Vs. dying

"He acted from loneliness. That's usually the reason behind the choice. I was the first in Carlisle's family, though he found Esme soon after. She fell from a cliff. They brought her straight to the hospital morgue, though somehow, her heart was still beating."
	"So you must be dying then, to become..."
	Not distracted enough. Still trying to discern the mechanism. I hurried to redirect.
	"No, that's just Carlisle. He would never do that to someone who had another choice. It is easier he says, though, if the blood is weak."