I'm going to try to keep this brief, because otherwise I'm gonna ramble and make pointless excuses. I wanted to record this instead of just using pastebin like it's 2017, but I will not be alone at all for the next couple weeks so this is going to have to do.

A couple nights ago, something happened that really upset me. It shouldn't have been a big deal, but it set off a lot of bad feelings. In my anger, I lashed out and said something really stupid and childish to someone I really care about. Yesterday, I saw the consequences of my actions, which are fully deserved. I apologized to them in private, but just like I was too scared to share my feelings before, I'm too scared to see what, or even if, they responded. They probably aren't reading this, and they probably don't want anything to do with me, and that's my fault, 100%

I'm tired of hurting people I care about. I'm tired of making promises I can't keep. I'm tired of pushing people away because I can't express my feelings like a normal person. I'm tired of being upset and sad and lonely all the fucking time. I'm just tired of me. And I'm done.

I need time. Maybe there isn't enough. But I can't keep doing this.