A Million Little Pieces

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[indistinct chatter]

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- I can't tell what's real
and what's not anymore!

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[rock music]

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[crash]
[car alarm wailing]

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[groaning]

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[panting]
- Where am I going?

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- Minneapolis, sir.

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- I'll take a whiskey.

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- I'm afraid I can't.

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- Vodka. Whatever you have.

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- Sir, I'm sorry.
I'm not allowed
to give you any alcohol.

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- Says who?

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- The doctor that carried you
onto the plane.

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Would you like some water?

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[belching and retching]

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[soft guitar music]

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♪ Hey kids where are you

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♪ Nobody tells you what to do
baby ♪

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♪ Maybe you did
maybe you walked ♪

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♪ Maybe you rocked
around the clock ♪

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♪ Tick

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♪ Tock ♪

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- James.

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Come on. Come on. We're here.

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James. Hey, hey, hey!
Don't make this harder
than it needs to be.

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- I'm fine. It's okay.

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I don't need this.

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- Have you fucking
seen yourself?

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You're a fucking wreck, James.

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You need help.

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Please.

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- Bobby,
why you doing this to me?

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Why you doing this to me?

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- Because you're my brother.

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And I love you.

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And you're breaking
Mom and Dad's hearts.

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James, if you carry on
the way you're going,
you're gonna die.

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James.

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- James, the nurse's station
is around the corner.

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Come with me, okay?

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This facility was founded
by a group of priests
more than 40 years ago,

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and more than 25,000 patients
have passed through our doors.

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We are one of the largest
treatment centres in the world

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and have one of the highest
long-term success rates.

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We have a few strict rules here.

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If you are caught in possession
and/or using or drinking,

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you will be sent home
immediately.

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And if you say anything more
than hello to any woman

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that is not a member
of our staff,

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you will be sent home
immediately.

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[voice fading]:
For the sake and safety
of our patients...

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[intense music]

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[soft haunting music]

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[music continues]

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[vomiting]

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- I had the nurse put you
on Librium and Diazepam.

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They're detoxification drugs.

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They'll stabilize the heart and
keep your blood pressure low.

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We wouldn't want you to have
a heart attack or a stroke.

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- Oh.
- Or a seizure.

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- Ah!
- Ah, ah, okay,
we're getting there,

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getting there.

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I'll have you seen
by the dentist this week. Okay?

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Alright, this is the last one.
Last one.

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Alright.

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Now, let's look at that nose,
shall we?

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- Oh, no, we can leave that.

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- Be still. Look at me.

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- Ahem.
- Look straight ahead.

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[James sighing]
Alright.

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I'm going to have to break it
in order to reset it.

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- No, you don't. No...
- Put your hands down.

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Hold on tight. Alright?

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Take a deep breath.
Here we go. And...

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[cracking]
[screaming]

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- Ma'am, step up.

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[TV playing]

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[sighing]

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[whispering]:
Wanna do some blow?

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I mean, I don't have any.
I'm just wondering.

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[woman chuckling]

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Can I have a cigarette?

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What happened to your face?

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Hmm?

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I'm sor...
Are you deaf, or retarded?

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I'm finding it
really hard to tell.

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[James groaning softly]

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Where are you from?

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- Cleveland.

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- Cleveland.

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So you are retarded.

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- Hey...

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- You okay?

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Yeah, it's a stupid question.

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- Well, y-you know...
Why are you talking to me?

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You don't know me.

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- Mm, sure I do.

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You got issues.

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That's why you're here.

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I got issues.
That's why I'm here.

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You know, my grandma,
she drove me all the way
from Chicago.

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- Mr. Fray?

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- Hi.
- Hi. I'm Roy, a patient here.

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I was told to bring you down
into the Sawyer unit.

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Let's go.

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Uh... you do know
that you're not allowed

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to fraternize
with the women here.

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Hmm?

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- Uh...
- Good.

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'Cause we can ask you to leave
if you cross the line. Okay?

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- You're a patient, right?

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- Mm.
- Then what the fuck
are you gonna do?

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[chuckling]

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- This way, Mr. Fray.

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- Fine, asshole.

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- Those are for staff only.

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So that is absolutely
off-limits.

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This is our shared kitchen.
You really share it,

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so you can get coffee
whenever you like,

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but make sure
to clean up after yourself
when you're done, okay?

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Mugs here.
You're gonna get your own.

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You gotta remember
to put your name on it. Okay?

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Shhh.
This is the communal phone.

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You get to use that
during private time only.

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This is going to be your home
for the next six weeks.

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Make sure
that you check the jobs board
every Thursday morning, okay?

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Let's see, James Fray...

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- Frey, Frey, Frey,
like a fucking French fry,
y'know?

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- Isn't that appropriate.
Cleaning out the shit.

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Make sure you scrub
those toilets spotless, okay?

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What you put into this
is what you're gonna
get out of it.

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This is our communal space.
We keep Big Books over there,

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and we do step work
after every meal.

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Absolutely no sleeping
in the communal space.

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Follow me. I know it's a lot
coming at you fast,

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so if you have any questions,
always feel free
to check in with Lincoln.

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He is the Unit Supervisor.
His room's down there.
Your room's gonna be this way

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- Is there a mini bar?

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- And...

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...here we are.
That's your bed.

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Good luck.

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[sighing]

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[clarinet playing]
- Oh, my God!

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Ah... shit!

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Ah, fuck.

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[silence]

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[panting]
- Shhh.

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Shhh.

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It's okay. You're just going
through withdrawal.

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It's okay. Shhh.

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- Ah...
- You'll be fine.

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Oh, my God.
Your face is so fucked up.

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Here.

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You ever fuck anybody
in the ass?

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- Excuse me?

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- Yeah, I got really into it
when I was in prison,

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and I don't need
to be the giver;
I'm not picky anymore.

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- This ain't fuckin' prison.
- Yeah, tell that to the judge.

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Half of us are in here on some
special plea-bargain bullshit.

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- Leave me alone.
- Hey, I'm just working
the program, man.

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I'm just laying it all out there
like it is.
You can take it or leave it.

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- I'll fucking leave it, thanks.

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- Tsk. Alright, well,
I'm glad we worked that out.

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[James retching]
I'm just gonna leave this
on your pillow.

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[country music]

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[dissonant soundscape]

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[background chatter]

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- Appreciate the cigars, Hank.

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Are you shitting me?
In a T-shirt?

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You're outta your fucking mind,
kid.

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- Hop in front.

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Hmm. You got kinda fucked up,
huh?

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- No, I was just born
this fucking way.

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Here, hold on.

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I used to wear this
when I was working on the boat.
Take it. It's a good jacket.

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- No, I'm good. It's okay.

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- You don't owe me anything.
Now, take it.

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- Alright.

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- It's a lucky fucking jacket.

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[radio]: The ultimate pizza
has arrived!

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With zesty herbs and spices
and thicker pepperoni
for a new pizza experience.

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One bite...

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- Let's get those X-rays, huh?

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[country music playing]

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[sighing]
[background chatter]

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[soul music]

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♪ You were tired...

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♪ And you want to be free

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♪ My love is growing stronger

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♪ As you become a habit to me

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♪ Ooh been loving you

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[James]: Motherfucking bitch!

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Take me... take me back, please.

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These are your friends
that talk shit about me?!

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Alright, you guys, look, look,
it's about you and me, baby.

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It's you...
You believe me, right?

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You pig-faced motherfucker!!
Baby, baby,

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bail me out, okay?

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♪ ...On my knees

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♪ Please don't make me
stop now ♪

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♪ I love you I love you

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♪ I love you with all my heart
And I can't stop ♪♪

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- Hmm.

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You know,
you did a shitty job yesterday.

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- Looked pretty clean to me.
[spraying]

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- That's because you're filth.

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And you don't know
what clean is.

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- What's your problem?

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- I don't have a problem.
People like you,
you come in here,

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you've got the world
handed to you on a plate.

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You know?
You don't know shit.

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- Alright, Roy,
get the fuck outta here.

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- No, not until you learn
how to clean.
You need to learn how to clean.

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- Oh, that's right.
You want it to be spotless,
right?

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- And it will be spotless.
- Let's start with you.
- Oh, goddammit! Help!

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- Clean up?
- No!! Help! Help!

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Stop! Stop it! Stop! Help!!!

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- You're kidding?
- He's trying to kill me.

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- It's fucking water.
- Help! Help.
- Jesus.

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- What are you doing?
- Roy, get the fuck up.

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- No!
- Come on, man.

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- Stay away from me!
Stay the fuck--
- What's going on in here?

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Wait, wait, wait.
Hey, whoa, whoa.

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[Roy shouting]
- He's outta his fucking mind!

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- Get the fuck off me, you shit.

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[panting]
- It's alright. I'm okay.
I'm okay.

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I just... Oh, my God.

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[phone ringing]

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- Hey, this is Bob. I'm out.
Leave a message.

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[beep]

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[James]: Bob... Jesus...
Where are you, man?

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I just need to talk to you.
I just...

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[sighing]
Goddammit!

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These detox pills are just...
fucking with my head!

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[sighing]

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I can't... I can't do this.

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I'm sorry, buddy. I'm sorry.

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[screaming]

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[screaming]

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- Come with me, James.

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- Look, if you're gonna
fucking kick me out,
just do it, man.

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- Want to tell me what happened,
James?

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'Cause I heard you were
threatening a fellow patient.

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- I didn't lay a fucking finger
on him.

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He's just a fucking retard
playing boss, trying to treat me
like his bitch.

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- Okay, calm down.
- Alright, fuck you, man.

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- I said, calm down.
- Or what? You're gonna
fuckin' throw me out?

248
00:21:41,952 --> 00:21:43,824
- Listen to me, James.

249
00:21:43,867 --> 00:21:45,391
You're wanted in three states.

250
00:21:45,434 --> 00:21:48,176
You do anything out there
right now - anything -

251
00:21:48,219 --> 00:21:49,046
you're going to prison.

252
00:21:49,090 --> 00:21:51,310
That what you want?

253
00:21:51,353 --> 00:21:55,226
- I guess that rules
the presidency out, then, huh?
- You know what, Lincoln?

254
00:21:55,270 --> 00:21:58,882
Um... why don't you go check
on Roy?

255
00:21:59,448 --> 00:22:02,886
- Ahem. That's a good idea.
- Yeah, why don't you go check
on Roy?

256
00:22:20,469 --> 00:22:22,558
Look, truth is,
I don't need to be here.

257
00:22:22,602 --> 00:22:25,256
I'm not like these other people.
I had an accident, okay?

258
00:22:25,300 --> 00:22:27,868
And everyone's making
a big deal out of nothing.

259
00:22:27,911 --> 00:22:29,478
- Is it really nothing?

260
00:22:31,611 --> 00:22:34,048
- It's been a bad time recently.

261
00:22:34,091 --> 00:22:35,484
Y'know, I'll admit that.

262
00:22:38,052 --> 00:22:40,663
I just need some time
to figure it out.

263
00:22:40,707 --> 00:22:43,405
- That's exactly
what this time is.

264
00:22:43,449 --> 00:22:46,365
- No, this... this is about AA.

265
00:22:46,408 --> 00:22:49,455
And it's dog shit if you really
want to know what I think.

266
00:22:49,498 --> 00:22:50,804
- I don't.

267
00:22:52,022 --> 00:22:54,024
I know that this program works.

268
00:22:54,068 --> 00:22:57,071
And it seems to me,
you might not have given it
a try.

269
00:22:57,114 --> 00:22:58,725
- 'Cause there's no fucking
point.

270
00:23:00,727 --> 00:23:02,598
You know why?
'Cause it's based around God,
and I don't believe in God.

271
00:23:02,642 --> 00:23:05,601
- God. A higher power,
a power greater than yourself

272
00:23:05,645 --> 00:23:08,952
- Either way,
however you want to put it,
higher power,

273
00:23:08,996 --> 00:23:11,390
what you actually mean is God.
Right?

274
00:23:11,433 --> 00:23:14,088
Mr. Frey,
I'm gonna level with you.

275
00:23:14,958 --> 00:23:16,917
We are a drug-rehabilitation
centre

276
00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:19,310
whose sole purpose
is to help addicts.

277
00:23:19,354 --> 00:23:21,878
[James coughing]
Not Christians or Jews,

278
00:23:21,922 --> 00:23:24,446
or Muslims or Buddhists...
but addicts.

279
00:23:24,490 --> 00:23:27,057
And every addict
needs structure.

280
00:23:27,101 --> 00:23:30,757
They need a strong foundation
and support system
if they ever hope to survive.

281
00:23:30,800 --> 00:23:33,237
- Who said I'm an addict?
I'm not an addict.

282
00:23:34,674 --> 00:23:37,633
- Mm.
- I'm not an addict. Okay?

283
00:23:37,677 --> 00:23:41,028
- Okay.
- I might be fucked up.
I'm not an addict.

284
00:23:42,551 --> 00:23:46,163
- Well, we have a saying here:
It's one day at a time.

285
00:23:46,207 --> 00:23:48,339
And in about 10 minutes,
it's breakfast.

286
00:23:48,383 --> 00:23:52,735
I'll be in room 312 if you want
to talk to me about anything.

287
00:23:52,779 --> 00:23:54,128
Okay?

288
00:23:58,393 --> 00:24:01,440
- I can't take these...
fucking meds anymore.

289
00:24:03,877 --> 00:24:06,357
- I'll talk to Dr. Baker
for you, okay?

290
00:24:06,575 --> 00:24:08,403
The first week's the hardest.

291
00:24:16,237 --> 00:24:18,587
[thunder rumbling]
[rainfall]

292
00:24:34,037 --> 00:24:35,604
[thunder]

293
00:24:53,274 --> 00:24:55,058
[indistinct chatter]

294
00:25:03,937 --> 00:25:06,200
[clatter]
- ...spinach and roughage.

295
00:25:06,243 --> 00:25:07,984
Double of everything.

296
00:25:19,300 --> 00:25:22,129
What do you say, James?
Are you fucked up?

297
00:25:22,956 --> 00:25:26,525
'Cause I'm a little fucked up.
My buddies are fucked up.

298
00:25:27,308 --> 00:25:30,267
So we thought we might
just eat here with you, y'know?

299
00:25:30,311 --> 00:25:32,487
This is the fucked-up table,
right?

300
00:25:33,880 --> 00:25:35,577
- It is now.

301
00:25:35,621 --> 00:25:37,971
- This is Ed and that's Ted.
No relation.

302
00:25:38,014 --> 00:25:40,495
So Ed here fucked
his best friend's wife.

303
00:25:40,539 --> 00:25:44,673
His best friend got pissed off
and pulled his hair plugs out.
Ain't that some shit?

304
00:25:44,717 --> 00:25:47,197
That's why he wears
that Bon Jovi thing.

305
00:25:47,241 --> 00:25:50,636
- Look, no offense, but, uh,
I don't want to be friends.

306
00:25:50,679 --> 00:25:54,117
- I understand that.
The last fucking thing I need
is more friends.

307
00:25:54,509 --> 00:25:58,295
Just thought it was kinda funny
the way you whipped Roy's ass.
He's a little weasel, y'know?

308
00:25:58,339 --> 00:25:59,688
- I didn't.
[clatter]

309
00:26:00,907 --> 00:26:02,604
- Really?

310
00:26:02,648 --> 00:26:04,519
Alright, then--
[clatter]

311
00:26:05,172 --> 00:26:08,567
You guys know
if that's chicken or fish?
Should we just roll the dice?

312
00:26:08,915 --> 00:26:10,699
- Did you hear what I said,
James?

313
00:26:11,918 --> 00:26:13,702
Do you understand what I said?

314
00:26:16,270 --> 00:26:18,054
Let me put it more bluntly.

315
00:26:18,707 --> 00:26:21,101
We've looked
at all your blood work,

316
00:26:21,144 --> 00:26:22,581
examined all the tests.

317
00:26:24,583 --> 00:26:28,630
Your body has suffered a pattern
of such profound
and prolonged abuse, I'm...

318
00:26:28,674 --> 00:26:32,155
surprised
you can even stand,
let alone walk.

319
00:26:33,722 --> 00:26:37,204
You've done near-fatal damage
to all your major organs.

320
00:26:38,031 --> 00:26:39,902
Lungs, stomach, bladder,

321
00:26:39,946 --> 00:26:42,557
kidneys, liver, your heart.

322
00:26:43,384 --> 00:26:44,646
Everything.

323
00:26:48,171 --> 00:26:49,738
I've never seen...

324
00:26:49,782 --> 00:26:53,350
this degree of degradation
in someone so young.

325
00:26:53,916 --> 00:26:56,310
If you were to start
using again,

326
00:26:56,353 --> 00:26:59,705
it's more than likely
that you would go into
cardiac arrest immediately.

327
00:26:59,748 --> 00:27:01,402
And that would be it.

328
00:27:08,627 --> 00:27:10,977
- Ah!
[groaning]

329
00:27:13,066 --> 00:27:16,765
- Even a single drink could
result in death within days.

330
00:27:17,766 --> 00:27:19,072
The end.

331
00:27:20,334 --> 00:27:21,596
Finished.

332
00:27:36,089 --> 00:27:39,135
- Oh! What the fuck, John?!
Get the fuck outta here, man!

333
00:27:39,179 --> 00:27:41,442
- I just thought you might want
some company.

334
00:27:41,485 --> 00:27:43,792
- Get the fuck out, John.
- No, it's okay.
- No, it's not okay.

335
00:27:43,836 --> 00:27:46,186
- Just put it in my mouth.
- It's not okay.
- Just try it.

336
00:27:46,229 --> 00:27:48,797
- No. What are you doing?!
Get off your fuckin' knees,
goddammit. Get up!

337
00:27:48,841 --> 00:27:50,451
- No. Ah, come on.

338
00:27:53,802 --> 00:27:56,936
Fuck. Stop! Stop, stop!

339
00:27:58,415 --> 00:28:00,679
I'm sorry.
- Put on a fucking towel.

340
00:28:01,375 --> 00:28:04,508
- You can hit me if you want.
- No, no, no.
I don't want to hit you.

341
00:28:04,552 --> 00:28:06,728
- Yeah, you do. I can see that.
You're mad at me.

342
00:28:06,772 --> 00:28:09,339
- No, I don't.
- I did something wrong.
- John, I'm not gonna hit you.

343
00:28:09,383 --> 00:28:11,864
- Come on, it's fun.
You can hit me.
- No, it's not fun.

344
00:28:11,907 --> 00:28:14,344
I don't find it--
- Hit me!
- Stay off me.

345
00:28:14,388 --> 00:28:16,564
- I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
- Goddammit, John.
- I'm sorry.

346
00:28:16,607 --> 00:28:18,305
- Leave me alone.
- I'm sorry.

347
00:28:18,348 --> 00:28:19,654
It's alright.

348
00:28:32,406 --> 00:28:34,277
[insect buzzing]

349
00:28:36,236 --> 00:28:37,846
[applause]

350
00:28:39,848 --> 00:28:42,329
- Having succeeded in a lot
of things in my life,

351
00:28:42,372 --> 00:28:45,811
I think my biggest fear
was that I wasn't gonna succeed
in this.

352
00:28:45,854 --> 00:28:48,248
But you guys give me
an incredible gift.

353
00:28:48,291 --> 00:28:49,728
A gift that I know...

354
00:28:49,771 --> 00:28:52,295
- I give him two weeks.
[James sighing]

355
00:28:53,427 --> 00:28:54,907
- I give him one.

356
00:28:54,950 --> 00:28:57,257
- No, it'll be two.
You want to make a wager?

357
00:28:57,300 --> 00:28:59,128
[Roy]: One step at a time.
Thank you.

358
00:28:59,172 --> 00:29:01,696
[applause]
- All this is bullshit.

359
00:29:15,101 --> 00:29:18,365
- Hey, hang on a second, kid.
- Oh, God, leave me alone.

360
00:29:18,408 --> 00:29:20,497
- Come back inside.
Let's talk. Come on.

361
00:29:20,541 --> 00:29:22,282
- Stop fucking following me!
Stop!

362
00:29:22,325 --> 00:29:24,327
- What are you so goddamn
afraid of?

363
00:29:25,111 --> 00:29:29,028
- Fuck you.
- Yeah, fuck me, fuck everybody,
go fuck yourself.

364
00:29:29,071 --> 00:29:31,073
Die in the street
in your own puke.

365
00:29:31,117 --> 00:29:33,510
- Why do you give a shit?
- You know, frankly,
I don't give a shit.

366
00:29:33,554 --> 00:29:35,121
- Well, then, fuck off!
- Ha!

367
00:29:35,164 --> 00:29:37,210
Really?
I think you do fucking care.

368
00:29:37,253 --> 00:29:39,299
I also think
you're a fucking pussy

369
00:29:39,342 --> 00:29:41,997
and you don't have the balls
to face it!

370
00:29:42,041 --> 00:29:43,869
That's what I think!
[grunting]

371
00:29:43,912 --> 00:29:47,307
So you do have life left in you.
- What is it you fucking want?

372
00:29:47,350 --> 00:29:49,570
- It's not what I want.
It's what you want.

373
00:29:49,613 --> 00:29:51,833
You're choking to death,
you're so fucking scared.

374
00:29:51,877 --> 00:29:55,619
But it's a trick.
It's a mind-fuck.
You can win this thing.

375
00:29:57,360 --> 00:29:58,709
You can win it.

376
00:29:58,753 --> 00:30:00,363
- I can't.
- Yeah, you can!

377
00:30:03,932 --> 00:30:05,847
Why don't you fuckin' let go
of me?

378
00:30:05,891 --> 00:30:07,762
I got ribs
like a fuckin' blue jay.

379
00:30:14,769 --> 00:30:18,033
Tell you what.
I'll make a deal with you.

380
00:30:18,077 --> 00:30:20,557
You go back in there
for 24 hours -

381
00:30:20,601 --> 00:30:22,777
just give it 24 hours,
that's it -

382
00:30:22,821 --> 00:30:25,911
and if you still feel this way
this time tomorrow,

383
00:30:25,954 --> 00:30:28,652
I'll pack your bags and send
you away with a sandwich.

384
00:30:35,398 --> 00:30:36,835
Twenty-four fucking hours.

385
00:30:38,271 --> 00:30:39,533
Deal?

386
00:30:44,973 --> 00:30:48,629
- It doesn't mean
we're fucking friends.
- Damn right it doesn't.

387
00:30:56,637 --> 00:30:57,986
[playing]

388
00:31:00,554 --> 00:31:02,512
- Didn't appreciate you
disrespecting our room
the other day.

389
00:31:02,556 --> 00:31:05,124
You might think this is a joke,
but it's not for me.

390
00:31:05,167 --> 00:31:06,908
- Well, I'm not gonna be here
much longer,

391
00:31:06,952 --> 00:31:09,128
so you can enjoy sticking that
in your asshole tonight.

392
00:31:09,171 --> 00:31:11,478
- Well, meantime,
I can do without your bullshit.

393
00:31:11,521 --> 00:31:14,437
- Yeah, I can do
without your murdering
the goddamn clarinet!

394
00:31:16,004 --> 00:31:17,832
[playing]

395
00:31:19,965 --> 00:31:21,662
[groaning]

396
00:31:27,233 --> 00:31:28,582
Ah!

397
00:31:29,235 --> 00:31:30,845
[banging]

398
00:31:34,849 --> 00:31:37,025
Ah, goddammit.
[sniffling]

399
00:32:14,715 --> 00:32:16,804
- What's up, buddy?
- Wow.

400
00:32:18,719 --> 00:32:20,199
What are you doing here?

401
00:32:21,069 --> 00:32:23,898
- It's visiting day.
What you think I'm doing?

402
00:32:27,510 --> 00:32:28,903
- What's all this?

403
00:32:29,730 --> 00:32:31,688
- I, uh, brought you some stuff.

404
00:32:31,732 --> 00:32:33,690
- You didn't have to do that.

405
00:32:33,734 --> 00:32:35,605
- I wanted to.
Here, take a look.

406
00:32:35,649 --> 00:32:37,085
- I'd rather just talk.

407
00:32:38,521 --> 00:32:39,914
- Just take a look.

408
00:32:45,398 --> 00:32:47,922
[chuckling]
- Good job, Mom.

409
00:32:48,662 --> 00:32:49,968
- There's more.

410
00:33:02,937 --> 00:33:06,375
Bunch of people reached out,
wanted to see how you're doing.

411
00:33:07,376 --> 00:33:09,248
Julie and Kirk send their best.

412
00:33:10,771 --> 00:33:13,426
- What about Arctic Eyes?
She check in with you yet?

413
00:33:14,688 --> 00:33:16,995
- Uh, no.
No, nothing from her.

414
00:33:29,050 --> 00:33:30,356
I quit.

415
00:33:44,370 --> 00:33:46,720
- What if I'm fucked up
beyond repair?

416
00:33:51,072 --> 00:33:53,118
- I saw this thing on TV,

417
00:33:53,161 --> 00:33:55,381
about how in Japan...

418
00:33:56,295 --> 00:33:59,776
...they, like...
repair broken objects with gold.

419
00:34:00,734 --> 00:34:03,563
It's like the flaw
becomes a part of its history.

420
00:34:03,606 --> 00:34:05,391
Part of what makes it beautiful.

421
00:34:06,305 --> 00:34:08,785
- Nothing about what I am
is beautiful.

422
00:34:11,005 --> 00:34:13,573
- I was thinking maybe you
should get some gold teeth.

423
00:34:13,616 --> 00:34:15,053
[James chuckling]

424
00:34:17,185 --> 00:34:20,841
- Only 15% stay sober
after they leave this place.

425
00:34:21,842 --> 00:34:24,062
And that's only
after the first year.

426
00:34:24,105 --> 00:34:28,153
[sniffling]
Those are the real statistics.
The ones they don't advertise.

427
00:34:30,198 --> 00:34:32,026
- Why are saying that shit?

428
00:34:32,766 --> 00:34:34,072
- It's a fact.

429
00:34:38,032 --> 00:34:39,425
- Who's that?

430
00:34:40,861 --> 00:34:42,167
Come on.

431
00:34:42,210 --> 00:34:44,082
[patting leg]
Let's go back.

432
00:34:44,647 --> 00:34:46,954
- I think I might just stay here
a while.

433
00:34:51,524 --> 00:34:52,786
- Yeah?

434
00:34:57,660 --> 00:34:59,053
See you next week.

435
00:35:03,449 --> 00:35:05,842
I'm gonna see you next week.

436
00:35:05,886 --> 00:35:07,061
- Sure.

437
00:35:18,812 --> 00:35:20,901
[train whistle blowing]

438
00:35:23,686 --> 00:35:25,601
[woman]:
Why are you calling me?

439
00:35:25,645 --> 00:35:28,822
- But didn't anyone tell you
where I am or...

440
00:35:28,865 --> 00:35:30,215
what I'm doing? I mean--

441
00:35:30,258 --> 00:35:32,173
- James,
this really isn't a good time.

442
00:35:32,217 --> 00:35:34,915
- What do you think
this is for me,
fucking party time?

443
00:35:34,958 --> 00:35:36,917
- James, I'm not doing this
right now!
[disconnection]

444
00:35:46,187 --> 00:35:47,928
[phone ringing]

445
00:35:48,929 --> 00:35:53,151
- Look, I didn't mean that.
I know I put you through a lot.

446
00:35:53,194 --> 00:35:57,155
I just thought you'd be... happy
I was here, is all, y'know?

447
00:35:57,198 --> 00:35:58,591
- I am.

448
00:35:59,722 --> 00:36:01,202
- Wait, who is this?

449
00:36:01,246 --> 00:36:03,683
- I thought you knew.
Now I'm offended.

450
00:36:03,726 --> 00:36:06,164
- No, don't be.
I just wasn't expecting...

451
00:36:07,948 --> 00:36:09,689
[chuckling]
Who is this?

452
00:36:09,732 --> 00:36:12,909
- My grandma thought
you were very handsome today.

453
00:36:12,953 --> 00:36:16,174
- Oh, she did, did she?
You sure she didn't mean
my brother?

454
00:36:17,305 --> 00:36:20,395
[sighing]
How did you know I'd answer?

455
00:36:20,439 --> 00:36:22,702
- I didn't.

456
00:36:22,745 --> 00:36:26,184
Hey, you know
we're the youngest two in here
by at least 10 years?

457
00:36:26,749 --> 00:36:28,969
- No, I-I didn't know that.
How'd you know that?

458
00:36:29,012 --> 00:36:31,493
- It's bullshit
that men and women
can't talk to each other.

459
00:36:31,537 --> 00:36:33,365
- Hmm. Yeah.

460
00:36:33,408 --> 00:36:37,369
I guess it's not supposed
to feel like the real world
in here.

461
00:36:37,412 --> 00:36:40,285
- They're shutting us off
from something
that's completely natural.

462
00:36:40,328 --> 00:36:44,202
What am I supposed to do? Leave this place and never talk to another man again?

463
00:36:44,245 --> 00:36:46,508
Shit, I can't quit that too.

464
00:36:46,552 --> 00:36:47,770
- Hmm.

465
00:36:50,947 --> 00:36:52,993
I'm glad you called.

466
00:36:54,255 --> 00:36:56,475
- I'm lucky I got you.
- Huh.

467
00:36:57,911 --> 00:36:59,782
- See you in the Lecture Hall,
I guess.

468
00:37:01,784 --> 00:37:03,221
- Turn around.

469
00:37:04,265 --> 00:37:06,180
- Turn around?
- Yeah.

470
00:37:10,010 --> 00:37:11,229
- Oops.

471
00:37:12,491 --> 00:37:13,753
Busted.

472
00:37:15,798 --> 00:37:18,627
It wasn't my grandma that thought you were handsome.

473
00:37:19,280 --> 00:37:20,716
It was me.

474
00:37:53,314 --> 00:37:55,229
[soft music]

475
00:37:58,624 --> 00:38:00,234
♪ Still

476
00:38:02,976 --> 00:38:04,543
♪ Falling

477
00:38:09,722 --> 00:38:13,291
♪ Breathless and on...

478
00:38:14,074 --> 00:38:15,641
♪ Again

479
00:38:21,081 --> 00:38:22,648
♪ Inside

480
00:38:25,433 --> 00:38:27,261
♪ Today

481
00:38:32,440 --> 00:38:35,269
♪ Beside me

482
00:38:36,705 --> 00:38:38,316
♪ Today

483
00:38:43,582 --> 00:38:45,801
♪ A round

484
00:38:45,845 --> 00:38:47,629
♪ Broken

485
00:38:47,673 --> 00:38:49,762
♪ In two ♪

486
00:38:50,589 --> 00:38:52,286
[door opening]

487
00:38:56,290 --> 00:38:58,727
- James. She's pretty, right?

488
00:38:58,771 --> 00:39:00,860
- Um, yeah, she's pretty, yes.

489
00:39:00,903 --> 00:39:03,384
- She's 22. Come here.
You can take her out
if you want.

490
00:39:03,428 --> 00:39:06,779
I feel bad about the other day,
and I want to make it up to you.

491
00:39:06,822 --> 00:39:09,738
- Okay, okay, let it go.
- No, you can do whatever
you want to her.

492
00:39:09,782 --> 00:39:11,740
I'm her father,
so she'll do what I say.

493
00:39:11,784 --> 00:39:14,090
- Jesus Christ!
- What, is that bad?

494
00:39:14,134 --> 00:39:16,049
- She's your fucking daughter,
man.

495
00:39:16,092 --> 00:39:17,572
So, yeah.

496
00:39:17,616 --> 00:39:19,661
- Oh, I'm sorry, man.

497
00:39:19,705 --> 00:39:21,663
Fucking judgmental prick.

498
00:39:21,707 --> 00:39:23,317
- Appreciate that.

499
00:39:25,928 --> 00:39:27,800
[James sighing]

500
00:39:28,322 --> 00:39:31,151
- Goddamn, that'll make
a gorilla shit the tree house.

501
00:39:31,194 --> 00:39:33,719
- Mm-hmm.
I'm glad I can be of service.

502
00:39:34,415 --> 00:39:38,158
- So you decided
to flip the tables, huh?
- What?

503
00:39:38,506 --> 00:39:41,291
- Well, it's been longer
than 24 hours.
You're still here.

504
00:39:41,944 --> 00:39:44,207
- I was just on my way out,
actually.

505
00:39:44,251 --> 00:39:47,472
- There's no shame in it.
You decided to stay.
- No, I decided not to leave.

506
00:39:47,515 --> 00:39:50,649
Don't want to be responsible
for you having a fucking
heart attack trying to stop me.

507
00:39:50,692 --> 00:39:52,564
- So it was an entirely
selfless act?

508
00:39:52,607 --> 00:39:55,044
- Fuck you.
- No matter how you slice it...

509
00:39:55,088 --> 00:39:57,220
We were having
a conversation here, James.

510
00:39:57,264 --> 00:39:59,397
I was just getting
to the good shit.

511
00:40:01,529 --> 00:40:04,793
- Alright, you ready
for your brand-new smile?

512
00:40:04,837 --> 00:40:06,491
- What's wrong with this one?

513
00:40:06,534 --> 00:40:08,971
- Nothing. They're perfect.
Let's get outta here.

514
00:40:09,537 --> 00:40:11,321
Alright, kid, look.

515
00:40:11,365 --> 00:40:13,715
I know you got a pair of balls
of your own, but...

516
00:40:13,759 --> 00:40:16,326
I figure you might need these,
too.

517
00:40:16,370 --> 00:40:17,676
- Why?

518
00:40:19,373 --> 00:40:22,158
- James, they're not gonna
give you... anesthesia,

519
00:40:22,202 --> 00:40:23,682
painkillers, none of it.

520
00:40:25,118 --> 00:40:26,685
They can't.

521
00:40:26,728 --> 00:40:29,122
Not while you're a patient
at the treatment centre.

522
00:40:31,298 --> 00:40:32,778
- Okay.

523
00:40:33,996 --> 00:40:35,389
- It starts hurting...

524
00:40:36,216 --> 00:40:37,783
...you start squeezing.

525
00:40:39,219 --> 00:40:40,438
- Alrighty.

526
00:40:42,135 --> 00:40:45,443
Here we go. Okay,
I am just gonna lower you
just a bit.

527
00:40:45,486 --> 00:40:47,140
- Mm-hmm.
- James...

528
00:40:47,183 --> 00:40:48,576
There we go.

529
00:40:53,712 --> 00:40:55,453
Do you mind
if we move the book?

530
00:40:57,411 --> 00:40:59,892
- I... I'd rather you didn't.

531
00:41:00,588 --> 00:41:01,894
- Okay, okay.

532
00:41:03,025 --> 00:41:05,201
Here we come, James.

533
00:41:05,245 --> 00:41:07,465
Open. Please turn towards me.

534
00:41:07,508 --> 00:41:10,206
- Mm-hmm.
- Thank you. Just...

535
00:41:10,250 --> 00:41:12,731
Mm-hmm.
I'm just checking things.

536
00:41:13,601 --> 00:41:15,385
Okay.
- Oh!
- Ah! Okay.

537
00:41:15,429 --> 00:41:16,909
Cotton, please?

538
00:41:18,824 --> 00:41:20,478
Alright.
[sighing]

539
00:41:23,611 --> 00:41:25,439
Okay. Ahem.

540
00:41:27,049 --> 00:41:29,922
We've gotta move quickly.
Here we go.

541
00:41:30,749 --> 00:41:32,446
And here we...

542
00:41:37,277 --> 00:41:38,626
[moaning]

543
00:41:39,627 --> 00:41:41,281
[moaning]

544
00:41:42,630 --> 00:41:44,066
- Ah!

545
00:41:45,198 --> 00:41:46,547
[moaning]

546
00:41:46,591 --> 00:41:48,506
[crying out]

547
00:41:51,639 --> 00:41:53,423
[screaming]

548
00:41:54,947 --> 00:41:57,297
Ah...
[panting]

549
00:41:59,952 --> 00:42:02,868
- This is...
this is just a precaution.
- For what?

550
00:42:02,911 --> 00:42:05,827
- So I don't injure
the back of your throat.

551
00:42:05,871 --> 00:42:08,090
- My throat?
- I need you to be still.

552
00:42:08,134 --> 00:42:10,049
But in case,
this is a precaution.

553
00:42:10,092 --> 00:42:12,530
We'll move as fast as we can,
James.

554
00:42:13,313 --> 00:42:15,010
- Okay.
- Alright, tight.

555
00:42:15,837 --> 00:42:17,796
Okay, hold his head.

556
00:42:18,623 --> 00:42:20,059
Are you ready?

557
00:42:20,102 --> 00:42:22,365
[whimpering]
Okay, here we go.

558
00:42:22,888 --> 00:42:26,326
Here we go, James.
Open. Open. Okay.

559
00:42:26,892 --> 00:42:28,458
[moaning]

560
00:42:33,812 --> 00:42:35,814
[screaming]

561
00:42:48,522 --> 00:42:50,524
[TV playing]

562
00:42:59,838 --> 00:43:01,535
- Oh, shit.

563
00:43:18,639 --> 00:43:19,988
[knocking]

564
00:43:21,642 --> 00:43:23,165
- You found me.

565
00:43:24,384 --> 00:43:25,733
Well, come in.

566
00:43:26,168 --> 00:43:28,388
There's the couch there
if you'd like.

567
00:43:32,174 --> 00:43:33,611
Coffee?
- Hmm?

568
00:43:35,961 --> 00:43:37,571
Sure. Thanks.

569
00:43:39,704 --> 00:43:41,793
[pouring]

570
00:43:41,836 --> 00:43:43,751
[clatter]
That's yours?

571
00:43:45,057 --> 00:43:47,059
- No, that's my boyfriend's.

572
00:43:47,973 --> 00:43:49,627
I ride.

573
00:43:49,670 --> 00:43:51,280
Yeah.

574
00:43:51,324 --> 00:43:52,978
Had him about 10 years.

575
00:43:54,414 --> 00:43:56,024
Turns out...

576
00:43:56,068 --> 00:43:58,810
there's a way to feed the soul,
not just destroy it.

577
00:44:01,421 --> 00:44:05,294
- We'd go on fishing trips...
now and then.

578
00:44:05,338 --> 00:44:07,993
I was never good with a rod,
but...

579
00:44:08,689 --> 00:44:10,648
...I can drink like a fish.

580
00:44:12,606 --> 00:44:14,390
- Yeah.

581
00:44:14,434 --> 00:44:16,044
I could too once.

582
00:44:17,785 --> 00:44:20,527
- But you're not AA.
- Yeah.

583
00:44:20,570 --> 00:44:22,007
We're all AA here.

584
00:44:22,790 --> 00:44:24,705
Everyone who works
in this joint,

585
00:44:24,749 --> 00:44:26,664
from the janitors
to the counsellors.

586
00:44:26,707 --> 00:44:28,666
We're all addicts.

587
00:44:33,105 --> 00:44:34,584
[James sighing]

588
00:44:35,803 --> 00:44:39,067
- Well, I don't know
how I'm supposed to...
leave here

589
00:44:39,111 --> 00:44:42,680
and never smoke crack or drink
a drop of alcohol again.

590
00:44:43,811 --> 00:44:47,249
You expect me to do that
for the rest of my fucking life?

591
00:44:48,468 --> 00:44:49,817
I love crack.

592
00:44:50,644 --> 00:44:52,254
I fuckin' love it.

593
00:44:54,953 --> 00:44:57,259
And I can't stop. I can't.

594
00:44:58,130 --> 00:45:01,524
- James, as soon as you realize
that there is no choice,

595
00:45:01,568 --> 00:45:03,352
there's a choice.

596
00:45:03,396 --> 00:45:04,702
You see?

597
00:45:06,399 --> 00:45:08,531
- Sounds like a load
of horseshit.

598
00:45:08,575 --> 00:45:10,098
- Maybe.

599
00:45:10,142 --> 00:45:12,231
But it works.
[James sighing]

600
00:45:12,274 --> 00:45:13,972
You just did the first step.

601
00:45:16,278 --> 00:45:19,673
- Well, if it's one of the 12,
it's the only one I'm doing.

602
00:45:20,630 --> 00:45:22,241
- Which brings us to...

603
00:45:22,284 --> 00:45:23,764
step five.

604
00:45:23,808 --> 00:45:26,027
The fifth step.

605
00:45:26,071 --> 00:45:28,769
We have admitted to God,
to ourselves,

606
00:45:28,813 --> 00:45:32,991
and to another human being,
the exact nature of our wrongs.

607
00:45:33,513 --> 00:45:37,038
Now, what I want to say
about that is that...

608
00:45:37,082 --> 00:45:39,084
your sins are pardonable.

609
00:45:40,172 --> 00:45:42,043
There is forgiveness.

610
00:45:42,087 --> 00:45:44,654
That's really
what the fifth step is about.

611
00:45:44,698 --> 00:45:47,048
Forgiveness through confession.

612
00:45:48,615 --> 00:45:52,271
Seeking to forgive others
that we believe have harmed us.

613
00:45:52,314 --> 00:45:54,534
[door slamming]

614
00:45:59,713 --> 00:46:01,715
[soft music]

615
00:47:14,396 --> 00:47:15,745
- "What is rooted will grow.

616
00:47:15,789 --> 00:47:18,923
A giant tree grows
from a single seed.

617
00:47:18,966 --> 00:47:23,362
The journey of a thousand miles
starts with a single step.

618
00:47:23,405 --> 00:47:26,756
If you have nothing,
you have nothing to lose.

619
00:47:26,800 --> 00:47:29,107
[screaming]
- Roy!

620
00:47:29,150 --> 00:47:31,109
- Get back, old man!
You're in my way!

621
00:47:31,152 --> 00:47:32,632
Get back, old man!
Stand down!

622
00:47:32,675 --> 00:47:34,721
Fuck you! Get back!
Get back! Get back!

623
00:47:34,764 --> 00:47:38,333
Look at me again
and I swear to God,
I'll bash your brains in, man!

624
00:47:38,377 --> 00:47:40,248
I swear to God!
[Roy crying]
- Roy?

625
00:47:40,292 --> 00:47:43,425
- I'll kill you. I'll fuckin'...
[panting]
You.

626
00:47:43,469 --> 00:47:45,775
C'mere. Come on. Come on!

627
00:47:45,819 --> 00:47:48,126
Come on, you! Come on.

628
00:47:48,169 --> 00:47:50,041
C'mere, c'mere.

629
00:47:51,216 --> 00:47:54,306
- What do you want, Roy?
- Roy? There's no Roy!

630
00:47:54,349 --> 00:47:56,743
I'm a fucking god!!

631
00:47:56,786 --> 00:48:00,094
And the only thing between you
and me is this fucking staff!

632
00:48:00,138 --> 00:48:01,879
You hear me? So you submit.

633
00:48:01,922 --> 00:48:03,750
- Roy,
put the fucking lamp down,
okay?

634
00:48:03,793 --> 00:48:05,360
- Submit!!
You will submit to me,

635
00:48:05,404 --> 00:48:07,841
or I swear to God,
I'll fucking injure you.

636
00:48:07,885 --> 00:48:09,930
- Alright, alright, alright.
- Surrender. Shhh! Surr...

637
00:48:09,974 --> 00:48:12,454
No, no! No!
They don't like him!!

638
00:48:12,498 --> 00:48:14,761
- Alright, alright.
It's just you and me.
Look at me.

639
00:48:14,804 --> 00:48:16,197
- Surren...Shhh!
You didn't pray.

640
00:48:16,241 --> 00:48:18,373
I wanna help you.
You need to pray.

641
00:48:18,417 --> 00:48:20,680
And he's listening.
And you're gonna submit
before God,

642
00:48:20,723 --> 00:48:22,247
or fight the Higher Power!

643
00:48:22,290 --> 00:48:24,902
Get on your knees! Get down...

644
00:48:24,945 --> 00:48:27,948
- Like this?
- Close your eyes.

645
00:48:27,992 --> 00:48:30,733
Close your eyes!!
Put your hands together.

646
00:48:30,777 --> 00:48:33,127
We're gonna pray.
We're gonna pray.

647
00:48:33,171 --> 00:48:35,260
By a power greater than me,

648
00:48:35,303 --> 00:48:36,914
I'm gonna do you a service,
okay?

649
00:48:36,957 --> 00:48:38,567
- No!
[Roy exclaiming]

650
00:48:38,611 --> 00:48:41,701
[sobbing]
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

651
00:48:41,744 --> 00:48:44,660
I'm sorry. I'm going to hell.
[sobbing]

652
00:48:44,704 --> 00:48:47,837
- Show's over!
- I'm sorry.
- Go back to your rooms!

653
00:48:50,014 --> 00:48:52,016
I said show's over!

654
00:48:53,191 --> 00:48:55,062
[Roy crying]

655
00:49:02,287 --> 00:49:04,942
- You been here all night?
- Pretty much.

656
00:49:06,508 --> 00:49:08,641
- Let's take a walk.

657
00:49:08,684 --> 00:49:11,078
- What makes you think
I'm going anywhere with you
looking like that?

658
00:49:12,297 --> 00:49:14,821
- Looking like what?
- What the hell are you wearing?

659
00:49:14,864 --> 00:49:16,954
- Let me tell you something,
buddy boy.

660
00:49:16,997 --> 00:49:20,305
These glasses
are a down payment
on a pretty fuckin' decent car.

661
00:49:20,348 --> 00:49:22,742
Okay? You see this watch?

662
00:49:22,785 --> 00:49:24,526
There's enough gold
in this fucking watch,

663
00:49:24,570 --> 00:49:26,920
where if I hit you,
it'd kill you instantly.

664
00:49:26,964 --> 00:49:29,053
- I was talking
about the onesie.

665
00:49:29,096 --> 00:49:32,186
That's the kind of thing
my mom would put me in
for a family portrait.

666
00:49:32,230 --> 00:49:33,883
- Ah, yeah, whatever.

667
00:49:35,537 --> 00:49:37,757
How you doing?

668
00:49:37,800 --> 00:49:39,280
- I dunno.

669
00:49:39,324 --> 00:49:40,978
Fine, I guess.

670
00:49:41,021 --> 00:49:43,328
- Cut the bullshit.
It's me you're talking to.

671
00:49:44,938 --> 00:49:46,896
[sighing]
- Some days I feel okay,

672
00:49:46,940 --> 00:49:50,291
others I just want to crawl up
in a dark hole and die.

673
00:49:50,335 --> 00:49:52,511
- Well, good.
You're doing okay, then.

674
00:49:52,554 --> 00:49:54,513
Just hold on.

675
00:49:54,556 --> 00:49:56,950
- Oh, really?
What would you know?
You're a fuckin' cokehead.

676
00:50:04,349 --> 00:50:06,438
- I was just a kid, y'know?

677
00:50:06,481 --> 00:50:09,310
And I was on the streets
for several months,

678
00:50:09,354 --> 00:50:11,965
and I met this guy,
Mike the Nose.

679
00:50:12,009 --> 00:50:13,923
How about that?
Mike the Nose?

680
00:50:13,967 --> 00:50:15,534
[James chuckling]

681
00:50:15,577 --> 00:50:17,579
He was kind of like
the town hero.

682
00:50:17,623 --> 00:50:20,713
He was a gangster,
had a Cadillac.
You know, the whole deal.

683
00:50:20,756 --> 00:50:23,455
Anyhow, he and his wife Geena,
they adopted me.

684
00:50:23,498 --> 00:50:25,979
Took me in
and made my life good.

685
00:50:28,286 --> 00:50:32,812
And then Geena gets cancer
and she dies way quicker
than a human should have to.

686
00:50:35,162 --> 00:50:37,164
Of course,
Mike went off the rails.

687
00:50:38,296 --> 00:50:41,038
Got into coke and whores and,
y'know, liquor.

688
00:50:41,081 --> 00:50:42,735
The usual shit, y'know.

689
00:50:43,953 --> 00:50:47,174
And then he just...
just disappeared.

690
00:50:49,089 --> 00:50:50,786
And...

691
00:50:50,830 --> 00:50:52,484
I didn't have anybody.

692
00:50:54,834 --> 00:50:56,314
Completely lost.

693
00:50:57,924 --> 00:51:00,013
So I went after it pretty hard.

694
00:51:02,842 --> 00:51:04,191
About a year later...

695
00:51:05,018 --> 00:51:07,760
...one night,
I heard this noise
in my kitchen.

696
00:51:09,414 --> 00:51:12,025
So I go downstairs -
with a gun, of course -

697
00:51:14,332 --> 00:51:19,076
and I nearly put one
in the back of the head
of this healthy-looking,

698
00:51:19,119 --> 00:51:21,252
put-together guy, y'know,
who was bitching

699
00:51:21,295 --> 00:51:23,210
about how my refrigerator
was empty.

700
00:51:25,647 --> 00:51:27,301
It was fuckin' Mike.

701
00:51:27,345 --> 00:51:28,868
- Huh.

702
00:51:30,043 --> 00:51:33,438
- And...
he told me about this place.

703
00:51:34,787 --> 00:51:36,745
And he said...

704
00:51:36,789 --> 00:51:38,791
"Lenny,
I've come to take you there."

705
00:51:39,879 --> 00:51:42,011
He said, "Now, you're gonna have
some shitty days,

706
00:51:42,055 --> 00:51:44,405
probably the shittiest days
you ever had in your life,

707
00:51:44,449 --> 00:51:46,581
and you're gonna have a pain
in your soul

708
00:51:46,625 --> 00:51:48,061
like you never dreamed
you'd have.

709
00:51:49,802 --> 00:51:51,456
But you'll get through it...

710
00:51:53,240 --> 00:51:56,548
...and you will live sober
and you will live free."

711
00:51:58,376 --> 00:52:01,422
- And did he live free
and sober, or...?

712
00:52:01,466 --> 00:52:04,121
- So that night,
we went out to celebrate.

713
00:52:04,860 --> 00:52:07,254
It was our first dinner
after all that time, y'know.

714
00:52:07,298 --> 00:52:11,215
Well, we finish up
and we go out front to the valet
to get the car,

715
00:52:11,258 --> 00:52:15,088
and he gets gunned down
by a bunch of motherfuckers
that he owed money to.

716
00:52:17,090 --> 00:52:18,700
And that was it.

717
00:52:20,398 --> 00:52:22,095
You know what I did?

718
00:52:23,270 --> 00:52:25,142
- You came here.

719
00:52:26,708 --> 00:52:30,364
- I went and found every last
motherfucking one of those guys

720
00:52:30,408 --> 00:52:32,410
and the people they worked for.

721
00:52:33,933 --> 00:52:35,413
And then I came here.

722
00:52:37,937 --> 00:52:42,028
I'm tortured by who I used to be
and all the horrific things
I did.

723
00:52:43,116 --> 00:52:46,946
It just runs in a loop
in my head, some of it.

724
00:52:49,296 --> 00:52:52,125
And it...
and it might not look like it...

725
00:52:52,952 --> 00:52:55,955
...but I wanna kill myself
every fucking day.

726
00:52:58,523 --> 00:53:00,829
But I hold on.

727
00:53:00,873 --> 00:53:02,744
'Cause I think of Mike.

728
00:53:03,789 --> 00:53:06,444
'Cause I made a promise
and I don't break a promise.

729
00:53:09,534 --> 00:53:12,319
And I will live sober.
And I will live free.

730
00:53:15,714 --> 00:53:17,629
You think you could do that?

731
00:53:18,325 --> 00:53:20,153
You think you can hold on?

732
00:53:26,290 --> 00:53:31,120
[all]: God grant me the serenity
to accept the things
I cannot change,

733
00:53:31,164 --> 00:53:34,211
the courage to change
the things I can,

734
00:53:34,254 --> 00:53:36,952
and the wisdom
to know the difference.

735
00:53:36,996 --> 00:53:38,563
- Good work today, guys.

736
00:53:39,999 --> 00:53:42,393
- You did good, kid.

737
00:53:42,436 --> 00:53:46,092
And you gotta remember,
this fucking guy is a sheriff,
so keep that in mind, right?

738
00:53:46,135 --> 00:53:47,963
Well, he looks
exactly like Jackie Gleason.

739
00:53:48,007 --> 00:53:50,183
Where you going?
You're gonna learn something
here.

740
00:53:51,358 --> 00:53:53,230
- Oh, fuck. I'm sorry.

741
00:53:58,670 --> 00:54:01,412
- Anyways, what he would do is,
he'd pull up in the front yard.

742
00:54:01,455 --> 00:54:03,805
He didn't get out of the car.
He honked the horn.

743
00:54:03,849 --> 00:54:06,895
So we all stagger out
on the fuckin' porch,
all fucked up and everything...

744
00:54:23,695 --> 00:54:28,308
I can't remember,
but I was surprised
he lived to 44, y'know.

745
00:54:28,352 --> 00:54:32,225
Mesothelioma,
or whatever they call it now,
but back then...

746
00:54:34,706 --> 00:54:37,491
A recipe for disaster
is what it was.

747
00:54:37,535 --> 00:54:39,972
That's all I know.
[indistinct chatter]

748
00:54:55,335 --> 00:54:57,294
- Hi.

749
00:54:57,337 --> 00:54:58,860
Welcome.

750
00:55:00,253 --> 00:55:01,863
[Lilly laughing]

751
00:55:02,647 --> 00:55:05,171
So I suppose
you have a girlfriend.

752
00:55:05,214 --> 00:55:06,955
- Why would you assume that?

753
00:55:06,999 --> 00:55:10,002
- 'Cause you went to college
and everybody in college

754
00:55:10,045 --> 00:55:12,744
is dating or fucking
or losing their virginity.

755
00:55:12,787 --> 00:55:15,442
- What makes you think
I went to college?
- Did you?

756
00:55:17,183 --> 00:55:18,271
- Yeah.

757
00:55:20,665 --> 00:55:23,232
- So how'd you lose
your virginity?

758
00:55:23,276 --> 00:55:25,496
- How'd I lose my virginity?

759
00:55:25,539 --> 00:55:27,411
You... you don't wanna know.

760
00:55:27,454 --> 00:55:30,022
- Yeah, I do.
It says a lot about a person.

761
00:55:31,589 --> 00:55:33,895
- Uh... I was 16.

762
00:55:34,592 --> 00:55:36,985
That's pretty... pretty late,
right?

763
00:55:37,029 --> 00:55:41,729
You know, it is. No, I mean,
my friends had lost theirs
two or three years before.

764
00:55:41,773 --> 00:55:45,472
So I was, uh...
feeling the pressure, you know?

765
00:55:46,908 --> 00:55:48,954
And, uh... it was prom night.

766
00:55:48,997 --> 00:55:51,304
- That's romantic.
- Well, mm... no.

767
00:55:51,348 --> 00:55:55,047
I didn't actually have a date,
and, uh...

768
00:55:59,399 --> 00:56:02,184
It was with a whore
in the back of my mom's car.

769
00:56:03,925 --> 00:56:06,363
She was fucking disgusting.

770
00:56:07,059 --> 00:56:11,368
And she smelled bad.
And she just talked to me
in this fake dirty voice.

771
00:56:11,411 --> 00:56:13,631
It was over in seconds.
It was...

772
00:56:16,634 --> 00:56:18,244
...not at all romantic.

773
00:56:19,071 --> 00:56:21,769
And so I went home and said
I had a good evening and...

774
00:56:23,162 --> 00:56:26,818
...drank half a bottle
of Wild Turkey
and cried myself to sleep.

775
00:56:29,516 --> 00:56:31,300
[sighing]

776
00:56:31,344 --> 00:56:33,607
[scoffing]
It's pretty pathetic, I know.

777
00:56:33,651 --> 00:56:35,348
It's pathetic, huh?

778
00:56:36,349 --> 00:56:38,133
- No.

779
00:56:38,177 --> 00:56:41,006
It's not as pathetic
as attacking a baby tree.

780
00:56:41,049 --> 00:56:42,964
[James laughing]
- Fuck you.
[Lilly chuckling]

781
00:56:46,272 --> 00:56:48,187
I never told anyone that
before.

782
00:56:58,676 --> 00:57:00,417
- What if I told you...

783
00:57:02,680 --> 00:57:06,205
...that I lost my virginity
as a whore
instead of with one?

784
00:57:08,773 --> 00:57:10,427
- I would say I'm sorry.

785
00:57:15,997 --> 00:57:17,390
I'm sorry.

786
00:57:24,005 --> 00:57:26,530
How'd you find
this fucking place? It's, uh...

787
00:57:31,578 --> 00:57:34,407
You know we could get
thrown out for doing this?

788
00:57:39,151 --> 00:57:42,807
- A second of freedom is worth
more than a lifetime
of bondage.

789
00:57:46,332 --> 00:57:47,855
- Who said that?

790
00:57:49,422 --> 00:57:50,728
- I did.

791
00:57:52,164 --> 00:57:53,513
My grandma.

792
00:57:56,168 --> 00:57:57,604
- You really love her, huh?

793
00:57:59,606 --> 00:58:01,260
- More than anything.

794
00:58:07,527 --> 00:58:09,442
We should have a secret code.

795
00:58:10,269 --> 00:58:14,099
- Like... like what? Like how?
- I don't know, like, uh...

796
00:58:14,142 --> 00:58:17,015
the amount of plates
on your tray at lunch

797
00:58:17,058 --> 00:58:19,931
could mean the time
that we meet up later.

798
00:58:20,845 --> 00:58:24,239
-Yeah, I could do that.
It's... it's pretty easy.

799
00:58:24,283 --> 00:58:26,111
- Five plates?
- Five o'clock.

800
00:58:26,154 --> 00:58:29,201
- Five o'clock.
- Yeah, I get the concept.
[laughing]

801
00:58:36,295 --> 00:58:38,645
- I've been looking for you.
- Why?

802
00:58:40,865 --> 00:58:42,519
It's been opened.

803
00:58:42,562 --> 00:58:44,825
- What do you expect?
You're in rehab.

804
00:59:02,887 --> 00:59:05,019
- Failure is an opportunity.

805
00:59:06,325 --> 00:59:09,502
If you blame others...
there's no end to blame.

806
00:59:12,505 --> 00:59:14,159
Demand nothing...

807
00:59:15,073 --> 00:59:17,292
...and give all.
[clattering]

808
00:59:22,689 --> 00:59:24,909
[soft piano music]

809
00:59:36,703 --> 00:59:38,357
What's going on?

810
00:59:42,143 --> 00:59:44,537
- I'm just... I'm just scared.

811
00:59:51,849 --> 00:59:53,285
- Why's that?

812
00:59:59,160 --> 01:00:01,598
- I'm... I'm... I'm leaving
and... and I...

813
01:00:03,948 --> 01:00:05,950
I... I know that I'm not better.

814
01:00:20,573 --> 01:00:23,750
I just... I just feel safe here,
but, uh, I...

815
01:00:26,579 --> 01:00:30,061
And I know I'm gonna do
something stupid
and end up back in prison.

816
01:00:31,192 --> 01:00:32,629
- Why do you think that?

817
01:00:34,587 --> 01:00:36,371
[sniffling]

818
01:00:36,415 --> 01:00:38,199
- Do you think I'm strong?

819
01:00:54,215 --> 01:00:55,608
[sniffling]

820
01:00:57,610 --> 01:01:00,482
Here's my... here's my
daughter's phone number.

821
01:01:00,526 --> 01:01:03,616
- John.
- No, no, no, no, no.
No, no, no. No, no.

822
01:01:03,660 --> 01:01:07,011
I... I just want you to...
I want you to call her...

823
01:01:08,795 --> 01:01:11,232
...and tell her
that her father loves her.

824
01:01:12,930 --> 01:01:15,454
And that... I tried.

825
01:01:18,239 --> 01:01:19,806
I really tried, okay?

826
01:01:24,724 --> 01:01:26,247
- I'll do that.

827
01:01:28,249 --> 01:01:30,643
[sniffling]
- You're such a fucking cowboy.

828
01:01:51,925 --> 01:01:55,712
[Lenny]: Yeah...
that's Miles Davis's
new roommate.

829
01:01:55,755 --> 01:01:57,496
[laughter]

830
01:02:05,286 --> 01:02:06,635
[clatter]
- Shit.

831
01:02:06,679 --> 01:02:08,202
- Ten?

832
01:02:09,421 --> 01:02:11,902
- That is one sad
motherfucking addiction.

833
01:02:11,945 --> 01:02:14,513
[laughter]
- You got no idea, buddy.

834
01:02:14,556 --> 01:02:16,820
Have a seat, kid.
I want you to meet somebody.

835
01:02:16,863 --> 01:02:18,560
This is Matty.

836
01:02:19,300 --> 01:02:22,347
- Oh, wait, I know you.
Yeah,
you're the Featherweight Champ.

837
01:02:22,390 --> 01:02:25,480
- More like the chunky-weight
champ now, but same guy.

838
01:02:25,524 --> 01:02:27,787
- Fuck you, Lee.
The chunky-weight champ

839
01:02:27,831 --> 01:02:29,658
can still knock a featherweight
the fuck out.

840
01:02:29,702 --> 01:02:31,922
- I don't know, buddy.
I think those days are over.

841
01:02:31,965 --> 01:02:35,142
- Nah.
- Sure made me a lot of money,
though.

842
01:02:35,186 --> 01:02:37,666
- Damn right.
- Yeah. How are the kids?

843
01:02:37,710 --> 01:02:40,017
- Yeah, well, they don't talk
to me no more.

844
01:02:40,060 --> 01:02:43,585
- Well, you're here now.
That's all that matters, y'know.

845
01:02:43,629 --> 01:02:45,413
[toilet flushing]

846
01:02:45,457 --> 01:02:47,851
- So is your name
really Miles Davis?

847
01:02:47,894 --> 01:02:50,679
- Yes, it is.
It's on my birth certificate.

848
01:02:50,723 --> 01:02:54,205
And I don't play the trumpet.
I play the clarinet.

849
01:02:54,248 --> 01:02:56,685
- Yeah, shame you can't play
as good, though, huh?

850
01:02:56,729 --> 01:02:59,863
- Well, that's why I'm a judge,
not a musician.
- You're a judge?

851
01:02:59,906 --> 01:03:02,604
[laughing]
They put me in here
with a fucking judge?

852
01:03:02,648 --> 01:03:05,085
- Been to prison, or something?

853
01:03:05,129 --> 01:03:08,872
- I skipped bail
on a bunch of charges,
but I'm not going to prison.

854
01:03:08,915 --> 01:03:10,917
- Got warrants on you, then.

855
01:03:12,136 --> 01:03:13,877
- Okay, Your Honour.

856
01:03:13,920 --> 01:03:15,704
I, uh...

857
01:03:15,748 --> 01:03:19,404
flipped a car, hit a cop,
kicked the shit outta some kid,

858
01:03:19,447 --> 01:03:21,928
set fire to my neighbour's
new Jag, I...

859
01:03:24,583 --> 01:03:26,846
...sold drugs, theft.
You know, dumb shit.

860
01:03:26,890 --> 01:03:29,153
- You won't get an argument
from me.

861
01:03:30,371 --> 01:03:33,200
- I'm sorry, Your Honour,
can I be, uh, dismissed?

862
01:03:33,244 --> 01:03:34,723
- Where are you going?

863
01:03:35,768 --> 01:03:37,596
- I think I might plead
the fifth.

864
01:03:40,599 --> 01:03:41,948
- You're gonna get in trouble.

865
01:03:44,559 --> 01:03:46,953
♪ Candy says...

866
01:03:49,608 --> 01:03:53,960
♪ I've come to hate my body

867
01:03:55,875 --> 01:03:59,836
♪ And all that it requires

868
01:03:59,879 --> 01:04:02,273
♪ In this world...

869
01:04:07,887 --> 01:04:10,803
♪ Candy says...

870
01:04:14,024 --> 01:04:18,419
♪ I'd like to know completely

871
01:04:20,117 --> 01:04:24,164
♪ What others so discretely

872
01:04:24,208 --> 01:04:26,993
♪ Talk about

873
01:04:32,477 --> 01:04:36,524
♪ I'm gonna watch
the bluebirds ♪

874
01:04:36,568 --> 01:04:38,309
♪ Fly...

875
01:04:40,006 --> 01:04:42,443
♪ Over my shoulder

876
01:04:44,402 --> 01:04:46,926
♪ I'm gonna watch them

877
01:04:46,970 --> 01:04:48,928
♪ Pass me by

878
01:04:51,322 --> 01:04:54,412
♪ If I could walk away
from me... ♪♪

879
01:04:54,455 --> 01:04:56,588
- What?
- I... I can't.

880
01:04:58,068 --> 01:05:00,679
You don't need to do that
with me.

881
01:05:02,333 --> 01:05:04,030
- But what if I want to?

882
01:05:10,689 --> 01:05:12,865
- I can't.
I can't go any further.

883
01:05:17,609 --> 01:05:19,567
- You think I'm dirty.

884
01:05:19,611 --> 01:05:21,613
- No. No, I don't.

885
01:05:26,052 --> 01:05:28,054
I... I've never done this.

886
01:05:31,797 --> 01:05:33,190
Sober, that is.

887
01:05:38,717 --> 01:05:40,632
- Fuck. Neither have I.

888
01:05:57,736 --> 01:06:00,521
- Trust is the motherfucker
of life.

889
01:06:01,392 --> 01:06:03,872
Trust... in ourselves,

890
01:06:03,916 --> 01:06:06,136
in our... our worthiness,

891
01:06:06,179 --> 01:06:09,661
our family, our loved ones,
let alone some...

892
01:06:09,704 --> 01:06:11,793
foreign process and program

893
01:06:11,837 --> 01:06:16,363
that's insanely different from
your current brain's paradigm,
right?

894
01:06:18,322 --> 01:06:20,759
Not everybody gets it
the first time.

895
01:06:20,802 --> 01:06:22,979
I know I didn't. Mm-mm.

896
01:06:23,936 --> 01:06:25,285
No.

897
01:06:26,417 --> 01:06:28,114
But the steps work.

898
01:06:29,463 --> 01:06:30,769
They do.

899
01:06:31,944 --> 01:06:33,641
Recovery is a process.

900
01:06:33,685 --> 01:06:36,035
- Well, what about Roy?
He did the steps, right?

901
01:06:36,079 --> 01:06:39,604
He's like a model student
of the fucking year,
and then he just--

902
01:06:39,647 --> 01:06:41,736
- Roy is diagnosed bipolar,

903
01:06:41,780 --> 01:06:44,087
and he's been moved
to another unit.

904
01:06:44,130 --> 01:06:46,654
- Yeah, that's different.
- Look, I was like you.

905
01:06:46,698 --> 01:06:49,527
I was one of those guys
that was, like:

906
01:06:49,570 --> 01:06:51,442
"Look at these AA motherfuckers.

907
01:06:51,485 --> 01:06:55,098
They're all grateful
for everything."
I wanted to strangle 'em.

908
01:06:55,141 --> 01:06:58,057
- Yeah!
- I was like
that the first time, too.

909
01:06:58,101 --> 01:07:00,233
- Yeah, it's mutual.

910
01:07:00,277 --> 01:07:02,453
But I trusted in the process.

911
01:07:04,150 --> 01:07:07,675
I worked the steps.
Alcoholism is a disease.

912
01:07:07,719 --> 01:07:10,983
- No. Alzheimer's is a disease.
Cancer... is a disease.

913
01:07:11,027 --> 01:07:13,551
And you can't control that,
can you?

914
01:07:13,594 --> 01:07:18,077
You don't say, "Hey, give me
a shitload of Parkinson's
and a shot of cancer," do you?

915
01:07:18,121 --> 01:07:20,340
- But you lost control.
- I'm talking about that.
Exactly.

916
01:07:20,384 --> 01:07:22,995
I choose to fucking drink.
I chose to take crack.

917
01:07:23,039 --> 01:07:27,130
You can't help it if you got
a god-awful fucking disease
you don't want anymore.

918
01:07:27,173 --> 01:07:30,568
Y'know,
and you wanna get rid of it.
You see what I'm saying?

919
01:07:30,611 --> 01:07:33,614
- I'll give you that, yeah.
- It's a decision.
It's a choice.

920
01:07:33,658 --> 01:07:35,964
Do I or don't I, y'know?

921
01:07:36,008 --> 01:07:40,839
Am I gonna be
a dumb-shit addict
and continue to waste my life,

922
01:07:40,882 --> 01:07:43,276
or am I gonna, uh, be, uh...

923
01:07:43,320 --> 01:07:44,799
- Sober?
- Right, sober, y'know?

924
01:07:44,843 --> 01:07:47,454
- Well, let me ask you this,
James.

925
01:07:49,413 --> 01:07:51,328
All the damage you've done.

926
01:07:52,851 --> 01:07:54,766
All the harm you've caused.

927
01:07:55,636 --> 01:07:57,160
Did you choose that?

928
01:07:57,203 --> 01:07:58,639
- No.

929
01:08:00,424 --> 01:08:03,862
- So it wasn't your childhood
ambition to...
destroy your family?

930
01:08:05,124 --> 01:08:07,039
Ruin your career?
- Of course not.

931
01:08:09,346 --> 01:08:11,783
- It happened
'cause you're an addict, right?

932
01:08:13,437 --> 01:08:15,003
- Yeah.

933
01:08:15,047 --> 01:08:16,614
- Yeah.

934
01:08:16,657 --> 01:08:18,398
You had no choice.

935
01:08:18,442 --> 01:08:22,228
It is a disease
you did not choose to have.

936
01:08:23,664 --> 01:08:27,015
Because why would anybody
in their right mind...

937
01:08:27,059 --> 01:08:29,235
choose all that destruction?

938
01:08:31,672 --> 01:08:33,500
[thunder rumbling]

939
01:08:33,544 --> 01:08:35,285
[rainfall]

940
01:08:35,328 --> 01:08:38,375
- If we are free from desire,
we can realize mystery.

941
01:08:40,072 --> 01:08:42,335
Darkness within darkness

942
01:08:42,379 --> 01:08:44,685
is the key
to all understanding.

943
01:08:47,471 --> 01:08:48,646
- James!

944
01:08:49,690 --> 01:08:51,736
James!!
- What?

945
01:08:51,779 --> 01:08:53,172
- There's a young lady
at the window.

946
01:08:53,216 --> 01:08:55,392
- Jesus Christ.

947
01:08:57,829 --> 01:08:59,265
What are you doing?

948
01:08:59,309 --> 01:09:00,658
What's going on?

949
01:09:00,701 --> 01:09:03,226
- What the fuck?!
- You're soaking wet.

950
01:09:03,269 --> 01:09:04,705
- Of course I'm soaking wet.

951
01:09:04,749 --> 01:09:06,925
I was out in the rain
for fucking hours.

952
01:09:06,968 --> 01:09:09,014
- Hey, hey, hey, hey.
Are you fucking crazy?

953
01:09:09,057 --> 01:09:10,624
- I'm not fuckin' crazy!

954
01:09:10,668 --> 01:09:13,888
I was the one waiting out
in the fucking rain for you!

955
01:09:13,932 --> 01:09:15,760
- Why? What the fuck for?

956
01:09:15,803 --> 01:09:18,589
- Because you had five plates
on your tray at lunch, asshole.

957
01:09:18,632 --> 01:09:20,156
Five plates is five o'clock,
remember?

958
01:09:20,199 --> 01:09:22,245
- I didn't realize
we were playing that game.

959
01:09:22,288 --> 01:09:23,768
- Bullshit.
- Why would I lie to you?

960
01:09:23,811 --> 01:09:25,248
- Why have five plates
on your tray?

961
01:09:25,291 --> 01:09:27,424
- Because I was fucking hungry.

962
01:09:28,425 --> 01:09:31,732
Why would you stand outside
in the rain
when you can sit in the cabin?

963
01:09:33,952 --> 01:09:36,563
- So you're just a greedy,
fat fucker, then?

964
01:09:36,607 --> 01:09:39,523
[Lilly laughing]
I'm a little indecisive, y'know?
They got cake.

965
01:09:39,566 --> 01:09:42,308
- She better get outta here
before we all get in some shit.

966
01:09:42,352 --> 01:09:44,136
- He's the fucking judge.

967
01:09:46,094 --> 01:09:49,185
- Sorry about your table.
- Jesus Christ.
Don't fuckin' worry about it.

968
01:09:50,273 --> 01:09:52,710
Alright, take it easy.
[Lilly laughing]

969
01:09:52,753 --> 01:09:55,452
- I'm sorry. I'll see you later.

970
01:09:56,757 --> 01:09:58,150
- Watch yourself.

971
01:10:00,326 --> 01:10:02,676
- You're bringing more trouble
in here, James.

972
01:10:02,720 --> 01:10:06,419
Lincoln told you about that.
- Oh, stop judging.
Play me a tune, Miles Davis.

973
01:10:06,463 --> 01:10:08,116
[sighing]
- Let me tell you something.

974
01:10:08,160 --> 01:10:10,293
It's my second time
in this place.

975
01:10:10,336 --> 01:10:14,384
I fucked up my marriage,
almost ruined my career,
so I know about fucking up.

976
01:10:17,256 --> 01:10:18,605
- Okay.

977
01:10:19,867 --> 01:10:22,609
- Get it right the first time,
James.

978
01:10:27,179 --> 01:10:29,834
James was born
when I was three-and-a-half.

979
01:10:29,877 --> 01:10:33,141
I remember the day you came
home from the hospital.

980
01:10:33,185 --> 01:10:35,143
[chuckling]

981
01:10:35,187 --> 01:10:38,321
All he did was just scream
and scream and scream--

982
01:10:38,364 --> 01:10:40,888
- Wait, I'm sorry.
Why you telling her this shit?

983
01:10:40,932 --> 01:10:43,413
- Because she asked.
'Cause I thought it would help.

984
01:10:43,456 --> 01:10:47,721
- James, the first two years
are the most important
in the development of a child.

985
01:10:47,765 --> 01:10:50,637
- I have no memory of that.
- Well, I do.

986
01:10:50,681 --> 01:10:52,683
You had this rage in you
forever.

987
01:10:52,726 --> 01:10:55,468
- No,
I had fucking ear infections
and it was fucking painful.

988
01:10:55,512 --> 01:10:57,557
And they clearly did fuck all
about it.

989
01:10:57,601 --> 01:10:59,603
- Who? Mom and Dad?
- Yeah, Mom and Dad.

990
01:10:59,646 --> 01:11:01,300
- They did everything
they could.

991
01:11:01,344 --> 01:11:05,173
- Bob, I'm 30% deaf
in both my fucking ears, okay?

992
01:11:05,217 --> 01:11:07,132
I think I know.

993
01:11:07,175 --> 01:11:09,395
Which is fine,
because sometimes I like
to drown out this shit.

994
01:11:09,439 --> 01:11:11,963
- Do you hear
what you're saying?

995
01:11:12,006 --> 01:11:15,009
Perhaps that's the core
to this fury,

996
01:11:15,053 --> 01:11:17,098
and to your addiction.

997
01:11:17,142 --> 01:11:19,753
- Are you shitting me?
I snort coke and steal cars
and smash up shit

998
01:11:19,797 --> 01:11:21,973
because I had issues
with my ears as a baby?

999
01:11:22,016 --> 01:11:23,540
- It's--
- James,
she's trying to help you.

1000
01:11:23,583 --> 01:11:25,498
- Yeah, I know
what she's trying to do.

1001
01:11:25,542 --> 01:11:28,284
What are you doing here,
with all your fucking theories
and shit?

1002
01:11:28,327 --> 01:11:31,330
Like there's gotta be a reason
to why I'm such a fuck-up?

1003
01:11:31,374 --> 01:11:35,073
Why don't you just go back
to Karen and make babies
or some shit? I dunno.

1004
01:11:37,554 --> 01:11:39,251
- Karen and I are divorced.

1005
01:11:40,992 --> 01:11:42,950
For over two years.

1006
01:11:42,994 --> 01:11:44,691
- What?
- We're divorced!

1007
01:11:44,735 --> 01:11:47,825
I called you... and called you
and called you,

1008
01:11:47,868 --> 01:11:51,307
because for once in my life,
I needed a brother.

1009
01:11:54,440 --> 01:11:56,877
James, you're so fucking
self-involved.

1010
01:12:00,446 --> 01:12:03,754
- I say this with love,
but I need to do this
on my own, Bob.

1011
01:12:05,669 --> 01:12:07,279
- James. James.

1012
01:12:09,455 --> 01:12:11,065
I know you're scared,

1013
01:12:11,109 --> 01:12:13,894
but you gotta deal
with this shit at some point.

1014
01:12:17,202 --> 01:12:18,769
- Well, I'm trying.

1015
01:12:25,906 --> 01:12:27,734
There is no good or evil.

1016
01:12:27,778 --> 01:12:30,041
No sinner or saint.

1017
01:12:30,084 --> 01:12:32,696
There simply is what is,
and that is it.

1018
01:12:33,305 --> 01:12:35,002
Just let it be.

1019
01:12:35,046 --> 01:12:36,526
Just be.

1020
01:12:36,569 --> 01:12:38,702
- What... is that?

1021
01:12:39,485 --> 01:12:41,879
- Nothing.
- I doubt that.

1022
01:12:41,922 --> 01:12:44,534
I see you carrying it around
with you everywhere.
You're reading it all the time.

1023
01:12:44,577 --> 01:12:47,188
- Oh, it's just a lot
of nonsense.
You know, fortune-cookie shit.

1024
01:12:47,232 --> 01:12:49,147
- My man,
we're all the same in here.

1025
01:12:49,190 --> 01:12:52,498
Judge, criminal,
bourbon-drinker, crackhead,
doesn't matter.

1026
01:12:53,499 --> 01:12:57,024
We're all we've got
and we've got to look out
for one another.

1027
01:12:57,068 --> 01:12:59,287
I learned that the hard way
and now...

1028
01:13:00,724 --> 01:13:02,421
...I'm struggling.

1029
01:13:06,338 --> 01:13:08,732
- Well, look, um...
you can read it if you want.

1030
01:13:08,775 --> 01:13:11,212
Uh, take it
with a pinch of salt and, uh...

1031
01:13:11,256 --> 01:13:14,477
I'd take that over the Big Book
any fucking day of the week.

1032
01:13:14,520 --> 01:13:17,567
- Why is that?
You never even read
the Big Book.

1033
01:13:17,610 --> 01:13:20,657
- That don't weigh 400 pounds
and there's not a chapter

1034
01:13:20,700 --> 01:13:24,095
that says "Indian physician,
heal thyself," or some shit,
so...

1035
01:13:24,138 --> 01:13:27,185
But, like,
if you want some real advice,
I'd take a walk with Leonard.

1036
01:13:28,578 --> 01:13:30,275
- I'll do that.

1037
01:13:30,318 --> 01:13:31,972
Thanks. Oh.

1038
01:13:32,973 --> 01:13:34,497
- What, you gonna pay me?

1039
01:13:34,540 --> 01:13:37,064
- No. A note for you, though.

1040
01:13:46,117 --> 01:13:47,684
- How are we today, huh?

1041
01:13:51,992 --> 01:13:53,994
Where you headed?

1042
01:13:54,038 --> 01:13:56,910
- Uh, outside for a walk.
- James, it's group.
You can't just skip it--

1043
01:13:56,954 --> 01:14:01,088
- Yeah, I know it's group.
I just, y'know, I, uh,
don't feel like sharing today.

1044
01:14:01,132 --> 01:14:04,352
- Why is that?
- Why? Why is it...
your fucking business, man?

1045
01:14:04,396 --> 01:14:06,311
- Because I'm the supervisor
of this unit.

1046
01:14:06,354 --> 01:14:08,008
- Then fucking supervise it!
Jesus!

1047
01:14:12,404 --> 01:14:14,885
- Hey, Miles, would you start
with a share, please?

1048
01:14:14,928 --> 01:14:19,106
[Lilly crying]
- Lilly? Hey, hey. C'mere.

1049
01:14:22,022 --> 01:14:23,850
What's wrong? What's happened?

1050
01:14:23,894 --> 01:14:26,374
Hey, hey, hey, hey.
What's happened?

1051
01:14:26,418 --> 01:14:28,028
- My grandma's sick.

1052
01:14:29,334 --> 01:14:31,858
- Oh, Lilly, I'm so sorry.

1053
01:14:31,902 --> 01:14:33,817
- She's all I've got, James.

1054
01:14:35,906 --> 01:14:37,429
- What do you wanna do?

1055
01:14:38,822 --> 01:14:42,390
- I wanna go to her.
I wanna go to her right now,

1056
01:14:42,434 --> 01:14:44,784
but I can't,
because I don't trust myself.

1057
01:14:44,828 --> 01:14:49,006
- Hey, hey, hey.
Hey, I'll go with you. Let's go.

1058
01:14:49,049 --> 01:14:51,487
You wanna go, I'll go.
- We can't. We can't.

1059
01:14:51,530 --> 01:14:54,490
I can't. We... I have to stay.

1060
01:14:56,622 --> 01:14:58,581
I have to stay.
She wants me to stay.

1061
01:14:58,624 --> 01:15:02,019
And I'm gonna beat it, James.
I'm gonna fucking beat it
for her.

1062
01:15:02,062 --> 01:15:03,934
- I know. I know.

1063
01:15:07,633 --> 01:15:11,071
I'll stay here, okay?
I wanna be here with you. Okay?

1064
01:15:12,464 --> 01:15:14,161
- Okay.
- Fuck.
- Fuck!

1065
01:15:14,205 --> 01:15:16,120
- You've officially been caught
breaking the rules.

1066
01:15:16,163 --> 01:15:17,817
You know there's consequences.
Let's go.

1067
01:15:17,861 --> 01:15:20,603
- Fuck your rules, man.
- Separate and come with me.

1068
01:15:20,646 --> 01:15:22,300
- Hey--
- Don't fucking touch me!

1069
01:15:22,866 --> 01:15:26,391
- We can do this
one of two ways. James?

1070
01:15:26,434 --> 01:15:27,958
Follow me, please.

1071
01:15:28,393 --> 01:15:29,481
Come on.

1072
01:15:29,525 --> 01:15:31,744
- I'm not gonna fucking let go.

1073
01:15:31,788 --> 01:15:33,267
- Fine.

1074
01:15:34,878 --> 01:15:36,444
Please wait inside.

1075
01:15:36,488 --> 01:15:38,751
- Mm-mm.
- I'll give you one moment.

1076
01:15:38,795 --> 01:15:40,405
- Mm-mm.

1077
01:15:46,672 --> 01:15:48,631
- Hold on.

1078
01:15:48,674 --> 01:15:50,328
Just hold on.

1079
01:15:56,813 --> 01:15:58,118
- Let's go.

1080
01:16:02,340 --> 01:16:03,559
- Fuck.

1081
01:16:04,734 --> 01:16:06,300
Fuck!!!

1082
01:16:06,344 --> 01:16:07,998
[Lincoln]:
You violated the rules.

1083
01:16:09,347 --> 01:16:12,916
You sacrificed the integrity
of this facility,
and in doing so,

1084
01:16:12,959 --> 01:16:15,266
you put your fellow patients
at risk.

1085
01:16:18,530 --> 01:16:20,706
And we're gonna give you
one more chance.

1086
01:16:23,535 --> 01:16:25,798
But hear me.

1087
01:16:25,842 --> 01:16:28,888
One more misstep, any misstep,

1088
01:16:28,932 --> 01:16:31,804
and you'll be sent home...
permanently.

1089
01:16:31,848 --> 01:16:33,545
Understand?

1090
01:16:36,287 --> 01:16:37,636
- You decided this?

1091
01:16:40,378 --> 01:16:42,032
- It doesn't matter who decided.

1092
01:16:44,730 --> 01:16:46,384
Go get some sleep.

1093
01:16:50,170 --> 01:16:51,563
- Hey, uh...

1094
01:16:52,869 --> 01:16:54,871
What about Lilly? Is she, uh...

1095
01:16:55,741 --> 01:16:57,134
Is she alright?

1096
01:17:01,181 --> 01:17:04,358
- We told Lilly she wasn't...
allowed to see you anymore.

1097
01:17:05,185 --> 01:17:07,144
So she left.

1098
01:17:07,187 --> 01:17:09,189
- She left?
What do you mean, she left?
Why didn't you stop her?

1099
01:17:09,233 --> 01:17:11,844
- Patients are free to go
when they want.
You know that.

1100
01:17:11,888 --> 01:17:13,672
- Yeah, but...
Fuck, I know where she is.

1101
01:17:13,716 --> 01:17:15,892
I know where she's going.
You can go get her.

1102
01:17:15,935 --> 01:17:17,676
Lincoln, you can go get her
right now.

1103
01:17:17,720 --> 01:17:20,200
- James, we have the structure
we have here for a reason.

1104
01:17:21,201 --> 01:17:23,247
Try to put it behind you and...

1105
01:17:23,900 --> 01:17:26,119
...look at it
as a lesson learned.

1106
01:17:28,078 --> 01:17:31,951
- She's a person...
not a lesson, you asshole.

1107
01:17:33,213 --> 01:17:36,652
And if that's how it is here,
I don't even wanna be
in this fucking place.

1108
01:17:59,370 --> 01:18:00,806
[honking]

1109
01:18:06,638 --> 01:18:08,422
[revellers screaming]

1110
01:18:18,955 --> 01:18:22,436
- What the hell are you doing?
- You forgot your jacket.

1111
01:18:22,480 --> 01:18:24,830
- Get in the car, James.
- No. I'm not going back.

1112
01:18:24,874 --> 01:18:28,225
- Do you wanna find her or not?
Get in the goddamn van.
Come on.

1113
01:18:34,100 --> 01:18:35,798
- Let's bring her home, kid.

1114
01:18:45,068 --> 01:18:46,417
- Fuck.

1115
01:18:56,079 --> 01:18:58,211
Hey! When's the bus leave
for Chicago?

1116
01:18:58,255 --> 01:19:00,431
- It doesn't leave
for another two hours.

1117
01:19:21,539 --> 01:19:22,888
- What's up?

1118
01:19:28,720 --> 01:19:30,330
- I'm looking for someone.

1119
01:19:34,900 --> 01:19:36,423
Fuck!

1120
01:19:37,903 --> 01:19:40,776
- What the hell is he doing?
Go, go, go, go, go!

1121
01:19:53,571 --> 01:19:55,573
[exclaiming]
[brakes screeching]
Goddammit.

1122
01:20:17,421 --> 01:20:19,379
[music blaring]

1123
01:20:40,487 --> 01:20:43,534
- Hurry up, you little whore.
Just do it, bitch! Come on.

1124
01:20:43,577 --> 01:20:45,971
- Lilly?
- What the fuck?

1125
01:20:46,015 --> 01:20:50,497
- Hey, you motherfucker!
Don't you fucking touch her,
you piece of shit! Fat fucker!

1126
01:20:51,890 --> 01:20:53,761
- No, no, no, no!
- Drop that shit!

1127
01:20:53,805 --> 01:20:56,852
- Let go of me!
- Drop that shit!
- Let go of me!

1128
01:20:56,895 --> 01:20:59,724
Get the fuck off me!
Get the fuck away from me!

1129
01:20:59,767 --> 01:21:02,248
Get the fuck away from me!

1130
01:21:02,292 --> 01:21:06,296
- Lilly, leave that shit behind.
- Leave me the fuck alone.
I wasn't gonna fucking do it.

1131
01:21:06,339 --> 01:21:08,515
- We're going home, Lilly.
- Don't fucking look at me!

1132
01:21:08,559 --> 01:21:10,822
- Drop that fucking shit now
and let's go!

1133
01:21:10,866 --> 01:21:13,781
- Leave me the fuck alone.
- Leave that shit!
[Lilly shouting and crying]

1134
01:21:13,825 --> 01:21:17,437
- Come on. Come on. It's okay.
We're gonna quit that shit.

1135
01:21:17,481 --> 01:21:20,788
- I wasn't gonna do it.
I wasn't gonna do it.

1136
01:21:20,832 --> 01:21:23,835
I wasn't gonna do it.
Don't do this. No...

1137
01:21:25,576 --> 01:21:28,057
Don't make me do this.
[groaning]

1138
01:21:28,100 --> 01:21:29,885
[crying]
No.

1139
01:22:07,966 --> 01:22:09,185
- Here.

1140
01:22:10,969 --> 01:22:13,058
It's better you stay here.
I'll take her.

1141
01:22:22,067 --> 01:22:24,330
- I want James.
- It's okay.

1142
01:22:24,896 --> 01:22:26,289
It's okay.

1143
01:23:21,909 --> 01:23:23,955
[soft, haunting music]

1144
01:24:22,622 --> 01:24:24,146
[knocking]
[door creaking open]

1145
01:24:24,189 --> 01:24:25,756
- I'm awake.

1146
01:24:29,499 --> 01:24:31,544
- I just wanna say thank you.

1147
01:24:31,588 --> 01:24:33,807
- Yeah?

1148
01:24:33,851 --> 01:24:35,940
For what?

1149
01:24:35,983 --> 01:24:39,117
- For last night, you dumbass.
What would you think?
[Lenny chuckling]

1150
01:24:40,858 --> 01:24:43,861
- A lot of people talk shit
in here.

1151
01:24:43,904 --> 01:24:46,472
I wouldn't have done
what you did,
you fucking madman.

1152
01:24:46,516 --> 01:24:48,213
[both chuckling]

1153
01:24:48,822 --> 01:24:50,085
[sighing]

1154
01:24:54,350 --> 01:24:56,047
Tell me the truth.

1155
01:24:56,439 --> 01:24:58,441
Were you tempted by the dope?

1156
01:25:09,365 --> 01:25:12,107
- Yeah, but then I looked
at Lilly and I knew.

1157
01:25:14,674 --> 01:25:17,242
I knew she meant more to me
than crack.

1158
01:25:18,896 --> 01:25:20,463
- You see there?

1159
01:25:20,506 --> 01:25:22,987
But what about
when she's not around?

1160
01:25:23,030 --> 01:25:25,903
'Cause she's not always
gonna be around, y'know.

1161
01:25:26,556 --> 01:25:28,079
- Yeah, I know.

1162
01:25:30,690 --> 01:25:34,085
- Well... you worked
your primary purpose.

1163
01:25:34,564 --> 01:25:36,261
- Oh, yeah? How's that?

1164
01:25:37,915 --> 01:25:40,091
- To stay clean
and help another addict.

1165
01:25:41,832 --> 01:25:44,095
You did it. Congratulations.

1166
01:25:46,271 --> 01:25:48,055
That's the twelfth step.

1167
01:25:48,099 --> 01:25:49,796
- Yeah, well...

1168
01:25:49,840 --> 01:25:52,930
the twelfth step can...
fuck its asshole.

1169
01:25:55,498 --> 01:25:57,369
- You did it anyway.
[James chuckling]

1170
01:26:01,591 --> 01:26:04,333
[James]: I read
that the path forward
is backwards.

1171
01:26:04,376 --> 01:26:06,857
That the path in the light
is dark.

1172
01:26:06,900 --> 01:26:09,686
And, hell, does it get dark
in here sometimes.

1173
01:26:09,729 --> 01:26:12,515
[Heaven Must Be Missing an Angel
playing]

1174
01:26:12,558 --> 01:26:14,256
[cheering and laughter]

1175
01:26:14,299 --> 01:26:16,214
But then I only gotta look
at Leonard

1176
01:26:16,258 --> 01:26:19,304
and he makes it seem so simple
somehow.

1177
01:26:20,610 --> 01:26:23,787
The old man can get
a little theatrical
now and again, but...

1178
01:26:23,830 --> 01:26:25,963
he cares about the right stuff.

1179
01:26:26,659 --> 01:26:28,922
He makes it look easy.

1180
01:26:28,966 --> 01:26:30,924
- I just want you to know
that...

1181
01:26:31,621 --> 01:26:33,927
...this graduation
means something to me.

1182
01:26:33,971 --> 01:26:37,496
And I know it does
to you guys too.

1183
01:26:37,540 --> 01:26:39,672
My crazy fucking family.

1184
01:26:39,716 --> 01:26:41,979
[laughter]

1185
01:26:42,022 --> 01:26:45,461
- Leo and I threw this big part where we snuck in
the Heavyweight Title fight.

1186
01:26:47,289 --> 01:26:49,378
Of course the underdog
gets his ass whipped,

1187
01:26:49,421 --> 01:26:52,337
but...
there was a moment where,

1188
01:26:52,381 --> 01:26:54,121
for a second, it was like...

1189
01:26:54,165 --> 01:26:56,515
we forgot
how fucked up we all are.

1190
01:26:56,559 --> 01:26:59,170
- Guys? Let's eat!
[cheering]

1191
01:27:03,174 --> 01:27:05,307
- It made me think.

1192
01:27:05,350 --> 01:27:08,527
Heck, I don't know
what I'm gonna do
when I leave here,

1193
01:27:08,571 --> 01:27:10,094
but...

1194
01:27:11,443 --> 01:27:14,272
...maybe there can be more days like that.

1195
01:27:16,187 --> 01:27:18,842
[Joanne]: Do you think
you need help to do that?

1196
01:27:25,109 --> 01:27:27,677
Then do your personal
inventory, James.

1197
01:27:27,720 --> 01:27:30,332
That's...
that's what it's there for.

1198
01:27:30,375 --> 01:27:33,726
You get to discover the truth.
You get to own it.

1199
01:27:33,770 --> 01:27:37,774
You write it down,
you acknowledge it,
and then you let it go.

1200
01:27:37,817 --> 01:27:40,211
Uncover, discover, discard..

1201
01:27:40,255 --> 01:27:41,865
- Discard.
- Yes.

1202
01:27:42,692 --> 01:27:44,955
You get to... get rid of it.

1203
01:27:45,390 --> 01:27:47,784
You know, you acknowledge it.

1204
01:27:47,827 --> 01:27:51,266
Aren't you sick of carrying
all this shit around? The shame?

1205
01:27:51,309 --> 01:27:52,963
You don't need it.

1206
01:27:54,965 --> 01:27:56,575
- No, I don't.

1207
01:27:56,619 --> 01:27:59,056
- It's not easy.

1208
01:27:59,099 --> 01:28:01,885
But you do your step four,
you move into step five,

1209
01:28:01,928 --> 01:28:03,974
you work it with Father David,
and then--

1210
01:28:04,017 --> 01:28:05,671
- With Father David?

1211
01:28:05,715 --> 01:28:08,283
Why's it gotta be
a fucking priest?

1212
01:28:08,326 --> 01:28:10,807
- Priests founded this facility.
- Of course they did.

1213
01:28:10,850 --> 01:28:13,679
When does Lilly get out
of the medical unit?

1214
01:28:13,723 --> 01:28:15,551
- I'm not discussing patients.
- Joanne.

1215
01:28:15,594 --> 01:28:17,248
Come on.

1216
01:28:19,642 --> 01:28:21,078
Please?

1217
01:28:45,929 --> 01:28:47,409
[Lilly]: Can I go?

1218
01:28:47,452 --> 01:28:49,062
Just a minute?

1219
01:29:00,900 --> 01:29:02,206
Hi.

1220
01:29:05,601 --> 01:29:08,081
I gotta start again.

1221
01:29:08,125 --> 01:29:09,387
- I know.

1222
01:29:10,780 --> 01:29:13,348
- How do you do it?
How do you kick this shit?

1223
01:29:15,480 --> 01:29:18,353
- I dunno.
You just do it, I guess.

1224
01:29:20,137 --> 01:29:22,487
One day at a time.
[both chuckling]

1225
01:29:26,926 --> 01:29:29,494
- I like this jacket.
[James chuckling]

1226
01:29:31,322 --> 01:29:33,193
It smells...

1227
01:29:33,237 --> 01:29:35,326
- Pretty bad.
- Yeah.
[laughing]

1228
01:29:36,327 --> 01:29:38,329
Yeah, but I like it.

1229
01:29:46,729 --> 01:29:48,644
Why'd you come get me?

1230
01:29:53,344 --> 01:29:55,041
- Had to.

1231
01:29:55,085 --> 01:29:56,695
- No, you didn't.

1232
01:29:56,739 --> 01:29:58,349
- Yeah, I did.

1233
01:29:59,524 --> 01:30:01,961
- No.
- I dunno, I guess, uh...

1234
01:30:03,963 --> 01:30:05,356
- Why?

1235
01:30:07,837 --> 01:30:09,273
- Because...

1236
01:30:12,102 --> 01:30:14,844
You know what?
Let's get the bus together
next time.

1237
01:30:17,020 --> 01:30:18,543
- You wanna go to Chicago?

1238
01:30:19,979 --> 01:30:21,851
- Yeah. Sure. Why not?

1239
01:30:22,852 --> 01:30:24,419
I mean, if you're going.

1240
01:30:28,466 --> 01:30:29,772
- Okay.

1241
01:30:32,470 --> 01:30:34,124
When do we go?

1242
01:30:38,389 --> 01:30:39,782
- Soon.

1243
01:30:45,222 --> 01:30:46,832
- Okay.

1244
01:30:49,879 --> 01:30:51,446
I love you.

1245
01:30:56,581 --> 01:30:58,235
- Then hold on.

1246
01:31:05,416 --> 01:31:06,722
- Okay.

1247
01:31:10,900 --> 01:31:12,249
Okay.

1248
01:31:15,252 --> 01:31:16,471
Okay.

1249
01:31:52,768 --> 01:31:55,640
- Ran over a nursery-school
teacher with a Big Wheel.

1250
01:31:56,075 --> 01:31:58,034
I did it on purpose.

1251
01:31:58,077 --> 01:31:59,731
I was four.

1252
01:31:59,775 --> 01:32:02,908
Hit a boy with a bag
full of books, broke his nose.

1253
01:32:02,952 --> 01:32:06,042
His name was Fred. I was six.

1254
01:32:06,085 --> 01:32:09,611
Stole a pack
of menthol cigarettes
from my friend Clay's mother.

1255
01:32:09,654 --> 01:32:13,049
Smoked them and threw up.
Stole another pack, threw up.

1256
01:32:13,092 --> 01:32:16,095
Stole another pack.
I was eight.

1257
01:32:16,574 --> 01:32:19,055
Started to lose control at 10.

1258
01:32:19,098 --> 01:32:22,537
Stole liquor from my parents more times than I can remember.

1259
01:32:22,580 --> 01:32:25,540
I used to steal sips of beer
at football games,

1260
01:32:25,583 --> 01:32:28,543
drank leftover wine
at dinner parties,
that kind of thing.

1261
01:32:29,239 --> 01:32:31,502
I don't know why I did it,
I just did.

1262
01:32:31,546 --> 01:32:34,679
At 12... my life was blurred.

1263
01:32:34,723 --> 01:32:37,552
I stole a bag of pot
from my friend Evan's dad.

1264
01:32:37,595 --> 01:32:39,554
Stole a pipe from Evan's dad.

1265
01:32:39,597 --> 01:32:42,339
Stole a bottle of pills
from Evan's dad.

1266
01:32:42,382 --> 01:32:45,211
I smoked the pot in the pipe
and took all the pills.

1267
01:32:45,255 --> 01:32:47,344
It made me vomit.

1268
01:32:47,387 --> 01:32:49,912
And I did it again
the next time
I was at Evan's house.

1269
01:32:50,608 --> 01:32:52,871
At 14, I sold drugs to kids.

1270
01:32:52,915 --> 01:32:55,091
Most of the time,
I ripped 'em off.

1271
01:32:55,134 --> 01:32:57,876
Took too much of their money,
or sold them oregano.

1272
01:32:57,920 --> 01:33:01,227
They were my age,
but they were still kids.

1273
01:33:01,271 --> 01:33:05,144
At 15,
I started using harder stuff:
coke, acid, crystal meth.

1274
01:33:05,710 --> 01:33:07,407
I liked all of them.

1275
01:33:07,451 --> 01:33:09,758
Sixteen, 17 were more
of the same.

1276
01:33:09,801 --> 01:33:12,151
Eighteen, same thing, but more.

1277
01:33:12,195 --> 01:33:15,285
Nineteen, same thing,
but probably worse.

1278
01:33:15,328 --> 01:33:17,592
At 20, I started to smoke coke.

1279
01:33:17,635 --> 01:33:19,985
Twenty-one, bad year.

1280
01:33:20,029 --> 01:33:23,119
I started to smoke crack,
which I loved.

1281
01:33:23,162 --> 01:33:27,253
I smoked it as much as I could, which was basically every day.

1282
01:33:27,297 --> 01:33:30,126
I was throwing up blood,
pissing blood, shitting blood.

1283
01:33:30,169 --> 01:33:32,128
I was sick all the time.

1284
01:33:32,171 --> 01:33:34,565
I don't really know
how I managed it.

1285
01:33:35,871 --> 01:33:39,396
Twenty-two, I was so fucked up, I barely remember anything.

1286
01:33:43,574 --> 01:33:45,968
But there's still one thing
I wish I could forget.

1287
01:34:12,081 --> 01:34:13,909
[knocking]
- Come.

1288
01:34:16,563 --> 01:34:19,218
Hello, my son.
My name's Father David.

1289
01:34:20,350 --> 01:34:22,787
- All due respect, sir,
but I'm not your son.

1290
01:34:23,919 --> 01:34:25,747
- Okay. Fair enough.

1291
01:34:25,790 --> 01:34:27,792
Have a seat... James.

1292
01:34:30,577 --> 01:34:32,449
[sighing]
So...

1293
01:34:33,450 --> 01:34:35,670
You're here for your fifth step.

1294
01:34:35,713 --> 01:34:39,804
- I don't believe in the steps,
but I'm here
to make a confession, so...

1295
01:34:39,848 --> 01:34:41,980
- Are you Catholic?

1296
01:34:42,024 --> 01:34:43,982
- No. No.

1297
01:34:44,809 --> 01:34:47,638
- Then would you be comfortable
calling this a conversation?

1298
01:34:57,648 --> 01:35:00,607
- I'm sorry, this is...
this is a waste of time.

1299
01:35:00,651 --> 01:35:02,697
I don't know why I'm doing this.

1300
01:35:06,048 --> 01:35:09,616
- So why are you choking
to death there?
That little inventory?

1301
01:35:09,660 --> 01:35:12,576
- It's a conversation...
apparently.

1302
01:35:13,969 --> 01:35:15,666
Everything on my shit list.

1303
01:35:18,277 --> 01:35:19,670
Well, it's...

1304
01:35:21,280 --> 01:35:22,847
It's not everything, but...

1305
01:35:24,980 --> 01:35:26,938
- Well...

1306
01:35:26,982 --> 01:35:28,679
give it to me.

1307
01:35:32,161 --> 01:35:33,728
- There's just...

1308
01:35:38,080 --> 01:35:39,690
I had this girl.

1309
01:35:42,693 --> 01:35:44,869
And, uh... I screwed up.

1310
01:35:46,305 --> 01:35:49,221
Fucked it all up.
I was a fucking mess.

1311
01:35:51,180 --> 01:35:53,182
So I, uh...

1312
01:35:54,792 --> 01:35:57,012
So I went to a fucking church.

1313
01:35:57,490 --> 01:35:59,144
Right?

1314
01:35:59,188 --> 01:36:02,191
And I sat there and I put
my hands together,

1315
01:36:02,234 --> 01:36:04,715
and I fucking prayed
for forgiveness and I...

1316
01:36:07,544 --> 01:36:09,328
...prayed to just be normal.

1317
01:36:10,329 --> 01:36:14,116
And, uh... this guy comes
and sits next to me.

1318
01:36:14,159 --> 01:36:16,727
He's a priest.
And I think: This is it,

1319
01:36:16,771 --> 01:36:18,729
I'm gonna find some kind
of salvation.

1320
01:36:18,773 --> 01:36:20,513
And... and I'm ready to talk.

1321
01:36:20,557 --> 01:36:22,820
I'm ready
to just tell him everything.

1322
01:36:22,864 --> 01:36:26,171
And he puts his hand
on my knee and I'm...

1323
01:36:27,042 --> 01:36:28,739
And his hand...

1324
01:36:30,741 --> 01:36:33,135
And I fucking switch, y'know?

1325
01:36:34,223 --> 01:36:35,790
And I fucking hit him...

1326
01:36:37,966 --> 01:36:42,013
And he... he falls to the ground
and I just kick the fucking shit
out of him, y'know?

1327
01:36:42,057 --> 01:36:45,321
Just kicking him
and then kicking him and...

1328
01:36:45,364 --> 01:36:46,844
I can't stop.

1329
01:36:46,888 --> 01:36:48,977
And I just leave him there--

1330
01:36:49,020 --> 01:36:52,328
- Gotta let it go.
The person you were then
is not the person you are now.

1331
01:36:52,371 --> 01:36:54,112
I've watched you.

1332
01:36:54,156 --> 01:36:56,854
But you can't let it
eat you up.

1333
01:36:56,898 --> 01:36:59,204
- It just makes me feel so shit.

1334
01:36:59,248 --> 01:37:01,598
It makes me so ash...
so ashamed.

1335
01:37:04,862 --> 01:37:07,299
- You're a worthwhile
human being, James.

1336
01:37:07,343 --> 01:37:09,606
You got a lot to give people.

1337
01:37:10,955 --> 01:37:13,784
And don't you think
it's about time
you had a fucking life?

1338
01:37:14,785 --> 01:37:17,092
Nobody's gonna judge you
but yourself.

1339
01:37:18,267 --> 01:37:22,097
If I were you, I'd burn
that fucking bunch of papers,
you know,

1340
01:37:22,140 --> 01:37:24,360
and scatter the fucking ashes
over the ocean.

1341
01:37:24,403 --> 01:37:27,145
You know what I mean?
Make peace with yourself.

1342
01:37:27,189 --> 01:37:28,930
Let it go.

1343
01:37:28,973 --> 01:37:30,627
You're on the way up.

1344
01:37:32,107 --> 01:37:33,848
Don't let it drag you back.

1345
01:37:38,896 --> 01:37:40,637
- Now why'd you give a shit?

1346
01:37:42,291 --> 01:37:45,555
- You came into my life
the same way I came into Mike's.

1347
01:37:46,948 --> 01:37:49,298
And I know what it can do
for somebody.

1348
01:37:51,126 --> 01:37:53,998
And, uh... if you don't mind...

1349
01:37:54,999 --> 01:37:58,394
...I've decided that I want you
to be my son.

1350
01:37:58,437 --> 01:38:00,962
[James guffawing]
I'm not shittin' ya.

1351
01:38:01,005 --> 01:38:03,747
- You want...
you want me to be your son?

1352
01:38:03,790 --> 01:38:06,532
- Yes, I want you to be my son.
- No, you don't.

1353
01:38:06,576 --> 01:38:08,839
- Yes, I do. I know
all your fucking problems,

1354
01:38:08,883 --> 01:38:11,146
and I'm willing
to deal with 'em.

1355
01:38:11,842 --> 01:38:13,800
Okay? You willing to do that?

1356
01:38:13,844 --> 01:38:16,281
You willing to let me
call you my son?

1357
01:38:16,325 --> 01:38:18,327
No disrespect to your family.

1358
01:38:20,938 --> 01:38:22,853
It'd mean the world to me.

1359
01:38:32,689 --> 01:38:35,910
The second you get outta here,
give me a call, will you?

1360
01:38:36,606 --> 01:38:37,868
- Sure.

1361
01:39:50,245 --> 01:39:51,681
- James!

1362
01:39:52,682 --> 01:39:53,944
James!!

1363
01:40:02,561 --> 01:40:04,128
[soft music]

1364
01:42:14,911 --> 01:42:16,260
- What's up, buddy?

1365
01:42:27,706 --> 01:42:29,099
You made it.

1366
01:42:30,274 --> 01:42:31,928
How do you feel?

1367
01:42:34,713 --> 01:42:36,498
You've come a long way, man.

1368
01:42:37,934 --> 01:42:39,501
You wanna grab a bite to eat?

1369
01:42:42,112 --> 01:42:43,418
- Yeah.

1370
01:42:44,593 --> 01:42:46,595
Oh, I know a place we can go.

1371
01:42:57,127 --> 01:42:58,955
- James, this is a fucking bar.

1372
01:43:00,086 --> 01:43:01,479
- Yeah.

1373
01:43:01,523 --> 01:43:03,177
No, I know.

1374
01:43:08,138 --> 01:43:09,748
- We're not going in there.

1375
01:43:11,315 --> 01:43:12,969
- Yes, we are.

1376
01:43:15,363 --> 01:43:18,192
[Tom Waits's Lucky Day playing]

1377
01:43:22,892 --> 01:43:24,328
Go rack up.

1378
01:43:26,461 --> 01:43:28,332
Just give me a minute, okay?

1379
01:43:45,001 --> 01:43:46,350
- How you doin'?

1380
01:43:47,351 --> 01:43:50,963
- I've had quite a month...
and I need a drink.

1381
01:43:51,007 --> 01:43:52,791
- Sure. What can I get ya?

1382
01:43:55,925 --> 01:43:57,622
- Can I take a glass of that?

1383
01:43:58,101 --> 01:43:59,537
- Sure thing.

1384
01:43:59,581 --> 01:44:01,626
- But not one
of those cocktail glasses.

1385
01:44:01,670 --> 01:44:05,239
Give me a big fucking pint glass
and fill it to the top.

1386
01:44:06,022 --> 01:44:07,893
- Sorry, man. I can't do that.

1387
01:44:07,937 --> 01:44:09,808
- Why?

1388
01:44:09,852 --> 01:44:12,376
- 'Cause there's no good
in what comes
in a pint of whiskey.

1389
01:44:13,029 --> 01:44:15,597
- That's what I want. Bring it.

1390
01:44:17,207 --> 01:44:19,731
- Look, man, it's my discretion,
okay? It's my bar.

1391
01:44:19,775 --> 01:44:22,604
I can serve who I like
and what I like.

1392
01:44:24,388 --> 01:44:26,042
- Fill it to the brim.

1393
01:44:33,484 --> 01:44:35,051
- Your funeral.

1394
01:45:11,261 --> 01:45:12,871
[music fading]

1395
01:45:29,410 --> 01:45:31,673
[soft piano music]

1396
01:46:02,704 --> 01:46:04,619
- You lying motherfucker.

1397
01:46:15,804 --> 01:46:17,501
Fuck you.

1398
01:46:17,545 --> 01:46:19,373
[music resumes]

1399
01:46:19,416 --> 01:46:21,766
♪ And old Johnny O'Toole

1400
01:46:21,810 --> 01:46:26,205
♪ I'll still beat you at pool

1401
01:46:26,249 --> 01:46:30,384
♪ So don't cry for me

1402
01:46:31,428 --> 01:46:35,345
♪ For I'm going away

1403
01:46:35,954 --> 01:46:37,913
♪ And I'll be back

1404
01:46:37,956 --> 01:46:41,830
♪ Some lucky day

1405
01:46:43,353 --> 01:46:47,357
♪ So don't cry for me

1406
01:46:48,358 --> 01:46:52,188
♪ For I'm going away

1407
01:46:52,536 --> 01:46:54,712
♪ And I'll be back

1408
01:46:54,756 --> 01:46:59,848
♪ Some lucky day... ♪

1409
01:47:10,206 --> 01:47:11,990
[harmonization]

1410
01:47:21,696 --> 01:47:25,526
♪ You've been waiting
for your lover ♪

1411
01:47:25,569 --> 01:47:28,050
♪ When you'll discover

1412
01:47:28,093 --> 01:47:30,574
♪ She's always there

1413
01:47:32,794 --> 01:47:36,537
♪ Walk wild in her summer

1414
01:47:36,580 --> 01:47:39,191
♪ She is the drummer

1415
01:47:39,235 --> 01:47:41,716
♪ Of your beating heart

1416
01:47:43,413 --> 01:47:45,415
[harmonization]

1417
01:48:06,436 --> 01:48:10,832
♪ Won't you tell her
that you love her ♪

1418
01:48:10,875 --> 01:48:14,749
♪ And you'll hug her
most every day ♪

1419
01:48:17,621 --> 01:48:21,799
♪ You won't ever push
or shove her ♪

1420
01:48:21,843 --> 01:48:24,019
♪ Find another

1421
01:48:24,062 --> 01:48:26,195
♪ She has to stay

1422
01:48:38,076 --> 01:48:41,079
♪ She has to stay

1423
01:48:45,780 --> 01:48:48,652
♪ She has to stay

1424
01:48:53,657 --> 01:48:56,791
♪ She's a woman in a dream

1425
01:48:59,097 --> 01:49:02,884
♪ One that makes you
fall in love ♪

1426
01:49:04,668 --> 01:49:07,889
♪ Though her face
is never seen ♪

1427
01:49:10,239 --> 01:49:13,677
♪ She is what this love is of

1428
01:49:40,704 --> 01:49:44,665
♪ Wake you
from your state of slumber ♪

1429
01:49:44,708 --> 01:49:47,493
♪ You tumble under

1430
01:49:47,537 --> 01:49:49,539
♪ But now awake

1431
01:49:52,020 --> 01:49:55,676
♪ Dream forever
in your wonder ♪

1432
01:49:55,719 --> 01:49:58,504
♪ And never sunder

1433
01:49:58,548 --> 01:50:00,550
♪ This is the day

1434
01:50:12,736 --> 01:50:15,565
♪ This is the day

1435
01:50:18,046 --> 01:50:21,571
♪ This is the day...

1436
01:50:28,404 --> 01:50:31,320
♪ She's a woman in a dream

1437
01:50:33,409 --> 01:50:37,195
♪ One that makes you
fall in love ♪

1438
01:50:39,328 --> 01:50:42,418
♪ Though her face
is never seen ♪

1439
01:50:44,899 --> 01:50:48,337
♪ She is what this love is of

1440
01:51:11,229 --> 01:51:13,362
♪ Oh...

1441
01:51:23,459 --> 01:51:26,462
♪ She's a woman in a dream

1442
01:51:28,943 --> 01:51:32,642
♪ One that makes you
feel in love ♪

1443
01:51:34,470 --> 01:51:38,039
♪ Though her face
is never seen ♪

1444
01:51:39,954 --> 01:51:43,653
♪ She is what this love is of

1445
01:51:45,481 --> 01:51:48,658
♪ Like a woman in a dream

1446
01:51:50,965 --> 01:51:54,490
♪ One that makes you
fall in love ♪

1447
01:51:56,492 --> 01:51:59,669
♪ Though her face
is never seen ♪

1448
01:52:02,063 --> 01:52:05,849
♪ She is what this love is of ♪

1449
01:52:13,509 --> 01:52:15,511
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