RavenNightshade3: its me
RavenNightshade3: do your parents hack accounts
RavenNightshade3: kust asking
RavenNightshade3: just
RisunaYakoshi: No
RavenNightshade3: i swear im not liying to you im not making excuses
RavenNightshade3: you saw how my day was
RisunaYakoshi: Yea, and you know how mine was.
RavenNightshade3: yes im sorry for letting myself get triggerd but i cant control that you know this
RavenNightshade3: it wasnt fair to you i admit that
RisunaYakoshi: I've been triggered harshly enough I'm emotionally cut off now. I slashed my legs cause you, YOU triggered me with that fucking cutting shit. Then today, when I start to get triggered again, the same trigger as lastnight, decide to use that "You do it" shit on me. KNOWING what these thoughts make me do.
RavenNightshade3: im sorry
RavenNightshade3: i wasnt thinking
RisunaYakoshi: I'm Done.
RavenNightshade3: please let me talk
RavenNightshade3: please
RisunaYakoshi: Fine.
RavenNightshade3: our love is real you know this
RavenNightshade3: you are having my twins
RavenNightshade3: we are to get married
RisunaYakoshi: Oh Oh before you go on
RisunaYakoshi: You said you didn't paly with that girl right?
RisunaYakoshi: play*
RavenNightshade3: i swear i didnt
RisunaYakoshi: https://i.postimg.cc/6qXjdfXY/1.png
RisunaYakoshi: Right.
RisunaYakoshi: I took that the second you said that
RisunaYakoshi: I let it pass
RisunaYakoshi: but no
RisunaYakoshi: Idc now.
RisunaYakoshi: Try again hun
RavenNightshade3: hold on
RavenNightshade3: ask her i never fooled with her
RisunaYakoshi: I did but honestly, I don't trust either of you.
RavenNightshade3: i was talking bout playing like poking and stuff
RavenNightshade3: babe im not lying
RisunaYakoshi: But just the fact you said 'no'
RisunaYakoshi: And you promised.
RisunaYakoshi: Right.
RavenNightshade3: wait
RavenNightshade3: let me talk
RavenNightshade3: i dont play i took that as sexural play
RisunaYakoshi: mmhm
RavenNightshade3: joking yes i do not often and not long
RavenNightshade3: im fighting for you cuz this is real
RavenNightshade3: im doing a passwrod reset
RisunaYakoshi: Oki so let me run this by you
RisunaYakoshi: Just quickly
RavenNightshade3: please lets sit down and talk like really talk
RisunaYakoshi: No matter how many times I tell you Littles don't have a form, you assume I have a form or make me have a form.
RisunaYakoshi: There's more.
RisunaYakoshi: You threatened to leave me if I didn't change my ways with friends. A threat you didn't go through but to 'scare' me.
RisunaYakoshi: There's more.
RisunaYakoshi: When you do something wrong, you turn it back on me, bringing up my past and things I actually moved on from. You say you forgive but use shit like a weapon.
RisunaYakoshi: I've told you
RisunaYakoshi: I've been raped and malested, yet did you forget that?
RisunaYakoshi: When you talk about your life being a whole lot worse?
RisunaYakoshi: Paiin
RisunaYakoshi: is
RisunaYakoshi: relative
RisunaYakoshi: You talk like you know everything about me
RisunaYakoshi: About my head
RisunaYakoshi: about who I am
RisunaYakoshi: About being a Little and shit
RisunaYakoshi: When only recently you found out it's not a role.
RavenNightshade3: so thats why the paintings trigger you
RisunaYakoshi: I told you this.
RisunaYakoshi: SO
RisunaYakoshi: MANY
RisunaYakoshi: TIME
RisunaYakoshi: S
RisunaYakoshi: But you just continue
RisunaYakoshi: You don't learn
RisunaYakoshi: Why the FUCK do I have to repeat myself over and over and over
RisunaYakoshi: About something
RavenNightshade3: i dont rememebr im sorry
RisunaYakoshi: that's SO important
RavenNightshade3: ok let me write all this down so i cant forget
RisunaYakoshi: I'd understand that if it was once I told you but no. I've repeated.
RisunaYakoshi: No point, WIll.
RisunaYakoshi: WE
RisunaYakoshi: Are not a thing anymore.
RavenNightshade3: please let me talk
RisunaYakoshi: Fine.
RavenNightshade3: you said you wanted to learn me
RavenNightshade3: you didnt want me to give up on you so why give up on me
RavenNightshade3: i tellyou the turth i feel i am more then one person
RavenNightshade3: i rememebr what you told me but i didnt think nothing of it with the pic im t ruly sorry
RisunaYakoshi: I should've left lastnight Will. When /you/ caused me to slash my fucking legs open.
RavenNightshade3: i didnt know you did it
RisunaYakoshi: That's what self harmers do. Not talk about it.
RisunaYakoshi: We keep it hidden
RisunaYakoshi: I slipped up by saying I couldn't go to school.
RisunaYakoshi: But hey, no lies in a relationship, right?
RisunaYakoshi: Oh
RisunaYakoshi: and
RisunaYakoshi: btw
RisunaYakoshi: Andrea?
RavenNightshade3: yes?
RavenNightshade3: i told you i unblockd her
RisunaYakoshi: You deleted all your messages from her. That you got today. Remember, the notification, even if removed, renews if logged on in the same day.
RisunaYakoshi: Yet
RavenNightshade3: i done noting with her since i met you
RisunaYakoshi: There was nothing
RavenNightshade3: she didnt msg me today
RisunaYakoshi: Mmmm, why don't I believe that.
RavenNightshade3: you dont beilive it cuz you delt with to many guys who lied to yoou
RavenNightshade3: you still love me as i still love you
RavenNightshade3: the beganing are soemtimes hard cuz its the learning stage
RisunaYakoshi: No.
RisunaYakoshi: Don't try and use sweet, cute words on me.
RisunaYakoshi: It's not going to work.
RavenNightshade3: no please i am being real
RavenNightshade3: im and trying soetjing i have tried in a very very long time
RisunaYakoshi: Will, you have /NO/ Idea who I am. You see the me I let you see.
RisunaYakoshi: It takes SO much for me to drop someone
RisunaYakoshi: And you've crossed a line that no-one's come back from.
RavenNightshade3: im sorry
RavenNightshade3: you have my twins
RavenNightshade3: i dont wanna walk away i wanna try
RavenNightshade3: and you do to you just scared
RisunaYakoshi: I'm scared of what?
RavenNightshade3: i mean what i say
RavenNightshade3: you are special to me i dont wanna give up
RisunaYakoshi: I am done. /WE/ Are not and never will be a thing again. You've pushed every one of my buttons and that was the last one.
RavenNightshade3: im sorry
RavenNightshade3: can we please talk
RisunaYakoshi: What do you think we're doing?
RavenNightshade3: i was triggered today
RisunaYakoshi: Mmmhm, and I wasn't?
RavenNightshade3: you know how that wroks
RavenNightshade3: i didnt mean it
RavenNightshade3: and i really hurt cuz you given up on me ton someting i cant control and didnt mean to you
RavenNightshade3: i dont like hurting you i like making you laugh
RisunaYakoshi: Funny.
RavenNightshade3: why you think i canw all the time with you
RavenNightshade3: clown*
RisunaYakoshi: There's clowning, but that's drowned out by the pain you have caused.
RisunaYakoshi: Saying I'm never there for you
RisunaYakoshi: Saying I don't love you
RisunaYakoshi: Or you're questioning it
RisunaYakoshi: BULL FUCKING SHIT.
RavenNightshade3: can i please be honst with you
RisunaYakoshi: K.
RavenNightshade3: it was and wasnt me
RavenNightshade3: this one of the resons why im always alone
RavenNightshade3: who can really undertsnad its more then one me and can deal with it
RisunaYakoshi: Will.
RisunaYakoshi: There's treatments out there.
RavenNightshade3: i will go
RisunaYakoshi: I've researched PD, I researched Bipolar. You have Anti-social PD.
RavenNightshade3: whats that
RisunaYakoshi: Personality Disorder. Anti-social means you get triggered easily, angry and lash out. You loose who you are etcetc.
RavenNightshade3: i was never told i had that
RisunaYakoshi: You can't always trust Drs. You need to do research yourself.
RavenNightshade3: idk how
RavenNightshade3: idk whats wrong with me
RavenNightshade3: i lost you you have no idea how much you mean to me
RisunaYakoshi: Yet you do, you're getting that paper, remember
RavenNightshade3: yes im remind my sister
RisunaYakoshi: Will, no offence, but I'm emotionally blocked from you. You can say and beg all you want, I'm numb to it all.
RavenNightshade3: so you dont love me nomroe
RisunaYakoshi: I love you, but I have limits. And you crossed it.
RavenNightshade3: i didnt mean to
RisunaYakoshi: You may have not meant to, but you did.
RavenNightshade3: how can i defend myself rn im trying
RisunaYakoshi: This is why this is pointless.
RavenNightshade3: you know there things we cant control how envy how can i defned myself rn
RisunaYakoshi: My name isn't Envy.
RavenNightshade3: no im t rying
RavenNightshade3: chelcie
RisunaYakoshi: /me takes off her engagment ring, dropping it on the floor. "I'm gone, Will. Live for your kids now."
RavenNightshade3: no
RavenNightshade3: just wait
RavenNightshade3: please
RavenNightshade3: just let me finish please
RisunaYakoshi: I'm waiting
RavenNightshade3: you told me people give up on you cuz they cant handle you
RavenNightshade3: and here i am figting for you
RavenNightshade3: im asking for you to fight for me
RavenNightshade3: we had bad times but we had good times also
RisunaYakoshi: Sorry love, the pain outweights the happiness.
RavenNightshade3: i have mad you smile and i can do it again
RavenNightshade3: pain does heal love
RavenNightshade3: what was it you told me
RavenNightshade3: maybe yu just need a complete stranger to learn you
RisunaYakoshi: Pain this deep never heals.
RavenNightshade3: 1 more chance is all i asking
RisunaYakoshi: No.
RisunaYakoshi: You had your '1more chance'
RisunaYakoshi: Remember?
RisunaYakoshi: I told you when you fucked up before "1 more chance."
RisunaYakoshi: I don't give 2 chances.
RisunaYakoshi: I refuse to drag my heart throught it again
RavenNightshade3: this isnt fair
RavenNightshade3: chelcie
RavenNightshade3: this isnt fair
RavenNightshade3: i didnt mess up my chnace
RisunaYakoshi: How
RisunaYakoshi: How
RisunaYakoshi: How
RisunaYakoshi: HOW
RavenNightshade3: let me explain
RavenNightshade3: i had no control over what i did
RavenNightshade3: you know this
RisunaYakoshi: You had more control lastnight when you had that knife in your hand, threatening me that you'll cut every 10mins.
RavenNightshade3: so how could i mess sometthing from something i cant control
RisunaYakoshi: You
RisunaYakoshi: have
RisunaYakoshi: control
RavenNightshade3: no i dont
RavenNightshade3: that was a plan i thought would help you
RavenNightshade3: i still had to cut
RavenNightshade3: lets not talk bout that please
RisunaYakoshi: HA. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA. HOW THE FUCK DOES SHOWING ME YOU CUTTING OR GOING TO CUT HELPING ME?
RisunaYakoshi: No
RisunaYakoshi: No
RisunaYakoshi: Lets talk about it
RisunaYakoshi: Cause
RisunaYakoshi: That's the worst thing
RisunaYakoshi: ANYTHING
RisunaYakoshi: hANYONE*
RisunaYakoshi: Has ever done
RisunaYakoshi: to me
RisunaYakoshi: I've gone thorugh a lot of shit
RisunaYakoshi: For someone at the age of 19
RisunaYakoshi: THAT
RisunaYakoshi: WE
RisunaYakoshi: WAS
RisunaYakoshi: JUST
RisunaYakoshi: FUCKED
RavenNightshade3: im stupid chelcie
RavenNightshade3: i thought it was gonna put your focus on someting else
RisunaYakoshi: Yea, focus on cutting. Nice.
RavenNightshade3: im just gonna be honest thats all i can do... i was listeing
RavenNightshade3: to them please i am being 100 with you
RavenNightshade3: i been listenig last 3 days
RavenNightshade3: yesterday i really beilive it was gonna work
RavenNightshade3: i really belived that my life was gonna help you focus i really was trying to help
RavenNightshade3: are you still here
RisunaYakoshi: yes.
RavenNightshade3: i know there are people who lie bout condicions but im not one i dont live in this world most times im not really here
RavenNightshade3: you made me wanna be in this world and i forgot how
RisunaYakoshi: Learn to be in this world by yourself. I had to.
RavenNightshade3: not what i meant...
RavenNightshade3: i got into my account can we talk there please
RisunaYakoshi: Fine.
RavenNightshade3: did you unblock
RisunaYakoshi: Doing it now.
RisunaYakoshi: Done.
RavenNightshade3: ok