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- sigh, must be nice to get attention
- must be nice to just "have it" and I clearly f.ucking don't
- looks, charm, charisma, personality, idek
- must be nice being able to talk about stuff
- while I'm stuck being third/fourth/fifth/etc wheel
- must be nice to have people vying for your attention
- while I get f.ucking ignored
- must be nice, I wouldn't know the f.ucking feeling
- must be nice when it seems like everyone is interested in flirting/talking dirty fetish-wise and I'm f.ucking left alone
- must be nice having a job
- must be nice having a future
- must be nice being good at stuff that other people like so they're drawn to you
- must be nice knowing you're eventually going to move out and have your own place and be able to visit others or invite people to your place
- must be f.ucking nice
- kill me.
- why do I even bother
- everyone can do it just fine
- but if I do it
- nope
- rejected or eventually ignored
- usually for someone else
- all the f.ucking time.
- maybe I'll just mute every channel and just only join vc
- I'm in the vc right now and I'm just a f.ucking fourth wheel
- and one of the people isn't even in the call
- they're just talking in vc chat
- like
- kill me.
- sigh
- I hate being an attention whore
- but maybe I wouldn't be this way if I ever got any f.ucking attention ever in basically my entire life
- 27
- 27 f.ucking years old
- and I can't do shit with my life
- 27.
- we have 18-20 year olds who, while their life isn't perfect, they have a job, they have a future, they have a plan
- I have f.ucking nothing at 27
- sorry to spam your discord of all places
- usually I vent to myself but sometimes I vent to another person because I just want someone to hear me out
- it's hard
- seriously.
- the server is active, we have these nice long VCs
- and yet, I'm still thinking about leaving the server
- because
- I just hate myself
- I send videos in the fart channel, every single one of them gets f.ucking ignored
- literally anyone else does it, comments galore
- or even just 1-2 comments
- must be nice
- must
- be
- f.ucking
- nice
- wouldn't know the feeling
- and at this rate
- I probably never will
- honestly, I just wish I never had this/these fetish/es
- it would make my life a lot easier
- like I'd still have problems but
- it wouldn't be as bad
- and I don't think I would hate myself as much
- I wish I could say this on the server but
- it'd probably just be seen as me bitching too much or
- "your fault for not being appealing enough" or some shit
- "be yourself" is legitimately the worst f.ucking advice I have ever heard
- yeah
- just
- still being ignored in the convo with only 3 other people in it
- kill me.
- I hate bitching all the time
- but I can't help it
- If I keep this shit to myself I'll actually go insane
- you can just tell when people just aren't interested in you
- and
- it just sucks
- because it feels like that's how it is with everyone
- someone talks about hot a fart is or they want to sniff it
- boom, the other person seems into it, DMs, etc.
- I do the same thing
- no response
- like
- f.ucking hell
- am I just that f.ucking terrible or boring of a person
- maybe I am
- after all, there are so many things I've never done compared to everyone else
- I didn't play that many games or watch much anime/TV/movies
- so it's so much harder for me to join conversations and connect with others
- and I'm 27 so I'm just that much older
- and a lot of people dislike or are just not comfortable with the age gap
- I mean, I can't get mad at them for that, it's understandable
- it just sucks
- lmao
- and like
- it feels like the fetish talk starts/continues as soon as I leave
- SIGH
- I want to be someone else
- I hate life.
- honestly, I hate being and sounding this desperate
- I know how f.ucking pathetic it is
- but I can't help it
- 17 f.ucking years
- the only experience I had was 17 years ago and it wasn't even in my face (and obviously not fetish related because I was only 10 at the time it happened)
- most people in that server are barely 18 or 19
- that's basically their entire f.ucking life
- that I've been waiting
- with nothing
- while everyone else has had some kind of nice experience with someone else or
- OR SOMETHING
- and then of course the usual
- "oh don't worry, you'll find someone"
- "girls would love to be with you"
- yeah that makes sense
- that's exactly why they are with LITERALLY EVERYONE ELSE
- I am pretty sure I was like 1 of the like 5 single guys in high school
- actually f.ucking insane
- and my high school had around 3,000 people
- I feel like my lack of experience and constant f.ucking rejection while everyone and their god damn grandmother was scoring
- just makes me that much more envious
- and given my current situation
- there is NOTHING I can do about
- literally nothing
- I can't stand it
- I'm f.ucking trapped
- and it seems like the only way out is either running away because who the f.uck cares and why not
- or suicide
- sigh
- I'm sorry
- I'll eventually delete all of this if I remember
- I just
- sigh
- sigh
- is all I can say
- same with
- must be nice, wouldn't know the feeling
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