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- [08/20/2017]
- 16:20 [Aexo#1349]: I'm not gonna drag it out into guild chat, and if you want me to say sorry then I'm sorry, but I still stand by my argument
- 16:23 [Felvystra]: Nothing wrong with demanding perfection
- 16:24 [Aexo#1349]: Yeah I guess it's pretty easy to misconstrue my point to be smug about it but at the end of the day you made the argument personal for me and I defended it because it is close to me and how I strive to play
- 16:24 [Felvystra]: It's not personal, never was
- 16:25 [Aexo#1349]: The way you presented it didn't really send that message
- 16:25 [Aexo#1349]: I told you halfway through that it was upsetting me
- 16:25 [Felvystra]: It's hard for me to reply when I get talked over
- 16:26 [Aexo#1349]: You were arguing with 3 people at once in a voice chat
- 16:26 [Felvystra]: You did it specifically
- 16:26 [Aexo#1349]: this isn't a moderated debate it's friends arguing
- 16:26 [Felvystra]: I'll be talking, and you'll just interrupt
- 16:26 [Aexo#1349]: I talk over everyone
- 16:26 [Felvystra]: And whatever I have to say doesn't matter
- 16:27 [Aexo#1349]: Did I say that?
- 16:27 [Felvystra]: It's implied when I try to say something and I never get to
- 16:28 [Aexo#1349]: You left discord, but you've had plenty of time to talk and I don't think it's fair to really imply that I alone have stopped you from talking
- 16:28 [Felvystra]: I left because I was in tears
- 16:28 [Aexo#1349]: I can admit that I interrupt, not you alone but everyone because I get passionite about this stuff
- 16:28 [Felvystra]: And I didn't want to cry on discord
- 16:28 [Aexo#1349]: but I also point out this isn't a moderated debate and we are all trying to give our points
- 16:29 [Felvystra]: I usually don't have discussions to cry
- 16:30 [Aexo#1349]: you turned it into a personal argument and I got invested in it, and I did my best to argue my position
- 16:31 [Aexo#1349]: you did your best to keep the discussion going and escalate the argument
- 16:31 [Felvystra]: you're right. It's probably all my fault
- 16:31 [Aexo#1349]: did I say that?
- 16:32 [Felvystra]: I said probably bc nobody established it
- 16:32 [Felvystra]: But it's okay I'll acept the fault anyway
- 16:33 [Aexo#1349]: I don't know what you want me to say, I'm sorry I talked over you, and I didn't do it because I don't like or respect you but because I got wrapped up in the debate and wanted to win it
- 16:33 [Aexo#1349]: It's not personal it's a debate over a philosophy of playing a video game and the goals we pursue in it
- 16:34 [Aexo#1349]: I get competitive when I argue and I'm sorry it upsets you
- 16:36 [Felvystra]: I'll answer in a few healing this group
- 16:45 [Felvystra]: The orignal point beyond all other things is that people were talking shit about Athensia. Watching her stream, talking about much stuff she misses, how poor she is at boomkin, etc. And because she's not perfect it gives people the right to shit on her.
- 16:45 [Felvystra]: And because she doesn't do 10% higher it's such a huge deal. Even though you all were saying how much effort and skill was required to get to even 90 because it was so competitive
- 16:46 [Felvystra]: I get sick and tired of people dumping on other people. I hate it. And while everyone else might hate Athensia I don't. I see a lot of myself in her. Anxiety is a bitch to work with. And I wish she'd address it but it doesn't mean that it isn't hard
- 16:47 [Felvystra]: Your tanking was never in question, and you are a phenomenal tank. Nobody does it as good as you, never met anyone as good as you. That was never in question. The only thing I talked about was that because quite a few tanks of a different perception than
- 16:47 [Felvystra]: you (i.e. defense over offense) it makes parses easier to come by because so many tanks gear so much differently
- 16:48 [Felvystra]: I'm sorry that it upset you but it was never a personal attack, and I don't think I have ever personally attacked you or anyone in this guild. I try very hard to make sure that isn't something I do
- 16:48 [Aexo#1349]: All I'm going to say is this, nothing I argued was about Athensia as a person or a WoW player, but about parses in general
- 16:48 [Felvystra]: And really, I can subtract the but. I am sorry I upset you and it was not meant as a personal attack
- 16:48 [Aexo#1349]: I'll also say this, Athensia is not a sacred cow and is open to criticism, especially now that she's left the guild
- 16:49 [Felvystra]: Do you not have friends you defend
- 16:49 [Aexo#1349]: She does not have a patent on anxiety, anxiety and depression is something I've personally dealt with for years
- 16:50 [Felvystra]: She does not have a patent on it. Her struggles are her own. As are yours. I will never know your pain or all the things you've gone through and I have the utmost respect for every person who deals with depression and the pain that accompanies it
- 16:50 [Felvystra]: Just because you, or I, or someone else has experienced a pain doesn't give us the right to judge others
- 16:50 [Felvystra]: Our pain isn't somehow better or more important
- 16:50 [Aexo#1349]: But being in a guild leading position does give us the right to judge parses
- 16:51 [Aexo#1349]: And that's all I've ever done
- 16:51 [Felvystra]: You can judge parses without being a GM
- 16:51 [Felvystra]: You can judge parses being a potato on the street
- 16:51 [Aexo#1349]: My point is that her performance was a relevant factor, how I ever felt about her as a person was never relevant
- 16:52 [Aexo#1349]: Personally I've always liked her, and it hurts me that she's gone now and has removed me
- 16:52 [Felvystra]: And my being upset was never about you. The only thing I was upset with you over was talking over me
- 16:52 [Aexo#1349]: I'm sorry it bothers you, I don't do it intentionally and it's never personal during an argument like that
- 16:52 [Felvystra]: My beef is with Xent and Shane and how they were talking about her
- 16:53 [Felvystra]: I don't think you said anything mean about her
- 16:53 [Felvystra]: But I intensely dislike how much discussion is focused on her and how bad she is
- 16:53 [Felvystra]: There are other things to talk about
- 16:53 [Felvystra]: different topics than just shitting on someone
- 16:53 [Aexo#1349]: I feel like we spent the majority of the argument about tank vs. dps parses and difficulty of parsing in general
- 16:54 [Felvystra]: You took it there
- 16:54 [Felvystra]: And you kept it there
- 16:54 [Aexo#1349]: I think if you asked shane or xent they might have the same perception
- 16:54 [Felvystra]: I didn't get a choice in the matter
- 16:54 [Aexo#1349]: I didn't shit on anyone, I talked about tanking and parses
- 16:54 [Aexo#1349]: I talked about factors that go into parses
- 16:54 [Felvystra]: I know, and that's why I said that it wasn't with you
- 16:55 [Felvystra]: Only with the interrupting
- 16:55 [Felvystra]: Talkign with you over text is a million times easier because I can actually get my thoughts out
- 16:55 [Aexo#1349]: Yeah I guess I'm just a shitty communicator
- 16:56 [Felvystra]: I don't know. I'm not judging your communication
- 16:56 [Felvystra]: I'm only saying how it makes me feel
- 16:56 [Aexo#1349]: The next time something like what they were saying about athensia bothers you, say so
- 16:56 [Aexo#1349]: the next time I interrupt and it bothers you, say so
- 16:56 [Felvystra]: I tried and said it was rude, do you remember that
- 16:56 [Felvystra]: And you responded that you didn't care
- 16:57 [Aexo#1349]: not really honestly
- 16:57 [Aexo#1349]: the debate was pretty intense and maybe I glossed over it
- 16:57 [Felvystra]: I think I still have the logs if you want me to show you
- 16:57 [Aexo#1349]: voice logs?
- 16:57 [Felvystra]: No chat logs when you apologized after
- 16:57 [Aexo#1349]: you mean like a few days ago?
- 16:57 [Felvystra]: Yea
- 16:58 [Aexo#1349]: Yeah that time I said that on purpose because I was frustrated, I remember
- 16:58 [Aexo#1349]: I remember that, I don't remember you saying anything today
- 16:58 [Felvystra]: I didn't say anything today
- 16:58 [Felvystra]: I just gave up
- 16:59 [Aexo#1349]: well I'm sorry again that I interrupted you, I don't really remember doing it but if you point it out and say that it bothers you I won'
- 16:59 [Aexo#1349]: t do it
- 16:59 [Felvystra]: Alright, I will mention it next time
- 17:00 [Aexo#1349]: I get that it bothers you but if I'm being honest I think I'm just going to avoid having any kind of argument with you
- 17:00 [Felvystra]: That's fine too if you want to do that
- 17:00 [Aexo#1349]: I'm never trying to be anything but your friend but it's exhausting having these conversations
- 17:01 [Aexo#1349]: I really don't feel like I should have to remind you that we're friends
- 17:01 [Aexo#1349]: it hurts me
- 17:01 [Felvystra]: I don't need a reminder
- 17:01 [Felvystra]: You're always my friend
- 17:01 [Felvystra]: You might hurt my feelings but it doesn't mean you're not my friend
- 17:01 [Aexo#1349]: sometimes it just feels like you take it really hard and I've never meant it in that way
- 17:02 [Felvystra]: You can hurt my feelings, and be insensitive, or be an accidental jerk
- 17:02 [Felvystra]: But you'll always be my friend
- 17:02 [Aexo#1349]: alright, well I am sorry I hurt your feelings, I didn't mean to at all
- 17:02 [Felvystra]: I mean look at what even half of what Athensia has done to me
- 17:02 [Felvystra]: I don't think I've ever held anything against her
- 17:03 [Felvystra]: It's not like I make special exceptions for her. I'm just this kind of person.
- 17:03 [Felvystra]: I try to see the positive side of everyone
- 17:03 [Aexo#1349]: I know, I just get frustrated when something I've said hurt you and I really didn't mean it to
- 17:04 [Aexo#1349]: I want to understand it and not do it again
- 17:04 [Felvystra]: That's fair, I have a serious question for you that's going to sound silly though
- 17:04 [Felvystra]: And I don't mean it judgy
- 17:04 [Felvystra]: Have you had a really close gf before?
- 17:04 [Aexo#1349]: Yeah, not for a few years though
- 17:04 [Felvystra]: I think it's a women thing
- 17:04 [Felvystra]: I've dated guys and girls
- 17:04 [Felvystra]: And girls get hurt more easily
- 17:05 [Felvystra]: or more emotional, i think it's an estrogen thing
- 17:05 [Aexo#1349]: I kind of disagree, I think it's really more of an individual thing
- 17:05 [Felvystra]: bc when trans men take HRT (like women to men) they do the same thing
- 17:05 [Felvystra]: With that shit ton of testosterone
- 17:05 [Aexo#1349]: I've known very sensitive men and very abrasive women
- 17:06 [Felvystra]: That's a fair point too
- 17:06 [Felvystra]: Men do have feelings
- 17:06 [Felvystra]: Never been a fan of men not being able to express themselves
- 17:06 [Aexo#1349]: I'd consider myself pretty sentitive honestly, even though I don't show it
- 17:06 [Felvystra]: I think you are a pretty sensitive and caring person
- 17:06 [Aexo#1349]: I think it's wrong to say unable to express though
- 17:07 [Felvystra]: That's nto what I mean
- 17:07 [Aexo#1349]: I choose not to express often, it's how I choose to live
- 17:07 [Felvystra]: I mean society frowns on men doing it
- 17:07 [Felvystra]: And I don't think society should
- 17:07 [Felvystra]: Not that men can't
- 17:07 [Aexo#1349]: I don't think society told me to, it's that I want my feelings to matter when I do express them
- 17:07 [Felvystra]: That's fair too
- 17:07 [Felvystra]: but to draw back to a point you made earlier
- 17:07 [Aexo#1349]: When I do cry I want it to be for a damn good reason
- 17:08 [Aexo#1349]: even if things make me want to cry
- 17:08 [Felvystra]: well fun fact there ll
- 17:08 [Felvystra]: lol
- 17:08 [Felvystra]: they tested tears from women and men, and one of the reasons women cry more often is excess estrogen leaks out in the tears
- 17:08 [Felvystra]: thats why women feel better after crying :P
- 17:08 [Aexo#1349]: I know there is science and society influence in it, but at the end of the day it's still a choice
- 17:08 [Felvystra]: it is
- 17:09 [Felvystra]: and i wouldn't dream of taking it from you
- 17:09 [Felvystra]: but back to what i was saying. you said earlier that you wanted to not do things that upset me, esp when you are not trying to
- 17:09 [Felvystra]: i do try to be pretty good at telling people what stuff does bother me
- 17:09 [Felvystra]: and i did tell you about the interrupting thing before
- 17:10 [Aexo#1349]: I know, I was being a dick the other day and I recognize that
- 17:10 [Aexo#1349]: even shane told me about that one and I agree on it
- 17:11 [Felvystra]: i mean it arguably feels worse after ive told you for it to happen
- 17:11 [Felvystra]: bc before theres benefit of the doubt
- 17:12 [Aexo#1349]: I didn't interrupt you on purpose today, I don't recall doing it and I asked shane and he didn't really remember it either
- 17:12 [Felvystra]: I can't really pick it out exactly
- 17:12 [Aexo#1349]: I'm sure it happened, but it wasn't intentional
- 17:12 [Felvystra]: I was talking and then you interjected and it was like that was it
- 17:13 [Felvystra]: it's nice to feel like what i have to say matters yknow
- 17:13 [Felvystra]: and it doesnt feel like that when i get talked over
- 17:13 [Aexo#1349]: I know, I'm sorry it came across like that
- 17:13 [Aexo#1349]: that's a difference between us though
- 17:13 [Felvystra]: thats true
- 17:13 [Felvystra]: i'm nto saying what you're doing is wrong
- 17:13 [Aexo#1349]: I don't expect people to just take what I have at face value and accept it
- 17:13 [Felvystra]: just how makes me feel
- 17:14 [Aexo#1349]: I don't expect all my ideas to be heard or respected
- 17:14 [Aexo#1349]: I actively fight for it when it matters to me and I want to get my point across
- 17:14 [Felvystra]: you fight very well for it
- 17:14 [Aexo#1349]: If I stepped on your toes then I'm sorry, I didn't do it on purpose
- 17:15 [Felvystra]: you said earlier though that you felt you had to keep reminding me that you were my friend
- 17:15 [Aexo#1349]: The only reason I argue with you in the first place is because your ideas matter to me and I want to get you to undertsand my position
- 17:15 [Felvystra]: what did you mean by that?
- 17:15 [Aexo#1349]: I mean, when this shit kind of happens it feels like you hate me and just want to stop being friends
- 17:15 [Felvystra]: no, never
- 17:15 [Aexo#1349]: or that you don't think that I really consider you a friend
- 17:16 [Felvystra]: i also dont want you to think that
- 17:16 [Felvystra]: what is something i can do to communicate that better to you?
- 17:16 [Aexo#1349]: I've always been one to work through problems when they arise, when people retreat I feel like I've failed
- 17:16 [Aexo#1349]: and when you were talking in gchat about it before it felt really bad
- 17:17 [Felvystra]: i was being facetious and a bit tongue in cheek
- 17:17 [Felvystra]: not nice, certainly
- 17:17 [Aexo#1349]: That's fine, I just hate to leave things unresolved
- 17:18 [Aexo#1349]: that was always my biggest obstacle to dealing with athensia
- 17:18 [Felvystra]: honestly all your points ceased to matter to me and the whole thing became irrelevant when it felt like my opinion didnt matter
- 17:18 [Felvystra]: like whats the point of having a discussion if its one sided
- 17:18 [Felvystra]: or people call you dumb
- 17:18 [Aexo#1349]: I'm sorry, your opinion has always and will always matter to me
- 17:18 [Aexo#1349]: that's why I try to change it sometimes, because I always want you on my team
- 17:19 [Felvystra]: i apprecaite that, and that gives me a big grin :P
- 17:19 [Felvystra]: the only thing that i try to hang on to is that people matter, that absolutels are rare, and that ultimately everyone plays this game to have fun
- 17:19 [Felvystra]: Like that's what matters to me
- 17:19 [Felvystra]: That's the lens through which I view everything
- 17:20 [Aexo#1349]: I know
- 17:20 [Aexo#1349]: I enjoy the competition though, and I always want to see others participate in it and see them succeed
- 17:21 [Felvystra]: Competition is good
- 17:21 [Felvystra]: But I don't think it matters to everyone
- 17:21 [Aexo#1349]: I realize that
- 17:21 [Felvystra]: Like talking about parses is great
- 17:22 [Felvystra]: But I sacrifice a ton of my competiveness when I try to manage the raid as a whole
- 17:22 [Aexo#1349]: I know
- 17:22 [Felvystra]: But in the lens where only competition matters I should just stop trying to help
- 17:22 [Felvystra]: And only play at my peak
- 17:22 [Aexo#1349]: It's not just competition about parses I mean, competition in argument and debate
- 17:22 [Aexo#1349]: competition in general
- 17:22 [Aexo#1349]: I guess
- 17:23 [Felvystra]: competition at what cost, tho?
- 17:23 [Felvystra]: How much is being "right" worth?
- 17:23 [Aexo#1349]: it's not always about being right, but just having fun arguing
- 17:24 [Felvystra]: It seems like you do have to be right sometimes
- 17:24 [Felvystra]: or maybe that your world view is the only one
- 17:24 [Aexo#1349]: sometimes I get wrapped up in it, especially when it's something close to me
- 17:24 [Felvystra]: I've been guilty of that before myself
- 17:25 [Aexo#1349]: I don't discredit your world view, I'm just trying to get mine across
- 17:25 [Aexo#1349]: and again, that's something I've always tried to fight for, I don't expect anyone to just believe what I say
- 17:25 [Aexo#1349]: I like to be challenged and I want to prove my points
- 17:26 [Felvystra]: sidenote, arguing with 3 people at once, all making different points, is really taxing
- 17:26 [Aexo#1349]: I know, it wasn't a fair fight for you
- 17:26 [Felvystra]: just overwhelming and frustrating
- 17:26 [Aexo#1349]: we all realized that after you left
- 17:26 [Felvystra]: and hwen i get too frustrated i cry
- 17:26 [Felvystra]: bc i have to vent it
- 17:26 [Felvystra]: ive cried during M+ before lol
- 17:26 [Aexo#1349]: lol
- 17:27 [Aexo#1349]: I know, I'm sorry it gets to that point for you
- 17:27 [Aexo#1349]: nobody wants to see you cry, we're all friends here
- 17:27 [Felvystra]: I know :)
- 17:27 [Felvystra]: i'm not saying it to make anyone feel bad
- 17:27 [Felvystra]: it's one of the reasons I disappear to do it
- 17:27 [Felvystra]: nobody wants to hear me cry lol
- 17:28 [Aexo#1349]: theres nothing wrong with crying, I just want to try to be a better friend
- 17:28 [Felvystra]: you are a pretty good friend
- 17:28 [Felvystra]: you messaged me when it wasn't easy and put effort in
- 17:29 [Felvystra]: that's the sign of a good friend
- 17:30 [Felvystra]: we're good, don't worry
- 17:30 [Felvystra]: but for the record, we were never not good :p
- 17:30 [Felvystra]: and feel free to ask and i will always answer honestly
- 17:30 [Aexo#1349]: thanks, I just hate to see my friends upset and I want to fix it when it's my fault
- 17:30 [Felvystra]: to be fair it wasn't all your fault
- 17:31 [Felvystra]: shane sucks at apologizing
- 17:31 [Felvystra]: like hardcore
- 17:31 [Aexo#1349]: lol
- 17:31 [Felvystra]: so much worse
- 17:31 [Felvystra]: im not even sure he knows how
- 17:31 [Aexo#1349]: he does, but it takes time
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