Alright like I said earlier, I'm living proof that continuing to try even if things are bleak will lead to happiness in the end. I said earlier I dropped out of college after 1 year. I had the choice to go to Arizona State University, or stay local and go to community college, so I stayed local because I had just graduated and didn't want to leave my friends and life behind. During that year I was getting completely and utterly overwhelmed to the point where I felt useless and could do nothing. So I was forced to drop out because my grades were all F's, not because I was stupid. I just couldn't keep up. It was also the year after I graduated high school, and I slowly started to realize that the people I thought were my friends were very unhealthy for me and made me uncomfortable being around, so I stopped hanging out with them partially into my 1st year of college. So essentially I made the completely wrong decision, and now I'm living with that decision for the rest of my life. After I dropped out, I had absolutely nothing to live for. Everything I worked for came crumbling down and I thought there was no hope for me. I became really suicidal, and thankfully didn't attempt anything, though I had many thoughts of just jamming a kitchen knife into my eye randomly and ending it all there. Then I found a light at the end of the tunnel, which for me was streaming. I had only been streaming for a few months, but I got that small audience I mentioned way earlier, which lead to where I am now in the end. If it wasn't for that, I might not even be here today with you, trying to help and improve your life in some way, even if what we're saying isn't reaching you. I'm literally living proof that you should never give up and try everything you can to improve and be the best version of yourself, because even if now I'm not a happy person, I'm at least not back at where I was before where I didn't want to be on this earth. I'm not saying continue to do what you're doing. I'm saying find what makes you happy, even if it takes you a little bit to find, which is totally fine, and pursue it. Things aren't always clear as day. They rarely are. You just need to make the effort to go out and change things, and then things can and will become better over time.