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- I haven't blogged in awhile, so maybe it is a good time to blog.
- Well mentally and emotionally I am getting to the good range, but not quite yet.
- I have a lot less worries than before, my therapist told me to not get too close to people so that I won't get emotionally drained by things completely out of my control.
- So far I been taking my therapist advice, I feel like I only really talk to like 3 people online now and so far I been able to be open with all of them.
- Mika, Marie, and Summer are the people I tend to talk to the most, I like talking to them and hope I can still talk to them in the future.
- No matter what I will keep my friendship with Marie and I will keep improving my friendship with Mika as well.
- Honestly for awhile someone that I was once really close to kept telling me bad things about Mika, but I feel like I kept my prejudgment of her to the minimal.
- Glad I did that, because Mika is honestly a really nice person to me and I feel like she likes me a lot now, I welcomed her pretty fast and I would never want to come between her relationship with Marie.
- In other news, the year started out shit to be honest, but this week is much better than last week.
- On the first of this year I went into it with very little sleep and was messaged by someone that I didn't want to hear from, that caused me a lot of stress and fucked up my week.
- Even before both of those I knew my week would be stressful, because I saw the psychiatrist on Thursday and I was worried about that appointment due to the time before when I saw her I was cut by Lisa so I was worried how she would think I am doing.
- So far I am not taking any antidepressants and that is swell for me.
- I have made my status on Discord be the red busy icon so that I wouldn't panic when I get notifications, because last week every time I heard and saw the notifications go off I would get mini panic attacks.
- I am trying my best to decrease as much stress as I can decrease and if that means not talking to certain people I rather not hear from then so be it.
- Last week I ordered a Nintendo Switch, it was really spur of the moment, but I am glad I ordered it, because after I got it I was able to find something to do to keep my mind occupied from overthinking and in turn keeps me a lot more relaxed.
- I think if I didn't order the Switch I most likely would still feel a lot of anxiety and worries about being messaged from a certain person.
- I don't want to even use the name of the person anymore, because I rather not think about them at all due to they being the person I put a lot of my emotions in and getting really drained from it all.
- Glad I don't really talk to that person, because I feel free and able to truly just be myself again due to not trying to impress anyone and get them to be interested in me.
- I draw everyday and been drawing everyday for awhile now and I am glad I started that thing, sometimes I really have no idea what to draw though.
- In a way I can draw some of the talks I do with my alters and be able to express myself more and even though I doubt many people see my comics I am still happy and will still do them daily.
- I really need to start writing stories again, I only know of one thing to write and that is a continuation of the last story that I wrote.
- However it has been awhile since I wrote the last story so writing a continuation might not have the same feeling as the original and of course my emotions have changed since when I wrote it.
- I don't care if anyone reads this or not, but whatever I felt the need to blog. :) Meow. Raven My Sweet Raven, Currently Listening to Alice Cooper Poison.
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