2018-10-24_transcript

[Record_20181024173101.m4a]

IRIS
Are you still there?

AUTUMN
(inaudible)

IRIS
What was it that you said that like, um, you said it was like a mistake?

AUTUMN
(inaudible)

IRIS
In what way do you think it was a mistake?

AUTUMN
That I had sex with you while you were on drugs, and that had been okay in the past, but it wasn't okay then?

IRIS
Sorry, what did you say?

AUTUMN
That I had sex with you while you were on drugs, and that would have been okay in the past, but it wasn't okay then.

IRIS
Oh. Well, you didn't, like, so what happened in your mind when I said, like, I have completely one hundred percent ended my relationship with you, and then you specifically asked about sex, and I said, like, in terms of, like, physical contact and like, sex and snuggling, that I wasn't sure, like, what I was okay with yet. You just assumed that I would be okay with that?

AUTUMN
I don't remember.

IRIS
You don't remember. You don't remember me revoking consent?

AUTUMN
(inaudible)

AUTUMN
I know I did a bad thing.

IRIS
And what was that bad thing?

AUTUMN
I didn't have consent from you before I had sex with you.

IRIS
Yeah. That's a really bad thing.

AUTUMN
I know. I know it was.

AUTUMN
I understand if you can never forgive me for it, but, just want you to know that, I, I wish I, didn't I guess. I'll be more careful in the future for, other people.

IRIS
Yeah, I should hope so, I hope you'll be a lot more careful

AUTUMN
Yeah I know.

AUTUMN
I know.

IRIS
Good.

IRIS (almost two minutes later)
Autumn?

AUTUMN
Yeah?

IRIS
You're still there?

AUTUMN
Yes. Just thinking.

IRIS (one minute later)
So you wanted to talk about why I told people that you raped me. Well, do you understand why now?

AUTUMN
Yeah.

IRIS
Why is it? Can you speak up, I can barely hear you.

AUTUMN
Cuz I raped you.

IRIS
I'm sorry, what? Speak up.

AUTUMN
Are you talking with someone on that?

IRIS
No.

AUTUMN
I don't trust you. I'm gonna in a few minutes, you don't have to talk to me anymore.

IRIS
Okay. That's kinda what I wanted the entire time, for you to just go away and not talk to me.

AUTUMN
What?

IRIS
I said, that's kinda what I wanted the entire time, for you to just go away and not talk to me.

AUTUMN
(inaudible)

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[Record_20181024174214.m4a]

AUTUMN
(inaudible)

IRIS
What?

AUTUMN
(inaudible)

IRIS
What did you say before?

AUTUMN
That, I understand why you said that.

IRIS
Why I said what?

AUTUMN
I don't feel comfortable saying this.

IRIS
Are you just gonna stay outside my door forever, or are you gonna like actually talk?

AUTUMN
I'd rather talk to you about this face to face, but, you don't want to do that so I'm just gonna (inaudible)

IRIS
Maybe we can do that. I don't know. I'll have to talk to Tara and Lexi about it. Leota, maybe. Kinda would like a mediator.

IRIS
But, maybe we can just talk just the two of us. I'll have to talk about it, with them.

AUTUMN
(inaudible) tried to hurt you. That was very bad of me.

IRIS
Yes, it was.

AUTUMN
(inaudible)

IRIS
Also pretty bad that you raped me. Wouldn't you say?

AUTUMN
Yes.

AUTUMN
Yes I would

IRIS
What?

AUTUMN
Yes I would

IRIS
Like, I, I can't hear you. What are you saying?

AUTUMN
I really don't trust you, like, talking about this behind a door.

IRIS
Well then maybe you should just go away.

AUTUMN
I'm going to if you just stop talking but whatever

AUTUMN
Know that I'd never intend to physically harm you.

IRIS
What? I had earmuffs on.

AUTUMN
I'd never intend to physically harm you. I never have.

AUTUMN
(inaudible)