Gibbs91_30 - Today at 4:36 PM
If I'm wearing them they make little space more fun
I can control if they have accidents happen or if they have to stay wet as a reminder of who's in control
I remember you were kinda interested in them too, are you still?
cosmic - Today at 4:37 PM
yea havent tried anything tho
also no one knows about that besides u
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 4:38 PM
Oh, I didn't realize you trusted me that much
I would never tell anyone
cosmic - Today at 4:38 PM
yea of courseeee
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 4:38 PM
<3
I forgot how sweet you were tbh
cosmic - Today at 4:39 PM
i would like to experiment but im too scared
awweeee thankssss
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 4:40 PM
Of course pumpkin :P
cosmic - Today at 4:41 PM
hehe pumpkin
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 4:41 PM
Anyway
Why are you scared?
Like
I remember when I first tried it and I was scared too but what bothers you?
cosmic - Today at 4:45 PM
getting them scaryyyy
i wont do it alone tbh
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 4:45 PM
You're 26, pretend they're for a sibling
16
Smh
cosmic - Today at 4:46 PM
still scaryyyy
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 4:47 PM
Fair enough
Are you saying you don't have anyone to be with?
cosmic - Today at 4:49 PM
yaaaa
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 4:50 PM
I'm sorry fam
cosmic - Today at 4:51 PM
idk anyone into diapers beside u tbh
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 4:53 PM
I'd love to get together with you if you want to try some time. It's alot of fun and if you don't try it out then you're missing the boat
We should talk more, it never hurts to have friends that are fairly close either :)
cosmic - Today at 4:56 PM
ya we should!!!!!!!
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 4:57 PM
Like I'll be honest, I don't much remember what we used to do that we met... Do you remember?
cosmic - Today at 4:58 PM
me either haha
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 4:59 PM
Part of me wants to say Minecraft but like wouldn't I have introduced you to my group of friends?
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:00 PM
I remember going back to Skype days but did I meet you through a link or a mutual :thinking:
Smh
I'm glad you kept me around though
cosmic - Today at 5:02 PM
hmmmmmmmm no clue
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:02 PM
Dang
So you day you're into ddlg, what do you do?
cosmic - Today at 5:04 PM
what do u mean what do i do?
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:05 PM
Idk.. like do you do little space?
cosmic - Today at 5:05 PM
helllaaaaa
i have a paci
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:05 PM
Ooh okay, what do you like to do when you're little?
cosmic - Today at 5:06 PM
watch cartoonssss
bounceee
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:07 PM
That sounds dank
cosmic - Today at 5:08 PM
ive been having trouble feeling little recently tbh
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:08 PM
What's going wrong?
Am I being too nosey?
cosmic - Today at 5:13 PM
no just in general
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:13 PM
Lots of stress going on?
cosmic - Today at 5:15 PM
meh no i just havent been feeling it
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:16 PM
Dang man that's really sad I'm sorry
You still stay up late nights?
cosmic - Today at 5:18 PM
not as much
on new meds
which make me sleeepy
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:18 PM
What are they medicating you for?
cosmic - Today at 5:19 PM
anxiety
schizo
depression
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:20 PM
That's exciting :/ you doing okay?
cosmic - Today at 5:21 PM
ya im kewl
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:23 PM
Alright, I'm glad
so what else do you play besides fortnight?
cosmic - Today at 5:32 PM
play music
and stufffffff
idk what else
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:33 PM
what's good to listen to?
cosmic - Today at 5:33 PM
ive been listening to a lot of phish lately
but all time favorite maybe zappa
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:35 PM
I'm new to either of them, I'll give them a listen for sure though
dang, phish is pretty good for light rock
what's your favorite track?
cosmic - Today at 5:44 PM
from phish
fuck your face
zappa hmm
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:44 PM
zappa ain't bad either, just didn't recognize the name tbh
cosmic - Today at 5:44 PM
easy meat maybe?
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:44 PM
good to know
cosmic - Today at 5:45 PM
tell me what u think!!
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:45 PM
i'm listening to easy meat rn
cosmic - Today at 5:46 PM
isnt it good
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:49 PM
yeah, im digging it
cosmic - Today at 5:49 PM
im sleepy
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:50 PM
time for a nap then?
cosmic - Today at 5:50 PM
no i have to go for a family dinner in 10 mins
:((
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:50 PM
aww man
you like your family?
cosmic - Today at 5:51 PM
yes they r great
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:51 PM
that's important
cosmic - Today at 5:51 PM
i just wannaaa nap rn
my bed is so comfy
and i have a unicorn stuffyyyyyy
i dont wanna leaveeee
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:52 PM
dang im jelly
cosmic - Today at 5:52 PM
its the best
how old r u again?
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:52 PM
18
cosmic - Today at 5:52 PM
oohhhhh nice
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:52 PM
ill be 19 in october
cosmic - Today at 5:52 PM
i thought u were older for a sec
thats nice
16 in july
woop
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:52 PM
woop
cosmic - Today at 5:53 PM
u should come to my birthday party tbh
it should be lit
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:53 PM
really?
cosmic - Today at 5:53 PM
i just dont have a friends to show up lol
ya ofc
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:53 PM
that would be pretty cool
cosmic - Today at 5:53 PM
hella
its on friday the 13th in July
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:54 PM
your birthday or the party?
cosmic - Today at 5:54 PM
both, i'll send u an official invitation later
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:54 PM
uWu
you dont have anyone to come at all?
cosmic - Today at 5:55 PM
no i have some people
but not as many as i want
hahah
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:55 PM
ah i see
i only have one friend that i get to hang out with in person
i mean
my internet friends are great but
cosmic - Today at 5:56 PM
it doesnt really get u the right friendship fix ik
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:56 PM
that's accurate
cosmic - Today at 5:56 PM
yup that irl friendship is special
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:57 PM
yeah, my one friend is very sweet. she has been there for me though thick and thin since 6th grade
cosmic - Today at 5:57 PM
thats amazing
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:57 PM
so have my online friends but like
i had a huge fight with my mom last night
she offered to come get me
it was honestly like
cosmic - Today at 5:57 PM
thats so nice
im gonna have to go soon ill be back after dinner!!!!
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 5:58 PM
ikr, it's hard to find people in your space to take up for you
alright, you have fun! hopefully ill be home from work and we can talk or something. that would be p nice
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 6:07 PM
holy crap
fuck your face is great too
thanks fam
i have some new shit to listen to
cosmic - Today at 6:44 PM
hiii hi hi
my face?
where did u see my face
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 6:54 PM
the song
fuck your face
lmfao
you got a great face too
but this is a situation where a comma is missing
fuck, your face is great too
fuck your face is great too
cosmic - Today at 6:56 PM
lmao hahahah
now im sad
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 6:56 PM
no no
dont be
i think you're addorable
honestly
cosmic - Today at 6:58 PM

Gibbs91_30 - Today at 6:58 PM
you okay?
cosmic - Today at 6:58 PM
ur friends a mega furry
ya im fine :heart:
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 6:59 PM
yeah
she's great
cosmic - Today at 6:59 PM
like owo and everythingggg
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 6:59 PM
yeah idfk man all my friends turned out either as furrys or gays
cosmic - Today at 6:59 PM
i mean thats cool
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 6:59 PM
both online and irl
cosmic - Today at 6:59 PM
hahah
shes irl right?
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 6:59 PM
yee
i was at her house yesterday to hang out lol
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:00 PM
she better be irl
cosmic - Today at 7:00 PM
hahha
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:01 PM
how was dinner?
cosmic - Today at 7:02 PM
yummy!!
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:02 PM
what did you have?
sorry if im bothering you btw(edited)
it's honestly refreshing to talk to someone different
cosmic - Today at 7:03 PM
no ofc you arent
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:03 PM
<3
cosmic - Today at 7:03 PM
hahah totally
salmon and some veggies
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:03 PM
damn
gourmet
lmfao
cosmic - Today at 7:03 PM
haha i guess
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:05 PM
do you care if just ask a bunch of questions?
i'm honestly bored out of my nut
cosmic - Today at 7:06 PM
id love that
i might be slow on response cause vidya games
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:06 PM
fortnight?(edited)
cosmic - Today at 7:06 PM
yea haha
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:06 PM
exciting
i guess ill start with simple things about you and go deeper? idk im just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
ill be honest
this is probably cabin fever related, i don't have much to do......
souh
what's your favorite food? and color while we're at it?
cosmic - Today at 7:08 PM
pancakes and color is hard
blue, purple or pink
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:09 PM
you like light sweet pancakes or heavy cakey ones?(edited)
cosmic - Today at 7:09 PM
bothhhhh :heart:
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:09 PM
oof
good to know
what kind of car do you like?
cosmic - Today at 7:10 PM
i dont know much about cars
but teslas
i like elon musk
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:10 PM
elon musk is really cool
i just worry about a car that could be hacked
you like to go fast or is cruising more your style?
cosmic - Today at 7:12 PM
idk
cars r confusing
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:12 PM
well do you like rollercoasters?(edited)
cosmic - Today at 7:12 PM
most of them
i havent been upside
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:12 PM
i see
then you'd probably like going fast
probably
cosmic - Today at 7:13 PM
awesomeeee
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:14 PM
what's your favorite way to waste time?
cosmic - Today at 7:15 PM
music probs
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:15 PM
you just veg to music?
cosmic - Today at 7:18 PM
yes
maybe play video games
but i can really listen when im doing nothing else
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:19 PM
didn't you used to play csgo?
cosmic - Today at 7:20 PM
no some guy bought me csgo
and i played it like twice
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:20 PM
oh lmfao
you hunt for online sugar daddys?
cosmic - Today at 7:20 PM
i did
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:21 PM
that's scary business tbh
i should say
people on the internet are scary
cosmic - Today at 7:21 PM
v true
vv true
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:22 PM
i think you probably got a fair bit of scary from all those times the skype group got put on /b/
cosmic - Today at 7:23 PM
/b/ isnt scary
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:23 PM
no
cosmic - Today at 7:23 PM
i have been on b for years tbh
i think im on it rn
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:23 PM
but it has plenty of predatory people
what do you mean you think?
lmfao
cosmic - Today at 7:23 PM
ya what r they gonna do tho
if im not vunerable towards possible predators
like whats gonna happen
like its open rn
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:24 PM
i had someone send me a boatload of personal information once
my own personal information
it was not very fun tbh
but i feel you
i grew up around b
i think i was like 9 when i found it...
kinda made a long term impact on me
cosmic - Today at 7:25 PM
ive had that happen before i was scared for a milli second and then they realized i was a young girl and they were chill
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:25 PM
fair enough
not so young anymore tho lmao
cosmic - Today at 7:26 PM
tbh /b/ more so has treated me well than not
like sure they will shit on my age and how i look like sometimes
but like it doesnt bother me
cause im an asshole too
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:26 PM
same, i dont visit it often anymore though
cosmic - Today at 7:26 PM
im on it quite a bit
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:27 PM
i prefer to stick to k or g or diy
tech, weapons, and diy what a mix
lmfao
why would they shit on how you look?
cosmic - Today at 7:28 PM
just silly shit
sometimes people just wanna hate on people ya know
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:28 PM
i guess, i never really thought you were a hateable person
cosmic - Today at 7:28 PM
lol
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:29 PM
you've never been anything but nice as far as ive seen
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
cosmic - Today at 7:30 PM
nah tbh ive been a bitch to a lot of people
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:30 PM
you wanna talk about it?
what am i saying
shhhhhh
what do you want to do when you grow up?
cosmic - Today at 7:32 PM
producer hopefully
maybe a sound tech at a venue
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:33 PM
dont want to dj?
cosmic - Today at 7:33 PM
ew no
ive already dj'd
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:33 PM
;-;
cosmic - Today at 7:33 PM
its gay
used to dj a lot
dj'd infront of like 3000 little kids
lol
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:34 PM
fun lol
what sort of producer? like for movies?
cosmic - Today at 7:34 PM
music
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:35 PM
those are some big aspirations, what sort of production do you want to get involved in? like most musicians have a manager, isnt that their job?
cosmic - Today at 7:36 PM
the sound tech is really realistic tbh
no its producing the beats for the musicians
mixing their tracks
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:36 PM
oh shit really?
thats awesome
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:40 PM
that sounds really cool, ill be honest
way better then a comp sci major lmfao
but im aiming high for a mit scholarship so i can  up and leave MD
cosmic - Today at 7:41 PM
thats so coool!!!!!!!
im sorry if i seem iffy im really dizzy rn
u like computers n stuff?
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:43 PM
hell yeah man, i've built 4 or 5 hobby mining machines for the sole purpose of fun because they basically break even before becoming too expensive to run. I tried to get into programing but it really wasnt for me
and it's okay
cosmic - Today at 7:43 PM
thats really interesting
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:43 PM
it's no big deal if you need time
cosmic - Today at 7:43 PM
im not smart enough for that
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:43 PM
sure you are
cosmic - Today at 7:43 PM
nahhhh haha
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:43 PM
everyone starts somewhere
3 years ago i had a mac book pro and nothing else fam
gaming motivated me but the excitement of money made it like a damn gold rush for my friends and i(edited)
cosmic - Today at 7:44 PM
im on a macbook air haha(edited)
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:45 PM
like i said, everyone starts somewhere
cosmic - Today at 7:45 PM
hahha idk if i wanna do computer stuff tho
its confusing tho
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:45 PM
i'm getting into linux system administration
or atleast trying to
because websites are big bucks
cosmic - Today at 7:46 PM
$$$$$
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:46 PM
i'm not suggesting you should, but if you want to it's not as hard as it looks
once upon a time i had like 12k worth of btc from this fam
i kinda piddled it away but im glad i spent it because it started going down after i tightened up
cosmic - Today at 7:47 PM
im DIZZZYYYYY
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:47 PM
why?
cosmic - Today at 7:47 PM
idk :frowning:
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:47 PM
are you drinking enough water?
cosmic - Today at 7:48 PM
i think so ill go get waer
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:49 PM
good idea <3
cosmic - Today at 7:52 PM
i stillll dizzzzyyy :<
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:52 PM
;-;
what are you doing rn?
cosmic - Today at 7:53 PM
i was playing video games but i got dizzy and now im watching netflix and laying down
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:53 PM
maybe you should get some fresh air? whenever people say dizzy my mind goes to CO poisoning
its one of the most common reasons
cosmic - Today at 7:54 PM
my family isnt dizzy
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:54 PM
oh
damn
cosmic - Today at 7:54 PM
ill crack a window tho
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:54 PM
then i prescribe rest! lol
good idea
i hope you have good blankets
it's chilly out there tonight
cosmic - Today at 7:55 PM
i doooo
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:55 PM
nice
warm blankets are the best
especially the heavy down ones
they're the best
cosmic - Today at 7:56 PM
ooooo i really want a weighted blankets
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:57 PM
i'm iffy on weighted blankets like idk
they seem nice
but id rather find something to snuggle against
cosmic - Today at 7:57 PM
*someone
haha
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:57 PM
after i broke it off with my ex i got out this giant stuffed otter from when i was a kid and i havent looked back
someone would be ideal
cosmic - Today at 7:58 PM
hahha yesss
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:58 PM
i should say
it wasnt an intimate relationship, it was ldr
cosmic - Today at 7:58 PM
ohhhhhhh
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:58 PM
it wasn't going to be sustainable with her in victoria BC and me here in md
but yeah
snuggling is the ebst
best
cosmic - Today at 7:58 PM
ya i kinda have a thing with this guy in Michigan
and it really hurts
cause i told myself i wouldnt get myself into a ldr thing
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:59 PM
just knowing that theres a person there with you is fantastic
cosmic - Today at 7:59 PM
but i cant help it i really like him
hes on vacation rn
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 7:59 PM
dang fam
cosmic - Today at 7:59 PM
for the next 10 days
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:00 PM
i feel ya, i didn't want any ldr things either then suddenly
there we were
we had been friends for like a year
when we both started crushing on each other it was kinda funny tbh
cosmic - Today at 8:01 PM
awe thats nice
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:01 PM
yeah but it didn't end nice ;-;
it ended in me realizing that i'm too quick to accept something as true
she just got really toxic to me
why am i talking about that
sorry
cosmic - Today at 8:02 PM
no its okay
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:02 PM
letsmove on
cosmic - Today at 8:02 PM
if u want
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:03 PM
no please, i was having a good day lmfao
cosmic - Today at 8:03 PM
hahah okay
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:03 PM
so what's this Michigan boy like?
cosmic - Today at 8:04 PM
hes great
hes in my server
ryan
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:04 PM
ah
cosmic - Today at 8:05 PM
we just got really close recently
but hes honestly the best
hes so funny
and hes nice
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:05 PM
thats really nice
cosmic - Today at 8:05 PM
he treats me like a person
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:05 PM
is that a problem you have?
show me who to beat up!
lmfao
cosmic - Today at 8:07 PM
it is tbh
people treat me like a god or like a object
rarely any inbetween
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:08 PM
have i done either of those? please let me know if i ever do, i'm not even kissing your ass i just hate making people feel like crap.
cosmic - Today at 8:09 PM
no u havent dont worry
im stillL DIZZY
itsa a little less tho
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:09 PM
oh noes
i hope you feel better
cosmic - Today at 8:10 PM
sadddddddd
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:10 PM
you?
why?
cosmic - Today at 8:11 PM
dizzy
no ryan
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:11 PM
aw fam i'm sorry
is he into ddlg too?
cosmic - Today at 8:13 PM
ya not a lot
the sweet spot tho
the cuddling and the nick names
we havent talked sexually yet tho
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:13 PM
that's really cool
what sort of nicknames do you like?
cosmic - Today at 8:15 PM
baby
babygirl
princess
those r good shit
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:15 PM
yeah man
good shit
im partial to pumpkin too
one of my favorites tbh
cosmic - Today at 8:17 PM
pumpkin is nice
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:17 PM
every pumpkin has to have a little bit of spice though:P
cosmic - Today at 8:18 PM
ooooOOOooOO
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:18 PM
hmm?
cosmic - Today at 8:18 PM
spiccyyyyYY
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:19 PM
i try man
i really do
cosmic - Today at 8:20 PM
are u religous
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:20 PM
it honestly depends on your definition of religous
are you?
cosmic - Today at 8:20 PM
im not
i guess i dont believe in anything and im kinda lost
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:21 PM
you believe in a higher power?
cosmic - Today at 8:21 PM
but i cant pick any religion that seems irrational to me
not really
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:21 PM
see that's the thing
religion requires a belief in a higher power
i wasn
i wasnt ever really super religious but i do belive in a god
i wear a cross
mostly as a dedication to the greater good than anything
cosmic - Today at 8:22 PM
i just cant it seems so irrational in my mind
like whats the chance
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:23 PM
what's the chance that we're all here by chance?
cosmic - Today at 8:23 PM
that one entity or whatever
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:23 PM
/open rant/(edited)
cosmic - Today at 8:23 PM
made this crazy universe
alll by them self
it just doesnt make sense to me
and i need that belief rn
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:23 PM
if you belive in a god you have nothing to lose if there isn't one, but everything to lose if there is
/close rant/
ill be honest with you
cosmic - Today at 8:24 PM
i cant believe tho
its just so hard for me
and i fucking need some hope
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:24 PM
i found god when the gun went click instead of going bang man
like
that's morbid as fuck
but that;s what 15 year old me needed
hope and love is better when you have something to share it with
cosmic - Today at 8:25 PM
ive already tried to kill myself and lived
gave me nothing
ive been so close to death at least 5 times
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:25 PM
some people have different triggers man
just remember
it's never worth it to die
cosmic - Today at 8:26 PM
ive been sitting on my bathroom floor ready to chug all my pills recently, writing the last letters to my family and shit
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:26 PM
damn man
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:26 PM
please dont do that
cosmic - Today at 8:26 PM
my schizo diagnosis
its getting me down
it hasnt really gone through yet
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:27 PM
why? is it getting you down?
you're still you
same as before
just as good as always
cosmic - Today at 8:27 PM
i know
but fuck that
ive been sooOO down
im around all these edgy teens who r going through puberty
being edgy cause they r teenagers and mental illness is cute now or whatever
but ive been hospitalized for my mental illness at 6
its not going away
im stuck in this body
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:29 PM
well
you got to make the best of it
fine something to live for
someone to live through
that's the best solution
it worked for me
and now i'm just riding that wave until i find something new
when i was 15 they actually thought i was going to go ballistic at school and kill people. the edginess at the age is nutty
don't let your peers drive you to that point
find people who support you
if you ever have that feeling man
come talk to me
cosmic - Today at 8:33 PM
im not fucking edgy
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:33 PM
i'm almost always available during normal hours
cosmic - Today at 8:33 PM
id be so happy
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:33 PM
i never said you were
cosmic - Today at 8:33 PM
if it werent for my chemical imbalance
im just fucking out of it
and ive been trapped inside my mental illnesses my entire life
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:34 PM
i'm so sorry
i wish i could give you a hug right now
i dont know what good it would do
but i'm sorry for you
cosmic - Today at 8:36 PM
im just mad about being here and i need that forgiveness that religion promises but i dont believe that stack of shit
cause if i can feel forgiveness and enlightenment or whatever
i could forgive the people who have worsened my situation
and i could let go and hopefully feel better
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:37 PM
i wish i could offer you better advice but heres what i got
holding a grudge so bad that it weighs you down is like drinking poison to spite your enemy
i dont know your circumstance so i cant give specific advice but ill help you with forgiveness if you want
cosmic - Today at 8:39 PM
i dont feel like i have it in me
i dont forgive myself(edited)
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:39 PM
what's happened?
why do you hold it to yourself?
i'm here to listen
cosmic - Today at 8:40 PM
i think im gonna wanna die more if i think about it
it just seems like religion would help me
but that aint gonna happen
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:41 PM
well then let's not, i don't think i could stand to lose another friend
the best way to accept religion is to let go
hell
go into it skeptical
cosmic - Today at 8:42 PM
cant do christianity
i could do hinduism or buddhism
maybe even islam
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:42 PM
what do you hold against Christianity?
cosmic - Today at 8:43 PM
i just dont vibe
the bible is a sack of shit
read through it
gained nothing
gained more knowledge and insightful thinking from the santanic bible tbhhHh
also "god" didnt fucking make the damn bible n shit
that was just a schizo like me
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:44 PM
No of course not
cosmic - Today at 8:44 PM
who hears some bullshit
and made sense of it
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:45 PM
Don't be so hard on yourself
cosmic - Today at 8:45 PM
my schizophrenia told me shit like "music is god" "god creates, creativity is how you get close to god"
i could turn that into a religion
but my schizophrenia also has me convinced that vitamins arent real
lmao
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:48 PM
Perhaps you should seek council inregard to the big about vitamins
cosmic - Today at 8:48 PM
i know that that probably doesnt make sense but at the same time
like ive never felt any personal effects from vitamins
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:49 PM
Well
They're vitamins
They're supposed to make you feel normal not super
cosmic - Today at 8:49 PM
ya but i didnt feel normaler
no effects
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:51 PM
Normaler isn't a thing lmao
I don't feel effects of vitamins either tho
cosmic - Today at 8:52 PM
seeeeeeeeeee
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:53 PM
Lmfao
cosmic - Today at 8:53 PM
they dont work
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:53 PM
Fair enough
How about fortified milk?
cosmic - Today at 8:54 PM
idek what that is
oh milk with vitamins
no
vitamins arent real
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:55 PM
I can confirm that after drinking it my dick got bigger tho wtf
cosmic - Today at 8:55 PM
lollll
Gibbs91_30 - Today at 8:58 PM
Lmfao placebo effect :triumph:
How are you doing?