ARIZONA
WIFE IS HERE, DONT HAVE TO PAY FOR HER TIX TO CA, N CAN SEE HER AS OFTEN AS SHE WANTS
DROP HOUSES
DRUG CONNECTS
PRIVATE HOUSING
FOOD STAMPS
CHEAPER RENT..

CALIFORNIA
SYLVIA WILL ONLY SEE ME ONCE A WEEK, COULD VISIT HER WHEN I HIT THE MALLS
RETAIL OUTLETS
WILL HAVE TO SHARE A PLC WITH SOMEBODY
PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION
BETTER LIFE OUTSIDE
WHEN ROBYN CAME TO VISIT WE COULD DO FUN INTERESTING THINGS
COLLEGE CAMPUSES
WOULD BE AWAY FROM EVERYONE I KNOW, AWAY FROM THE PEOPLE TRYING TO KEEP ROBYN AND I APART
ROBYN WOULD HAVE A BETTER LIFE HERE, SHE DESERVES TO LIVE HERE
DOWNSIDE: LESS TIME TO SPEND WITH ROBYN MAKING HER MINE AGAIN. IF I DONT ACCOMPLISH THAT, MY LIFE IS OVER.

BULGARIA
Beautiful country, travel would be easy and cheap by bus.
We would be able to see all of europe.
Work Connects
Real Estate Connects (Brother)

Within 10 years open several businesses
2012: Art Gallery    ($50,000USD To start, $8,000USD/mo.) Profit after 10 years: $10,000,000+
2014: Bar	     ($300,000) All monies donated to charity.
2016: Jewelry Store  ($300,000) All monies donated to charity.
2021: Socialite Club ($5,000,000) All monies donated to restoration of cities (art/culture)



DO I STAY OR DO I GO?

MAYBE CHRIS WOULD WANT TO MOVE TO CALI WITH ME, HE NEEDS A CHANGE OF SCENERY AND SOME PROTECTION FROM THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN HURTING HIM.

UPSIDE: CA - Better food, weather, transportation, job opportunities, school opportunities
Downside: Wife is not present, will only be able to see her when she's able to take enough time to take the train out..
Upside to that.. The time we spend together will be more special, hopefully she will long for me as much as I do for her in my abscence..
However.. Not being present makes her extracirricular activities easier to do, maybe if i'm here she will start spending more time with me and less with him.
But.. If that were the case, she could just move to california with me as soon as I get a place, her opportunities out there would be through the roof.

I think It's clear then. I need to proceed on to CA. Not for my own purposes, but if things are going to work out between Robyn and I, it would be clearly a better environment for her. She is a genius, she needs to be able to thrive. We will be able to live a fulfilling life in california, we will be able to actually go out and do things without worrying.. well.. without me worrying or feeling anxious. Plus, the situation is just better out there all the way around. The people there are different.

And the healthcare situation out there is much better. It will hurt me to leave knowing that if I stay I probably will be able to see her quite more often than if I go, at least initially, but I need to trust in my God and know she will return to me once I make this world good enough for her. I am so thankful that she graced me with her presence last night. It was the best thing.. ever!! It was so painful afterwords, just for a brief moment, but only because I know how much I am missing out on without her in my life.

I just hope that she really does love me, I trust her, It's just.. well yeah, like you're saying.. She barely touched me last night. Then again, she did let me hold her, she did go in for the kiss when I went for her cheek, I did get to touch her lips :))))))).

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That's how the fuck I do that, Don't worry about it :D