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RO: heyy missed you r;)
HH: Cirrin!
HH: I missed you too! What's up?
RO: well CIRRIN RUNFAR was just sitting here and
RO: wait youre not in any immediate danger CIRRIN RUNFAR is interrupting you from?
HH: Not at the moment! Just hanging out. Chilling even!
RO: same here
RO: a bit dull
RO: but it means CIRRIN RUNFAR gets to talk to you!
HH: Yeah! And I get to talk to you, hehe!
RO: thinking back
RO: you know CIRRIN RUNFAR was flushed for you way way back
HH: You..
HH: You were!?
HH: That... Uh, wow.
HH: I had no idea!
RO: ah well you know...
RO: guess CIRRIN RUNFAR was younger and sillier then
HH: I ah...
HH: I was flushed for you too.
HH: Back then, I mean...
HH: Probably since we first met even, as cliche as that sounds...
HH: =:#[
RO: wo wow as long ago as that? r:#)
HH: Heheh, well... Uh, yeah.
RO: that was a strange day for CIRRIN RUNFAR
RO: like CIRRIN RUNFAR failed badly at being a pirate but then you came into CIRRIN RUNFARs life and pulled CIRRIN RUNFAR out
HH: Heheh, it was really nothing.
HH: I mean, I couldn't just let you drown! That'd be hella bogus!
HH: Bad, it would be bad, I mean.
RO: r:#)
HH: Heheh...
RO: well to honest CIRRIN RUNFAR always had mixed feelings about you having to bail CIRRIN RUNFAR out whenever
RO: stuff happens
HH: Yes, that is understandable I suppose...
HH: I just...
HH: Get so worried...
HH: You know...
HH: =:#[
RO: yes
RO: CIRRIN RUNFAR accepts that now
RO: just wanted to be the one to swoop in and rescue you for once and carry you off your feet and
RO: r:#|
HH: And...
HH: Oh! Oh!
RO: did CIRRIN RUNFAR just write that?
HH: I... Ah... That sounds...
HH: Absolutely delerious sicknasty awesome to say the least.
HH: Nice, nice I mean. It sounds nice.
RO: maybe sometime soon then r;)
HH: Heeeeeell yeah, broski!
HH: I mean, yes, that would be nice. To do. Some time. In the future. Yes.
RO: keeping CIRRIN RUNFARs lips sealed r:|
HH: I can't really... I get flustered and it just sorta... Happens... The surf lingo... I mean......
RO: not saying anything r:|
HH: =:#[
HH: So... What happened to you? In the sweep after... Well you know.
RO: that well
RO: CIRRIN RUNFAR eventually found the abandoned hive you saw and met flynnt and siskus
RO: it was the bit between that that was not so great
HH: "Eventually"?
HH: Elaborate.
RO: wandering about hiveless
RO: sleeping without sopor
RO: doing dangerous and demeaning jobs just for the next meal
HH: I...
HH: Shit.
HH: Seriously?
RO: well yeah
HH: Shit I'm an idiot.
HH: I just...
HH: Wow.
RO: but
RO: CIRRIN RUNFAR could have come back anytime
HH: But even if you had... I wouldn't have remembered you, I didn't remember anything, all because I was wallowing in self-hate. I should have at least LOOKED for you or SOMETHING...
HH: Then maybe things would have gone back to normal...
RO: if CIRRIN RUNFAR had come back early enough you wouldnt have done all that!
RO: but
RO: CIRRIN RUNFAR did actually hate you back then
HH: Yeah...
HH: Well I deserved it.
HH: Hell, I still deserve it.
RO: no no
HH: Yes yes.
RO: well if you really had killed kateia CIRRIN RUNFAR couldnt have stood to be around and see you every day
HH: True.
RO: itd just be a reminder that things could go back the way they were
HH: Yes well...
HH: I didn't.
HH: ...
HH: Scratch that, I couldn't.
RO: couldnt?
HH: Yes, couldn't.
RO: CIRRIN RUNFARs always wanted to ask but
RO: how come?
HH: Well, er...
RO: its not like CIRRIN RUNFARs complaining about that though
HH: A variety of reasons!
HH: First of all, she was my friend, I couldn't kill a friend, no matter what was going through my head at the time!
HH: And she was your moirail, so that'd be like killing half of your soul or some sappy shit like that.
HH: And... Uh...
HH: Well I uh...
RO: what is it?
HH: I've never...
HH: Actually, uh..
HH: Killed...
HH: A troll...
RO: but
RO: CIRRIN RUNFAR saw
RO: well not exactly
RO: but youve went off to cull plenty of times!
HH: Yeah, well...
HH: I... I could get to the point where I could have killed plenty of times...
HH: But...
HH: I just...
HH: The prospect of taking the life of another troll is terrifying to me.
RO: it it is?
HH: It's like... That's it. You kill someone, and that's it, there's nothing else, you've taken literally everything they have.
HH: And if they had friends, or quadrants...
HH: It's...
RO: yeah
HH: Terrifying...
RO: well
RO: do you want know something?
HH: ?
RO: all those times when CIRRIN RUNFAR was waiting for you to get back from what CIRRIN RUNFAR thought at the time was culling
RO: CIRRIN RUNFAR would be wondering if CIRRIN RUNFAR could actually go with killing
HH: You were?
RO: yeah
RO: dont think CIRRIN RUNFAR even got into a situation to make a decision like that
RO: too afraid to find out
RO: like if it turned out CIRRIN RUNFAR couldnt then CIRRIN RUNFAR would never be able to join you in those highblood activities
HH: I guess it was sort of a good thing I didn't let you come then...
HH: It was sort of... Really hard to keep other highbloods from finding out I had that problem.
HH: Lots of strings to pull and whatnot.
RO: well yeah guess it was hard enough to explain why you were keeping around CIRRIN RUNFAR in the first place
HH: Worth it.
RO: r:#)
HH: More so for the second thing. =;]
RO: it was hard for CIRRIN RUNFAR to understand back then why CIRRIN RUNFAR couldnt join you in all those things though
HH: Well, I suppose you know now, huh?
RO: yeah its a lot easier when all thats gone anyway
HH: Yeah, all gone...
HH: Not like I'll ever have to face that problem again, nope.
HH: Such a notion is silly.
RO: r:|
HH: Extremely silly.
RO: still not saying anything
HH: That's a great policy, you should keep doing that.
HH: Anyway, I should get going. Questing to do and all that.
HH: I'm... I'm really really glad I got to talk to you, Rusty.
RO: yeah same here Indy
HH: <3!
RO: <4
HH: ...
HH: <5!!
RO: later <6!
HH: Yeah, bye! <7!!!
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