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- It was only a month after she passed
- Waiting for a fucking answer
- Someone to say something about why or how
- And yet, we're almost at the third year
- Coming up, I don't know if I can handle it
- The answer, only she has but we will never know
- Was it an accident or suicide, I wish the thoughts would go
- But now I'm stuck wondering and trying to get closure
- With everything that's happened but no, my depression gets lower
- I could've had everything while she was on top
- But instead I'm at the bottom while she's deep under the ground
- I can say goodbye and I miss you all I fucking want but in the end it doesn't matter
- Who the fuck knows if she's hearing me
- Sara if you're here, listen
- I love you man, my life has been pure shit without you
- I miss the fuck out of you
- I miss the phone calls and everything
- I've done everything I could just to take the pain away
- But no, now I'm a fucking loser with regret
- I spend my time doing drugs and sitting on my ass
- Fucking around on forums when all they do is give me less
- Is it the culture or the drugs that's been tearing me down
- None of it matters, it's the grief inside that's killing me
- The grief that sat me down and smacked me in the face
- Showed me the cruelest world and put me in my place
- All just for you, I sacrificed everything to be closer to you
- My family and friends don't have me in the alternate universe
- But I couldn't bring them the reality of pain that struck when you left
- It'll still be clinging for the rest of my life
- The only release is when I finally die
- Knowing me, it'll probably be suicide
- Or hopefully these opioids fucking kill me
- One day children will say, who was Melinda
- Well guess what you little bastard
- I was a fucking druggie
- A drunk, a stoner
- A piece of shit with values that nobody listened to
- A sucker for the life that I couldn't fucking live
- The life that leads all to death
- Somehow I'm still here to write this
- February 2018, who knows how much longer I have left
- Maybe this year, I get the sweet release of death
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