 --> 00:24:34,040
- Hello guys.

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- Five months after graduating

371
00:24:42,015 --> 00:24:45,285
at Indiana University
of Pennsylvania

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00:24:45,318 --> 00:24:47,520
I was shot three times.

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00:24:49,622 --> 00:24:50,733
I was in the
hospital for a month,

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00:24:50,757 --> 00:24:53,993
they thought they were gonna
have to amputate my legs.

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00:24:54,027 --> 00:24:56,896
It was a pretty
traumatic experience.

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00:24:56,930 --> 00:24:58,765
Yet at the same time
I was thinking about

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00:24:58,798 --> 00:25:01,568
the young man who was
a very similar age.

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00:25:01,601 --> 00:25:04,904
I was 20, he was 19,
and what that meant.

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00:25:05,939 --> 00:25:07,807
And why we had such
different paths.

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That's the bell
- That's the bell.

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00:25:10,076 --> 00:25:12,112
- So what I wanted to do
was work with students

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00:25:12,145 --> 00:25:14,881
that were like the
young man who shot me.

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00:25:14,914 --> 00:25:15,815
How you doing?

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00:25:15,849 --> 00:25:16,683
- What up?

385
00:25:16,716 --> 00:25:17,584
- I heard the bell.

386
00:25:17,617 --> 00:25:18,918
- Yeah?

387
00:25:18,952 --> 00:25:20,062
- People always talking
about the achievement gap.

388
00:25:20,086 --> 00:25:24,157
A lot of times for black
boys it's an opportunity gap.

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00:25:25,859 --> 00:25:28,628
And if people actually
gave them the opportunity

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00:25:28,661 --> 00:25:31,331
they would just reach all
of their own personal goals,

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00:25:31,364 --> 00:25:34,067
the community's goals,
their family's goals.

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00:25:34,100 --> 00:25:38,071
And I think too often they're
shut out of opportunities.

393
00:25:38,104 --> 00:25:41,775
- President Bush
called it the soft bigotry

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00:25:41,808 --> 00:25:44,177
of low expectations, right?

395
00:25:44,210 --> 00:25:48,081
That was riddled across
America's schools.

396
00:25:48,114 --> 00:25:51,051
When the truth is,
it's not so soft.

397
00:25:51,084 --> 00:25:55,622
If we don't believe
that students of color,

398
00:25:55,655 --> 00:25:59,125
that African American boys
in particular can learn

399
00:25:59,159 --> 00:26:01,961
at the same rate as their peers,

400
00:26:01,995 --> 00:26:05,965
then we don't institute
policies, or practices,

401
00:26:05,999 --> 00:26:09,169
then we simply don't
teach them to the levels

402
00:26:09,202 --> 00:26:11,838
of which they should learn.

403
00:26:11,871 --> 00:26:14,708
- I'm smart, if you put
me in the right situation,

404
00:26:14,741 --> 00:26:16,943
the right testing environment,
the right everything,

405
00:26:16,976 --> 00:26:19,779
I will really surprise
a lot of people.

406
00:26:19,813 --> 00:26:21,214
- I feel like I
have to be better,

407
00:26:21,247 --> 00:26:24,150
even though I feel as though
I'm already good enough.

408
00:26:26,219 --> 00:26:29,089
But they want to make
you feel even lessor,

409
00:26:29,122 --> 00:26:29,989
so I got to try to bring
myself up even more,

410
00:26:30,023 --> 00:26:31,624
which is kind of hard.

411
00:26:32,992 --> 00:26:34,437
- As a black child
growing up in America

412
00:26:34,461 --> 00:26:36,229
they are getting
bombarded with messages

413
00:26:36,262 --> 00:26:38,865
that you don't matter,
you don't belong,

414
00:26:38,898 --> 00:26:40,133
you're worth less.

415
00:26:40,166 --> 00:26:42,769
In that context, we
have to work overtime

416
00:26:42,802 --> 00:26:44,170
to make sure that
we are countering

417
00:26:44,204 --> 00:26:45,839
that message that
they're receiving

418
00:26:45,872 --> 00:26:47,741
about them not being worthy.

419
00:26:47,774 --> 00:26:49,175
- Good job.

420
00:26:49,209 --> 00:26:50,744
- And empower students

421
00:26:50,777 --> 00:26:53,213
to recognize their own humanity.

422
00:26:54,914 --> 00:26:58,718
- It is a
peculiar sensation, this
double consciousness,

423
00:26:58,752 --> 00:27:00,987
this sense of always
looking at oneself

424
00:27:01,021 --> 00:27:03,156
through the eyes of others.

425
00:27:03,189 --> 00:27:06,693
Of measuring one's soul
by the tape of a world

426
00:27:06,726 --> 00:27:10,430
that looks on in amused
contempt and pity,

427
00:27:10,463 --> 00:27:12,766
W.E.B Dubois.

428
00:27:17,270 --> 00:27:20,807
- The amount of
resources that are needed

429
00:27:20,840 --> 00:27:25,045
to really shift and
level the playing field.

430
00:27:25,078 --> 00:27:28,782
When we talk about equity
for black men and boys,

431
00:27:28,815 --> 00:27:31,718
I often feel like
I'm shooting a BB gun

432
00:27:31,751 --> 00:27:32,986
at a aircraft career.

433
00:27:40,760 --> 00:27:43,029
- We take kids
that have less to begin with,

434
00:27:43,063 --> 00:27:45,065
and we turn around
and give them less

435
00:27:45,098 --> 00:27:49,803
of everything that makes a
difference in public education.

436
00:27:49,836 --> 00:27:52,305
So then we get this
burgeoning achievement gap

437
00:27:52,339 --> 00:27:57,177
that starts and shows up as
early as entering kindergarten.

438
00:27:57,210 --> 00:27:58,845
- We're in trouble,

439
00:27:58,878 --> 00:28:01,214
because the majority of
our kids are kids of color

440
00:28:01,247 --> 00:28:03,283
in the nation's public schools.

441
00:28:03,316 --> 00:28:06,820
And we just don't do a
good enough job making sure

442
00:28:06,853 --> 00:28:09,222
that students of
color have access

443
00:28:09,255 --> 00:28:13,259
to the full range of supports
necessary to be successful.

444
00:28:13,293 --> 00:28:15,762
And we see the consequences,

445
00:28:15,795 --> 00:28:17,964
the consequences
in unemployment,

446
00:28:17,997 --> 00:28:20,233
the consequences in involvement

447
00:28:20,266 --> 00:28:21,868
in the criminal justice system.

448
00:28:21,901 --> 00:28:22,979
- Quite frankly,
that's how this system

449
00:28:23,003 --> 00:28:25,138
was designed to happen.

450
00:28:25,171 --> 00:28:27,140
We don't call it a caste
system in this country,

451
00:28:27,173 --> 00:28:30,310
we're too enlightened
for that, right?

452
00:28:32,812 --> 00:28:34,848
But when you look at it,

453
00:28:34,881 --> 00:28:38,118
peel back the onions
of inequity, systemic,

454
00:28:38,151 --> 00:28:42,322
embedded, pervasive inequity
in our school systems.

455
00:28:43,890 --> 00:28:46,526
One can't help but
see a caste system

456
00:28:46,559 --> 00:28:48,995
with black boys at the bottom

457
00:28:49,029 --> 00:28:52,766
in almost every community
in this country.

458
00:28:55,201 --> 00:28:58,171
- Education was always
used as a control feature

459
00:28:58,204 --> 00:28:59,906
of who gets it and who doesn't?

460
00:28:59,939 --> 00:29:03,376
- There was countless
educational material,

461
00:29:04,844 --> 00:29:07,914
quote, unquote, that
used to try to prove

462
00:29:07,947 --> 00:29:11,851
that slaves, their brain
sizes weren't the same.

463
00:29:11,885 --> 00:29:13,295
Everything they could
to just reduce them

464
00:29:13,319 --> 00:29:17,023
to being just simply
a physical being.

465
00:29:17,057 --> 00:29:20,160
- So a long time
ago, who deserved education?

466
00:29:20,193 --> 00:29:23,930
It was the wealthy,
landowner and white male.

467
00:29:26,332 --> 00:29:29,169
When you look at today, it's
almost the same mindset,

468
00:29:29,202 --> 00:29:31,271
who actually deserves education?

469
00:29:31,304 --> 00:29:32,906
Because if somebody
deserves something

470
00:29:32,939 --> 00:29:35,408
then I'm gonna fund it,
if I'm the government

471
00:29:35,442 --> 00:29:37,043
I'm gonna fund it.

472
00:29:37,077 --> 00:29:40,613
If I don't think you deserve
it, then I don't care.

473
00:29:40,647 --> 00:29:42,916
You get whatever
pennies fall your way,

474
00:29:42,949 --> 00:29:46,186
but it's not gonna be a
concerted effort to fix things.

475
00:29:46,219 --> 00:29:48,021
And that's how you create power,

476
00:29:48,054 --> 00:29:49,956
that's how you create choices,

477
00:29:49,989 --> 00:29:51,424
that's how you create control.

478
00:29:55,995 --> 00:29:58,131
- So right now,
independently, silently,

479
00:29:58,164 --> 00:29:59,632
I'm gonna give you one minute.

480
00:29:59,666 --> 00:30:02,402
Please write a summary
based on the information

481
00:30:02,435 --> 00:30:06,072
that you have for
questions one through five.

482
00:30:06,106 --> 00:30:08,108
Good, I see Maneer
getting started, Ray Meet

483
00:30:08,141 --> 00:30:09,342
has already gotten started.

484
00:30:09,376 --> 00:30:11,644
A lot of things are
fed to us on purpose

485
00:30:11,678 --> 00:30:15,215
in order to keep
you within a box.

486
00:30:15,248 --> 00:30:16,916
I was one of those
kids that thought

487
00:30:16,950 --> 00:30:20,620
that football was
gonna be my way out.

488
00:30:20,653 --> 00:30:22,355
And then once I became a teacher

489
00:30:22,389 --> 00:30:25,091
I started hearing a
lot of my students

490
00:30:25,125 --> 00:30:28,094
only talk about playing
sports, being a rapper,

491
00:30:28,128 --> 00:30:30,430
things that are only
portrayed in the media.

492
00:30:30,463 --> 00:30:32,899
It wasn't because there
was nothing else out there,

493
00:30:32,932 --> 00:30:34,377
but it wasn't being
placed in front of them.

494
00:30:34,401 --> 00:30:36,336
They didn't see
successful doctors,

495
00:30:36,369 --> 00:30:37,904
they didn't see
successful engineers,

496
00:30:37,937 --> 00:30:40,006
they didn't see
successful teachers.

497
00:30:40,040 --> 00:30:44,077
- And the
message that we send to
each other so many times

498
00:30:44,110 --> 00:30:49,149
is that being smart, and
speaking in complete sentences,

499
00:30:50,016 --> 00:30:52,118
and be aspiring to be educated,

500
00:30:52,152 --> 00:30:55,989
and to be intellectual is
anti-black, is inauthentic.

501
00:30:56,022 --> 00:30:56,956
And this is a type
of self hatred.

502
00:30:56,990 --> 00:30:59,259
This goes back to the
James Baldwin line that

503
00:30:59,292 --> 00:31:01,127
"The most insidious
piece of racism

504
00:31:01,161 --> 00:31:04,230
is believing what
they say about you."

505
00:31:05,498 --> 00:31:09,135
- America created the
greatest marketing campaign

506
00:31:09,169 --> 00:31:12,272
in the minds and
hearts of black people

507
00:31:12,305 --> 00:31:16,109
to try and convince us
that we were inferior.

508
00:31:17,177 --> 00:31:18,144
- One of the
things we talk about

509
00:31:18,178 --> 00:31:19,288
is this windows and mirrors.

510
00:31:19,312 --> 00:31:20,980
A black child in
a typical school

511
00:31:21,014 --> 00:31:23,049
in America, they get windows.

512
00:31:23,083 --> 00:31:25,385
From the literature that's
put in front of them

513
00:31:25,418 --> 00:31:27,253
from the teacher,
from all the messages,

514
00:31:27,287 --> 00:31:29,089
they get windows to
other people's world

515
00:31:29,122 --> 00:31:30,423
and like this other world,

516
00:31:30,457 --> 00:31:32,359
these other people
are better than you.

517
00:31:32,392 --> 00:31:36,296
Not a shared humanity, but a
separate level of humanity.

518
00:31:36,329 --> 00:31:39,466
White children typically
get the mirror.

519
00:31:39,499 --> 00:31:42,402
Who's in front of them, the
literature that they're read,

520
00:31:42,435 --> 00:31:43,603
the posters on the wall,

521
00:31:43,636 --> 00:31:49,042
everything reinforces their
whiteness and their superiority.

522
00:31:50,110 --> 00:31:52,412
- You know who else
is going to prom?

523
00:31:52,445 --> 00:31:54,147
- Christa's friend, Bethany?

524
00:31:55,115 --> 00:31:56,416
- No, Barbie.

525
00:31:58,284 --> 00:31:59,252
- There's been
different research projects

526
00:31:59,285 --> 00:32:02,255
around children as young
as three, four and five

527
00:32:02,288 --> 00:32:03,456
when they pick a doll,

528
00:32:03,490 --> 00:32:06,026
they're picking a white
doll or black doll,

529
00:32:06,059 --> 00:32:09,729
the society, because of
celebrating and privilegizing,

530
00:32:09,763 --> 00:32:12,098
advantaging the
beauty of whiteness.

531
00:32:12,132 --> 00:32:14,501
And then everything
dark, or black or brown

532
00:32:14,534 --> 00:32:17,337
is bad and negative. Children,

533
00:32:17,370 --> 00:32:19,005
it doesn't matter
what color you are

534
00:32:19,039 --> 00:32:21,441
well then pick up the white
doll versus the black doll.

535
00:32:21,474 --> 00:32:24,044
- For me, I've
never been told what

536
00:32:24,077 --> 00:32:26,046
the word black means in America.

537
00:32:26,079 --> 00:32:29,115
It was always, whatever
I learned in school

538
00:32:29,149 --> 00:32:33,286
at that point in time was
what I knew what black was.

539
00:32:33,319 --> 00:32:36,356
It was one thing,
it was slavery.

540
00:32:36,389 --> 00:32:40,326
That was the only thing that
we were taught that we knew.

541
00:32:40,360 --> 00:32:44,097
And it was almost like that's
what they wanted us to know.

542
00:32:44,130 --> 00:32:47,500
- The week that
it was Black History Month,

543
00:32:47,534 --> 00:32:49,536
grabbed two assignments.

544
00:32:51,171 --> 00:32:56,042
One from a district that was
serving mostly white kids.

545
00:32:56,076 --> 00:33:00,613
And they were reading the
letter from the Birmingham Jail.

546
00:33:00,647 --> 00:33:03,516
And they were, as
you might imagine,

547
00:33:03,550 --> 00:33:06,119
engaged in rigorous debate.

548
00:33:09,456 --> 00:33:10,623
The black kids,

549
00:33:12,826 --> 00:33:16,262
in a classroom serving
mostly black boys

550
00:33:17,330 --> 00:33:20,033
was told to read
that same letter,

551
00:33:21,534 --> 00:33:25,338
and draw a picture,
because neatness counts.

552
00:33:27,107 --> 00:33:29,843
You can only imagine
what that assignment

553
00:33:29,876 --> 00:33:32,278
looked like when completed.

554
00:33:33,279 --> 00:33:35,448
It was a black man in jail.

555
00:33:37,183 --> 00:33:40,120
- For the next five
minutes we're going to label

556
00:33:40,153 --> 00:33:43,390
all of the different
places, the regions

557
00:33:44,457 --> 00:33:47,527
and the land forms
that are on the slide.

558
00:33:47,560 --> 00:33:51,498
You're going to label those
onto your United States map.

559
00:33:51,531 --> 00:33:55,402
You're gonna have
five minutes to do so.

560
00:33:55,435 --> 00:33:56,569
You may begin.

561
00:33:58,905 --> 00:34:00,316
- We
really got to tackle this issue

562
00:34:00,340 --> 00:34:02,184
that the majority of our
kids are kids of color,

563
00:34:02,208 --> 00:34:04,244
and only 18% of our teachers
are teachers of color.

564
00:34:04,277 --> 00:34:07,147
Only 2% of our teachers
are African American men.

565
00:34:07,180 --> 00:34:10,850
We need kids of color to
see educators of color,

566
00:34:10,884 --> 00:34:13,153
but we also need white
kids to see educators

567
00:34:13,186 --> 00:34:15,655
of color leading in their
schools and classrooms.

568
00:34:15,689 --> 00:34:19,559
- You're only
half way there if you
only wrote the fraction.

569
00:34:19,592 --> 00:34:21,194
So you write the fraction,

570
00:34:21,227 --> 00:34:23,363
and then you have
to do what with it?

571
00:34:23,396 --> 00:34:25,699
Give a solve, give an answer.

572
00:34:33,506 --> 00:34:35,175
- Hustle, hustle, hustle.

573
00:34:35,208 --> 00:34:36,252
- I have to ask
a really good question.

574
00:34:36,276 --> 00:34:37,377
- All right.

575
00:34:37,410 --> 00:34:38,311
- Want to hear the question?

576
00:34:38,345 --> 00:34:39,522
- Well, I want
you to go to class,

577
00:34:39,546 --> 00:34:40,447
I don't want you to be late.

578
00:34:40,480 --> 00:34:41,581
Can I catch you-

579
00:34:41,614 --> 00:34:43,249
- It was real quick question.

580
00:34:43,283 --> 00:34:46,252
- The trauma that
a lot of our black boys face

581
00:34:46,286 --> 00:34:48,722
it makes the work more crucial,

582
00:34:49,956 --> 00:34:53,326
it gives us a higher
sense of urgency.

583
00:34:53,360 --> 00:34:55,428
- My mom was
like she was in school,

584
00:34:55,462 --> 00:34:58,264
taking us to school, had a job,

585
00:34:58,298 --> 00:35:00,200
but it wasn't like
paying her enough.

586
00:35:00,233 --> 00:35:03,136
So we have like,
eat what we have.

587
00:35:04,671 --> 00:35:08,675
And we have to take little
bits of what we got,

588
00:35:09,743 --> 00:35:12,178
so we can have it
for even longer.

589
00:35:12,212 --> 00:35:14,514
- My uncle, he used
to come outside

590
00:35:14,547 --> 00:35:17,917
and play football
with me all the time.

591
00:35:17,951 --> 00:35:21,521
And then he went to jail,
and he died in jail.

592
00:35:21,554 --> 00:35:23,256
Or I think he got killed.

593
00:35:23,289 --> 00:35:25,258
But they never told
us why he died.

594
00:35:25,291 --> 00:35:28,395
- My brother, he had passed,
he was nine years old.

595
00:35:28,428 --> 00:35:30,397
He had actually shot himself.

596
00:35:30,430 --> 00:35:33,733
He was playing with a
gun, I saw it right there.

597
00:35:33,767 --> 00:35:35,935
- It's post
traumatic stress disorder

598
00:35:35,969 --> 00:35:38,638
that is taking place in
communities across this country.

599
00:35:38,672 --> 00:35:41,341
And young people are
in this constant state

600
00:35:41,374 --> 00:35:43,343
of fight or flight.

601
00:35:43,376 --> 00:35:45,745
- You hear about
as kids, acting up in school,

602
00:35:45,779 --> 00:35:48,214
he don't go to school,
he's dropping out.

603
00:35:48,248 --> 00:35:51,551
It's because they have
so much inside of them

604
00:35:51,584 --> 00:35:54,220
that they don't know
what to do with that.

605
00:35:54,254 --> 00:35:58,458
And they don't know who
to turn to for that.

606
00:35:58,491 --> 00:35:59,993
And then what happens?

607
00:36:00,026 --> 00:36:04,564
You drop out of school,
which leads to prison.

608
00:36:04,597 --> 00:36:06,700
The hood, school, prison.

609
00:36:07,734 --> 00:36:09,569
It's like a triangle.

610
00:36:17,477 --> 00:36:19,488
- We interviewed several
thousand African American males

611
00:36:19,512 --> 00:36:21,314
from kindergarten
through 12th grade.

612
00:36:21,348 --> 00:36:24,584
80% of black boys said when
they were first on campus

613
00:36:24,617 --> 00:36:27,554
the adults on that campus
did not engage them,

614
00:36:27,587 --> 00:36:29,589
did not say hello,
or speak to them.

615
00:36:29,622 --> 00:36:32,392
When adults would
interface with black boys

616
00:36:32,425 --> 00:36:33,636
from kindergarten
through 12th grade,

617
00:36:33,660 --> 00:36:35,462
then the response
typically was negative.

618
00:36:35,495 --> 00:36:36,429
What are you doing?

619
00:36:36,463 --> 00:36:37,697
Why are you here? You're late.

620
00:36:37,731 --> 00:36:39,466
Pull up your pants,
take off your hat.

621
00:36:39,499 --> 00:36:42,435
It was overwhelmingly, over 80%,

622
00:36:42,469 --> 00:36:45,538
the response was a
negative response.

623
00:36:48,508 --> 00:36:51,845
- Black boys, their
experience from very early on

624
00:36:51,878 --> 00:36:53,747
is around submission.

625
00:36:56,316 --> 00:36:57,860
Something black boys
are approached with

626
00:36:57,884 --> 00:37:00,587
just this firmness
that's unnecessary

627
00:37:00,620 --> 00:37:03,390
where you have to be
controlled in such a way

628
00:37:03,423 --> 00:37:06,760
I got to put my
foot in your neck.

629
00:37:22,542 --> 00:37:27,347
- Black
male kindergartners
are being suspended,

630
00:37:27,380 --> 00:37:29,516
and expelled from our schools

631
00:37:29,549 --> 00:37:32,752
at disproportionately
higher rates.

632
00:37:32,786 --> 00:37:35,755
That gap gets wider the longer

633
00:37:35,789 --> 00:37:38,558
our young people are in school.

634
00:37:39,793 --> 00:37:42,495
- A lot of times when
people enter the learning space

635
00:37:42,529 --> 00:37:46,833
not feeling that that child
is a human being, one,

636
00:37:46,866 --> 00:37:49,436
the child is my equal, two.

637
00:37:50,470 --> 00:37:51,781
If you're not starting
with that premise,

638
00:37:51,805 --> 00:37:53,540
then it's very easy to oppress,

639
00:37:53,573 --> 00:37:55,675
it's very easy to
think I'm saving you.

640
00:37:55,709 --> 00:37:56,819
And if you don't
allow me to save you

641
00:37:56,843 --> 00:37:58,712
I'm gonna punish you.

642
00:38:00,747 --> 00:38:02,525
- It's so scary to
have to feel like you have

643
00:38:02,549 --> 00:38:05,652
to exist in those spaces,
because how can you?

644
00:38:05,685 --> 00:38:09,089
Because you exist in a
world where nobody sees you,

645
00:38:09,122 --> 00:38:10,857
but everybody sees you.

646
00:38:10,890 --> 00:38:13,126
And when they see you,
your silhouette doesn't

647
00:38:13,159 --> 00:38:16,363
look like you, it's a monster.

648
00:38:16,396 --> 00:38:18,365
- I went to school
in Daytona Beach

649
00:38:18,398 --> 00:38:20,133
when Trayvon Martin happened.

650
00:38:20,166 --> 00:38:22,669
A white couple saw
me sitting in my car

651
00:38:22,702 --> 00:38:25,705
on my break from my job,
called the police on me.

652
00:38:25,739 --> 00:38:27,741
The police literally
snatched me out of my car,

653
00:38:27,774 --> 00:38:29,843
slammed me on the ground.

654
00:38:29,876 --> 00:38:32,712
And when I'm asking like,
"Why are you doing this?"

655
00:38:32,746 --> 00:38:33,956
They literally said,
"We got a report

656
00:38:33,980 --> 00:38:37,117
of a suspicious black male."

657
00:38:37,150 --> 00:38:40,420
I can't even explain the
kind of emotional impact

658
00:38:40,453 --> 00:38:42,455
that had on my because
after the fact,

659
00:38:42,489 --> 00:38:43,933
I literally was just
sitting in my car.

660
00:38:43,957 --> 00:38:47,560
And I was like, I
literally did nothing.

661
00:38:47,594 --> 00:38:49,596
I didn't have to do anything.

662
00:38:49,629 --> 00:38:51,531
- I have so many
questions like why?

663
00:38:51,564 --> 00:38:52,564
- What did I do?

664
00:38:53,633 --> 00:38:55,468
- How did my
presence offend you?

665
00:38:55,502 --> 00:38:56,646
- You generalized me, already.

666
00:38:56,670 --> 00:38:58,838
- Yeah, how does my
presence offend you?

667
00:38:58,872 --> 00:39:00,507
What did I personally do?

668
00:39:00,540 --> 00:39:02,742
You immediately think
I'm a bad person,

669
00:39:02,776 --> 00:39:03,743
you immediately
think I'm violent,

670
00:39:03,777 --> 00:39:05,412
or loud, or vulgar.

671
00:39:05,445 --> 00:39:07,580
- Especially me, it might
be a little different.

672
00:39:07,614 --> 00:39:08,548
- Why do you say that?

673
00:39:08,581 --> 00:39:10,450
- 'Cause I'm the big,
black man in the room.

674
00:39:10,483 --> 00:39:11,627
- Bro, we're dark skinned dudes.

675
00:39:11,651 --> 00:39:12,786
- True, true.

676
00:39:12,819 --> 00:39:15,855
- We all hang with
dark skinned males.

677
00:39:15,889 --> 00:39:18,525
- The big black man of America.

678
00:39:18,558 --> 00:39:20,627
It gets deeper,
it gets real deep.

679
00:39:20,660 --> 00:39:21,761
- How deep?

680
00:39:21,795 --> 00:39:22,762
- Like this morning,
for an example.

681
00:39:22,796 --> 00:39:23,897
- Yeah.

682
00:39:23,930 --> 00:39:26,199
- I'm walking with my headphones
in, listening to music.

683
00:39:26,232 --> 00:39:27,543
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

684
00:39:27,567 --> 00:39:31,204
- A lot of white
females walk past me,

685
00:39:31,237 --> 00:39:32,515
and it's like they're
on their guard,

686
00:39:32,539 --> 00:39:33,849
they're holding their
purse like this.

687
00:39:33,873 --> 00:39:34,941
- You've seen it?

688
00:39:34,974 --> 00:39:37,644
- Yeah, face-to-face.
- That happens on the regular.

689
00:39:37,677 --> 00:39:39,479
- And I'm just like,

690
00:39:40,947 --> 00:39:42,916
for what, for what?

691
00:39:42,949 --> 00:39:45,452
- I'm not a big, violent guy,

692
00:39:45,485 --> 00:39:48,521
people have to understand that.

693
00:39:48,555 --> 00:39:50,890
I'm very loving and caring.

694
00:39:50,924 --> 00:39:53,793
And people are looking
at me like I'm a threat.

695
00:39:53,827 --> 00:39:55,762
- Yeah, I dig that.
- I used to wear glasses,

696
00:39:55,795 --> 00:39:57,997
because it makes you an
approachable dude, right?

697
00:39:58,031 --> 00:39:59,666
- You used to wear
them fake glasses?

698
00:39:59,699 --> 00:40:02,902
- Yeah, and I didn't even
have to wear glasses.

699
00:40:04,537 --> 00:40:07,574
I had to go out of my way to
make people feel comfortable

700
00:40:07,607 --> 00:40:09,009
that I'd never meet again.

701
00:40:09,042 --> 00:40:11,478
- Yeah, and I'm tired,
I get tired of that,

702
00:40:11,511 --> 00:40:12,612
you know what I'm saying?

703
00:40:12,645 --> 00:40:15,749
Why do I have to make you
feel comfortable about me,

704
00:40:15,782 --> 00:40:16,683
when I'm not coming in-

705
00:40:16,716 --> 00:40:17,984
- We in the same situation.

706
00:40:18,018 --> 00:40:19,686
- I'm not coming in
with no mal intent.

707
00:40:19,719 --> 00:40:22,689
I'm not coming in with
no type of ill will.

708
00:40:22,722 --> 00:40:25,792
- I'm tired of
having to be intentional

709
00:40:25,825 --> 00:40:28,561
just to show that
my hands are clean.

710
00:40:28,595 --> 00:40:29,863
That's fatiguing.

711
00:40:30,930 --> 00:40:33,600
I'm tired of stepping
on an elevator,

712
00:40:33,633 --> 00:40:35,902
and having people have
to literally clinch.

713
00:40:35,935 --> 00:40:37,704
We have to think
about our blackness

714
00:40:37,737 --> 00:40:41,274
in every intersection
of our lives,

715
00:40:41,307 --> 00:40:43,576
be it a black musician.

716
00:40:43,610 --> 00:40:45,278
- I feel insecure.

717
00:40:45,311 --> 00:40:46,012
- You feel what?

718
00:40:46,046 --> 00:40:47,046
- Insecure.

719
00:40:48,982 --> 00:40:51,051
I didn't do anything to you.

720
00:40:51,084 --> 00:40:53,053
You might have seen
somebody else do something.

721
00:40:53,086 --> 00:40:54,754
But you don't know me, so.

722
00:40:54,788 --> 00:40:56,623
- We just met.

723
00:40:56,656 --> 00:40:58,758
- We didn't even meet,
that's the craziest part.

724
00:40:58,792 --> 00:41:02,304
- I don't even know your
name, first impression, I
don't even know your name and
you're clutching your purse,

725
00:41:02,328 --> 00:41:03,296
walking all fast

726
00:41:03,329 --> 00:41:04,698
- Walking with your head down.

727
00:41:04,731 --> 00:41:06,700
- Exactly, you don't
even know who I am.

728
00:41:06,733 --> 00:41:08,268
Sometimes you have to take it in

729
00:41:08,301 --> 00:41:10,637
and just accept it how it is.

730
00:41:19,946 --> 00:41:21,590
- There's a reason
why Ralph Ellison wrote

731
00:41:21,614 --> 00:41:23,717
about being "The Invisible Man."

732
00:41:23,750 --> 00:41:26,820
Because that's just
a reality, I think,

733
00:41:26,853 --> 00:41:28,588
for black boys in general.

734
00:41:28,621 --> 00:41:31,291
You see that you have
the power to create

735
00:41:31,324 --> 00:41:34,994
a level of fear and
hysteria in white people

736
00:41:35,929 --> 00:41:38,765
that will jeopardize your life.

737
00:41:45,805 --> 00:41:49,909
- I was
walking down the street
with a walking cane

738
00:41:49,943 --> 00:41:53,680
in a neighborhood I'd
lived in for 35 years.

739
00:41:53,713 --> 00:41:57,150
And all of a sudden I'm
facing eight squad cars,

740
00:41:57,183 --> 00:41:59,586
police jumping out
with guns drawn,

741
00:41:59,619 --> 00:42:01,821
because some white woman

742
00:42:01,855 --> 00:42:03,823
looked out her window and said,

743
00:42:03,857 --> 00:42:07,894
"There's a huge black
man in dark glasses

744
00:42:07,927 --> 00:42:11,831
brandishing a rifle
walking down the street."

745
00:42:11,865 --> 00:42:14,968
- As a black man to
see a white woman afraid of you

746
00:42:15,001 --> 00:42:19,039
is one of the most terrifying
things there is, because

747
00:42:19,072 --> 00:42:23,076
history will tell you
how highly regarded

748
00:42:23,109 --> 00:42:25,378
the white woman is in America.

749
00:42:25,412 --> 00:42:28,982
And people have been
hung and lynched just

750
00:42:30,116 --> 00:42:32,952
in the name of
protecting white women.

751
00:42:41,661 --> 00:42:45,632
- So when you see
fear in a white woman's eyes?

752
00:42:48,101 --> 00:42:49,101
- It hurts.

753
00:42:50,437 --> 00:42:53,606
It hurts, it hurts
so bad, I can't.

754
00:42:54,774 --> 00:42:57,410
That's hard to talk about.

755
00:42:57,444 --> 00:43:01,147
Cause it is different
between boys and girls.

756
00:43:03,016 --> 00:43:06,820
Let's save that till
the end, how about that?

757
00:43:09,155 --> 00:43:12,025
- I think it's
the way that the American eye

758
00:43:12,058 --> 00:43:15,395
has been socially
constructed to see black men.

759
00:43:17,897 --> 00:43:20,133
And so it's not
only white women.

760
00:43:20,166 --> 00:43:21,701
It's all of us that
have participated

761
00:43:21,735 --> 00:43:24,137
in this American project, right?

762
00:43:24,170 --> 00:43:27,207
- I want
you to take a look at
some of those stereotypes,

763
00:43:27,240 --> 00:43:29,743
like the one about
Latino men and women,

764
00:43:29,776 --> 00:43:31,878
the one about black men,

765
00:43:31,911 --> 00:43:33,880
some of the ones about
white men and women,

766
00:43:33,913 --> 00:43:35,215
and Asian men and women.

767
00:43:35,248 --> 00:43:37,217
I want us to look at
those stereotypes.

768
00:43:37,250 --> 00:43:39,219
Look at the comments.

769
00:43:39,252 --> 00:43:41,821
And start to think, are
these stereotypes negative,

770
00:43:41,855 --> 00:43:44,457
are they positives here?

771
00:43:44,491 --> 00:43:48,895
Do I agree with them?
Do I disagree with them?

772
00:43:48,928 --> 00:43:51,231
This time we're not gonna
take our sticky notes.

773
00:43:51,264 --> 00:43:52,766
We're just going with our groups

774
00:43:52,799 --> 00:43:55,802
and we're gonna have
those conversations.

775
00:43:55,835 --> 00:43:59,072
- The approach
to education has to
include social justice.

776
00:43:59,105 --> 00:44:02,842
It has to prepare students
to enter the world

777
00:44:02,876 --> 00:44:04,144
where there is no cocoon,

778
00:44:04,177 --> 00:44:08,181
there is no real protection
for students of color.

779
00:44:08,214 --> 00:44:12,285
We can't operate a school
and ignore the realities

780
00:44:12,318 --> 00:44:15,055
that are occurring
on a daily basis.

781
00:44:23,963 --> 00:44:28,735
This is sacred work, we
can't falter, we just can't.

782
00:44:28,768 --> 00:44:33,106
Their very lives are dependent
on it, mostly our own.

783
00:44:42,282 --> 00:44:45,885
- This world built
by men for men to protect them.

784
00:44:45,919 --> 00:44:48,888
Holy war, say amen
with aggression.

785
00:44:49,789 --> 00:44:51,024
Throwin' money out of pocket,

786
00:44:51,057 --> 00:44:51,991
getting intercepted.

787
00:44:52,025 --> 00:44:56,062
Kaepernick could stand
and never get respected.

788
00:44:56,096 --> 00:44:58,965
They were writing history
books down in Texas.

789
00:44:58,998 --> 00:45:00,300
See their systems getting bigger

790
00:45:00,333 --> 00:45:02,202
when you're asking questions.

791
00:45:02,235 --> 00:45:04,204
Who am I to call
myself a blessing,

792
00:45:04,237 --> 00:45:06,973
if the god in my is
constantly getting arrested.

793
00:45:07,007 --> 00:45:09,242
The darker the berry,
the darker the sentence.

794
00:45:09,275 --> 00:45:13,513
I too sing America, so
don't tell me to pipe down,

795
00:45:13,546 --> 00:45:17,117
or sit at a table my granny
used to wipe down, uh!

796
00:45:17,150 --> 00:45:20,020
Fuck a system less
it come with sin.

797
00:45:20,053 --> 00:45:22,555
Look at all the dead bodies
laying on the ground.

798
00:45:22,589 --> 00:45:25,258
But still we rise
like Maya Angelou,

799
00:45:25,291 --> 00:45:27,961
step outside playing D'Angelo.

800
00:45:27,994 --> 00:45:30,130
Chicago smile for Timbuk Two,

801
00:45:30,163 --> 00:45:33,566
not many avenues for us to
live up to, so what you want?

802
00:45:33,600 --> 00:45:35,969
Benjamin or Aretha Franklin?

803
00:45:36,002 --> 00:45:40,073
Respect on your name or
a couple great faces, uh.

804
00:46:05,899 --> 00:46:08,868
- My name is
Malcolm Xavier London.

805
00:46:10,270 --> 00:46:12,605
When my mother was
pregnant with me

806
00:46:12,639 --> 00:46:16,209
she watched Denzel
Washington as Malcolm X.

807
00:46:17,077 --> 00:46:19,012
And in the theater she said,

808
00:46:19,045 --> 00:46:21,181
"That's gonna be
the name of my son."

809
00:46:25,618 --> 00:46:29,122
Baby shoes we only
got 2Cs, 4C, 10C, 11C.

810
00:46:34,361 --> 00:46:38,631
And the youth sizes we
got 6 1/2 or 7 Youth.

811
00:46:38,665 --> 00:46:40,200
Those are the only
sizes we got left,

812
00:46:40,233 --> 00:46:42,969
and I'm so very sorry from
the bottom of my heart.

813
00:46:43,003 --> 00:46:44,437
We've been trying
to organize this.

814
00:46:44,471 --> 00:46:46,439
It's a lot of shoes,
it's a lot of people.

815
00:46:46,473 --> 00:46:49,275
But we will be doing this again.

816
00:46:50,944 --> 00:46:52,388
I grew up on the
west side of Chicago,

817
00:46:52,412 --> 00:46:56,082
which is both all the
things we hear in the news,

818
00:46:56,116 --> 00:46:58,852
and there's also so much more.

819
00:47:00,120 --> 00:47:04,290
The things the world told
me about where I was from

820
00:47:04,324 --> 00:47:06,860
make you not love yourself,

821
00:47:08,161 --> 00:47:10,930
and make you question
your own existence,

822
00:47:10,964 --> 00:47:13,366
and the capabilities of
the people around you

823
00:47:13,400 --> 00:47:15,135
and even yourself.

824
00:47:16,503 --> 00:47:19,172
I'm gonna give you a question.

825
00:47:19,205 --> 00:47:22,142
Person A, person B, I'm
gonna give you a question.

826
00:47:22,175 --> 00:47:25,311
I want person A to ask
person B this question

827
00:47:25,345 --> 00:47:27,113
over and over again.

828
00:47:27,147 --> 00:47:29,983
The person B it's
your job to give

829
00:47:30,016 --> 00:47:31,918
a different answer every time.

830
00:47:31,951 --> 00:47:34,454
And the question
is, who are you?

831
00:47:36,056 --> 00:47:36,923
- Who are you?

832
00:47:36,956 --> 00:47:37,457
- A rapper.

833
00:47:37,490 --> 00:47:38,358
- Who are you?

834
00:47:38,391 --> 00:47:39,259
- A black man.

835
00:47:39,292 --> 00:47:40,126
- Who are you?

836
00:47:40,160 --> 00:47:41,027
- Ambitious teen.

837
00:47:41,061 --> 00:47:41,928
- Who are you?

838
00:47:41,961 --> 00:47:42,462
- A hard worker.

839
00:47:42,495 --> 00:47:43,363
- A little kid.

840
00:47:43,396 --> 00:47:44,264
- Always alone.

841
00:47:44,297 --> 00:47:45,231
- Class clown.

842
00:47:45,265 --> 00:47:46,132
- High school graduate.

843
00:47:46,166 --> 00:47:47,000
- Optimistic.

844
00:47:47,033 --> 00:47:47,967
- Lost.

845
00:47:48,001 --> 00:47:48,935
- Human.
- Troubled.

846
00:47:48,968 --> 00:47:50,303
- Ambitious.
- Broken.

847
00:47:51,237 --> 00:47:52,672
- Who are you?

848
00:47:52,706 --> 00:47:55,308
- Ah.

849
00:47:56,443 --> 00:47:59,012
- Shortly after Trayvon
Martin was killed.

850
00:47:59,045 --> 00:48:00,513
I had a mentor come up with

851
00:48:00,547 --> 00:48:03,450
this idea called
Occupy Whiteness.

852
00:48:05,051 --> 00:48:07,120
And we would go around the city

853
00:48:07,153 --> 00:48:11,958
where folks who look like us
traditionally weren't welcomed.

854
00:48:11,991 --> 00:48:15,028
Now there's no sign in Chicago

855
00:48:15,061 --> 00:48:17,964
that says no blacks
allowed, right?

856
00:48:17,997 --> 00:48:20,700
But there is an aura.

857
00:48:20,734 --> 00:48:24,404
And there is a
policing that happens

858
00:48:24,437 --> 00:48:28,441
that make you feel like
you're not welcome there.

859
00:48:28,475 --> 00:48:31,311
And so we would go
to the art museum,

860
00:48:31,344 --> 00:48:33,980
or the expensive
restaurant downtown,

861
00:48:34,014 --> 00:48:35,448
and just be black as fuck.

862
00:48:39,519 --> 00:48:42,188
- I was in London performing

863
00:48:42,222 --> 00:48:46,526
and it was the week
that both Alton Sterling

864
00:48:46,559 --> 00:48:48,328
was killed in Baton Rouge,

865
00:48:48,361 --> 00:48:53,366
and Philando Castile was
killed outside of Minneapolis.

866
00:48:54,501 --> 00:48:57,037
And I'm in the hotel
room and I just had

867
00:48:57,070 --> 00:48:59,539
this extreme
emotional breakdown,

868
00:48:59,572 --> 00:49:02,008
and I'm just fucking sobbing,

869
00:49:02,042 --> 00:49:04,344
and I can't keep it together.

870
00:49:05,445 --> 00:49:08,114
I feel filthy, I feel
dirty for being black.

871
00:49:08,148 --> 00:49:10,350
I mean I was having nightmares.

872
00:49:10,383 --> 00:49:12,118
I couldn't sleep,
I'm having nightmares

873
00:49:12,152 --> 00:49:15,555
the police are shooting
at me in the alleyway.

874
00:49:17,390 --> 00:49:20,360
- Can I see
your license, please?

875
00:49:20,393 --> 00:49:22,095
Get out of the car,
get out of the car!

876
00:49:26,433 --> 00:49:30,103
Get on the ground!
Get on the ground!

877
00:49:30,136 --> 00:49:32,138
- My mom used
to talk to me about,

878
00:49:32,172 --> 00:49:36,242
yo don't behave this
certain way around police.

879
00:49:36,276 --> 00:49:37,811
Do x, y and z.

880
00:49:37,844 --> 00:49:41,247
And the only space for my
identity was to be perfect.

881
00:49:41,281 --> 00:49:44,217
And if I was not
perfect, I could die.

882
00:49:44,250 --> 00:49:45,294
- I just got my license.

883
00:49:45,318 --> 00:49:47,487
You said get my license.

884
00:49:47,520 --> 00:49:50,323
I grabbed my license right
there, that's my license!

885
00:49:50,357 --> 00:49:51,257
- Put your
hands behind your back,

886
00:49:51,291 --> 00:49:52,258
put your hands behind your back.

887
00:49:52,292 --> 00:49:53,259
Put your hands behind your back.

888
00:49:53,293 --> 00:49:55,328
Put your hands behind your back!

889
00:49:55,362 --> 00:49:56,796
- I can't feel my legs.

890
00:49:56,830 --> 00:49:58,140
I don't know what happened,
I just grabbed my license.

891
00:49:58,164 --> 00:50:00,467
- 866 I need a 1052.

892
00:50:00,500 --> 00:50:03,269
- Why did you,
why did you shoot me?

893
00:50:06,106 --> 00:50:08,808
Slavery was eliminated.

894
00:50:08,842 --> 00:50:13,279
But much of the values,
the cultural sentiments,

895
00:50:13,313 --> 00:50:15,548
the political dispositions,

896
00:50:15,582 --> 00:50:20,453
the perceptions of threat from
black males has persisted.

897
00:50:22,555 --> 00:50:26,359
The control mechanism
has simply gone

898
00:50:26,393 --> 00:50:29,429
from the slave
master to the police.

899
00:50:35,468 --> 00:50:38,672
- People say, "Well
man, are you still scared

900
00:50:38,705 --> 00:50:39,572
of the police?"

901
00:50:39,606 --> 00:50:41,307
Absolutely.

902
00:50:41,341 --> 00:50:43,443
Don't have a police record.

903
00:50:43,476 --> 00:50:46,279
Have a significant amount
of money in my pocket,

904
00:50:46,312 --> 00:50:49,616
don't owe anyone,
haven't done anything.

905
00:50:49,649 --> 00:50:52,585
But I've been raised
to know better.

906
00:50:52,619 --> 00:50:54,154
I've seen too many visuals,

907
00:50:54,187 --> 00:50:55,531
I've seen too many
truths played out.

908
00:50:55,555 --> 00:50:58,525
Not myths, truths played out.

909
00:51:20,714 --> 00:51:24,617
And I can either be 12 years
old in Middletown, Ohio

910
00:51:24,651 --> 00:51:28,521
in the projects, or I
could be on 42nd Street

911
00:51:29,723 --> 00:51:32,692
on the platform catching
the damn D train.

912
00:51:32,726 --> 00:51:36,663
And I'm just as black
now as I was then.

913
00:51:59,352 --> 00:52:01,621
- We feel
vulnerability as black men,

914
00:52:01,654 --> 00:52:05,525
because we've been under
attack from day one.

915
00:52:07,994 --> 00:52:10,430
So weakness is to be feared.

916
00:52:20,407 --> 00:52:22,475
- Why you talk like that?

917
00:52:24,611 --> 00:52:27,280
With fake bass in your voice?

918
00:52:28,448 --> 00:52:30,417
Like you got foundation.

919
00:52:30,450 --> 00:52:32,419
Why you talk like that?

920
00:52:33,687 --> 00:52:38,258
Speak up like police lights
on street posts, up like that.

921
00:52:39,526 --> 00:52:43,763
Like surveillance, like
coffee, black but not strong

922
00:52:44,998 --> 00:52:47,701
like they like they
coffee integrated,

923
00:52:47,734 --> 00:52:52,238
obeying the cream, talk like
a playground in your lungs.

924
00:52:52,272 --> 00:52:54,808
See your tongue
crisp and crossed

925
00:52:54,841 --> 00:52:58,411
like you momma done
raised you on crucifixion.

926
00:52:58,445 --> 00:53:03,216
Like you know she pray you
never come home in a coffin.

927
00:53:12,392 --> 00:53:15,729
- Hey you all.
- This is so many feet.

928
00:53:17,297 --> 00:53:18,474
- Easiest way to get
down is from the way

929
00:53:18,498 --> 00:53:19,532
that I just went down.

930
00:53:19,566 --> 00:53:20,734
- No I don't want to do that.

931
00:53:20,767 --> 00:53:22,802
- Okay.
- It's easy.

932
00:53:22,836 --> 00:53:24,504
- All right, you ready?

933
00:53:24,537 --> 00:53:25,605
- Grab me.

934
00:53:25,638 --> 00:53:27,674
You got to get up.

935
00:53:27,707 --> 00:53:30,343
Yay! - See, I told you.

936
00:53:30,377 --> 00:53:31,487
You did it! I told
you you could do it.

937
00:53:31,511 --> 00:53:33,480
Oh.

938
00:53:33,513 --> 00:53:35,615
That was so funny.

939
00:53:35,648 --> 00:53:37,450
- Okay high now.

940
00:53:37,484 --> 00:53:38,518
- Whoa!
- Oh.

941
00:53:38,551 --> 00:53:39,619
- Blah, blah, blah.

942
00:53:39,652 --> 00:53:41,855
- Okay.
- This thing got big.

943
00:53:41,888 --> 00:53:44,758
- I've had nightmares,
I've had day nightmares,

944
00:53:44,791 --> 00:53:46,559
you know, dreaming.

945
00:53:46,593 --> 00:53:49,796
Not only do we worry about
their physical safety,

946
00:53:49,829 --> 00:53:52,732
but we worry about them
being in a classroom

947
00:53:52,766 --> 00:53:56,636
where they're already
being defined as deviant,

948
00:53:56,670 --> 00:53:58,772
they're already being
defined as criminal.

949
00:53:58,805 --> 00:54:02,375
They're already
being defined as not,

950
00:54:02,409 --> 00:54:05,478
potentially not having the
same intellectual capacity

951
00:54:05,512 --> 00:54:07,681
as their white classmates.

952
00:54:07,714 --> 00:54:10,083
So their emotional and
their intellectual selves

953
00:54:10,116 --> 00:54:12,686
are also at harm, you know?

954
00:54:19,793 --> 00:54:23,329
- Nope, watch out
for the baby, Camari!

955
00:54:29,369 --> 00:54:31,104
- Sorry.

956
00:54:31,137 --> 00:54:32,472
He is going kind of fast.

957
00:54:32,505 --> 00:54:35,675
- Yeah, a little bit.

958
00:54:35,709 --> 00:54:37,677
- Everywhere I go,
people are always like,

959
00:54:37,711 --> 00:54:41,481
"You know your son, he's
like a beam of light."

960
00:54:41,514 --> 00:54:43,783
Anytime that I can hear that,

961
00:54:43,817 --> 00:54:47,554
counters anytime
where I feel fearful.

962
00:54:47,587 --> 00:54:48,521
- Watch out!

963
00:54:48,555 --> 00:54:49,632
- She's so independent, too.

964
00:54:49,656 --> 00:54:51,458
She's not intimidated.

965
00:54:54,894 --> 00:54:56,429
- I lay down.

966
00:55:09,476 --> 00:55:12,379
- Where I come
from cats commit crimes a lot

967
00:55:12,412 --> 00:55:13,947
because they have
to, or they feel like

968
00:55:13,980 --> 00:55:16,516
they have no other choice.

969
00:55:16,549 --> 00:55:20,820
- We've been
assigned to these areas
that are poorly funded.

970
00:55:20,854 --> 00:55:22,655
The schools are not
funded the same way

971
00:55:22,689 --> 00:55:24,491
that the white schools are.

972
00:55:24,524 --> 00:55:27,761
Access to clean food
and infrastructure,

973
00:55:28,762 --> 00:55:30,597
filling up the
potholes doesn't happen

974
00:55:30,630 --> 00:55:32,966
the same way in our communities.

975
00:55:32,999 --> 00:55:35,402
- And I always
felt like if people knew

976
00:55:35,435 --> 00:55:37,671
that it's a revolving door,

977
00:55:37,704 --> 00:55:42,509
my education was subpar,
and then I sold drugs.

978
00:55:42,542 --> 00:55:45,945
And now I got arrested and
then couldn't get a job.

979
00:55:45,979 --> 00:55:51,384
If they could hear this
story they could change it.

980
00:55:52,218 --> 00:55:53,620
But then you learn
that the world

981
00:55:53,653 --> 00:55:55,955
isn't just not listening,

982
00:55:55,989 --> 00:55:59,592
but they're deliberately
not listening.

983
00:55:59,626 --> 00:56:03,596
- These
young black men are
not born like that.

984
00:56:04,664 --> 00:56:07,634
This society puts
them in a situation

985
00:56:07,667 --> 00:56:10,537
where that becomes a patterned,

986
00:56:10,570 --> 00:56:12,772
coping mechanism for survival.

987
00:56:16,810 --> 00:56:18,930
- I remember someone
distinctively in my life.

988
00:56:19,245 --> 00:56:20,747
I was in 7th grade.

989
00:56:20,780 --> 00:56:23,550
And a young man that was
in the 7th grade with me,

990
00:56:23,583 --> 00:56:25,719
and he got into a
neighborhood fight,

991
00:56:25,752 --> 00:56:27,554
and he ended up getting killed.

992
00:56:29,889 --> 00:56:33,660
And so we went from playing
basketball as young men,

993
00:56:33,693 --> 00:56:36,463
to now knowing that we
could really be hurt

994
00:56:36,496 --> 00:56:38,832
and never come back from that.

995
00:56:40,567 --> 00:56:43,603
And so at that moment it
was like a shift for me,

996
00:56:43,636 --> 00:56:46,806
because I did not want to
be in those circumstances,

997
00:56:46,840 --> 00:56:48,675
and I didn't want to be hung.

998
00:56:48,708 --> 00:56:50,844
And so I adapted to that

999
00:56:50,877 --> 00:56:53,580
and became more
dangerous as a youth.

1000
00:56:53,613 --> 00:56:58,051
And my life took on a trajectory
of its own because of that.

1001
00:57:01,988 --> 00:57:04,233
- I live through
this, and the only thing they do

1002
00:57:04,257 --> 00:57:06,860
they sit on this block
and we do all this stuff

1003
00:57:06,893 --> 00:57:09,596
that we do, 'cause that's
the only thing we saw.

1004
00:57:09,629 --> 00:57:11,698
Nine times out of 10 it's
really not what you want,

1005
00:57:11,731 --> 00:57:14,634
but sometimes at a
certain point in time

1006
00:57:14,668 --> 00:57:18,672
you're already caught up
in it, you can't get out.

1007
00:57:18,705 --> 00:57:21,741
There ain't no runnin'
away from the streets.

1008
00:57:22,909 --> 00:57:23,843
- Are we like lions in a cage?

1009
00:57:23,877 --> 00:57:24,811
Say it's two lions in a cage.

1010
00:57:24,844 --> 00:57:28,615
Me and my brother, I'm
gonna find a way to eat.

1011
00:57:28,648 --> 00:57:29,859
So what I'm gonna
do is I'm gonna hurt

1012
00:57:29,883 --> 00:57:31,584
my brother so I can eat.

1013
00:57:31,618 --> 00:57:32,928
And it's like, oh they
see it on the outside

1014
00:57:32,952 --> 00:57:33,920
that's the only thing
we're portrayed on

1015
00:57:33,953 --> 00:57:35,522
on the news, like we're violent.

1016
00:57:35,555 --> 00:57:37,924
- The problem in this
case is the cage.

1017
00:57:37,957 --> 00:57:39,859
Like when you're in the
cage, you're a lion,

1018
00:57:39,893 --> 00:57:41,895
you're big, you need your space.

1019
00:57:41,928 --> 00:57:43,539
There's nothing you can
do about the other one,

1020
00:57:43,563 --> 00:57:44,740
you're gonna have to fight them.

1021
00:57:44,764 --> 00:57:46,733
Nobody's considering why
they're getting pushed

1022
00:57:46,766 --> 00:57:49,602
to the projects, and why they
have to act the way they do.

1023
00:57:49,636 --> 00:57:52,839
- You're growing up,
you're in those neighborhoods,

1024
00:57:52,872 --> 00:57:56,876
seeing alcoholics, seeing
drug addicts, seeing murders.

1025
00:57:56,910 --> 00:57:59,612
And you have these
feelings that's so consumed

1026
00:57:59,646 --> 00:58:02,682
and so tight inside
of a little boy.

1027
00:58:03,750 --> 00:58:05,618
And you become a product
of that environment,

1028
00:58:05,652 --> 00:58:07,854
and everybody around
you is kind of dealing

1029
00:58:07,887 --> 00:58:09,622
with the same thing.

1030
00:58:09,656 --> 00:58:10,933
- And then we
grow into adulthood

1031
00:58:10,957 --> 00:58:13,760
and the kids' fights
start escalating

1032
00:58:13,793 --> 00:58:15,929
into people getting shot
at, people getting stabbed,

1033
00:58:15,962 --> 00:58:17,097
people getting killed.

1034
00:58:17,130 --> 00:58:18,698
You've got a whole
bunch of resentful

1035
00:58:18,732 --> 00:58:19,942
young, black men that have just

1036
00:58:19,966 --> 00:58:23,570
been mentally pummeled
their whole life.

1037
00:58:24,704 --> 00:58:26,806
And the worst has
been expected of them,

1038
00:58:26,840 --> 00:58:29,642
and everybody becomes a victim.

1039
00:58:30,877 --> 00:58:34,547
- There were 14
and 15 year old kids that I knew

1040
00:58:35,615 --> 00:58:37,017
who were going down
and picking out

1041
00:58:37,050 --> 00:58:39,352
the clothes that they
wanted to be buried in.

1042
00:58:39,386 --> 00:58:40,920
- What is it like

1043
00:58:40,954 --> 00:58:44,124
to go to a funeral
at such a young age?

1044
00:59:04,010 --> 00:59:05,045
- I think...

1045
00:59:11,117 --> 00:59:12,117
I don't

1046
00:59:13,253 --> 00:59:18,591
know if I've interrogated my
own trauma enough to tell you.

1047
00:59:27,667 --> 00:59:30,670
What I noticed is
that in the world,

1048
00:59:30,704 --> 00:59:32,806
how it responds to death.

1049
00:59:33,907 --> 00:59:37,744
And where I'm from,
there isn't much of one.

1050
00:59:42,849 --> 00:59:46,720
I think for me it was
recognizing that oh, shit,

1051
00:59:46,753 --> 00:59:48,822
nobody cares when we die.

1052
00:59:54,027 --> 00:59:55,738
- Are you
surprised that you guys

1053
00:59:55,762 --> 00:59:59,799
eventually decided not
to go to the White House?

1054
01:00:02,902 --> 01:00:05,171
What aren't we listening to?

1055
01:00:09,175 --> 01:00:12,212
- You started see
these images over and over.

1056
01:00:12,245 --> 01:00:14,748
You have people losing their
lives at the hand of police.

1057
01:00:14,781 --> 01:00:17,217
And it was in 2016
with Philando Castile,

1058
01:00:17,250 --> 01:00:20,887
and Alton Sterling, that it
was just enough was enough.

1059
01:00:23,289 --> 01:00:26,793
I wanted to know how do I, as
an athlete use my platform,

1060
01:00:26,826 --> 01:00:28,895
a voice to draw
attention to these things

1061
01:00:28,928 --> 01:00:32,165
and be a bridge to
reconcile this thing.

1062
01:00:34,801 --> 01:00:36,803
- During the
Freddie Gray situation,

1063
01:00:36,836 --> 01:00:39,239
well I first saw him, oh I
have to do something, right?

1064
01:00:39,272 --> 01:00:42,809
Let me see what I can
do by my presence,

1065
01:00:42,842 --> 01:00:45,779
by my influence, by my voice.

1066
01:00:49,149 --> 01:00:51,151
And I get there
and you can feel,

1067
01:00:51,184 --> 01:00:53,253
you can feel the tension.

1068
01:00:54,754 --> 01:00:56,723
You can feel the death.

1069
01:00:57,957 --> 01:00:59,893
It felt like I was in a cloud.

1070
01:00:59,926 --> 01:01:02,228
Just a dark, dark, dark space.

1071
01:01:04,798 --> 01:01:06,499
That's what I felt
by being there.

1072
01:01:06,533 --> 01:01:09,002
I also felt that being
on that front line

1073
01:01:09,035 --> 01:01:11,805
with my community,
those people felt

1074
01:01:11,838 --> 01:01:13,173
that I was a part of them.

1075
01:01:13,206 --> 01:01:16,242
And I will forever
be a part of them.

1076
01:01:18,311 --> 01:01:19,922
- It was right
after Charlottesville,

1077
01:01:19,946 --> 01:01:22,115
and I just decided, hey
I got to do something.

1078
01:01:22,148 --> 01:01:23,826
Malc, do you mind if I put
my arm around you during

1079
01:01:23,850 --> 01:01:26,186
the anthem, I don't want
to steal your spotlight.

1080
01:01:26,219 --> 01:01:27,496
I don't want to be center stage,

1081
01:01:27,520 --> 01:01:29,089
I want to be there with you.

1082
01:01:29,122 --> 01:01:31,124
And just tell you that
hey a lot of people

1083
01:01:31,157 --> 01:01:33,093
that look like me,
we can be there,

1084
01:01:33,126 --> 01:01:36,129
and we agree with what
you're protesting.

1085
01:01:36,162 --> 01:01:37,897
- Only think
that Colin Kaepernick

1086
01:01:37,931 --> 01:01:40,233
and other black
athletes have said,

1087
01:01:40,266 --> 01:01:42,202
"Please just don't shoot us."

1088
01:01:42,235 --> 01:01:45,038
That's literally the
basis of the message.

1089
01:01:45,071 --> 01:01:47,774
Don't shoot us
while we're unarmed.

1090
01:01:47,807 --> 01:01:49,876
Don't beat us when
we're unarmed.

1091
01:01:49,909 --> 01:01:51,945
Don't physically
violate us in ways

1092
01:01:51,978 --> 01:01:55,048
when we're unarmed,
or do so in a way

1093
01:01:56,316 --> 01:02:00,120
that is so overly physical,
and out of bounds compared

1094
01:02:00,153 --> 01:02:03,123
to how you deal
with other citizens.

1095
01:02:03,156 --> 01:02:05,058
They're just asking for dignity,

1096
01:02:05,091 --> 01:02:08,094
and fairness and accountability.

1097
01:02:08,128 --> 01:02:11,331
Which you would think
all of us would want.

1098
01:02:11,364 --> 01:02:15,001
- [Malcolm} James Baldwin said,
"To be a negro in this country

1099
01:02:15,035 --> 01:02:20,006
and to be relatively conscious
means that you are enraged

1100
01:02:20,607 --> 01:02:22,008
almost all the time."

1101
01:02:23,076 --> 01:02:24,556
- We've been angry for long.

1102
01:02:25,378 --> 01:02:30,083
And we're angry because of
the notion that we do love.

1103
01:02:31,184 --> 01:02:32,118
We love our community.

1104
01:02:32,152 --> 01:02:36,022
We love our black boys
and our black girls.

1105
01:02:36,056 --> 01:02:39,159
- When Malcolm
Jenkins raises a fist,

1106
01:02:39,192 --> 01:02:41,294
when Kaepernick takes a
knee during the playing

1107
01:02:41,327 --> 01:02:44,197
of the National Anthem,
when Smith and Carlos raise

1108
01:02:44,230 --> 01:02:48,902
a fist during the playing
of the National Anthem.

1109
01:02:48,935 --> 01:02:51,938
That's not against
the National Anthem,

1110
01:02:51,971 --> 01:02:55,108
that's a statement
of faith in America

1111
01:02:57,010 --> 01:02:59,979
that we're better than
what we are doing.

1112
01:03:00,013 --> 01:03:02,182
That we better than
what black people

1113
01:03:02,215 --> 01:03:04,951
and black males
are experiencing.

1114
01:03:04,984 --> 01:03:07,320
That we are better than that.

1115
01:03:10,056 --> 01:03:12,926
- Using your voice
seems like a simple concept.

1116
01:03:12,959 --> 01:03:15,195
But we've also, as black men,

1117
01:03:15,228 --> 01:03:19,065
have seen tons of examples
of what that can bring you.

1118
01:03:19,099 --> 01:03:21,901
And there is a danger to that.

1119
01:03:21,935 --> 01:03:24,037
And it's the old trick
is those who actually

1120
01:03:24,070 --> 01:03:26,306
have the knowledge,
and self awareness

1121
01:03:26,339 --> 01:03:28,208
that you speak up and fight up.

1122
01:03:28,241 --> 01:03:30,310
And you have to get
rid of those people.

1123
01:03:34,114 --> 01:03:37,250
- The effect is
to silence the player.

1124
01:03:38,218 --> 01:03:39,953
Because now you can't speak.

1125
01:03:39,986 --> 01:03:41,287
- Throwing this in the fire,

1126
01:03:41,321 --> 01:03:44,991
because Colin Kaepernick
is now the face of Nike.

1127
01:03:45,025 --> 01:03:47,370
- You see
what happens to Colin
Kaepernick and Eric Reed.

1128
01:03:47,394 --> 01:03:51,097
You saw what happened
when players challenge

1129
01:03:51,131 --> 01:03:53,400
this authoritarian narrative.

1130
01:03:54,934 --> 01:03:57,037
They lose their jobs,
they lose their careers.

1131
01:03:58,938 --> 01:04:01,908
- Could you hold it
up again? We couldn't see it.

1132
01:04:03,443 --> 01:04:05,912
- What aren't we listening to?

1133
01:04:06,913 --> 01:04:08,357
- When I say
you aren't listening,

1134
01:04:08,381 --> 01:04:11,084
it's because I don't
want to talk about things

1135
01:04:11,117 --> 01:04:12,252
that don't matter.

1136
01:04:14,087 --> 01:04:18,324
And everything is asked except
for why are you protesting?

1137
01:04:19,959 --> 01:04:22,079
They'll ask you, "What do
you think about the troops?"

1138
01:04:23,296 --> 01:04:25,432
It's not about the troops,
it's about systemic racism,

1139
01:04:25,465 --> 01:04:28,201
it's about a lack of education,
a lack of equal housing.

1140
01:04:28,234 --> 01:04:29,936
Well, what do you
think about Trump?

1141
01:04:31,304 --> 01:04:32,172
It has nothing to do with him.

1142
01:04:32,205 --> 01:04:34,974
It's all about our
criminal justice system,

1143
01:04:35,008 --> 01:04:37,977
systemic racism,
our school systems.

1144
01:04:38,011 --> 01:04:40,013
And then they'll continue
to go down this road,

1145
01:04:40,046 --> 01:04:45,051
and the conversation is about
everything but these issues.

1146
01:04:46,119 --> 01:04:47,430
And so, when I say
you aren't listening,

1147
01:04:47,454 --> 01:04:50,023
it's trying to
force people to deal

1148
01:04:50,056 --> 01:04:53,393
with what is actually
happening to real Americans

1149
01:04:53,426 --> 01:04:55,295
on a daily basis.

1150
01:05:01,067 --> 01:05:04,504
- So, I believe that
all the things that we are,

1151
01:05:04,537 --> 01:05:07,474
from our history
to where we live,

1152
01:05:09,042 --> 01:05:11,177
it impacts us, it influences us.

1153
01:05:11,211 --> 01:05:15,715
And so I want you to write,
I am, or I come from.

1154
01:05:15,749 --> 01:05:18,318
Essentially I want you
to tell me who you are,

1155
01:05:18,351 --> 01:05:20,220
and where you come from.

1156
01:05:20,253 --> 01:05:23,323
And then we'll read around
if you would all like

1157
01:05:23,356 --> 01:05:25,158
for 10, 15 minutes.

1158
01:05:32,032 --> 01:05:33,299
- I come from the city of pain

1159
01:05:33,333 --> 01:05:35,101
where it's kill or be killed,

1160
01:05:35,135 --> 01:05:37,070
where it barely
snow, but it rain.

1161
01:05:37,103 --> 01:05:39,239
Corner junkies smell
like liquor and beer.

1162
01:05:39,272 --> 01:05:41,274
That's all I wrote.

1163
01:05:41,307 --> 01:05:44,144
- I come from people
drinking and smoking outside.

1164
01:05:44,177 --> 01:05:47,113
I am a band of builders
churches and schools.

1165
01:05:47,147 --> 01:05:49,783
I am mom's meatloaf
and mashed potatoes.

1166
01:05:49,816 --> 01:05:53,219
I come from a broken
family. I am a felon.

1167
01:05:53,253 --> 01:05:55,789
I come from selfishness.
I am a weapon.

1168
01:05:55,822 --> 01:05:57,357
- Where you come from?

1169
01:05:57,390 --> 01:06:00,093
I come from poverty
in all honesty,

1170
01:06:00,126 --> 01:06:03,229
the neighborhood and the
city that's incriminated.

1171
01:06:03,263 --> 01:06:04,230
Where you come from?

1172
01:06:04,264 --> 01:06:05,498
The brains of the projects

1173
01:06:05,532 --> 01:06:07,600
and in a low income two flats.

1174
01:06:07,634 --> 01:06:09,069
Where you come from?

1175
01:06:09,102 --> 01:06:10,570
Englewood, a place of sorrow,

1176
01:06:10,603 --> 01:06:13,173
where some people
don't see tomorrow.

1177
01:06:13,206 --> 01:06:15,775
Where I come from is a
good with bad intensions

1178
01:06:15,809 --> 01:06:19,379
and influences on
different dimensions.

1179
01:06:19,412 --> 01:06:22,148
- I still can recall the
night when my bloods died,

1180
01:06:22,182 --> 01:06:25,318
my eyes stay red like hot fries.

1181
01:06:25,352 --> 01:06:27,821
Even underwater I
couldn't stop crying,

1182
01:06:27,854 --> 01:06:30,590
was healthy, but you can't
tell me I was not dyin'.

1183
01:06:30,623 --> 01:06:33,460
Picked up a pen back then
and I ain't stopped writing.

1184
01:06:33,493 --> 01:06:36,129
And I am no rug, I am not lying,

1185
01:06:36,162 --> 01:06:37,130
took a step on on that ladder

1186
01:06:37,163 --> 01:06:38,498
and I haven't stopped climbing.

1187
01:06:38,531 --> 01:06:41,468
Was healthy, but you can
tell me I was knocked down.

1188
01:06:41,501 --> 01:06:43,470
Growing up, everybody
was friends,

1189
01:06:43,503 --> 01:06:46,272
later we separated
like Siamese twins.

1190
01:06:46,306 --> 01:06:48,475
And I'll be damned if
they say leak or fake,

1191
01:06:48,508 --> 01:06:51,644
I just want to feel my family
put a smile on my face.

1192
01:06:51,678 --> 01:06:54,414
Slipping, but I got to hold on.

1193
01:06:54,447 --> 01:06:55,615
How are you allowed to hate?

1194
01:06:55,648 --> 01:06:58,518
That an oxymoron,
so please everybody.

1195
01:06:58,551 --> 01:07:00,553
I would need four arms
just trying to find my way

1196
01:07:00,587 --> 01:07:02,522
in this world with no OnStar.

1197
01:07:02,555 --> 01:07:04,824
I'm on my ground, so I
pray you're on yours.

1198
01:07:04,858 --> 01:07:07,160
They sleeping on me, but
I don't mind the snores,

1199
01:07:07,193 --> 01:07:10,397
'cause no matter what I'm gonna
rap my city it's on the map,

1200
01:07:10,430 --> 01:07:13,400
so they gonna respect my
city 'cause it's Chiraq.

1201
01:07:13,433 --> 01:07:15,568
To the death my city,
brain damage will make

1202
01:07:15,602 --> 01:07:17,437
me forget my city.

1203
01:07:17,470 --> 01:07:20,106
Can't stop the hustle til
I'm famous at deaf people

1204
01:07:20,140 --> 01:07:22,175
while saying my verses
in sign language.

1205
01:07:22,208 --> 01:07:24,377
And everybody with me
gonna eat when I make it,

1206
01:07:24,411 --> 01:07:27,113
so then all the criticism,
give it, I don't take it.

1207
01:07:27,147 --> 01:07:28,481
This is truth music.

1208
01:07:28,515 --> 01:07:30,483
No lies included, that's me.

1209
01:07:31,651 --> 01:07:35,221
- Hey go crazy, bro.
- Hey dig.

1210
01:07:39,626 --> 01:07:41,261
I was hoping you
had something dope

1211
01:07:41,294 --> 01:07:42,862
on all them pieces of paper.

1212
01:07:42,896 --> 01:07:45,465
He was right. - He put me right.

1213
01:08:06,453 --> 01:08:08,254
- I have a question.

1214
01:08:08,288 --> 01:08:10,357
Have any of you ever
cried at a movie?

1215
01:08:10,390 --> 01:08:12,258
- Yes, I did.

1216
01:08:12,292 --> 01:08:14,494
I cried when I went
to go see "Coco."

1217
01:08:14,527 --> 01:08:16,229
- I heard about it.
- Yeah.

1218
01:08:16,262 --> 01:08:17,364
- Which part?

1219
01:08:17,397 --> 01:08:20,266
- The last part, you know
the granny she never talked.

1220
01:08:20,300 --> 01:08:21,501
She was just out of it.

1221
01:08:21,534 --> 01:08:22,502
- Oh when she was
singing, "I remember me."

1222
01:08:22,535 --> 01:08:23,370
- And then when they give.

1223
01:08:23,403 --> 01:08:24,403
Yeah. - Okay, yeah.

1224
01:08:26,206 --> 01:08:28,908
And she starting singing
with the grandson.

1225
01:08:28,942 --> 01:08:30,577
It's sad... The way he did it,

1226
01:08:30,610 --> 01:08:32,312
the way he did it
was definitely hard.

1227
01:08:32,345 --> 01:08:35,348
- I was literally emotional,
I was like,.

1228
01:08:35,382 --> 01:08:39,185
- And the ugly cry, just have
the Michael Jordan going.

1229
01:08:39,219 --> 01:08:43,390
- When I saw "Coco" that
was emotional I mean,

1230
01:08:43,423 --> 01:08:44,533
what can I say?
- Like people told me

1231
01:08:44,557 --> 01:08:45,701
it made me cry, I
didn't believe them.

1232
01:08:45,725 --> 01:08:47,527
- Anyone with a heart
should cry to that.

1233
01:08:47,560 --> 01:08:50,196
Like should shed
a tear at least.

1234
01:08:50,230 --> 01:08:51,407
I hope nobody at
school sees this.

1235
01:08:51,431 --> 01:08:52,508
You're trippin' now.

1236
01:08:52,532 --> 01:08:56,302
- They are.

1237
01:09:00,807 --> 01:09:02,652
- I'll sit my butt right
here, thank you very much.

1238
01:09:02,676 --> 01:09:04,220
- Well talk about Blank Panther.

1239
01:09:04,244 --> 01:09:06,680
So what did that
movie mean to you?

1240
01:09:06,713 --> 01:09:09,683
- Hey! The first
time, we were, who?

1241
01:09:09,716 --> 01:09:10,717
- I saw it in Seattle.

1242
01:09:10,750 --> 01:09:11,718
- We were in Seattle.

1243
01:09:11,751 --> 01:09:13,553
- We see the text open 1992.

1244
01:09:13,586 --> 01:09:16,423
- Oh! We went wild
that was crazy,

1245
01:09:16,456 --> 01:09:18,291
because we know where it's at!

1246
01:09:18,324 --> 01:09:21,661
We know the area and
we know it's Oakland.

1247
01:09:23,263 --> 01:09:25,298
I mean, I thought
it was beautiful.

1248
01:09:25,331 --> 01:09:27,434
- Yeah.
- It showed the equality

1249
01:09:27,467 --> 01:09:29,602
that everybody had, you know?

1250
01:09:29,636 --> 01:09:31,314
There wasn't no division,
everybody went together.

1251
01:09:31,338 --> 01:09:32,381
Now he did have that one cousin,

1252
01:09:32,405 --> 01:09:33,573
but he was from America.

1253
01:09:33,606 --> 01:09:35,508
- Oh he was.

1254
01:09:35,542 --> 01:09:37,544
- You had that one cousin.

1255
01:09:37,577 --> 01:09:41,581
- When you think about it the
key motto just represented,

1256
01:09:41,614 --> 01:09:44,517
if a child does not feel
the warmth of a village

1257
01:09:44,551 --> 01:09:47,587
he'll burn the village
down to feel warm.

1258
01:09:47,620 --> 01:09:49,522
So... I heard about it.

1259
01:09:50,623 --> 01:09:53,526
- That really connected to me.
- That's deep.

1260
01:09:53,560 --> 01:09:55,295
- It was just anger
every time he spoke,

1261
01:09:55,328 --> 01:09:56,429
whether it was to T'Challa,

1262
01:09:56,463 --> 01:09:58,765
whether to say, "Hey, Auntie,"
whether it was to Zuri,

1263
01:09:58,798 --> 01:10:00,266
or the people who are tending

1264
01:10:00,300 --> 01:10:01,668
to the Garden of
the Heart-Shaped.

1265
01:10:01,701 --> 01:10:03,703
It was always anger.

1266
01:10:03,737 --> 01:10:05,548
It wasn't directly towards
them it was just towards

1267
01:10:05,572 --> 01:10:08,008
the world for taking away
his only sense of love,

1268
01:10:08,041 --> 01:10:09,476
which was his father.

1269
01:10:09,509 --> 01:10:13,546
- How many
of you have single moms?

1270
01:10:18,685 --> 01:10:20,820
- We sort of talked
about earlier like,

1271
01:10:20,854 --> 01:10:22,489
if you could tell
the world right now

1272
01:10:22,522 --> 01:10:25,759
what black boys
need in this moment,

1273
01:10:25,792 --> 01:10:27,794
what do you think it is?

1274
01:10:28,795 --> 01:10:30,397
- Guidance.

1275
01:10:30,430 --> 01:10:31,430
- Guidance.

1276
01:10:32,365 --> 01:10:34,501
From whom? - Other men.

1277
01:10:34,534 --> 01:10:36,369
- All right from each other.

1278
01:10:36,403 --> 01:10:38,038
- I think maybe a mentor.

1279
01:10:38,071 --> 01:10:39,673
A lot of kids

1280
01:10:39,706 --> 01:10:41,441
they start out bad
already because of

1281
01:10:41,474 --> 01:10:42,885
the neighborhoods
that they grew up in.

1282
01:10:42,909 --> 01:10:45,745
But that could still, I
believe the younger kids

1283
01:10:45,779 --> 01:10:47,089
that they had mentoring
by the right people

1284
01:10:47,113 --> 01:10:49,049
they could still like grow up.

1285
01:10:49,082 --> 01:10:51,584
Like not have the
world is right now.

1286
01:10:51,618 --> 01:10:53,329
Because they be giving
up on the young kids.

1287
01:10:53,353 --> 01:10:54,764
As soon as they hit
like 8, 9, they be like,

1288
01:10:54,788 --> 01:10:57,524
well, he gonna be in
jail when he get out

1289
01:10:57,557 --> 01:10:59,092
of elementary
school, high school.

1290
01:10:59,125 --> 01:11:01,394
So I feel that they didn't
give up on us so bad,

1291
01:11:01,428 --> 01:11:03,430
we had a lot more mentor
programs, a lot of kids

1292
01:11:03,463 --> 01:11:05,532
it's be changed and different.

1293
01:11:05,565 --> 01:11:07,367
- I don't know I just say

1294
01:11:07,400 --> 01:11:10,070
they probably need a father
figure in their life.

1295
01:11:10,103 --> 01:11:11,604
Maybe someone that
could mentor them,

1296
01:11:11,638 --> 01:11:14,674
like he said to help
them, I don't know.

1297
01:11:23,683 --> 01:11:26,820
- The beauty of
mentoring, it's really
about relationship.

1298
01:11:26,853 --> 01:11:31,624
And at the heart of what we
all need in our development

1299
01:11:33,660 --> 01:11:37,597
is a healthy relationship
with a caring adult.

1300
01:11:38,932 --> 01:11:41,801
I distinctly remember
in kindergarten

1301
01:11:42,969 --> 01:11:46,573
kids teasing me
about my skin color,

1302
01:11:46,606 --> 01:11:48,641
saying that I was dirty.

1303
01:11:50,744 --> 01:11:54,414
And I remember coming
home to tell my mom that.

1304
01:11:54,447 --> 01:11:58,718
And my favorite cereal
was Cinnamon Life cereal,

1305
01:11:58,752 --> 01:12:01,588
and my mom told me
that I was cinnamon.

1306
01:12:01,621 --> 01:12:03,923
And I remember being so happy.

1307
01:12:05,525 --> 01:12:08,628
And it was important
that she took this moment

1308
01:12:08,661 --> 01:12:11,464
of being harassed and teased,

1309
01:12:11,498 --> 01:12:14,134
and tried to give me a
positive self identity.

1310
01:12:14,167 --> 01:12:17,537
And I worry that some
kids don't have someone

1311
01:12:17,570 --> 01:12:18,738
who's doing that for them,

1312
01:12:18,772 --> 01:12:21,641
helping them build
positive identity.

1313
01:12:25,512 --> 01:12:27,914
If you don't have that then
you end up internalizing

1314
01:12:27,947 --> 01:12:30,917
that racism, that
bias from others.

1315
01:12:37,824 --> 01:12:40,760
- It's vulnerable, it is
vulnerable for us too,

1316
01:12:40,794 --> 01:12:44,898
because we know that to
raise black boys that are,

1317
01:12:44,931 --> 01:12:47,567
that express their
emotions, right,

1318
01:12:47,600 --> 01:12:49,769
or that cry when they're sad.

1319
01:12:49,803 --> 01:12:52,539
Or have all the spectrum of joy,

1320
01:12:52,572 --> 01:12:54,507
then that means that
they're open to all

1321
01:12:54,541 --> 01:12:56,776
the things that other
folks are gonna say.

1322
01:12:56,810 --> 01:12:57,744
- Yeah.

1323
01:12:57,777 --> 01:13:00,647
- They're open to the
harm and the harsh words

1324
01:13:00,680 --> 01:13:02,949
and actions of other people.

1325
01:13:11,491 --> 01:13:13,660
- So, if you're willing

1326
01:13:13,693 --> 01:13:15,995
I want to return to this

1327
01:13:16,029 --> 01:13:18,698
idea of a white female's fear.

1328
01:13:21,067 --> 01:13:22,535
- Yeah, okay.

1329
01:13:24,804 --> 01:13:26,506
So my mom's white.

1330
01:13:28,775 --> 01:13:31,978
I go home everyday
I see a white woman.

1331
01:13:33,046 --> 01:13:37,017
A white woman raised
me, washed my clothes,

1332
01:13:37,050 --> 01:13:40,687
picked me off the
ground whenever I fell.

1333
01:13:40,720 --> 01:13:41,831
That will hug and
tell me she loves me

1334
01:13:41,855 --> 01:13:43,823
every time she sees me.

1335
01:13:54,067 --> 01:13:58,004
I guess you could say
general energy projected

1336
01:13:59,272 --> 01:14:02,842
from white women that
don't know me, just,

1337
01:14:04,577 --> 01:14:06,913
I see this fear in their eyes.

1338
01:14:08,748 --> 01:14:11,718
This fear that I
can't imagine that

1339
01:14:13,687 --> 01:14:17,290
a black boy has
incited in her before,

1340
01:14:17,323 --> 01:14:20,860
so why does she look
at me like that?

1341
01:14:20,894 --> 01:14:24,831
It's just so hard to
talk, to open up to them.

1342
01:14:26,766 --> 01:14:30,804
Just how I've just perceived
them perceiving me.

1343
01:14:33,306 --> 01:14:37,844
And I've just, it's just
so different from my mom.

1344
01:14:37,877 --> 01:14:40,814
I never scare her,
she's my mother.

1345
01:14:41,915 --> 01:14:42,882
- What do you want to say

1346
01:14:42,916 --> 01:14:44,918
to the black boy in you?

1347
01:14:46,853 --> 01:14:48,621
- I forgive myself.

1348
01:14:49,923 --> 01:14:53,526
I forgive myself for
giving up at times.

1349
01:14:54,594 --> 01:14:56,896
For believing what the
people said about me,

1350
01:14:56,930 --> 01:14:59,599
I forgive myself, you know?

1351
01:14:59,632 --> 01:15:00,632
Because

1352
01:15:01,601 --> 01:15:04,571
there's nothing wrong with me.

1353
01:15:04,604 --> 01:15:05,681
I was told something
was wrong with me,

1354
01:15:05,705 --> 01:15:08,908
there's nothing wrong with me.

1355
01:15:08,942 --> 01:15:10,844
And not to be ashamed.

1356
01:15:12,712 --> 01:15:15,648
There's nothing wrong with us.

1357
01:15:15,682 --> 01:15:19,352
- It's not black boys
that really have to change,

1358
01:15:19,386 --> 01:15:24,124
or be the one responsible
for changing this nation.

1359
01:15:24,157 --> 01:15:27,027
This country needs
to put the mirror up

1360
01:15:27,060 --> 01:15:29,929
and do the changing,
and until that happens,

1361
01:15:29,963 --> 01:15:31,865
we're still gonna be
having this conversation.

1362
01:15:36,903 --> 01:15:38,614
- We're passing this
stuff on from generation,

1363
01:15:38,638 --> 01:15:40,140
to generation, to generation.

1364
01:15:40,173 --> 01:15:43,677
It's reinforced in every
institution, every system,

1365
01:15:43,710 --> 01:15:45,812
every structure in this country.

1366
01:15:45,845 --> 01:15:48,181
So we have to think
about in this process

1367
01:15:48,214 --> 01:15:50,850
of creating the discourse
and building trust,

1368
01:15:50,884 --> 01:15:52,152
a way of healing.

1369
01:15:52,185 --> 01:15:53,796
- What is white people's part

1370
01:15:53,820 --> 01:15:55,789
of the conversation?

1371
01:15:55,822 --> 01:15:57,957
- Yeah, I mean it would
great if they joined it.

1372
01:15:57,991 --> 01:15:59,402
Just in general it'd be great

1373
01:15:59,426 --> 01:16:02,362
if white people just
joined the conversation.

1374
01:16:02,395 --> 01:16:05,098
- I think a lot of
people are actually feeling like

1375
01:16:05,131 --> 01:16:07,000
if they acknowledge
some of these things,

1376
01:16:07,033 --> 01:16:09,736
then they're guilty, like
they did something wrong.

1377
01:16:09,769 --> 01:16:10,880
You didn't do anything wrong.

1378
01:16:10,904 --> 01:16:16,076
The only thing wrong that
you could do is ignore it.

1379
01:16:17,177 --> 01:16:18,712
- I think it's okay
to acknowledge that

1380
01:16:18,745 --> 01:16:21,081
there is no simple answer.

1381
01:16:21,114 --> 01:16:23,917
And that love says I don't know,

1382
01:16:25,719 --> 01:16:28,221
but I'm committed
to finding out.

1383
01:16:29,756 --> 01:16:32,659
I can see the
complicated history.

1384
01:16:33,760 --> 01:16:37,864
And that because I love
you, I won't ignore it.

1385
01:16:41,801 --> 01:16:45,972
- What do
you love about yourself?

1386
01:16:46,006 --> 01:16:48,742
- What up? Well I got
a few parts of me.

1387
01:16:48,775 --> 01:16:50,010
- Let me make a list.

1388
01:16:50,043 --> 01:16:52,779
- Let's see, one thing
I love about myself

1389
01:16:52,812 --> 01:16:54,981
is the boldness that I have

1390
01:16:56,216 --> 01:16:59,219
to not allow what
people think about me

1391
01:16:59,252 --> 01:17:01,788
determine what I'm gonna be.

1392
01:17:01,821 --> 01:17:04,190
So that's the part
of me that I do love.

1393
01:17:04,224 --> 01:17:07,694
The fact that I know how
to push through the storm.

1394
01:17:07,727 --> 01:17:10,263
And allow the storm to elevate
me to where I need to be.

1395
01:17:10,296 --> 01:17:12,232
You know, it's like a eagle.

1396
01:17:12,265 --> 01:17:14,034
I view myself as a eagle.

1397
01:17:14,067 --> 01:17:17,003
- Talk about spirit animals.

1398
01:17:17,037 --> 01:17:19,973
- Eagles are the
highest flying birds.

1399
01:17:20,006 --> 01:17:22,142
But they can see
the ground so clear

1400
01:17:22,175 --> 01:17:23,252
as if they're on the ground.

1401
01:17:23,276 --> 01:17:24,911
- Yeah.

1402
01:17:24,944 --> 01:17:27,814
- So it's like for me I
take that as I can soar high

1403
01:17:27,847 --> 01:17:30,083
over my situation, you know?

1404
01:17:30,116 --> 01:17:31,885
But see what it
could it have been.

1405
01:17:31,918 --> 01:17:32,819
Yeah you always have clarity

1406
01:17:32,852 --> 01:17:33,453
of what it could have been.

1407
01:17:33,486 --> 01:17:34,187
- Exactly.

1408
01:17:34,220 --> 01:17:35,755
- You know what?

1409
01:17:35,789 --> 01:17:38,925
I'm gonna keep that
bird thing going.

1410
01:17:38,958 --> 01:17:40,169
- What you gonna be a hawk?

1411
01:17:40,193 --> 01:17:41,728
- No, no.
- A hummingbird?

1412
01:17:41,761 --> 01:17:42,262
- No, no.

1413
01:17:42,295 --> 01:17:43,463
- Mocking Jay.

1414
01:17:43,496 --> 01:17:45,065
- You can't guess it!
- Red robin.

1415
01:17:45,098 --> 01:17:46,266
- Ah-ha!
- Woodpecker?

1416
01:17:46,299 --> 01:17:48,735
- No, no! A woodpecker?

1417
01:17:48,768 --> 01:17:49,769
- Seagull?

1418
01:17:49,803 --> 01:17:51,271
- A seagull, no, no.

1419
01:17:51,304 --> 01:17:52,304
- Chicken?

1420
01:17:53,106 --> 01:17:54,808
- A chicken of all things.

1421
01:17:54,841 --> 01:17:55,475
- Hey it's a bird.

1422
01:17:55,508 --> 01:17:57,877
- Boy, I view myself as-

1423
01:17:57,911 --> 01:17:59,312
- A rooster.

1424
01:17:59,346 --> 01:18:01,748
An owl, an owl.

1425
01:18:01,781 --> 01:18:02,716
- Oh, okay, why, why an owl?

1426
01:18:02,749 --> 01:18:04,293
- You know what? Because
I trust my instincts.

1427
01:18:04,317 --> 01:18:05,528
- No, no, no, you see
what's around you,

1428
01:18:05,552 --> 01:18:06,086
that's a good thing.

1429
01:18:06,119 --> 01:18:08,488
- I trust my instincts.

1430
01:18:08,521 --> 01:18:10,056
And I believe in myself,

1431
01:18:10,090 --> 01:18:12,759
and I feel like I have a
lot of self confidence.

1432
01:18:12,792 --> 01:18:14,227
So I view myself as an owl.

1433
01:18:14,260 --> 01:18:19,065
Because you know owls, they
have this scope of vision.

1434
01:18:19,099 --> 01:18:20,834
They see other paths
and other things.

1435
01:18:20,867 --> 01:18:22,969
I also believe
that about myself.

1436
01:18:23,003 --> 01:18:26,339
I see different sides
of different stories.

1437
01:18:26,373 --> 01:18:29,743
I'm not omnipotent,
but I feel like,

1438
01:18:30,810 --> 01:18:32,154
owls are wise, I
feel like I'm wise.

1439
01:18:32,178 --> 01:18:33,546
- You're like a
senior citizen huh?

1440
01:18:34,948 --> 01:18:36,983
- You know what, you
know what? Yes, yes.

1441
01:18:37,017 --> 01:18:37,917
- You have matured

1442
01:18:37,951 --> 01:18:39,185
a lot, trust me.

1443
01:18:52,399 --> 01:18:55,902
- What do you need to receive?

1444
01:18:55,935 --> 01:18:58,038
- Outside of God's grace,

1445
01:19:05,178 --> 01:19:07,313
you just pay me with love.

1446
01:19:10,183 --> 01:19:12,252
If you could love me,

1447
01:19:12,285 --> 01:19:15,088
then I know that you truly care.

1448
01:19:21,327 --> 01:19:24,164
- The kind of love that says,

1449
01:19:24,197 --> 01:19:27,967
I am committed to being
accountable to you.

1450
01:19:29,602 --> 01:19:33,173
- I think we have to show
love to the young black men.

1451
01:19:33,206 --> 01:19:36,176
To black boys, we have
to love them honestly,

1452
01:19:36,209 --> 01:19:39,813
and critically and
also unconditionally.

1453
01:19:40,647 --> 01:19:43,817
- Actual love helps
to heal trauma.

1454
01:19:44,984 --> 01:19:47,220
- Love has no logic
model, all right.

1455
01:19:47,253 --> 01:19:51,291
There are transformational
things that are happening

1456
01:19:51,324 --> 01:19:55,929
in the lives of black
boys that can't be found

1457
01:19:55,962 --> 01:19:59,299
in a theory of change
that's found in

1458
01:19:59,332 --> 01:20:02,068
this heart to heart connection.

1459
01:20:03,103 --> 01:20:05,939
- To the degree of
which we focus on them

1460
01:20:05,972 --> 01:20:08,641
and they feel safe, feel
heard, feel validated,

1461
01:20:08,675 --> 01:20:11,244
it actually will impact
the entire system.

1462
01:20:11,277 --> 01:20:13,380
A rising tide raises all ships.

1463
01:20:13,413 --> 01:20:18,284
And so we have to stay in
that and that takes time.

1464
01:20:25,025 --> 01:20:26,126
- Hair.
- Huh?

1465
01:20:27,060 --> 01:20:28,060
- Hair.

1466
01:20:28,962 --> 01:20:30,230
- Yeah, that's Da-da's hair.

1467
01:20:30,263 --> 01:20:31,664
- Yes, Da-da's hair.

1468
01:20:31,698 --> 01:20:34,367
- Yeah, where's Koven's hair?

1469
01:20:34,401 --> 01:20:36,336
Where's Koven's hair?

1470
01:20:38,171 --> 01:20:40,106
I can't see, is
that Koven's hair?

1471
01:20:40,140 --> 01:20:41,007
- Yeah.

1472
01:20:41,041 --> 01:20:42,275
- It is?
- Yeah.

1473
01:20:44,110 --> 01:20:46,946
- Well, when I lost my dad,

1474
01:20:46,980 --> 01:20:48,281
it was one of the

1475
01:20:51,384 --> 01:20:54,921
hardest things to do
deal with when I became

1476
01:20:54,954 --> 01:20:59,159
of the age to actually
understand what had happened.

1477
01:21:02,228 --> 01:21:05,131
Oh come here, let me tie
your shoe. Come here.

1478
01:21:05,165 --> 01:21:06,165
- No.

1479
01:21:07,100 --> 01:21:08,168
- It wasn't until

1480
01:21:11,037 --> 01:21:13,473
I started to have things
happen and be around people,

1481
01:21:13,506 --> 01:21:16,142
and see things that
I really wondered

1482
01:21:16,176 --> 01:21:18,178
what my dad would think.

1483
01:21:20,146 --> 01:21:22,215
How proud would my dad be

1484
01:21:23,416 --> 01:21:28,188
to see me even get to high
school and graduate high school.

1485
01:21:29,189 --> 01:21:31,291
I'm going here
because it's important

1486
01:21:31,324 --> 01:21:34,260
for every young father, for
every person who understands

1487
01:21:34,294 --> 01:21:36,296
the importance of a role.

1488
01:21:36,329 --> 01:21:39,399
Especially in young
African American males.

1489
01:21:39,432 --> 01:21:43,470
The day that I was
supposed to get drafted

1490
01:21:43,503 --> 01:21:47,941
higher than I was, I paced
up and down the street

1491
01:21:49,009 --> 01:21:52,078
for like six and a
half hours straight.

1492
01:21:52,112 --> 01:21:54,080
End to end, didn't
talk to anybody,

1493
01:21:54,114 --> 01:21:57,217
I didn't want anybody
talking to me.

1494
01:21:57,250 --> 01:21:59,085
The only person that

1495
01:22:02,555 --> 01:22:06,226
I would have let talk
to me at that moment

1496
01:22:08,128 --> 01:22:09,128
was my dad.

1497
01:22:12,599 --> 01:22:15,035
And for whatever
reason when I pacing up

1498
01:22:15,068 --> 01:22:16,503
and down that street

1499
01:22:18,505 --> 01:22:23,510
all I could hear my dad
telling me was...

1500
01:22:35,255 --> 01:22:38,091
The only thing I could hear
pacing up and down the street

1501
01:22:38,124 --> 01:22:41,461
was my pops telling me he
was proud of me.

1502
01:22:46,199 --> 01:22:49,769
- So there's one
non-negotiable in this world.

1503
01:22:53,173 --> 01:22:56,276
- And that is me
being around my son.

1504
01:22:59,145 --> 01:23:01,614
Because so long as God allow it,

1505
01:23:03,183 --> 01:23:06,252
he'll always hear from
me that I'm proud of him.

1506
01:23:12,092 --> 01:23:14,094
- What's that in the bucket?

1507
01:23:14,127 --> 01:23:17,197
Oh, give me that,
give me that one.

1508
01:23:17,230 --> 01:23:19,432
Hey.

1509
01:23:19,466 --> 01:23:22,569
Bubby, what you gonna
be when you get older?

1510
01:23:22,602 --> 01:23:24,404
Are you gonna fly airplanes?

1511
01:23:24,437 --> 01:23:25,538
- Yeah.

1512
01:23:25,572 --> 01:23:28,241
- Yeah, are you
gonna be a doctor?

1513
01:23:28,274 --> 01:23:29,274
- Yeah.

1514
01:23:30,243 --> 01:23:33,146
- Can you be an engineer?

1515
01:23:33,179 --> 01:23:34,547
- Yeah.

1516
01:23:34,581 --> 01:23:36,516
- Can you do more
than play sports?

1517
01:23:36,549 --> 01:23:38,184
- Yeah!

1518
01:23:38,218 --> 01:23:40,553
- Yeah, that's right why?
'Cause Daddy said so.

1519
01:23:40,587 --> 01:23:41,587
- Yeah.

1520
01:23:42,455 --> 01:23:43,857
- That's right you're great,

1521
01:23:43,890 --> 01:23:45,468
you're gonna be great,
'cause Daddy says so, right?

1522
01:23:45,492 --> 01:23:46,492
- Right.

1523
01:23:51,564 --> 01:23:55,135
- Daddy proud, you did
a really good job, okay.

1524
01:23:55,168 --> 01:23:56,202
- Ah!
- Okay.

1525
01:23:58,705 --> 01:24:01,107
- Did you hear me?

1526
01:24:01,141 --> 01:24:05,178
Did you hear me?

1527
01:24:05,211 --> 01:24:08,114
- Da-da.

1528
01:24:16,156 --> 01:24:20,393
- We have to be courageous
in re-imagining ourselves.

1529
01:24:22,362 --> 01:24:26,232
We have the power to
change whatever we want.

1530
01:24:29,302 --> 01:24:30,337
- Do you see it?

1531
01:24:30,370 --> 01:24:32,605
- That we're stronger
than we know.

1532
01:24:32,639 --> 01:24:34,174
- What's up there?

1533
01:24:34,207 --> 01:24:35,108
- The cloud.

1534
01:24:35,141 --> 01:24:38,378
- It's important for
us to present a message

1535
01:24:38,411 --> 01:24:41,548
of infinite possibility
to black boys.

1536
01:24:41,581 --> 01:24:42,716
- What's this?

1537
01:24:43,616 --> 01:24:45,251
You got a boo-boo.

1538
01:24:45,285 --> 01:24:47,220
- We're gonna make sure
that black boys recognize

1539
01:24:47,253 --> 01:24:49,356
their own humanity,
because then that's gonna

1540
01:24:49,389 --> 01:24:53,526
be human nature for them
to demand much, much more.

1541
01:24:57,397 --> 01:24:59,299
- It's a new day and age, now.

1542
01:25:03,236 --> 01:25:04,714
- These young people
don't need saviors,

1543
01:25:04,738 --> 01:25:07,240
they need believers.

1544
01:25:07,273 --> 01:25:09,275
Once you believe
in them and know

1545
01:25:09,309 --> 01:25:11,611
that they are great
beyond measures

1546
01:25:11,644 --> 01:25:15,248
by who they are, not by
what you bestowed on them,

1547
01:25:15,281 --> 01:25:19,386
then everything else will
shift and change as a result.

1548
01:25:24,557 --> 01:25:26,693
- They're as great as your kids.

1549
01:25:26,726 --> 01:25:29,496
They're as great any young
people on this earth.

1550
01:25:29,529 --> 01:25:31,231
You don't need to save them.

1551
01:25:31,264 --> 01:25:33,466
All you gotta do is
believe that they are great

1552
01:25:33,500 --> 01:25:34,367
and the rest of the work

1553
01:25:34,401 --> 01:25:35,535
will follow.

1554
01:25:35,568 --> 01:25:36,970
- Blow it.
- Okay you blow it.

1555
01:25:37,003 --> 01:25:39,372
All right you blow, blow.

1556
01:25:39,406 --> 01:25:41,641
Oh blow harder, blow harder.

1557
01:27:41,528 --> 01:27:42,805
- What do you
want to be when you grow up?

1558
01:27:42,829 --> 01:27:44,798
- I want to be a scientist.

1559
01:27:44,831 --> 01:27:46,666
- Awesome, why?

1560
01:27:46,700 --> 01:27:49,436
- Because I can
save people's lives.

1561
01:27:49,469 --> 01:27:53,406
And then when I'm retired
from being a scientist

1562
01:27:53,440 --> 01:27:55,475
I'm gonna be a surgeon.

1563
01:28:12,492 --> 01:28:14,361
- My mom gonna
cook with us, okay.

1564
01:28:14,394 --> 01:28:15,394
- Uh-oh.

1565
01:28:15,929 --> 01:28:17,397
- You did.

1566
01:28:17,430 --> 01:28:19,499
- Yeah my momma
is a hungry woman.

1567
01:28:21,501 --> 01:28:23,103
She like this.

1568
01:28:25,972 --> 01:28:28,141
- Hungry woman.
- Hungry woman.

1569
01:28:28,174 --> 01:28:29,709
- Hey momma.

1570
01:28:49,963 --> 01:28:55,368
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