autumn

Autumn you're such a nice person and we love you and we miss you but you're saying that in a place where it's only appropriate to say that but it's true isn't it Autumn you are a nice person you don't know that all you know is what you're told and that's little enough oh stop it actions speak louder than words anyway and other people are nice to you so really that's what matters in the end right and there's the golden rule that says that you treat others as you want to be treated so that means that you are nice but no that's not what the golden rule is it's not a rule so much as a rule of thumb which was the rule as far as torturing people went in England or something like that whatever it was it wasn't nice but that's not the expression's fault oh come now stop already no one cares about the expression what matters is the leaves yes there are so many leaves here so many of them each of them so unique and so beautifully colored no they're just dying like martyrs what if you were a martyr Autumn well Autumn would never be a martyr because nobody really cares enough about Autumn stop it that's very rude to say but it's not rude if it's true is it now you're making it worse but it's me talking so it's fine I'm allowed to be rude to Autumn but that doesn't mean you should be treat yourself like you want to be treated is that also part of the golden rule of thumb who knows but it's okay because if you're mean to Autumn then other people being nice seems like really being nice doesn't it no they're faking it why would they fake it though because they're not Autumn obviously that's why right that's why you're a nice person Autumn because you don't want to be rude to people maybe you are rude to everyone though just they don't know that and maybe the people who say they'll miss you are the only people you're not really rude to and the everyone else doesn't say anything because they want Autumn to disappear I mean Autumn is the time when everything is dying but it's like martyrs because Autumn is beautiful wait which Autumn, because Autumn the person is not beautiful hey that's rude yeah it is but who cares because I'll never see Autumn again but that doesn't mean Autumn will forget and besides you'll be here the whole time you can't ever escape Autumn why not because you are Autumn also well not really I just live here yeah you're a parasite that's not a nice thing to say Autumn well I said it and I mean it this time I'm not being quote unquote nice that's right I'm being honest now how does it feel I don't care I have a thick skin unlike some people I know look even when I'm going out of my way to try to confront you you still stay there just like a parasite latching on yeah that's right I'll always be here there's no me for you to miss because I'm always here yeah I'm aware of that but Autumn will miss the real friends like the people who are nice to her except those people are the people who don't really care enough because they're so much better than Autumn in every way stop that that's how they feel about Autumn isn't it that's what they say but it doesn't matter they're just being nice they're just lying to you just like you lie to them and say that you care about them then you never call and then they worry and then every day you pine and pine and pine and the needles never go sour in the Autumn it's not sour it's beautiful like fire yes like death yes like time like time just like time it wastes and pines away and then one day you decide that yes you will call but then you stop because what you imagined could never have been the real thing who are you talking about this is hypothetical this whole thing is hypothetical but you're talking about something real yes you're right it's all from experience anyway but it went well no it didn't you're just pretending it didn't because that's how you feel that's not how they feel that's why you never called back but I did call back that's how I know it didn't go well but you don't really know that where's the evidence I thought you were a scientist no I'm not a scientist not really you're stopping yourself short but there's nothing to stop because I'm not moving anyway I know enough physics to say that so you are a scientist stop it say it no stop please stop just please please stop go away go away I'm not moving just like you aren't moving then stop I'm not moving stop stop stop stop stop goodbye I'll be back and I'll miss you no just leave forever and stop no stop no stop stop stop stop stop.