Basically if you and the team and just anyone wants to know. I've had depression, anxiety and other things for years and it takes its toll's on me. I get times where I feel like pure shit and can't do anything and I get times where i'm OK but it's getting hella fucking bad recently to the point I don't sleep, I don't eat, I don't drink so then drugs come in to simulate my mind to a happier state but all of that's temporary so when it wears out I hit the lows again. Get's to the point where I legit don't even want to be me anymore. I'm sorry if it affects the team but I just don't want to be filling up a space that someone can be doing better than me.