Scoops

This pastebin serves as a way for me to let people know what's been going on with me and where I've been. Anyone reading this is under no obligation to make any reference to this pastebin, nor do they need to express any condolences. I also want to stress that I'm not doing this for any extra attention or money. My intentions are not to make things uncomfortable or awkward, but to let the friends and acquaintances I've made through streaming know what's going on in my life. Making this pastebin helps me answer the question a lot of people might have: where I've been. This way, I don't have to repeat myself or talk about something I'm not in the mood to talk about. I hope that makes sense.

So some of you have heard me talking about coming back to speedrunning for the past few months as well as me saying I couldn't because I've been busy. I usually tried to just leave it at that. What has been going on is that for the past 5 months my mom has been dealing her cancer. She's had stage 4 breast cancer since 2009, was doing well until 2014 when she had to go back on more invasive treatments, and was doing well enough before 5 months ago. During these 5 months, more tumors were found in various places and a bunch of other complications came up. She's been in and out of the hospital/ER for longish periods. Despite all of this, the doctors keep coming up with a plan.

Part of me has wanted to mention this to various friends, but I'm a pretty private person and really don't like to burden others with my problems. Part of me is still not even sure why I'm writing this, but I think it's pry for the best.

I've been planning on coming back to 117% since before the new year. My motivation through all of this was here one day, gone the next, but I've kept my motivation since the 1545 was announced. I wasn't sure if I'd be able to join until more recently. I'll be doing Spyro 3 and Crash 3 for Gray Team. SGDQ was something I was considering as well, but I figured that's pry not the best idea right now.

To wrap it all up, I kept wondering why I was writing this. Like I said, I'm a private person, but I think being open with something like this could be a good thing. But I don't think I'll go through with this.