Never tell your password to anyone.
AceLa13: Why in hells name would you readd me you horrible fucking troll?
shellgames: mostly to apologize lmao
AceLa13: It was bad enough I was zoned at the same time others were zoned, all the while the last, and literally most perfect female to enter my fucking life ever
AceLa13: is a foregone conclusion and I'm just a asperg assbag
AceLa13: ..... no apology in the world can turn into a 2nd Bradie. Can it.
shellgames: Wait what
AceLa13: The only way that would have meaning is to literally come up with a second doe eyed, thin figured, soft voiced, cute as a button individual.
shellgames: what are you talking about, a second bradie
AceLa13: ... you are not this fucking oblivious.
shellgames: I knew you liked her
AceLa13: You knew I liked her like that when youi shared all those messages just to troll me.
shellgames: but i figured you stopped by now
AceLa13: .... I have only individuals who would be such a significantly lower standard
AceLa13: that I couldn't stop
shellgames: I trolled you because you can be a terrible human bein tbh
AceLa13: the only way for me to stop liking someone *like that*
AceLa13: is an equal or better individual
AceLa13: oops
AceLa13: I'm only a terrible human being because I have none of my immediate maslovian needs met
AceLa13: while some random dude is fucking the qt
AceLa13: isn't he?
AceLa13: he can be the good person can't he?
AceLa13: He has *what I need* to act like that
AceLa13: instead of fucking DRUGS nad some RANDOM or nobody at all
shellgames: self restraint most likelyt
AceLa13: to fucking PRETEND to be PLEASURE CHEMISTRY IN MY GODDAMN BRAIN
AceLa13: self restraint?
AceLa13: Do you know how much of that I exercise on a goddamn daily basis?
shellgames: not enough apparently
AceLa13: Exactly. You don't. Nor do you have to fake caring. Fake liking. Fake nice. You don't have to be punished for being a "rotten human being"inside because you just don't feel the societally obligated "nice" things./
shellgames: but you and bradie still talk right?
AceLa13: I will never feel those things
AceLa13: I will never be willingly beta male BLUE PILL
AceLa13: EV ER
AceLa13: FAT WILL NEVER BE PRETTY
AceLa13: HAIRY WILL NEVER BE PRETTY
AceLa13: THIRTY WILL NEVER BE THE NEW TWENTY
AceLa13: And a just friend will always be a nail in my coffin to hurt me
AceLa13: and I will always deserve it because I can not feel like YOU fucking feel
AceLa13: when YOU probably don't even feel that way
AceLa13: yhou probably lie and fake enjoyment of celibacy by trolling people
AceLa13: or staying drunk all the time or taking psych drugs to be fake fucking happy and fake fucking self restrained
AceLa13: what have OTHERS done to DESERVE that restraint?
shellgames: I dont really drink much
AceLa13: they don't restrain either. they just lie and keep it SECRET
AceLa13: AND THEN WHAT THEY THINK BEHIND YOUR BACK ISN'T "NICE" ANYWAY
shellgames: I told you why I trolled you
shellgames: and you kinda just wentr off
AceLa13: IT'S JUST FAKE NICE TO EMPATHY AND SHIT.
shellgames: like you're doing right now
AceLa13: Because you know I can not FUCKING HELP IT
shellgames: I mean, you can say that
shellgames: because you're so real and edgey
AceLa13: YOU KNOW THE SO CALLED ROTTENNESS IS NOT MY FUCKING FAULT
shellgames: when in reality you're just a sad pathetic obsessed asshole
shellgames: that clearly hasnt learned anything
AceLa13: because nobody cute fucks spergs
AceLa13: and there are no cute sperg women
AceLa13: none./
AceLa13: zero
AceLa13: literally NOINE
shellgames: lower your standards or shut the fuck up
AceLa13: they cap out at 4/.10
AceLa13: I CANT
AceLa13: AND YOU CAN'T GET ME RICH
shellgames: sounds like a you problem
shellgames: then
AceLa13: AND RITALIN DOESNT MAKE YOU COMPUITER SCIENCE SMART
AceLa13: ITS A ME PROIBLEM BECAUSE I CAN NOT MAKE MYSELF FUCKING GODDAMN SEXUY
AceLa13: MANLY
AceLa13: P[OWERFUL
AceLa13: POTENT
AceLa13: THEY DONT FUCK GODDAMN JUST NICE
AceLa13: THEY DONT DATE GODDAMN JUST NICE
AceLa13: ONLY FUCKING HIDEOUS FUCKS NICE
AceLa13: PUSHOVERS
AceLa13: WELCOME \MATS
AceLa13: FUCKING SYCOPHANTIC BETA BUX GODDAMN MOTHERFUCKERS
AceLa13: THE ONLY THINGS WORTH TRULY FEELING THAT WAY FOR IN THE WORLD ARE OUT OF MY LEAGUE
AceLa13: WHY WOULD I BE ANYTHING BUT ROTTEN?
AceLa13: WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?
AceLa13: WHY WOULD I TAKE PILLS TO FEEL THE FAKE HAPPY CHEMICALS YOU LET THE FUCKING FOOTBALL PLAYTING JOCKS AND BIBLE BUMPING NIMWITS FEEL ON THEIR OWN?
AceLa13: WHY?
AceLa13: WHY SHOULDN'T I BE ENRAGED
AceLa13: YOUR RESTRAINT?
AceLa13: YOUR PROFESSIONAL FUCKING HELP?
AceLa13: YOUR GODDAMN DRUGS?
AceLa13: THEY DON'T MAKE ME ANY BETTER SEXIER OR IMPROIVE ANYTHING
AceLa13: THEIR WHOLE PURPOSE IS TO MAKE A LOW STANDARD FAKE FUCKING EQUAL TGO THE NON LOW STANDARD
AceLa13: THIN.
AceLa13: CUTE
AceLa13: WHITE.
AceLa13: SPEAKS MY GODDAMN LANGUAGE
AceLa13: NATIVELY
AceLa13: THE END.
AceLa13: NO KIDS
AceLa13: NO TATS
AceLa13: NOT FAT
AceLa13: NOT HJAIRY
AceLa13: AND DOESN'T FUCKING SMELL BAD OR WEIGH ANYWHERE CLOSE TO WHAT I DO
AceLa13: why that is such a fucking difficult thing to attain and makes me a rotten person is beyond me.
shellgames: Do you expect sympathy from people?
shellgames: from anyone at all?
AceLa13: Yes. And it's the only way I can return it.
AceLa13: Oops.
AceLa13: What drug would you have me take hmm?
AceLa13: Why do you think people should rot if they aren't eternally nice for nothing in return?
AceLa13: You are not this nice
AceLa13: bnradie is not that nice
AceLa13: brittney is not that nice
AceLa13: NOBODY IS THAT FUCKING SELFLESS. NOBODY
AceLa13: They just had the genetic gifts of good genes.
AceLa13: Or being born to money.
AceLa13: You wouldn't understand.
AceLa13: You get off on my pain for some reason.
shellgames: Respect? Not everyone wants to hear how you dont like people who are overweight, or how high your standards are
AceLa13: I already told you. I don't like reality i don't like mean I don't get off on others' pain.
shellgames: unfortunately
AceLa13: Really "everyone" you say?
AceLa13: Oh right.
shellgames: i mean, besidesy ou
AceLa13: Because I don't have to hold that shit in for every potential mentor
AceLa13: every job
shellgames: it gets old real fast
AceLa13: every job rejection etc
AceLa13: because that's not my REAL FEELINGS
AceLa13: YOU DON'T HAVE TO FAKE YOUR OWN GODDAMN EMOTIONS FEELS AND NEEDS
AceLa13: YOU CAN NOT SUBSTITUTE FOR NEED WITH MAKESURDIXAFLOPPIN HYDROFUC KINGCHBLORDIDE
AceLa13: FEELS. ARE. FEELS
AceLa13: E3NDOF
shellgames: These are all things that are your problem though
shellgames: not anyone elses
AceLa13: I CAN NOT MAKE UGLY PRETTY  OR BADS GOODS
AceLa13: THATS WHY THEY ARE BADS
shellgames: no one wants to hear your shit every day, it gets depressing
shellgames: and yeah
AceLa13: IF THEY WERE GOODS OTHERS WOULD ALSO ACT AND FEEL AS IF THEY WERE GOODS
shellgames: people arent selfless
AceLa13: THERE WOULD BE VALUE SIGNAL REINFORCEMNET
shellgames: eventually you gotta think aboyut your own sanity
AceLa13: THERE IS NO VALUE SIGNAL REINFORCEMENT FROM THESE PEOPLE THAT THEY FIND THESE THINGS OF VALUE
AceLa13: OF GOOD. OF BEAUTY. NONE.
AceLa13: THEY LIE
AceLa13: YOU LIE
AceLa13: MY SANITY COMES AT THE PRICE OF THE ALMIGHTY FLESH THEN.
AceLa13: THAT WHICH IS MADE TABOO
AceLa13: THAT WHICH IS MOST HIGH. MOST FAIR. MOST SERENE.
AceLa13: MOST FORBIDDEN.
shellgames: your sanity is your sanity
AceLa13: NOT JUST SEX
shellgames: and other people's sanity is their own
AceLa13: AND NOT AGAPE, PHILEO, ETC.
AceLa13: I WAS NOT CAUSING ANYONE TO NOT BE SANE YOU DUMB FUCK
AceLa13: WHO ARE YOU DEFENDING HERE ANYWAY?
AceLa13: IWHO WOULD I DRIVE INSANE EXACTLY?
AceLa13: I HAVEN'T HEARD A HUMAN VOICE I WASN'T FUCKING RELATED TO IN YEARS
AceLa13: I NEVER GET TO LAY EYES ON SO MUCH AS SOMEONE I COULD EVEN KIND OF SETTLE FOR WITHOUT THEM BEING TOO GOOD FOR ME
shellgames: everyone who has to listen to this on a daily basis tbh
shellgames: or see this
AceLa13: I AM SURROUNDED BY A BEAUTY AESTHETIC THAT MAKES ME LITERALLY GAG AND CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT
shellgames: you're a lot to deal with
AceLa13: THEN WHYD YOU FUCKING ADD ME IDIOT
AceLa13: SO WHAT MISTER IM TWENTY FIVE AND FILTHY RICH WITH A GREAT CODING JOB AND STILL CAN'T GET A QT GF
shellgames: to apologize
shellgames: but apparent
shellgames: apparently
AceLa13: YOU WEREN'T APOLOGIZING
shellgames: you just deicded to gon off on a tangent
AceLa13: YOU DID THAT TO HURT ME
shellgames: as usual
AceLa13: BECAUSE YOU THINK IM BAD
shellgames: I just think you're sick in the head tbh
AceLa13: THEN EXPLAINED THAT KNOWING THAT YOU HADN'T CHANGED AND GOT OFF ON IT
AceLa13: AND I THINK YOURE A SICK HATEFUL FUCK WHO GETS OFF ON PEOPLE'S SUFFERING
shellgames: thats your opinion to ahve tbh
AceLa13: IW OULD NOT BE SICK IN THE HEAD IF CERTAIN THINGS WERE EASIER TO WIN OVER/GAIN/EARN/BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR
AceLa13: I JUST NEED GOODENOUGHNESS
AceLa13: Again good enoughness = sanity
AceLa13: sanity = earning/being good enough for thin, doe eyes, cute face, feminine hair, figure, inkless, childless, etc.
AceLa13: Capice?
AceLa13: On a regular basis. Romantically.
AceLa13: Making their nakedness not taboo. Not some random camwhore or proistitute either.
AceLa13: It has to be expressly the kind of woman who would never do that kind of thing.
AceLa13: :)
AceLa13: and as sop called "professional help" can not get me that, they are neither helpful nor useful.
shellgames: I get it, you want what you want, but you cant have it
AceLa13: Why are they making so much money at my expense then?
AceLa13: Oh, right.
AceLa13: I need it.
AceLa13: wants /=/needs.
AceLa13: you do not understand
AceLa13: neuroptransmitters of pleasuyre happy and nice = need fulfilled.
AceLa13: Why can I not have that?
AceLa13: the football player
AceLa13: the frat boy
AceLa13: the "gus"
shellgames: just like you won't understand that things arent just handed to people, somtimes they are
AceLa13: the martin buddy hunt
AceLa13: tjhey can have it
shellgames: but in your case, in my case they aren't
shellgames: its life and it's shit
AceLa13: they didn't have to be fake nice because they had the plausible deniability to really feel the good people good personality things
AceLa13: because they fucked enough fuglies to have the sexual confidence without having it bite them in the ass to get the pretty in time
AceLa13: i don't know how they both managed great jobs by 30 tghough, okay technically one is a \fat redditor who makes 35k a year as an attorney
AceLa13: but why
AceLa13: that's not a why
AceLa13: ":that's life" is an empty and vapid cliche
shellgames: but its true
AceLa13: it is not a how to change that thing
shellgames: otherwise you'd be a lot happier right now
AceLa13: truith /=/ fact
AceLa13: there must be a way to be good enough
shellgames: if you had contorl over your life in any way, you'd have what you want, but you don't
AceLa13: for other unattractive and sexually inferior males still get to be with said caliber of females on personality only.
AceLa13: i don't. your point
AceLa13: people like ytou do because you can kiss the ass of social norms and psychiatrybabblebullshit
shellgames: that "thats life cliche" is true, even if it is a cliche
AceLa13: and probably vote for donald dump!
AceLa13: well then life needs more murderers and rapists to make it FAIRER
AceLa13: make it BALANCED
AceLa13: make it EQUAL
shellgames: nothing in this world is balanced or equal
AceLa13: until NOBODY FUCKING SAYS THAT GODDAMN CLICHE SO FUCKING HEARTLESSLY ANYMORE
AceLa13: UNTIL EVERYONE CAN FINALLY HAVE THEIR NEEDS FILLED.
AceLa13: HAVE HAPPY
AceLa13: THAT DOES NOT JUST COME OUT OF A GODDAMN PILL BOTTLE AMEN
shellgames: Not everyone does
AceLa13: FOR FUCKS SAKES BITCHES SHOULDN'T BE TOO GOOD FOR ME WHEN THEY'RE WILLING TOL BE WRAPPED UP IN GODDAMN VINYL
shellgames: You can accept it and try to be happy, or be miserable
AceLa13: you're right some are good enough
AceLa13: others like i'me expected to fake nice
AceLa13: take happy pills and rot so the guys who are good enough can have real happy
AceLa13: instead of fake happy pills.
AceLa13: happy for me includes the girl
AceLa13: no exceptions. that is just that
AceLa13: it just IS YOU FUCKING ZEN DHARMA KARMA BUDDHIST DOTHEAD XTIAN DUMBFUCK PSYCHOBABBLER DIPSHIT
AceLa13: ITS DIPSHITTERY
AceLa13: RELIGION
shellgames: You can make the best of it or not
shellgames: that's it
AceLa13: SPIRITUOBABNBLE
AceLa13: I CAN NOT MAKE THE BEST OF BAD
AceLa13: IT IS STILL A BAD
AceLa13: BROKE IS STILL BROKE
AceLa13: UGLY IS STILL UGLY
AceLa13: UGLY GIRL VAGINA IS LIKE FUCKING DOG VAGINA
AceLa13: ITS NASTY]'
shellgames: So you're ugly and you're expecting an attractive girl ?
AceLa13: IUT SENDS NO PLEASURE CHEMICALS TO THE BRAIN
AceLa13: YOU JUST FEEL NASTUY
AceLa13: ION;R
AceLa13: wa cse/ltnaecw,
AceLa13: FEMINIST ALERT
AceLa13: BLUE PILL ALERT
AceLa13: I WOULD GET THE GHODDAMN SURGERIES TO BE BETTER LOOKING
AceLa13: I SPENT THE TIME IN THE FUCKING GYM
shellgames: you're not entitled to shit in life
shellgames: sadly
AceLa13: GOODENOUGHNESS IS ALL I CARE ABOUT
shellgames: grow up
shellgames: lmao
AceLa13: NOBODY WILL TELL ME HOW TO FUCKING EARN IT
AceLa13: GREOW DOWN
AceLa13: I CAN NOT GROW UP
AceLa13: I AM NOT "ENTITLED" TO THE THING I NEED TO GROWQ THE FUCK UP
AceLa13: AND BE FUCKING HAPPY
AceLa13: PILLS CAN NOT REPLICATE THE HAPPINEDSS NATURALLY OCCURING WHEN NEED IS FULFILLED
shellgames: growing down is basically counter productive
AceLa13: WELL YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND THAT NEED COMES BEFORE NOT AFTER GROWTH
AceLa13: YOU ARE INCAPABLE OF UNDERSTANDING BASIC HUMAN NEED
shellgames: and no girls is gonna want someone who acts the way you do
AceLa13: INCAPABLE OF UNDERSTANDING MASLOW
AceLa13: I TRY BEING NICE
shellgames: THAT is fact
AceLa13: OH WAIT THAT'S FAKE BECAUSE MY FEELS ARE INVOLVED
AceLa13: I DONT' THINK FAT OR GROSS ARE PRETTY SO ITS NOREAL NICE AND THEREFORE ENTITLEMENT AHD THEREFORE HEDAD ASSPLODE BECAUSE YOU'RE SENDING MY BRAIN COFLICTED SIGNALS AND I CAN NOT POSSIBLY BEHAVE TWO OPPOSITE STREAMS
AceLa13: PLEASURE CHEMICALS MOTIVATE BEHAVIOR
AceLa13: FAKE PLEASURE CHEMICALS THUS ERGO EQUAL A PUNISHMENT FOR NOT FEELING HOW SOMEONE ELSE THINKS I SHOULD FEEL TO A STIMULI THAT DOES NOT EVOKE THAT EMOTION
AceLa13: ITS FUCKING RAPE3Y
AceLa13: RAPEY AS FUCK.,
shellgames: It is entitlement, you can't expect a nice pretty girl to one day go "you know what? i want a jobless hateful immature guy to just sweep me off my feet"
AceLa13: SO PERSON Y MAY INDEED EVOKE CHEMICALS X Y AND Z AND FULFILLL A NEED
AceLa13: THUS MOVING UP THE P[YRAMID OF NEEDS TO THINGS LIKE ALTRUISM, FRIENDSHIP, SELF CONFIDENCE
shellgames: friendship is awesome, starting there is a good place
AceLa13: friends suck
AceLa13: when that's alkl you can know
AceLa13: and someone else is knowing the more than friends part
AceLa13: they canse e they can touch they're not second place
AceLa13: they can wake up in the morning to that face
AceLa13: they can see that smile hear that voice
AceLa13: its not taboo anymore
AceLa13: forbidden they're not slime or sleaze its not off limits
AceLa13: they're not stuck miserable ebcause they can't earn enough money to buy some shit tier whore they'll hate because they know she's been bought anyway and she hates you and is just there for the money
AceLa13: because nobody is truly nice anyway.
AceLa13: some just have more plausible deniability than others.
AceLa13: the luxury of feeling someone fat is pretty too because *they don't have to mean it, or settle for fucking them or die alone with more just friends who get more than just friends in THEIR lives*
AceLa13: you can NEVER GET IT
AceLa13: YOU ARE A RED PILL FEMINIST LIBTARD
AceLa13: YOU HAVE TO BE
AceLa13: THEY ARE THE ONLY ONES SO VEHEMENTLY AGAINST MY OWN BEST SELF INTEREST
shellgames: LOL
AceLa13: AND MY OWN BASIC NEEDS
shellgames: a red pill feminisit libtard
shellgames: no
shellgames: i just live in the real world
shellgames: lmfao
AceLa13: https://figures.boundless-cdn.com/29841/large/Maslow%27s_hierarchy_of_needs.png
AceLa13: MODEL NUIMBER ONE
shellgames: I dont want shit handed to me
shellgames: Titus had better chances than you with bradie
AceLa13: https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/8/80/Alderfer%27s_ERG_Theory.jpg model number to
AceLa13: two
AceLa13: I don't care.
AceLa13: look i get it he's a nice guy with the syndrome too
AceLa13: but he still has the syndrome
AceLa13: you don't get it
shellgames: Calling me a libtard because I don't agree with you is pretty sad
AceLa13: nice is not his "real" personality either
AceLa13: it's what they state
shellgames: It's how you dela with said syndrome
AceLa13: "real world"
shellgames: Titus gets girls
AceLa13: in this real world why am I forever at the dead bottom
shellgames: he goes out, he's positive
AceLa13: unattractive women
shellgames: and he's certainly not an asshole just spewing garbage with self entitled claims
AceLa13: remember monogamy + unattractive = guaranteed breakup/failure.
AceLa13: soemone will be unhappy
AceLa13: the only way to be monogamous or even poly or even HAPPY is SOMEONE YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO SEE NAKED ENOUGH TO BE3GIN WITH TO COURT THEM
AceLa13: GOD DAMN THAT MAKES NOBODY A ROTTEN PERSON
shellgames: not always though, happiness has to be found in other placed
shellgames: otherwise people just end up like you
AceLa13: IUT JUST MAKES THEM HONEST ABOUT THEIR INTENTIONS
AceLa13: BUT I AM PENALIZED FOR THIS
AceLa13: BUT I CAN NOT IN THE SETUP OF YOUR REAL WORLD RULES NAVIGATE SUCH
shellgames: you're penalized for the hateful shit you say
AceLa13: I HAVE NO HELP TO AVOID THE DFOUBLESPEAK FROM YOUR END
AceLa13: I CAN NOT LOVE
AceLa13: WHAT I DO NOT LOVE
AceLa13: I DO NOT LIKE
AceLa13: WHY AM I PENALIZED FOR THE SHIT I SAY WHICH IS WHAT I FEEL ANYWAY
AceLa13: I CAN NOT NOT FEEL IT
shellgames: you focus on 1 thing and don't let go
AceLa13: I CAN NOT UNFEEL IT
AceLa13: ITS BASED ON THE STIMULI FROM THE OUTSDIE
AceLa13: BECAUSE4 THAT THING IS HAPPY
AceLa13: IT IS NOT INSIDE ONLY
AceLa13: IT IS NOT IMMATERIAL HOCUS POSCUS BULLSHIT
shellgames: have you had that before?
shellgames: how can you be so sure
AceLa13: IT IS HAPPINESS MADE MATERIAL
AceLa13: I CAN BE CERTAIN BECAUSE IT MAKES THE HAPPY CHEMICALS IN MY BRAIN FLOW IN WAYS NO DRUGS DO
AceLa13: NO THERAPIES DO
AceLa13: NO INNER BEAUTY ONLYT DOES
shellgames: if you havent experienced it you cant be sure tbh
AceLa13: IT ONLY MAKES BAD WRONG BAD SELF HATE GUILT SHAME CHEMICALS FLOW
AceLa13: THAT ONLY MAKES IT MORE PLEASING IDIOT.
AceLa13: YOU CAN NOT USE THE IGNORANCE DEFENSE
shellgames: i'll take experience over your overthought out bullshit anyday
AceLa13: IGNORANCE IS NOT BLISS
AceLa13: I AM NOT A CHRISTIAN
AceLa13: EXPERIENCE DOES NOT COUNT IF IT IS WITH ONLY FUGLY
shellgames: you're spewing ignorance right now tho
AceLa13: REMEMBER THAT PRETTY MUST BE BETTER OR IT WOULD NOT BE FORBIDDEN YOU DOLT
AceLa13: THINK ABOUT IT WHY ARE FAT GIRLS MORE COMMONLY SINGLE EH? OH, RIGHT. THEY MUST INEHERENTLY BE LESS PLEASING TO A  MAJORITY OF PEOPLE
AceLa13: I MUST FIND PALE AND THIN AND SOFT VOICE AND CUTE PLEASANT FOR A REASON
AceLa13: IF OUND HER PLEASING I WOULD HAVE BEEN FAKE NICE TO THE WORLD FOREVER WITH THE PLAUSIBLE DENIABILITY]
AceLa13: BUT I CAN NOT DO THIS FOR A STIMULI THAT IS NOT REWARDING
AceLa13: THAT IS MY NEED. IT IS NOT A WANT. I WILL NEVER BE SANE OR GOOD OR WHATEVER WIHOUT IT EVER. AMEN.
AceLa13: IT CAN NOT HAPPEN. THAT ONE THING MUST BE MADE NO LONGER TABOO
AceLa13: I DON'T CARE WHO AS LONG AS THEY FIT.
AceLa13: AND I DON'T CARE HOW.
AceLa13: As you have eiother never experienced such yourself, or can not prove you have, you would never understand.
AceLa13: I am just that creature to pick on or laugh at for not being good enough the one time in his life it would have MATTERED FOR SOMETHING
AceLa13: DO YOU NOT KNOW THE MEANING OF HOPE
AceLa13: OF GOOD ENOUGH
AceLa13: OF HAPPY?
AceLa13: BECAUSE I KNOW IT TOO WELL. IG ET TO DIE ALONE BECAUSE I COULD NOT BE GOOD ENOUGH ONCE FOR WHAT SOME GUYS DO NOT EVEN HAVE TO VIEW AS A BIG DEAL
AceLa13: WHILE OTEHRS CAN SURELY BE IMMORAL OR DISGUSTING OR PIGS
AceLa13: WHILE OTHERS SLEEP AROUND A TON, HAVE OPEN RELATIONSHIPS, THE WORKS AND AREN'T EVEN CREEPY OR IMMORAL OR WEIRD FOR IT
AceLa13: EVEN WITH THE INNOCEN TGIRL NEXT DOOR TYPES FFS
AceLa13: hey cop[ypaste more
AceLa13: troll more!
AceLa13: you fucking love it you must love it
AceLa13: after all, I can have no real friends.
AceLa13: I'd have to be a fake self to deserve them. What's the point. Friendship doesn't make me happy, it reminds me it's half of a *romantic relationship*....
shellgames: i dont love your suffering
shellgames: i mean, i dont sit at home going
AceLa13: it indicates either beta male or unattractive female. It is nothing more than a constant reminder of my social and economic and moral status and that there is no upward mobility.
shellgames: "omg yesssss chris is suffering"
shellgames: in my lair or some shit
AceLa13: Sure you do. You just don't realize it.
shellgames: if you say so
shellgames: lol
AceLa13: See everyone like me makes your own shitty or boring life a little better. It makes the fact you also can't be with anyone qt a bit better.
shellgames: my life is already pretty great
shellgames: i dont need you to make me feel better
AceLa13: videogames and money are useless without anyone cute enough to share them with.
AceLa13: You secretly know this, even if you won't admit it.
AceLa13: I jsut *admit* it is all.
shellgames: that's yuor opinion though, and i have a girlfriend
shellgames: have for a while
AceLa13: That the just friends stuff, that the feminist talk... is crap.
shellgames: its not all crap, some of it is
AceLa13: Yes. But do you really like her or did you settle because she is in your league and that's the nice, good human being thing to do.
AceLa13: It's all crap
shellgames: I love her
shellgames: have since i've known her
AceLa13: Or I wouldn't need lower standards and could be with someone who I could actually be happy with.
AceLa13: I can't love what I don't love or even like.
AceLa13: Oops.
AceLa13: I tried the low standard. I twas an abysmal failure.
AceLa13: Everyone will be in their shadow shell. Every single female I see, I compare to them.
AceLa13: It's literally reflexive.
AceLa13: They literally were walking talking living breathing embodiments of everythin g my type wrapped up into one human female....
AceLa13: to the point that even if they had flaw, I would never have known.
AceLa13: In ten years worth of time, there were all of two.
AceLa13: That's how rare that is for me. That's how much meaning it holds. That's the magic, the "it" quality, a je nais sais quois, some mystical .... brain chemistry kapow... something that just can't be faked, made in a lab,k or settled for.
AceLa13: NOBODY understands. They just say "disorder". They insist their version of happy should be mine or that I deserve misery while simultaneously establishing that they can not help me with anything that helps ME get to what I need in say 5 years or less.
AceLa13: Nothing.
AceLa13: Nobody can be a good person if they are not nurtured for such.
AceLa13: Now, can they?
AceLa13: Deprival and punishment only groom despair, they only groom BAD people.
AceLa13: And then you can't even be the cool kind of bad
AceLa13: like Ramsay Bolton or Christian Grey.......
AceLa13: ahh yes....raw unadulterated muscle and power....
AceLa13: okay so one of those guys is the epitome of evil, but I knew of someone once... oh man... if they weren't just trolling....
AceLa13: they might have brought something out of me.... that I hadn't thought of.
AceLa13: Unfortunately it only would work with the type most unl.ikely looking on the surface to be into that kind of thing. Oops.
AceLa13: https://wikispaces.psu.edu/download/thumbnails/230229371/ERG_Theory.jpg?version=1&modificationDate=1410018118000&api=v2&effects=border-simple,blur-border,tape
AceLa13: very simple erg theory model to go with Maslow's Heirarchy.
AceLa13: Understand when people PROGRESS and when we REGRESS now?
AceLa13: Sex/? Physiological need (directly tied to attraction/ability to not be revolted by her/guilt/shame and thus satisfied and move to second tier)
AceLa13: intimacyh is on the second tier, which of course requires attraction.
AceLa13: Friendship is on the third tier of that pyramid by the way.... under social needs. Safety needs come before social needs.
AceLa13: You'll notivce how eseem and actualization come last, aye?