Hey guys,
This may come as a shock to many of you, but I have decided to stop streaming. I've been emotional and nervous lately, trying to decide this, but I've made up my mind.

I've streamed for pretty much every day for over a year now. It's like a second job at this point, and I'm quite sure more time and effort go into my streaming than my actual job. Which has been rewarding and fun, don't get me wrong. It's just that I'm tired. I get back from work, I cook and eat, in time to start streaming, until I go to bed. Lately I just wanted to do other stuff with my time, and decide what I feel like when I get home.

I had most fun last year playing Ark with a bunch of you, aswell as spending time playing my tabletop games. I want to do things like that, you know? (and maybe go out more >_O)

You all know I'm a quiet person, you see this when I play with you off-stream, I really don't talk as much. That would be my relaxed state of mind xD. Streaming makes me put more effort trying to be social (and I still suck at it!) all evening, and that too makes me so tired.

Now don't get me wrong, it's not all bad, not at all. I've had a lot of fun with you guys, and I never expected to get so many people actively chatting because of my streaming. That is something I still don't understand after a year, but I'm very thankful for that. I've made some amazing friends :heart:
When I've asked myself lately why I continue streaming, the only reason I can think of is that I want to keep this community together, because I really care about you all. My plan is to keep this discord as a place for us, a group of friends, to hang out. I want to play games together, not just Dota, but I've been thinking of other games like 4vs4 Left4Dead and setting up a private server for Conan Exiles, which would be so fun together. I also really want to keep having weekly movie nights, I love those so much.

You guys should definetly watch Loke, Eui and Joost streams. I play with loke often, so you can still catch me on his stream and i'll hang out in chat too.

Thank you all for the support and love you've shown me. I will never forget, and I hope to keep you, right here (in the basement), as my friends.

Please share your reactions with me. I'll be online on steam all day and on discord, if you want to talk.

Much love :heart: