kat
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Today at 12:08
Owh
Do chu still like me as much?
Bleh and youre gone again
Zuexar
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Today at 12:26
Like you as much?
kat
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Today at 12:27
Yuh
Zuexar
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Today at 12:27
Internet keeps dying so ill talk at mcdonalds
Setting ff nao
Off*
kat
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Today at 12:27
Tfw didnt answer :c
Zuexar
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Today at 12:27
Idk what you mean
kat
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Today at 12:27
Panic much
Liking someone
Can it mean more than one thing
Like idk, last two days or so you've been less loveydovery and it feels like chu dun care about me as much,like yesterday for example before we played csgo, i asked for multiple things, but chu just wanted to stay on ffxiv without even asking what i wanted :< when i wanted to do something else and just be with you instead of suffering even more on ffxiv
kat
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Today at 13:02
like it kinda felt like what i wanted didnt matter at all
long trip to mcdonalds >.<
hope everything is okie
welcome back
Zuexar
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Today at 13:21
Mcdonalds wifi was dead
kat
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Today at 13:21
every wifi is dead it seems like
wanna reply to my msgs?
Zuexar
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Today at 13:23
Just got on bus
kat
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Today at 13:23
okies
Zuexar
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Today at 13:23
And i tried but message wouldnt sent
Send
kat
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Today at 13:23
try again
Zuexar
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Today at 13:23
I think its okay now
Thats just how i am with games, especially mmos
I play them and pretty much nothing else
kat
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Today at 13:24
mh okies
Zuexar
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Today at 13:24
The only reason ive been playing other things is because your there
I really want to get to full bis gear
kat
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Today at 13:24
pretty sure you'd need to find an even better fc for that
to be able to rush it
cant play with people like shadow etc
Zuexar
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Today at 13:25
Not really, a few in the FC already do it
kat
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Today at 13:26
yea but when you raid there's atleast always one guy who's poor on dps
Zuexar
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Today at 13:26
Yeah thats progression party
kat
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Today at 13:26
mh okies
Zuexar
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Today at 13:26
Kai Milly Katana and some others have already done i all
Theyre just helping the others
kat
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Today at 13:26
ah okay(edited)
Zuexar
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Today at 13:26
I can just random party them like with Byakko
kat
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Today at 13:27
think so?
Zuexar
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Today at 13:28
Yeah im pretty sure
kat
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Today at 13:28
does that require voice?
Zuexar
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Today at 13:29
The only hard part is getting first clear
And you saw the coils :^)
kat
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Today at 13:29
if it doesnt i guess i could join and try to learn to play
Zuexar
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Today at 13:29
No communication even with vc
kat
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Today at 13:29
if it means i can just talk to you
that is
Zuexar
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Today at 13:30
Sure
But yeah communication isnt needed, just makes learning it easier
kat
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Today at 13:31
I mean you know everything
So you're basically all communication I would need
Zuexar
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Today at 13:31
Yeah but i dont do callouts
My head does it all for me
kat
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Today at 13:31
everything but the shit in sigma 2 that kills us*
Zuexar
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Today at 13:31
Yeah i didnt know about that
kat
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Today at 13:31
was weird
like literally even if running away and stuff you still take dmg eventho you shouldnt
Zuexar
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Today at 13:32
I even healed through that without knowing
kat
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Today at 13:32
yea lol
also i'd like answer to what i asked before eventhough i probably know the answer myself
the "do chu still like me as much?" question
Zuexar
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Today at 13:34
Ofcourse
kat
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Today at 13:34
okies
gud <3
Zuexar
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Today at 13:34
Im still uncertain about some things
kat
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Today at 13:34
like?
Zuexar
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Today at 13:35
But im determined to try make this work as much as possible
kat
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Today at 13:35
what are you uncertain about?
Zuexar
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Today at 13:35
Well there was your "moodswings"
Theres still the whole you being a guy thing
Then i also feel like you dont like it when i spend time without you but i like my alone time
kat
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Today at 13:36
ofcourse i gotta accept your alonetime, sure i might not like it but you're you afterall
and you're the one i love
and i gotta accept it
and im working on my stupid moodswings, been better since we spoke about it
and uh, i cant get rid of my penis unfortunately
Zuexar
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Today at 13:40
Yeah ik that
But it still bothers me a bit
kat
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Today at 13:42
what bothers you about it?
I mean it's just a thing down by the crotch
Not like it changes anything
Zuexar
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Today at 13:44
Idk its still wierd to me
kat
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Today at 13:44
Any reason why its weird?
Zuexar
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Today at 13:45
Idk, cant explain it
kat
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Today at 13:45
kinda scares me, makes me think there's no way its gonna work out >.<
when chu cant accept me for what i am
Zuexar
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Today at 13:46
Cant really promise it will tbh
kat
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Today at 13:46
yeah i've noticed
Zuexar
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Today at 13:47
All i know is that i love you as a person, except the parts i already talked about which were sorted
kat
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Today at 13:48
but do you love me as a partner?
Zuexar
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Today at 13:49
Not sure
kat
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Today at 13:49
:/
ok
Zuexar
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Today at 13:49
Your the first one ive felt like this towards after all
kat
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Today at 13:51
sigh
Zuexar
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Today at 13:51
Sorry, its the truth
kat
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Today at 13:52
i shouldnt of entered another relationship sigh
i will end up getting hurt once more in time
Zuexar
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Today at 13:53
Sorry ;-;
kat
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Today at 13:57
And I thought chu actually loved me when chu said it the first time
As more than just a person..
sigh
yeah that made me extremely sad how chu played with my feelings
Zuexar
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Today at 13:59
I do
I just
Dont know
kat
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Today at 13:59
either you love me and accept me for what i am
or you dont
simple
Zuexar
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Today at 14:04
I wouldnt know if i can without seeing you irl
kat
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Today at 14:04
who gives a shit about irl
its gonna be a long time before we get there
Zuexar
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Today at 14:05
Yes but if we do and i cant accept it
It would just be worse
kat
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Today at 14:05
that's also a reason why i wanna go through my diet again
to get as feminine as possible so you'll be able to accept me
Zuexar
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Today at 14:06
I dont think how feminine you are as a person would matter
Idk
kat
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Today at 14:06
appearance
Zuexar
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Today at 14:06
Never been in an irl sexual relationship
kat
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Today at 14:06
me neither
shouldn't waste energy on thinking of things too much
Zuexar
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Today at 14:08
I cant help but think of it
I dont want to hurt you even if i cant accept it
I dont want to hurt anyone
But i feel like its too late to claim that
kat
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Today at 14:09
I mean should of thought about that before you said that you loved me
Zuexar
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Today at 14:09
I do love your personality
Just not your gender
I think
kat
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Today at 14:10
it's just a dick
Zuexar
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Today at 14:10
Idkkk its still wierd to me
kat
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Today at 14:10
i dont care if you ignore the dick
i dont care if i cum
i love you
not your dick
Zuexar
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Today at 14:11
Ik i love you too but id still like a sexual relationship with the person i love beyond what we currebtly do
And idk if i could have one that id like
kat
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Today at 14:11
and im crying like always
sigh
Zuexar
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Today at 14:12
And idk if i could have one that id like
Sorry :^(
kat
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Today at 14:12
no you're not
Zuexar
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Today at 14:13
I am
I really am
kat
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Today at 14:13
No you aren't
Zuexar
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Today at 14:14
I am seriously sorry
kat
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Today at 14:14
So is this the end?
Zuexar
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Today at 14:14
You know i dont like hurting anyone
Especially you
kat
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Today at 14:14
are you gonna break up with me now?
Zuexar
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Today at 14:14
Idk
I just have mixed emotions atm
kat
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Today at 14:16
ohwell
i always loved you atleast
guess it all got ruined now
Zuexar
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Today at 14:17
I loved you too
kat
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Today at 14:18
oh stop lying
Zuexar
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Today at 14:18
Im not lying
kat
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Today at 14:18
yes you are
Zuexar
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Today at 14:18
I meant everything i said
kat
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Today at 14:18
no you didnt
Zuexar
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Today at 14:18
I did
I really did love you
Its just you were my first
kat
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Today at 14:18
then wtf is the issue
Zuexar
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Today at 14:19
I didnt know what to do
kat
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Today at 14:19
why do you hate me now because i got a fucking penis
Zuexar
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Today at 14:19
And still dont
I dont hate you
kat
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Today at 14:19
well you certainly dont love me
and here i was thinking i finally found someone who actually loved me and was worthy of having a relationship with
and all of it got fucking ruined
because apparently they arent even bi
like they'be proclaimned all along
sfdyfhgvbvhydgvyu7cbvhufghb
Zuexar
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Today at 14:22
I still just have mixed emotions
kat
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Today at 14:23
do you want it to end or not?
Zuexar
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Today at 14:23
I dont know
Im just
Scared
Idk
kat
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Today at 14:23
yes or no?
i dont wanna be in a relationship where im not loved
Zuexar
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Today at 14:24
You are
Im just
Wierd
kat
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Today at 14:25
still want an answer
yes or no
i'll give you time until 14:30 then i'll just take my leave and assume that's what you want, and just dont have the balls to say it
Zuexar
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Today at 14:27
Im just talking to friends at the same time as you
Cant think properly atn
And idk how long im gonna have wifi for now
kat
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Today at 14:28
2min reimaining
1
Zuexar
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Today at 14:29
I dont want to hurt you anymore so i guess its over
kat
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Today at 14:30
as you wish
asshole..
Zuexar
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Today at 14:30
Seems Neko was right then...
kat
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Today at 14:30
apparently
Zuexar
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Today at 14:30
I do it without even relising
kat
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Today at 14:31
without even realising?
you said a bit ago you've been thinking about it and it annoys you
hows that no realising?
not*
Zuexar
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Today at 14:31
Idfk
kat
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Today at 14:32
ugh i fucking hate myself
im so done with everything
from being excited for a fucking marriage
to breaking up
im 12 hours
i wanna fucking die
sigh
fuck everything
yeah fucking dont write anymore then
Zuexar
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Today at 14:35
I just dont know what to say
Im just concentrating on not crying in front of my friends
kat
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Today at 14:35
Akemi ruined everything 2018-03-21