* Ty flops u-u
<Zephyr> What's wrong D:
<Ty> Last night..
<Ty> You don't know how bad I have felt
<Zephyr> Oh... I'm sorry :c
<Ty> I cried in bed for an hour last night
<Zephyr> I took down that picture
<Ty> And I I thought things that I don't want to think of..
<Zephyr> I took it down and deleted it off my computer, I felt horrible about it :c
<Ty> I was going to tell you that you don't deserve me anymore..
<Zephyr> Why would you say that?
<Ty> Because I just hurt you over and over..
<Zephyr> I do the same to you :/
<Ty> I just feel... seperated from you
<Zephyr> :c
<Ty> One of the main reasons I liked you at first was becuase you would talk to me a lot.
<Ty> You messaged me first..
<Ty> We'd just talk about random silly stuff
<Ty> You acuactly listened to me..
<Ty> And now... none of that
<Ty> I'm alone
<Ty> I just sit at my computer hoping you talk to me.. but you never do
<Ty> You used to include me in stuff all the time
<Ty> Tell me what you were doing
<Zephyr> I don't know what to say.... I am sorry ;-;
<Ty> But now.. we barley say more than a paragraph to each other a day
<Ty> I feel deserted
<Zephyr> Are you saying you don't like me anymore? ;n;
<Ty> No
<Ty> I just want it to be good times again
<Ty> I thought about telling you to just never talk to me again..
<Ty> That what we have planned wouldn't ever happen
<Ty> But..
<Ty> I couldn't do it, I need you
<Ty> And so I cried
<Ty> I am a horrible person..
<Zephyr> I need you too, but I don't want to keep hurting you like this :c
<Zephyr> no
<Zephyr> I am
<Ty> no
<Zephyr> I am the horrible person
<Ty> I just feel bad when you talk to other people.. as stupid as it sounds
<Ty> Because I just want you to give me all your attention..
<Ty> Because I give you all my attention u-u
<Ty> When you do pictures or other things without even telling me anything about them..
<Zephyr> The only reason I didn't tell you about them is because I thought you would tell me to not do them :/
<Ty> You were the only that ever talked or told me anything
<Ty> Because I would..
<Ty> And then you stopped..
<Ty> And I become alone again
<Zephyr> This is all my fault, if anything you deserve much, much better then me
<Ty> You get everything :/
<Ty> EVerybody likes you
<Ty> Everybody talks to you
<Ty> Tells you things
<Ty> You tell them things
<Ty> And then the person that's so close to you that you even call him your boyfriend and a brother..
<Ty> I get none of that stuff
<Ty> I just sit here watching you
<Ty> Knowing you're doing it
<Ty> I never say anything
<Ty> But I just broke last night
<Ty> Just broke..
<Zephyr> I am so, so sorry Ty :c
<Ty> I cried last night, thought about suicide, felt dread right when I woke up, cried before I went to school, ignored school and thought about what to say to you, thought about how you would react.. if you wouldn't love me anymore
<Zephyr> I will always love you, I was thinking about the same things all of last night and today
<Zephyr> I thought you would tell me never to talk to you again
<Zephyr> that you didn't love
<Zephyr> me
<Ty> I thought about not coming on here ever again..
<Ty> Why bother?  Nobody talks to me anyways..
<Zephyr> I'm just not sure what to talk with you about, I mean, we know pretty much everything about each other
<Ty> So?
<Ty> I know everything about a lot of people and we still talk..
<Zephyr> I dunno what to even say :/
<Ty> I just want you to give me attention
<Zephyr> I honestly thought you would hate me when you got back on here
<Ty> And don't think I am an attention whore.. just know that I've never even had attention in my whole life until I met you
<Zephyr> I was prepared for you to cuss me out and tell me to get out of your life, I have been really sad and stressed and neevous
<Zephyr> I know you are not an attention whore
<Ty> And then you stopped giving me that... you pretty much moved past me in my eyes
<Ty> No
<Ty> None of the things involved being mean to you
<Ty> Just simply pretty much saying we shouldn't be together anymore..
<Ty> And I can't even think about that
<Ty> I want to cry now
<Zephyr> I do too...
<Ty> I don't know what I would do without you
<Ty> But at the sametime everytime I see your name I am pained deep inside
<Ty> I just want you to stop a lot of the things you do..
<Zephyr> I don't know what to say ;-;
<Zephyr> I am hurting you
<Ty> I know it doesn't seem like they could hurt me.. but they do
<Zephyr> You do not deserve that
<Zephyr> You should not be hurt
<Ty> I feel like I should be included in everything you do..
<Ty> And you shouldn't be hurt either
<Zephyr> What should we do about this? :c
<Ty> Make it the way it used to be...
<Ty> Where I was one of the few people you ever talked with..
<Ty> Where me and you talked to each other all the time
<Ty> It was perfect back then.. I couldn't ask for more
<Ty> You never tell me what you're doing anymor
<Ty> You're just secretive
<Ty> Discluding me from pretty much EVERYTHING
<Zephyr> I am always afraid you will tell me not to do it :/
<Ty> Why are you afraid to not do it?
<Ty> if you really love me you wouldn't care and wouldn't do it, even behind my back
<Zephyr> I really do love you...
<Ty> Then you shouldn't care if I say not to do it
<Ty> And most of the time I say that because I'm not included in it
<Ty> I'm just left out...
<Ty> Excluded
<Ty> I get enough of that IRL
<Ty> It makes me fucking sick when my boyfriend does it to me..
<Zephyr> :c Ty, once again I am very sorry
<Ty> You've said that a lot..
<Zephyr> I know, I am just a very sorry person
<Zephyr> I have been told that a lot...
<Ty> I feel like dieing really
<Zephyr> I do too...
<Ty> I need you Zephyr u-u
<Ty> And even through all of this, I still have love left for you..
<Zephyr> All I do is hurt you though
<Zephyr> How could you still love me?
<Ty> Because my love runs deeper than I can even think of
<Ty> I still want you
<Ty> I still love you
<Ty> You might not feel that way but I do..
<Zephyr> I do, but I don't want to keep hurting you...
<Ty> Then just change things like I asked you..
<Ty> I know it's a lot
<Ty> I know you still want to talk to other people, and I'm not really saying that you can't talk to anyone
<Ty> I just want me to be your center of attention..
<Ty> o.o
<Ty> Zephyr, just know that I need you, I love you
<Zephyr> I love you too
<Ty> But please do the things I asked..
<Ty> It means more than you can think of..
<Zephyr> I will do my best to change things <3
<Ty> When you're me, treated like shit as long as you can remember, gets excluded from everything from being the last one being picked when playing a game in Elementary school or people ignoring me as if I don't exist in Highschool, I need the attention
<Ty> At least I have the passion and dignity for myself that I don't go around like Russie or Codude and seek attention that way
<Ty> Even if that would give me some attention
<Ty> But I don't, I suffer through it
<Ty> I feel horrible about myself for treating you this way... but at the sametime I want you to change a great deal...
<Zephyr> I always just assumed you were talking to sparky or doing something with someone I don't know like yesterday, I thought you stopped loving me...
<Zephyr> I didn't want to get in the way
<Ty> No
<Ty> I talk to absoutly nobody.
<Ty> Just you.
<Zephyr> I thought you weren't talking to me because you didn't want to :/
<Ty> I might talk to 2 other people sometimes..
<Ty> And even then we talk about you a lot
<Ty> I bring you up in a lot of stuff
<Ty> say "Well me and Zephyr did this.." Or "He did that" Or "I love him to death"
<Ty> You are my center of attention...
<Ty> I'm the one that got people to like you, without them even liking me first
<Ty> I got you moderator in Furcast
<Zephyr> I know, I owe you eveything u-u
<Ty> But no
<Ty> Most of the time I message you and it feels like you're just doing something else you know..
<Ty> I'm just pushed to the side
<Zephyr> :c I don't mean to be like that
<Ty> I could be playing my favorite game, but if you message me and we start to talk, fuck my game, Imma x out of it
<Ty> I wanna talk to you
<Ty> And I'm going to get in trouble when my mom gets home because I have to go to church in 30 minutes
<Ty> And I have to get ready and everything
<Ty> But fuck that
<Ty> I WANNA TALK TO YOU
<Ty> You see what I mean..? :/
<Zephyr> Yea
<Ty> I give you all my attention
<Ty> But recieve none in return
<Ty> Nobody likes me..
<Ty> I just try to be nice to everybody but nobody likes me..
<Zephyr> I have just thought you really don't like me anymore, 2 days ago when you said you were tempted to erase my C: drive to show me a lesson kinda reinfoced that thought...
<Zephyr> reinforced*
<Ty> I wasn't going to do it..
<Zephyr> But just you saying that hurt
<Zephyr> a lot
<Ty> I know
<Zephyr> It made me really believe that you didn't love me anymore
<Ty> And that was kinda the point to
<Ty> Just mentioning losing it made you hurt
<Ty> Which was the lesson..
<Ty> I guess it's just me
<Ty> I can't stand hurting anybody
<Ty> Even if they deserve it
<Ty> I hate pain for myself and every other human
<Zephyr> I can't stand hurting other people either...
<Ty> But I just want you to do those things that I asked..
<Ty> And you'll say well I might say don't do them anymore
<Ty> Well I might
<Ty> Some of them I really don't like
<Ty> Some of them was just making you not do something to try to make you have more time with me..
<Zephyr> Those things never distract me from you
<Ty> They do..
<Zephyr> When you message me I message back as fast as possible
<Zephyr> I just don't know what to talk about anymore
<Ty> It's not even about that
<Ty> It's that you do it
<Ty> I don't
<Ty> You get all the stupid little pictures
<Ty> I don't
<Ty> I'm just left out..
<Ty> You talk to loads of other people
<Ty> But not me
<Ty> I want to be included in most everything you do...
<Ty> Or else it hurts me
<Ty> Really bad
<Ty> And i gotta go
<Ty> Mom is pissed off
<Ty> Bye
<Zephyr> I'm sorry again
<Ty> Think about it..
<Zephyr> Bye :c
<Ty> I love you <3
<Zephyr> I will...
<Zephyr> I love you too
<Ty> Bye hun
<Zephyr> bye
<Ty> Just remember that love isn't perfect
<Ty> There will always be downers
* Ty huggles tightly and kisses you goodbye
<Ty> Goodbye my boyfriend
<Ty> See you in 2 hrs
* Zephyr huggles back extremely tightly and kisses back