Trixie, Mental Illness, Family Troubles [Feels]

>be The Great and Powerful Trixie
>perhaps not so great
>and definitely not so powerful
>you had to be such a fool, obsessed with avenging your pride
>the amulet was so warm, so inviting
>now nothing compares to it, but you don't want to be that pony again
>the rush of power
>the looks of awe on every pony's face
>but every high has a low
>it's been at least a year and a half, and this low doesn't seem to have ended
>word spread quickly
>Ponyville wanted your head
>somehow Twilight Sparkle used her influence to keep you out of jail
>not that you're any better off
>almost impossible to keep your aliases long enough to hold down a job
>not even your family want you back
>that probably hurt the most
>feelings of rejection are what distanced them in the first place
>travelling far and wide, trying to get a name for yourself in the hopes they'd one day see you for who you are
>but now you're a nervous wreck, having lost the power you went mad with, you're nothing to anyone
>no one's here to rest a hoof on your shoulder
>no one's here to help you when you hear the voices
>voices of those you wronged, humiliated, and enslaved
>voices that wake you from nightmares, only to find that you're alone in your bed once again
>why did you have to try and show everyone that you're a big girl?