Update 7/9/17

This is a follow-up pastebin from this one: https://pastebin.com/2SjEuwRS

The last several days have been frustrating to say the least. I'm STILL having my internet disconnect somewhat frequently despite multiple modem replacements and tech visits from my ISP. I'm pretty sure the reason for it has been found. Long story short, the underground cable that sends the signal to the house from the pole is very weak (probably damaged). The signal from the poles is good, but when it gets to the house it sucks. That particular wire needs to be replaced and it will be a fairly labor intensive job. The earliest a tech can come and fix this is a few days from now. Until it gets replaced, I'll have occasional drops. This SHOULD fix the issue, but who knows. It feels like the universe has been against me for several weeks now.

I don't feel comfortable streaming under these conditions because even though the connection is better, it still is prone to dropping. You guys shouldn't have to put up with my stream randomly going offline for indefinite amounts of time in random batches. The earliest I can possibly be back is either July 11th or 12th (and still no guarantee the connection will 100% work again either).

I've been very depressed recently because of all of this bullshit. Loading a simple web page becomes impossible at random parts of the day. I even had a hard time watching any of SGDQ, let alone BB's crit run (I heard he did a great job, but I'll need to catch more of it on Youtube when I can). This was going to be the month I go ham on streaming because I was so motivated, but now I feel pretty defeated. I never realized how much I enjoyed streaming until it was taken away from me for this long.

This marks the 2nd SGDQ in a row where things just aren't going my way. Last year around this time I got locked out of my twitch account due to really stupid reasons. It took several weeks to resolve this and I even left twitch for several months due to being massively depressed. I promise that won't be the case once I am in control again. Something about this time of year seems to haunt me, I don't know what to say.

The only thing I can say is to please be patient. I'm so upset that this hurtle is in my path, but all I can do is try to jump over it. Pray for me, I hope to see you all again soon. (If anyone reading this was at SGDQ I hope you had an amazing time <3)

Mist.