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First ill talk about thanksgiving and friends and whatever. After that ill talk a little bit about whats up with me, my stream and school.

Thanksgiving

Welcome to this shitty pastebin, if you’re reading this you probably took the time to click on my tweet and open this shit and hello bitch and thankful for you. I’m awful at being friends with anyone, so I’m oblivious to some important stuff like forgetting to say happy birthday to my favorite people and best friend to saying I’m thankful for them. Anywho, I just wanted to say, regarding thanksiving, thank you for saving me from wanting to die (even if sometimes being on twitch itself makes me wanna die lmao), but for real, thank you for giving me hope and the smiles I needed when I was at my lowest. I had just broken up with my past relationship that between us ended “well” but the damage after it happened was worse than I could ever imagine (not gonna get too into it). I’ve been dealing with so much anxiety, specially human contact anxiety, depression, that was later combined with leaving home, having no IRL friends to hang out with and school. So I’m thankful for any stream I watched this entire year of all that bullshit combined. Thanks for giving me hope :)

Stream

I know I havent been streaming as much as I used to, or as much as I personally would love to, but school is ramming its fist up my ass. Like I’m honestly not doing very good right now, and by that I mean I’m getting 80s and down over to 60s which in my standards means I’m failing college (I can take an 80, but still hurts me to see it). I’m trying really hard to catch up to everything they want me to do, and it was easy the entire semester until they decided they wanted to shove like 30 projects in my face for finals. Not cool, specially when people wanna take vacations on thanksgiving (which in my imo, it should be a whole free week just like spring break). Anyway, I’m super behind on everything because I’m going through a huge mental block, which hopefully fixes itself cause I purposely took thanksgiving week off to spend some times with friends. I’ll be behind but I truly was about to break down and maybe even open the window and jump the fuck down. I need this and even if I fall a little behind I know I’ll pick myself up like I always do and finish the year with at least a B. So yeah school sucks right now, I wanna stream more but its almost impossible. I love you all, thankyou for always supporting me even if I disappear too much. I’m always on the discord though, and we have pretty cool convos there that I really love. Shoutouts to the peeps that take the time of their day to say something on my discord, you make me happier than you think <3.

Streams will resume once I’m not drowning in school work, and definitely coming at you everyday once I get home. (December 16th, and hopefully my computer can take the capture card lmao)

Thank you, and if you read until the end, I appreciate you the most. I don't know what I did to deserve your time of day to read about my bullshit. Post any gif under this pastebin post if you’re reading this. Muax i love you all and see you soon <3