The End

Laura - Last Sunday at 07:43
@everyone

Hello, I hope you’re having a wonderful day regardless of time zones. I’m here to post up a quite long but necessary message, it’s very hard for me to write about or explain, since what I will be talking about is very close to my heart, soul, and mind. Before I jump into anything, all of the upper staff members know what I’m about to say in this following message, and all have decided to back me 100% on this massive decision. I will forever be happy, and full of joy with the amount of support I’ve gotten from them in the past few days, when telling them my thoughts and opinions on life/the-server.

So, there’s no easy way to say this, but I guess I will have to start saying it, since it’s hard to even admit this myself, since it’s taken me a long time to come to terms with this. This has been on my mind for days on end, non-stop 24/7, to the point of when anxiety will take control and I decided to ignore the truth or pretend that I’m still interested.
The truth is, I no longer have the same flame I once had for this server, and my life has changed a lot outside of the online world, I’m happier and a lot more in connect with who I am and what I want to do in life. The sad truth of this is, sometimes we have to move on, even if it’s one of the hardest decision ever, I know it might sound crazy, that I’m talking of a MC server in such a way. But you got to remember my history, from running GodsPvP to FullMetal and other servers, I’ve been in this server game for over 6-7 years now (No joke).

I knew at some point, I would eventually lose touch with the server, and or lose interest, well this day has come. I love this server, that’s the truth (Both FullMetal and GodsPvP) I never didn’t, apart from the drama or anxiety that they caused me over the years. As some of you saw, I would keep trying again and again to push out posts about what I’m doing, but that was me trying to force myself or prove to myself that I still had interest. Well in the end, it showed me what I really want, and what I have now. I don’t want to lose the friends I have made, or tarnish the memories we’ve created together across both servers.(edited)
On the 24th May 2018, we will be closing our doors, and will be shutting down the server. I know this is hard for some of you to swallow, but I am no longer interested in Minecraft and in part the server. In the ending days (The past months) I only wanted to keep the server alive for our community (The close net discord community) and the truth is, the server never kept us together it was our friendship. I would have joined the Discord server a lot more when I saw others on, but I was constantly in fear of being asked about my thoughts on the server, or what I was doing.
I want to start a new chapter in life, and in online-life. Finally remove this barrier of server-owner staff relationship and become friends, instead of a business relationship. I’ve lost so many friends over the years from running these servers, and I don’t want to lose anymore. Since I’ve finally found peace, and happiness with the friends I’ve made on here, you all mean a lot to me, you always will.(edited)
I will never forget the times we spent together, the laughs’ the ludo games, egg wars, events, idea building, anime watching together, being silly, giving advice to each other, and of course being idiots and being dicks to each other! I will never forget the connections I’ve made, I will cherish these memories forever, and I’m sure there will be more memories for us to forge together!

I’ve spoken with Dan (KingKyanite) and Chris (ModuHek) about doing something special for them. I know it doesn’t mean a lot since the server is shutting down, but we all wanted to make 1 final mark, one final history statement before the server shuts down for good. This was give Dan (KingKyanite) Admin, and Chris (ModuHek) Mod+, since in the final days they deserve it more than anyone ever did in the end. These are symbolic promotions that they both knew about. The final mark of the upper staff team, the true upper staff team.(edited)
Now I would like to dedicate a few messages to some of you who have impacted the server or my life, in a positive way. If you were left out, I’m sorry, but these are the people who have been here from day one, holding me up, making jokes, and of course having laughs and meme’s.

@Rox
Ryan (AlmightyDeku) [Owner]: Where do I start, Ryan you’re a true friend, which always had my back, online and in real life. I still think of how crazy it is, that in the past we use to be at each other’s throats but over time we went from being online-friends to becoming IRL friends. I remember the days where you would help calm me down on Skype to stop my depression and anxiety from completely consuming me, you always had my hand pulling me out of that black hole that was my mind. You never let me fall, you never faulted, and I’m so happy to call you a true friend. I will see you again IRL on June the 4th.(edited)
@Jayleaf
Jesse (Jayleaf) [Admin]: For you Jesse, I’m at a loss for words, too how much you mean to me, you’re family to me. We’ve known each other IRL now for over 11 years+. You are the one regret I have, the one regret I have about leaving Australia. It was leaving you behind, at the time I couldn’t even bring myself to tell you in person I was moving, because I was so scared of losing my best-friend, no my brother. But I’m so happy we never lost touch and still talk, and still remain to be close. Words can’t even begin to described, how much I applicate you and the support you’ve provided me, through outs my entire life. I still remember all of the times we spent with each other, every Friday-Saturday of every week, and I’m sure this story doesn’t end here. There’s more memories for us to create.(edited)
@Murphy
Cedric (Metrical) [Admin]: The goofball, the loveable Met. We’ve had so much fun together, playing games battling each other in Ludo/Chess whatever the game, but one thing I can never forget is the random stupidness we shared. We understood each other’s humour perfectly (Random humour) to the point of where we would come up with elaborate ways to play jokes on everyone, mostly Dan (KingKyanite). Currently we share a close bond, giving each other life advice, and speaking about real-world issues. You really are the funniest person I’ve ever met, get it “met”. But no, seriously thank you for being a friend, and helping keep this community alive.(edited)
@KingKyanite
Dan (KingKyanite) [Admin]: Dan, Dan, Dan, Dan. Our relationship is a very funny yet an odd one, we make jokes, and we play games together, watch anime together, and talk about show theories together. Just about anything people would consider nerdy! There were times we would joke with each other, or play around with each other to the point we would say we had a mutual hate-hate relationship, when we both know we never really did. Out of everyone in this community I think I’ve played the most games with you, which shocks me quite a bit, because it was a very small amount. In time I’m sure we will expand into more games and have more fun!(edited)
@ModuHek
Chris (ModuHek) [Mod+]: This is about to get quite deep, if it hasn’t already. Chris, we met each other within this community, but when we met we knew nothing about each other. We knew nothing to the point of just staying neutral with each other. But the truth was a lot crazier than we ever thought, that one night we spoke with each other, lit a burning flame within both of us, when we finally met each other “for real” for the first time. You’re strong, you single handily kept my passion alive for this server the past few months, whenever it burnt out you would show up to try and reignite it. I thank you for being that one person, who would never, ever give up. I’m happy to finally call you a Mod+, the final Mod+.(edited)
@IconicLlama
Nate (Frisky) [Retired Admin]: Hello old friend, we may have grown distant, but I’ve never forgotten about you. The builder, the trend setter, and the most real person I met. I remember the times you would joke, but most of the time you were both straight up and serious, or you would try and hint at the things I or the team were slipping up on. We might of never fully seen eye-to-eye but one thing I know, I always appreciated your help, every step of the way from GodsPvP to FullMetal. Thank you for being there, no matter what the drama entailed.(edited)
@Monkey
Dan (Jungle_Warrior) [Retired Mod+]: The youngest person to ever obtain Mod+, also the one person I always believed in. You were a funny guy, which always for some reason took every joke said on the nose, you never really held any of it to heart. That’s why you’re one of the calmest people I know. There were points where you would worry that you did something wrong, but you wouldn’t stop until you made sure what you did was right. You stuck by the book, and stuck by the team. Thank you for being there, and supporting us, even though you might of lived in a Jungle!(edited)
@Kevin
Kevin (Tornadoman212) [Mod+]: I know your time on FullMetal was short, but I will never forget the jokes you made on GodsPvP. You were a loyal member on the community and always strived to be the richest and wealthiest in items. This will forever be solidified in our brains that nice guys don’t always finish last. Thank you for being there, and backing us up on the hard choices we had to make overtime.(edited)
@Chrilip (CM)
Chris (CM_Thepanda) [Mod]: Thank you for having my back on all updates, helping with the heavy load I always had to bare. You probably don’t know how much it helped me out on a physical and mental level, thank you for all of those creative ideas and builds you implemented upon the server. Thank you for being there, when help was needed most!(edited)
@Jack
Jack (Cyclogy) [Mod]: I know we didn’t ever really get to know each other that well, but from what we knew of each other, I’m happy for you. I’m happy for the steps you’ve taken in life, and thank you for always trying your best to be here helping, especially back in the early days. I will never forget the impact you had on the staff team (As the first staff member of the month), silent but violent as some might say ;P. Thank you Jack, and I hope we can build a stronger bond!(edited)
@Kicker @Aaron (Kicker)
Aaron (Kicker) [Mod]: We never got to know each other, but you proved a lot of us wrong, over time. From the beginning days of the parkour issues, to the days of being staff. Thank you for taking up the mantel when we needed help. Thank you for being on our side, even though the foundation it was built on was faulty.(edited)
@Cameron
Cameron (Camwill) [Player]: Cam, our relationship is interesting it went from friendly-drama-hate-dislike-friendly to everything above the sun. I think you’re a really nice person, deep down, even though you like to be the “Lad” of the group. I’m happy to say that I respect you and like being around you, since you always bring jokes to the table, or turn depressing things into a laugh, to keep our world spinning even though there might have been drama.(edited)
@Lumi_Pvp
Lumi (AssassinDoesYT) [Player]: Here we are, the final person of this list. Now you might be wondering why I put you on here. The truth is you meant a lot to this server, you were one of, if not still one of the best staff members to ever come around, even though you’re no longer staff. The impact you made on the server was very memey and very glitchy. You helped us put Band-Aids over issues that were hard to resolve. You will forever be known as HackermanLumi, thank you for being there even now to the very end!(edited)
In a few days, we will be converting this Discord into more of a friends private Discord for a lot of us who still talk. A lot of us have spoken about this and want to keep our friendship alive, since we still from time-to-time had active talks on here. Our friendship by no means will die with end of the server, since we all have kind of already moved on and talk about other things.
This Discord will be permanently renamed to “The After Party”, for all of us, since in truth this will be the endless after party where we leave the server behind and become more of a friend group! Along with this, we’ve paid for a new logo to replace the current one on this Discord, that has references to both GodsPvP and FullMetal fused together in a non-minecraft way! (You will noticed the following in the logo: 1. a shield with a G, 2. Alchemical circle, 3. Rex from the GodsPvP spawn, 4. A homunculus symbol on Rex’s neck)
Now it’s time for us to look into the sunrise, as we close this chapter, and begin a new journey. Thank you all for everything, thank you for showing me that friends can be made no matter how far away they live apart. Now and for always, your friend – Laura.