I'm better and with a faith and conviction I have gained the strength to longer fall for your pathetic attempts to forsaken me with your childish games and over dramatic nonsense that you have so desperately tried to damage me with. It's without fear, without pain and without damage I stand before the the damage you have server to yourself, us and the person you so desperately wished to hold so long ago. I build us a life here, not a life of solitude and short remark but a life of trust, care and determination that you could never share or understand. The truth would be a shadow of my former self if I said I missed you but truth be told I don't. The real truth is I never needed you and furthurmore never saw much in your personality. You were a liar, a fake, and the contridictory statements that you so fully heartingly made to cover up who you truely were will go unheard from now on. You the appitimy of everything you hated, everything you tried so hard to judge people for you are and it was only to make your self less self contious about the fact that those things are lies, scandals and falsities that your practice everyday. You may try so hard to damage me, you may try so hard to make it all hurt but you no longer can. This is who you are now, Easy, Worthles, and Futurless and theres nothign you can do to prove it as a falsity anymore, nothing you can say which will make it all fake and nothing you can do to hide it anymore. You Already Know what you are and Im above it. I'm on a completely different level and despite what you may say, think, or do about it, it will never change the fact that you can never say to anyones face exactly what had happened that day.

You'll never be able to say that I didnt care, or that I didn't do anything you asked and asked for very little in return myself. You won't ever be able to tell anyone that I wasn't there enough for you, that I didn't try to give you direction and that I didn't try to help you avoid the people whom continued to damage and harm you. I was your firewall, weither you choose to accept it or not I made everything about your life meaningful and easy. I didn't have to, lets be honest, your gaining wieght, you losing focus, your the exact existance of the scumbags you tried so hard to fend off, you were terrible to me, terrible at making love, and to be honest I saw past alot of it to make you happier. So will I miss any of those things? No. I will not. It was nothing more than wasting effort giving someone confidence who didn't deserve the happiness. Who didn't deserve to feel loved and furthurmore didn't deserve me and still doesn't. I brought new meaning to not being your fucking game, and I've given extra thought weither or not I can see you become someone worth anyones time, but it certainly won't be my time. You'll never deserve me and that is a fact that will continue to haunt you as you search for the confidence that I helped give to you. You gave up something that could have lasted a long time, for something that will only last temporarily. I will no longer enable your childish behaiver and will no longer answer to your calls, your lies, you attempts to hurt me. You'll notice my phone will no longer answers to you and your lies. Nor will it ever. It will no longer answer to your fake notitions of missing me, loving me and hurting me. No longer will you have the oppertunity to speak to me. It's over between us. Not a thing will change how I feel about that.


These lies you weave, this pain you brought on me for you selfishness, the person you are. It will eat away your heart one day. You'll have to one day feel the pain I felt, and you deserve ever last bit of unhappiness that you get. Every last broken dream, every last lost love, every last pain and sorrow. Just remember that. So you can look back and remember when you ask why has this happened to me? Why has my whole world fallen apart? what did I do to deserve this? You'll have answer. Me.

A while ago you said you thought maybe you made the wrong desision, you were right. You did. You threw away the only person who listened, and that is more important that anyones smile, eyes, faith or style. More important than personality or little crushes. You had someone who would change any way for you, you feared the idea of losing you, who spoke to save you and who went to the end of the world and back for you and its gone forever. It was a one and a million oppertunity that will never come you way again. So one day I'll be happy and you'll be nothing more than a memory. Nothing more than a forgotten part of my destiny. One day you'll be nothing to alot of people. One day they'll all leave you like they always do. And when they do, you can remember the person who would have been there, you can remember how you redefined the word liar and cheat and you can remember how you let all your morals go as you jump between people trying to find a happiness that will never feel. Because no one who does what you did will ever be happy, and no one who who has to lie when she tells a sotry isn't ashamed. I know you are. Your entire world is fake, I'm so much more real with who I am. You no better than anyone you've never called a whore. Truth be told in some ways you've become worse than that.

I know it'll hurt to hear it. I know you'll try so hard to hide it. But I'm right and you know it.

You dont deserve my love.
So I found someone who does.
I'm no longer an option for you.
You wait, you'll never find anything better than me.
You haven't moved on, because I made such an effect on who you are.
One day you'll miss me.


"Never let go of someone who Loves, Cares and Misses You,
Because you Just might wake up and realise
You lost the moon, while counting the stars"