MON 7:35 PM
I guess I'm just a giant fuck up. I really am. I fucked up today. I ran late again.

It all began when I woke up at 2:42 instead of 1:00. My alarm clock was flashing 12:00. When I woke.
I knew i still had to clean oreo's massive puke pile that my swivel chair rolled over, and look at the mail and uinstall the a/c. i ran tinot problems uninstalling the ac, and i woke up sick, but i pushed thru it. i got to library to do white noise. it took a while. had to make my own file.

iphone: "entered incorrect pin too may times connect to itunes" it sdays because the rain fucked the screen up that friday.

i had to get white noise i thought itd be mad quick

i couldnt talk to my dad in the room without white noise, plus he goes on the porch

that was in my hea,d i figured i had time

itunes took forever, like 8 mins when i was like running 15 late already
thenit said "wrong 64 bit, need 32 bit" so i downloaded the 32bit which took another 8

when making the white noise file it was too quiet, like quieter than an ant, i had to download somehting to amplify it

the other phone wasnt even powering on.

after a while after the 2nd itunes download i gave up and said fuck it ill use my TV really Really loud.

got home at 6:56, wanted to be home at 6:15.

i knew i wanted to be home after 5:30 because i think i saw his car driove toward the carousel en route to the library. so hed be home late. hot and stuffy house day.

i tried my best. the alarm clock + itunes fucked me up. i also lost my small phone . it had 0 minutes on it. i cant find it. worst of all it has important irreplaceable shit on it.

im such a fuck up.

20 hours. can you give me 20 hours. i should be able to get a ifnal attempt. librarians about to kick me off automatically.

so like, when i was on at 6:15, i was ruhsing downllaoding itunes and shit.

it took me over 70 minutes to try and get white noise on myphome, thought itd take 15.



when i got back i said id do it anyway. as i approached sabins i said even tho its unwise, i should wait till rainy tuesday [tomorrow] now. i have to be there ready, preferably before him. like i was gonna do it but it felt way too late for sure as i was going down the knowlton hill. i ate a banana and read my notes ot tlak to him as i walked.

waking up at 2:42 did it. but i only slept 3-4 hours. the alarm was flashing red.

thats why i didnt respond i was rhsuning for itunes and everything. i had to transfer the fiels to the phone too thru mediafire as well which was retarded to sign up for. etc.

like i thought since i woke at 2:42 id be at library by 3:15 but i got there at like 4 after the retarded ac uninstall oreo puke etc getting ready and overocming the sickness, tiredness,a nd wooziness. i dont know what to say. can you give me 20 hours. i hope so. 19 hours, ill be in the house twiddling my thumbs ready for him.

earlier today before that nap i meant to go to the lib and request backup asisstance and ask you how your health is. i also wanted to say i fell asleep last night early before returning to the library. also wanted to say that i hope the space has been healthy for you. im serious i miss you but i hope it has been helpful. let me utuilize the last 8 min i have on the pc for productive reasons

oh yeah and i spernt all dya trying to find my my obamaphone which has 0 minutes. walked ot lib and back and then had to return later in the day. just wanted to type the stry out.

Like the iPhone cannot be used. I entered the wrong pin six times cuz glitchy screen. Gotta plug into iTunes. It says iPhone is disabled connect to iTunes.

I WALKED BACK TO THE LIBRARY TODAY THIS MORNING AND FOUND IT AGAIN omfg <3 <3