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- Human touch.
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- Our first form of communication.
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- Safety, security, comfort,
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- all in the gentle caress of a finger.
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- Or the brush of lips on a soft cheek.
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- It connects us when we're happy...
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- bolsters us in times of fear...
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- excites us in times of passion...
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- and love.
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- 00:01:04,648 --> 00:01:09,734
- We need that touch from the one we love
- almost as much as we need air to breathe.
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- 00:01:11,280 --> 00:01:14,614
- But I never understood
- the importance of touch,
- 12
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- his touch...
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- until I couldn't have it.
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- Oh!
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- - Oh, yeah.
- - Oh!
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- 00:01:47,524 --> 00:01:49,231
- Oh, yeah. This one's perfect.
- 17
- 00:01:51,403 --> 00:01:53,360
- Actually,
- the tan lines might be incredible.
- 18
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- Oh, my gosh.
- That doesn't even cover half your boob.
- 19
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- No, you need something...
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- 00:02:00,078 --> 00:02:02,223
- - This is actually cute.
- - That's really cute.
- 21
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- - Yeah.
- - Let me see.
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- 00:02:04,124 --> 00:02:06,491
- - I like that.
- - That's actually really pretty.
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- But I can't tell, is it too trampy
- 24
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- or not trampy enough?
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- Hello!
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- - Are you with us?
- - Okay, guess what.
- 27
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- Taylor and Mason are meeting us
- at the airport in the morning.
- 28
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- What's that face?
- 29
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- - Oh, my God!
- - What?
- 30
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- - I know. I know!
- - What? Wait. What?
- 31
- 00:02:22,768 --> 00:02:24,680
- Dude, Mason and Brooke broke up.
- 32
- 00:02:24,770 --> 00:02:26,372
- - No, they didn't.
- - Yes, they did.
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- Oh, my God! Maya!
- 34
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- - You're gonna do it!
- - Yep.
- 35
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- I wish I could be there
- to see that in person.
- 36
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- Just sucks that you planned it this year,
- and you don't even get to go.
- 37
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- Well,
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- you can just Photoshop me in
- with your fancy editing apps.
- 39
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- - What are you talking about?
- - You know what.
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- - I don't.
- - The one where you get your pimples
- 41
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- and your little fake blush.
- 42
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- - Shut up.
- - The lashes.
- 43
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- - Your lashes aren't that long.
- - You guys are annoying.
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- Okay, come on.
- Thank you for the burgers.
- 45
- 00:02:58,720 --> 00:03:01,337
- Honestly,
- you guys are gonna have so much fun.
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- - Okay?
- - Okay.
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- - Bye. I love you.
- - I love you more.
- 48
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- - I love you.
- - We'll miss you. Bye.
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- Mwah. Use protection.
- 50
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- Thanks, Mom.
- 51
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- Hello, world!
- 52
- 00:03:58,905 --> 00:04:02,774
- So, I am back in the hospital again
- for another tune-up.
- 53
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- I need a few more rounds of antibiotics
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- to get over this little sore throat
- that I've been...
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- Hi, Barb!
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- Sore throat?
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- Right, with a 102 fever.
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- - I've had worse. Say hi!
- - Stella, get that thing out of my face.
- 59
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- - You're looking good!
- - I know that.
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- Folks, Stella will be right back
- after we get her all set up.
- 61
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- You heard the boss lady.
- 62
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- I think this is her best work.
- 63
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- Hi, Stella.
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- Wow.
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- Wow. A lot's changed
- in the last six months.
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- Yep. He's due in March.
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- Bend your arm, please.
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- - What room's Poe in?
- - 310.
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- And open up.
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- All right.
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- You are all set. I'll see you in a bit.
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- Thank you, Julie.
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- Wow. Are you sure this is okay?
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- I will still be monitoring you.
- And, yes, it's okay.
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- What would I do without you?
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- You'd die.
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- That's true.
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- So, Barb is letting me keep
- my med cart in my room this time.
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- And she left me a bunch of pills,
- some G-Juice.
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- Yum! That's the liquid nutrition
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- that goes straight to my stomach
- through my G-tube.
- 82
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- So, to any of you girls out there
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- wishing you could eat 5,000 calories a day
- and not gain a pound,
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- I'll trade you any day.
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- Today I'll probably
- be reorganizing this thing
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- because as many of you know,
- I'm slightly anal.
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- By slightly anal, I mean clinically OCD.
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- So, peace.
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- Bye, guys.
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- New baby upstairs.
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- Meet me in 15.
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- - Hi, Cynthia.
- - Hi, Stella.
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- Hi.
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- I've clocked the nurse's schedule. Unless
- you put your ass on that call button,
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- no one's gonna bother you for an hour.
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- Hey. I gotta sleep on that bed, okay?
- 97
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- Wow. I mean, we're not animals.
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- Don't worry.
- It's not gonna take that long.
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- Hey!
- Whatchu talkin' about, Willis?
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- Saw you moving in your stuff.
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- It was, uh...
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- There was a lot of it.
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- Are you gonna be here for a while?
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- Hello?
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- Oh.
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- You're deaf.
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- Shouldn't you be
- procuring your room for your guests?
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- You rent by the hour or what?
- 109
- 00:09:35,658 --> 00:09:37,570
- So, that was you lurking in the hall.
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- Mmm, I don't lurk,
- and you followed me here.
- 111
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- I wanted to introduce myself,
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- 00:09:42,332 --> 00:09:44,790
- but that little attitude of yours...
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- Let me guess. You're the kind of guy
- that ignores the rules
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- 'cause it makes you feel in control.
- Am I right?
- 115
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- You're not wrong.
- 116
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- You think that's cute?
- 117
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- Do you think it's cute?
- 118
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- Letting your friends borrow your room
- for sex is disgusting, so, no.
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- You don't like sex?
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- No, I like...
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- sex. I like sex.
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- Sex is fine.
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- "Fine" isn't a ringing endorsement, but
- I'll take some common ground where I can.
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- - We have nothing in common.
- - Ooh, that's cold.
- 125
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- What... What are you doing up here?
- 126
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- Six feet at all times.
- You both know the rules.
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- Will, get back to your room.
- 128
- 00:10:24,624 --> 00:10:25,910
- There you go.
- 129
- 00:10:26,334 --> 00:10:29,168
- A little name for
- your psychological profile.
- 130
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- I'm Will Newman.
- 131
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- And you are?
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- Deaf.
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- Stella,
- thank you for putting your mask on.
- 134
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- Stella.
- 135
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- You need to lighten up.
- 136
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- It's just life.
- 137
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- It'll be over before you know it.
- 138
- 00:10:52,485 --> 00:10:53,896
- So, he's a CFer?
- 139
- 00:10:55,071 --> 00:10:57,108
- - B. cepacia.
- - Mmm.
- 140
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- Part of a new drug trial for Cevaflomalin.
- 141
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- You contract that and you can...
- 142
- 00:11:05,123 --> 00:11:07,957
- you can kiss the possibility
- of new lungs good-bye.
- 143
- 00:11:09,210 --> 00:11:12,044
- There's no coming back from that bacteria.
- 144
- 00:11:12,714 --> 00:11:14,376
- Stay away.
- 145
- 00:11:39,866 --> 00:11:41,528
- Hello, world!
- 146
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- Okay, AffloVest
- for 30 more minutes, then you're all set.
- 147
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- You need anything else
- before I hit the road?
- 148
- 00:11:47,415 --> 00:11:49,372
- Chocolate pudding for two?
- 149
- 00:11:49,459 --> 00:11:51,371
- Oh, so, what? I'm room service now?
- 150
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- Gotta take advantage of the perks.
- 151
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- Good.
- 152
- 00:12:01,471 --> 00:12:03,383
- Good girl, good girl.
- 153
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- All right, good. Right.
- 154
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- Right, sweetie.
- 155
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- - I'll see you tomorrow.
- - Bye, Barb.
- 156
- 00:12:10,188 --> 00:12:11,520
- Okay.
- 157
- 00:12:21,032 --> 00:12:24,241
- Like all kids
- with cystic fibrosis, I was born terminal,
- 158
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- which doesn't necessarily mean
- I'm gonna die tomorrow,
- 159
- 00:12:28,331 --> 00:12:29,538
- but I could die tomorrow.
- 160
- 00:12:29,624 --> 00:12:30,831
- Anyone could die tomorrow.
- 161
- 00:12:30,917 --> 00:12:33,455
- I just have a little bit less time
- than everyone else.
- 162
- 00:12:33,544 --> 00:12:37,709
- My lungs are at about
- 50% function right now.
- 163
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- So at this rate,
- 164
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- Dr. Hamid says that I'll need a transplant
- by the time I'm a junior in high school.
- 165
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- That'll be fun.
- 166
- 00:12:47,850 --> 00:12:49,637
- Hi, guys! Shh!
- 167
- 00:12:49,852 --> 00:12:51,559
- We're at the NICU
- 168
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- because I'm obsessed with babies.
- 169
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- - And Barb...
- - Oh, no, no, no.
- 170
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- The beautiful Barb is giving me permission
- to come in here by myself now.
- 171
- 00:12:59,529 --> 00:13:02,567
- Cystic fibrosis, as you know,
- is a genetic disease
- 172
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- that basically makes my body
- produce a shit ton of mucus.
- 173
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- Fun fact, I have to be extremely careful
- around other people with CF.
- 174
- 00:13:10,581 --> 00:13:13,449
- The rule is that we're not supposed
- to get within six feet
- 175
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- because we could end up
- catching each other's bacteria.
- 176
- 00:13:16,504 --> 00:13:18,746
- A lot of people
- don't realize that new lungs
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- generally only last about five years,
- 178
- 00:13:21,718 --> 00:13:26,053
- which is okay actually because most of us
- 179
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- are just trying to stay alive long enough
- for a new treatment to come out.
- 180
- 00:13:30,018 --> 00:13:31,509
- Hi, g uys!
- 181
- 00:13:31,602 --> 00:13:34,265
- Just chilling here in my new AffloVest,
- 182
- 00:13:34,355 --> 00:13:38,190
- which is really cool because now
- I don't have to be hooked up to the wall,
- 183
- 00:13:38,276 --> 00:13:41,565
- which obviously I'm not because
- I'm hanging upside down on my bed.
- 184
- 00:13:42,739 --> 00:13:46,073
- This is actually good
- for getting the mucus up and stuff.
- 185
- 00:13:46,159 --> 00:13:47,445
- I know. Cute, right?
- 186
- 00:14:09,682 --> 00:14:10,798
- Dang, girl.
- 187
- 00:14:11,309 --> 00:14:12,641
- You look worn.
- 188
- 00:14:13,186 --> 00:14:14,393
- Who is he?
- 189
- 00:14:14,687 --> 00:14:16,098
- Is it anyone I know?
- 190
- 00:14:18,566 --> 00:14:20,148
- What'd you get?
- 191
- 00:14:23,363 --> 00:14:26,856
- What? Are those truffles?
- How'd you get truffles?
- 192
- 00:14:26,949 --> 00:14:29,612
- - Oh, you gotta bring them with, sister.
- - Wow.
- 193
- 00:14:30,828 --> 00:14:33,821
- Look at how spicy
- that food cart is.
- 194
- 00:14:34,040 --> 00:14:35,121
- I'm impressed.
- 195
- 00:14:35,208 --> 00:14:36,790
- All right, let's talk about me.
- 196
- 00:14:37,126 --> 00:14:39,118
- I'm single!
- 197
- 00:14:40,213 --> 00:14:41,545
- You broke up with Michael?
- 198
- 00:14:41,631 --> 00:14:43,213
- Maybe he broke up with me.
- 199
- 00:14:43,925 --> 00:14:46,087
- - Did he?
- - It was mutual.
- 200
- 00:14:47,303 --> 00:14:48,669
- No, it wasn't.
- 201
- 00:14:48,763 --> 00:14:51,506
- Why? You actually really liked him.
- 202
- 00:14:51,849 --> 00:14:53,841
- And I thought he was gonna be the one.
- 203
- 00:14:54,268 --> 00:14:55,804
- He obviously isn't.
- 204
- 00:14:58,272 --> 00:14:59,604
- Screw him anyway, right?
- 205
- 00:14:59,857 --> 00:15:01,598
- At least you got to do that.
- 206
- 00:15:04,362 --> 00:15:06,604
- Poe? Poe?
- 207
- 00:15:06,948 --> 00:15:08,314
- Poe?
- 208
- 00:15:11,077 --> 00:15:12,284
- Poe?
- 209
- 00:15:12,787 --> 00:15:13,994
- Poe, you okay?
- 210
- 00:15:15,581 --> 00:15:17,038
- Choking, 310.
- 211
- 00:15:20,044 --> 00:15:21,751
- I'm sorry, Julie.
- 212
- 00:15:21,838 --> 00:15:23,670
- My leg hit the call button.
- 213
- 00:15:23,965 --> 00:15:25,297
- You scared us, Poe.
- 214
- 00:15:25,883 --> 00:15:28,921
- - Yeah, try chewing next time.
- - Okay.
- 215
- 00:15:29,637 --> 00:15:30,753
- Here, Stella.
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- 00:15:32,265 --> 00:15:34,473
- Enjoy your truffles, asshole.
- 217
- 00:15:36,894 --> 00:15:38,681
- And please be careful.
- 218
- 00:15:39,021 --> 00:15:40,808
- I love you, Stella!
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- 00:15:42,567 --> 00:15:45,560
- Phase one clinical trials
- only started only 18 months ago,
- 220
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- so we need to be patient
- 221
- 00:15:47,071 --> 00:15:49,404
- and Will needs to help us with that.
- 222
- 00:15:49,490 --> 00:15:51,982
- The risk of cross infection
- will be even higher now, so...
- 223
- 00:15:52,076 --> 00:15:54,910
- Don't cough on any other CFers.
- 224
- 00:15:54,996 --> 00:15:59,832
- Well, don't get close enough
- to touch them for their safety and yours.
- 225
- 00:16:00,209 --> 00:16:02,872
- Six feet at all times. I got it.
- 226
- 00:16:05,214 --> 00:16:11,006
- Will, in order for this to work,
- you need to keep up with your regimen.
- 227
- 00:16:15,516 --> 00:16:17,508
- - Okay, I will see you soon.
- - All right.
- 228
- 00:16:46,380 --> 00:16:48,417
- Hi! Oh, my gosh!
- 229
- 00:16:48,508 --> 00:16:49,874
- You're wearing the bathing suit!
- 230
- 00:16:49,967 --> 00:16:51,754
- Hi, Maya!
- 231
- 00:16:51,844 --> 00:16:52,925
- Hi!
- 232
- 00:16:53,012 --> 00:16:56,176
- Oh, I'm officially jealous.
- That looks so fun!
- 233
- 00:16:56,390 --> 00:16:58,390
- - We miss you!
- - We miss you so much!
- 234
- 00:16:58,476 --> 00:17:01,810
- - I miss you, too!
- - You have any cute boy visitors?
- 235
- 00:17:02,480 --> 00:17:04,346
- No. No, he's not cute.
- 236
- 00:17:04,732 --> 00:17:06,064
- What?
- 237
- 00:17:06,150 --> 00:17:07,311
- Boy?
- 238
- 00:17:07,401 --> 00:17:09,267
- What?
- 239
- 00:17:10,571 --> 00:17:12,437
- - Show us! Show us!
- - Come on!
- 240
- 00:17:57,535 --> 00:18:00,118
- What are you doing?
- Do you have a death wish or something?
- 241
- 00:18:01,038 --> 00:18:02,119
- Hey!
- 242
- 00:18:02,415 --> 00:18:03,826
- My lungs are toast, okay?
- 243
- 00:18:03,916 --> 00:18:08,286
- Can you just let me
- enjoy this view while I can?
- 244
- 00:18:09,755 --> 00:18:11,963
- Do you know how lucky you are to be here?
- 245
- 00:18:12,341 --> 00:18:14,708
- To be a part of this drug trial?
- 246
- 00:18:15,970 --> 00:18:17,836
- How do you know about my drug trial?
- 247
- 00:18:18,973 --> 00:18:20,464
- You been asking about me?
- 248
- 00:18:23,185 --> 00:18:24,676
- If you don't care,
- 249
- 00:18:25,605 --> 00:18:27,062
- then leave.
- 250
- 00:18:27,732 --> 00:18:31,692
- Give your spot to someone else.
- Someone that wants it, that wants to live.
- 251
- 00:18:36,365 --> 00:18:37,651
- Okay.
- 252
- 00:18:39,952 --> 00:18:41,409
- What are you doing? Will?
- 253
- 00:18:41,495 --> 00:18:43,452
- Will, no! Please get down!
- 254
- 00:18:43,539 --> 00:18:45,201
- Will, stop, please!
- 255
- 00:18:45,291 --> 00:18:47,032
- Please get down now!
- 256
- 00:18:47,418 --> 00:18:49,501
- Will, stop! Oh, my God!
- 257
- 00:18:53,758 --> 00:18:54,874
- God!
- 258
- 00:18:55,593 --> 00:18:56,629
- Relax!
- 259
- 00:19:01,599 --> 00:19:02,760
- Fine.
- 260
- 00:19:04,268 --> 00:19:05,600
- Stay up here then.
- 261
- 00:19:06,896 --> 00:19:08,603
- Come on. It was a joke.
- 262
- 00:19:09,231 --> 00:19:11,018
- Hey, it was a joke!
- 263
- 00:20:02,827 --> 00:20:03,827
- Damn it!
- 264
- 00:20:26,767 --> 00:20:30,886
- Where's your med cart, and your pills,
- and why's your AffloVest on the floor?
- 265
- 00:20:30,980 --> 00:20:33,188
- Can... Can I see your regimen?
- 266
- 00:20:34,024 --> 00:20:37,438
- Uh... not that it's any of your business.
- 267
- 00:20:45,745 --> 00:20:47,611
- Is this... What?
- 268
- 00:20:49,373 --> 00:20:50,409
- Why...
- 269
- 00:20:50,499 --> 00:20:52,081
- Is this what an aneurysm looks like?
- 270
- 00:20:52,168 --> 00:20:54,125
- - Why? Ugh!
- - Hey!
- 271
- 00:20:55,171 --> 00:20:58,255
- I get that you have some kind of
- save-the-world hero complex going on,
- 272
- 00:20:58,340 --> 00:21:00,957
- - but can you leave me out of it?
- - These meds are not optional.
- 273
- 00:21:01,051 --> 00:21:03,543
- That's probably why
- they keep shoving them down my throat.
- 274
- 00:21:03,637 --> 00:21:05,094
- You're making me crazy.
- 275
- 00:21:11,479 --> 00:21:13,095
- Hey.
- 276
- 00:21:14,607 --> 00:21:15,893
- Stella, come on!
- 277
- 00:21:17,610 --> 00:21:18,610
- Six feet!
- 278
- 00:21:38,714 --> 00:21:43,004
- I need you to follow your regimen
- strictly and completely, please.
- 279
- 00:21:44,094 --> 00:21:45,301
- Why don't...
- 280
- 00:21:45,387 --> 00:21:47,800
- Why don't you tell me what's going on,
- actually?
- 281
- 00:21:48,349 --> 00:21:51,433
- Talk to me.
- I'm not gonna make any jokes or laugh.
- 282
- 00:21:53,813 --> 00:21:55,850
- I have control issues.
- 283
- 00:21:57,149 --> 00:22:00,233
- And I need to know
- that things are in order,
- 284
- 00:22:00,319 --> 00:22:02,185
- and I know you're not
- doing your treatments
- 285
- 00:22:02,279 --> 00:22:04,862
- and it's really, really messing me up.
- 286
- 00:22:04,949 --> 00:22:07,441
- Okay, I wanna help you.
- 287
- 00:22:08,035 --> 00:22:09,151
- I do.
- 288
- 00:22:10,955 --> 00:22:13,242
- I don't even know how to do
- what you're asking me to.
- 289
- 00:22:13,332 --> 00:22:14,573
- That's bullshit!
- 290
- 00:22:14,667 --> 00:22:18,035
- That's bullshit! All CFers know
- how to administer their own treatments.
- 291
- 00:22:18,128 --> 00:22:19,968
- We're practically doctors
- by the time we're 12.
- 292
- 00:22:20,047 --> 00:22:21,083
- Are you serious?
- 293
- 00:22:21,173 --> 00:22:23,290
- Am I actually messing you up?
- 294
- 00:22:23,551 --> 00:22:24,712
- Yes.
- 295
- 00:22:26,220 --> 00:22:27,427
- All right.
- 296
- 00:22:28,305 --> 00:22:29,466
- I'll help you.
- 297
- 00:22:30,099 --> 00:22:31,431
- But if I do,
- 298
- 00:22:34,311 --> 00:22:35,768
- what's in it for me?
- 299
- 00:22:37,398 --> 00:22:39,060
- No, not like... I...
- 300
- 00:22:39,567 --> 00:22:41,308
- I wanna draw you.
- 301
- 00:22:42,570 --> 00:22:43,570
- No.
- 302
- 00:22:43,654 --> 00:22:45,361
- Why not? I'm serious.
- 303
- 00:22:46,282 --> 00:22:47,443
- No.
- 304
- 00:22:52,037 --> 00:22:53,278
- Okay.
- 305
- 00:22:54,456 --> 00:22:55,697
- Then no deal.
- 306
- 00:22:56,166 --> 00:22:59,079
- You really can't practice
- just a little bit of discipline
- 307
- 00:22:59,169 --> 00:23:00,626
- even to save your own life?
- 308
- 00:23:00,713 --> 00:23:03,376
- Stella,
- nothing is going to save our lives.
- 309
- 00:23:03,465 --> 00:23:05,331
- We're breathing borrowed air.
- 310
- 00:23:06,719 --> 00:23:07,960
- Enjoy it.
- 311
- 00:23:22,860 --> 00:23:23,860
- Fine.
- 312
- 00:23:23,944 --> 00:23:27,813
- But I'm not posing for hours on end.
- And your regimen, we're doing it my way.
- 313
- 00:23:27,907 --> 00:23:31,196
- Okay, the first thing you're gonna do
- is get a med cart in your room. Deal?
- 314
- 00:23:32,661 --> 00:23:34,948
- Deal. Shake on it?
- 315
- 00:23:39,543 --> 00:23:40,659
- Funny.
- 316
- 00:23:51,305 --> 00:23:53,638
- Ow.
- 317
- 00:23:54,016 --> 00:23:56,349
- Shit!
- 318
- 00:23:59,355 --> 00:24:01,642
- Oh, no, no, no.
- 319
- 00:24:03,025 --> 00:24:04,311
- Hey.
- 320
- 00:24:06,695 --> 00:24:09,563
- - You missed the show.
- - Yeah. You doing stunts in there?
- 321
- 00:24:09,657 --> 00:24:11,523
- Well, there's no better place
- to break a leg.
- 322
- 00:24:12,034 --> 00:24:13,115
- That's fair.
- 323
- 00:24:13,369 --> 00:24:14,576
- I'm Will.
- 324
- 00:24:17,873 --> 00:24:18,989
- I'm Poe.
- 325
- 00:24:20,417 --> 00:24:21,908
- B. cepacia.
- 326
- 00:24:23,003 --> 00:24:24,369
- Damn, that's rough.
- 327
- 00:24:25,422 --> 00:24:26,503
- Yeah.
- 328
- 00:24:27,174 --> 00:24:29,006
- So, no lung transplant for me.
- 329
- 00:24:29,093 --> 00:24:30,709
- When did you contract it?
- 330
- 00:24:30,803 --> 00:24:33,136
- About eight months ago now.
- It colonized so quickly.
- 331
- 00:24:33,222 --> 00:24:35,930
- I was on the transplant list
- one minute and then...
- 332
- 00:24:39,478 --> 00:24:42,141
- I'm sure that attitude
- is what's giving Stella fits.
- 333
- 00:24:42,523 --> 00:24:43,855
- Yeah, what's up with that?
- 334
- 00:24:43,941 --> 00:24:46,433
- She told me that she has
- control issues or something.
- 335
- 00:24:46,527 --> 00:24:49,941
- Call it what you want. She's got
- her shit together. She keeps me in line.
- 336
- 00:24:50,406 --> 00:24:51,692
- So, uh,
- 337
- 00:24:52,783 --> 00:24:54,194
- have you two...
- 338
- 00:24:55,661 --> 00:24:57,869
- No.
- 339
- 00:24:58,372 --> 00:24:59,658
- No, no, no.
- 340
- 00:24:59,748 --> 00:25:02,365
- I've known that girl
- since I was, like, seven.
- 341
- 00:25:02,751 --> 00:25:04,538
- I don't know, man.
- 342
- 00:25:04,628 --> 00:25:06,119
- Sounds like you love her.
- 343
- 00:25:06,213 --> 00:25:07,545
- Of course I love her.
- 344
- 00:25:07,756 --> 00:25:09,622
- So, why haven't you done
- anything about it?
- 345
- 00:25:10,217 --> 00:25:11,378
- Because...
- 346
- 00:25:12,136 --> 00:25:13,798
- she's not a he.
- 347
- 00:25:19,059 --> 00:25:20,971
- Don't worry. I don't like white boys.
- 348
- 00:25:30,904 --> 00:25:34,898
- Dr. Hamid said that you suddenly
- wanna be responsible for your own regimen.
- 349
- 00:25:35,701 --> 00:25:37,567
- Don't make me regret this.
- 350
- 00:25:48,338 --> 00:25:51,797
- - Did you wipe everything down?
- - Yes. This wasn't my idea, you know?
- 351
- 00:25:55,262 --> 00:25:56,719
- Are we still clear?
- 352
- 00:25:56,805 --> 00:25:58,296
- Yes. Hurry up.
- 353
- 00:25:59,600 --> 00:26:01,136
- I'm almost done.
- 354
- 00:26:36,220 --> 00:26:38,553
- Okay. Your med cart's all set up.
- 355
- 00:26:38,639 --> 00:26:40,471
- I built an app for chronic illnesses.
- 356
- 00:26:40,557 --> 00:26:42,765
- It'll alert you when to do
- your treatments and...
- 357
- 00:26:42,851 --> 00:26:44,467
- Built an app?
- 358
- 00:26:44,561 --> 00:26:46,143
- Like you built it?
- 359
- 00:26:46,772 --> 00:26:47,888
- Surprise.
- 360
- 00:26:48,524 --> 00:26:49,731
- It's pretty simple.
- 361
- 00:26:49,817 --> 00:26:51,353
- You should be able to figure it out.
- 362
- 00:27:22,599 --> 00:27:26,218
- Okay, Stella. Don't tell me that the
- one time you're interested in some guy,
- 363
- 00:27:26,311 --> 00:27:27,472
- he's a CFer.
- 364
- 00:27:27,563 --> 00:27:29,930
- I just helped him set up his med cart.
- 365
- 00:27:30,232 --> 00:27:32,189
- That... That's it. That's all.
- 366
- 00:27:32,276 --> 00:27:33,767
- I know you, Stella.
- 367
- 00:27:33,861 --> 00:27:36,069
- Organizing a med cart is like foreplay.
- 368
- 00:27:39,825 --> 00:27:41,566
- They're called manners!
- 369
- 00:27:54,756 --> 00:27:56,622
- Are you doing your AffloVest?
- 370
- 00:27:58,093 --> 00:27:59,254
- Yeah.
- 371
- 00:27:59,678 --> 00:28:00,964
- Show me.
- 372
- 00:28:01,597 --> 00:28:03,680
- I can't. I'm half-naked.
- 373
- 00:28:04,057 --> 00:28:06,640
- You're supposed to be
- doing your AffloVest right now,
- 374
- 00:28:06,727 --> 00:28:08,013
- and did you take your Creon?
- 375
- 00:28:08,645 --> 00:28:11,388
- Are those the suppositories?
- 376
- 00:28:13,483 --> 00:28:14,483
- Okay.
- 377
- 00:28:14,568 --> 00:28:18,107
- Okay, I can't trust you,
- so this is how it's gonna work.
- 378
- 00:28:18,197 --> 00:28:19,688
- We'll do our treatments together
- 379
- 00:28:19,781 --> 00:28:22,569
- so that way I know
- you're actually doing them. Okay?
- 380
- 00:28:22,659 --> 00:28:26,198
- Always looking for ways to spend
- more time with me, aren't you, Stella?
- 381
- 00:28:26,288 --> 00:28:27,288
- Bye.
- 382
- 00:28:28,332 --> 00:28:30,949
- I've been doing this
- since I was a little kid.
- 383
- 00:28:33,212 --> 00:28:36,372
- So you just pour them all in the pudding
- and stir it around. Are you doing that?
- 384
- 00:29:28,100 --> 00:29:29,100
- Good night.
- 385
- 00:29:34,231 --> 00:29:36,473
- The divorce diet
- doesn't look good on you, Mom.
- 386
- 00:29:37,025 --> 00:29:38,141
- What are you talking about?
- 387
- 00:29:38,235 --> 00:29:41,399
- You're too thin. Dad needs a bath.
- You guys are stealing my look.
- 388
- 00:29:42,072 --> 00:29:43,779
- I'm stealing your look?
- 389
- 00:29:44,241 --> 00:29:46,733
- - Mm-hmm.
- - Okay, maybe I need this more than you do.
- 390
- 00:29:46,827 --> 00:29:48,910
- No!
- 391
- 00:29:48,996 --> 00:29:50,453
- - Oh, my God!
- - Gross.
- 392
- 00:29:51,123 --> 00:29:52,534
- How did that happen?
- 393
- 00:29:52,624 --> 00:29:54,035
- How did it happen?
- 394
- 00:29:54,126 --> 00:29:56,584
- Oh, man! We need napkins.
- 395
- 00:29:57,379 --> 00:29:58,961
- Aw, here, honey.
- 396
- 00:30:18,317 --> 00:30:19,774
- I love you so much.
- 397
- 00:30:21,862 --> 00:30:23,945
- I know. I love you, too.
- 398
- 00:30:25,866 --> 00:30:28,108
- I don't know what I'd do without you.
- 399
- 00:30:37,252 --> 00:30:38,413
- How does it feel?
- 400
- 00:30:38,503 --> 00:30:40,665
- Not great.
- 401
- 00:30:41,923 --> 00:30:44,506
- Let's try some Bactroban,
- see how it looks in a day or two.
- 402
- 00:30:44,593 --> 00:30:46,050
- Maybe we can clear it up, huh?
- 403
- 00:30:48,722 --> 00:30:50,088
- Oh. I'll be at the gym.
- 404
- 00:30:51,058 --> 00:30:52,058
- Thanks, Doc!
- 405
- 00:30:57,731 --> 00:31:00,314
- - Hey, you know, this sucks.
- - Mm-hmm.
- 406
- 00:31:00,400 --> 00:31:03,893
- When does this deal of ours
- become mutually beneficial?
- 407
- 00:31:05,155 --> 00:31:08,819
- I've done everything you've asked
- with no return on my investment.
- 408
- 00:31:10,410 --> 00:31:12,447
- You really wanna draw me
- after we work out?
- 409
- 00:31:12,537 --> 00:31:13,618
- Yeah.
- 410
- 00:31:14,623 --> 00:31:15,659
- No.
- 411
- 00:31:15,749 --> 00:31:18,708
- I'm gross and sweaty and smell.
- 412
- 00:31:18,794 --> 00:31:20,751
- "My hair is dirty.
- 413
- 00:31:20,837 --> 00:31:22,328
- I'm too tired.
- 414
- 00:31:22,798 --> 00:31:24,755
- My med cart is messy."
- 415
- 00:31:24,841 --> 00:31:25,957
- Fine.
- 416
- 00:31:26,676 --> 00:31:28,759
- I'll sweat harder then. Just for you.
- 417
- 00:31:30,263 --> 00:31:31,925
- I'm going to draw that sweat.
- 418
- 00:31:42,109 --> 00:31:43,395
- What's that?
- 419
- 00:31:44,027 --> 00:31:45,768
- My to-do list.
- 420
- 00:31:45,862 --> 00:31:47,444
- To-do list?
- 421
- 00:31:47,906 --> 00:31:50,819
- That's pretty old-fashioned
- for someone that builds apps.
- 422
- 00:31:51,410 --> 00:31:54,949
- Yeah, well, the app doesn't give me
- the satisfaction of doing...
- 423
- 00:31:55,872 --> 00:31:57,238
- that.
- 424
- 00:32:01,294 --> 00:32:03,627
- What else is on that to-do list of yours?
- 425
- 00:32:04,005 --> 00:32:05,837
- My master list or my daily list?
- 426
- 00:32:05,924 --> 00:32:07,711
- Yeah, of course you have two lists.
- 427
- 00:32:08,635 --> 00:32:10,627
- The master list.
- That's the big stuff, right?
- 428
- 00:32:11,930 --> 00:32:12,930
- Okay.
- 429
- 00:32:13,014 --> 00:32:15,722
- "Volunteer in an important
- political campaign."
- 430
- 00:32:15,809 --> 00:32:16,845
- Done.
- 431
- 00:32:16,935 --> 00:32:19,598
- "Study all the works of
- William Shakespeare." Done.
- 432
- 00:32:20,021 --> 00:32:22,229
- "Share everything I know
- about CF with other people."
- 433
- 00:32:22,315 --> 00:32:23,556
- That's my YouTube page.
- 434
- 00:32:23,650 --> 00:32:26,563
- So, your plan is to die really smart
- 435
- 00:32:27,112 --> 00:32:29,980
- so that you can join the debate team
- of the dead or something?
- 436
- 00:32:30,740 --> 00:32:32,527
- What about traveling the world?
- 437
- 00:32:38,957 --> 00:32:40,573
- "Learn to play piano."
- 438
- 00:32:40,959 --> 00:32:42,245
- Done.
- 439
- 00:32:42,335 --> 00:32:44,201
- "Speak fluent French."
- 440
- 00:32:47,424 --> 00:32:49,086
- Can you look at me for a sec?
- 441
- 00:32:50,343 --> 00:32:51,459
- You wanna hear my list?
- 442
- 00:32:51,553 --> 00:32:52,669
- No.
- 443
- 00:32:53,597 --> 00:32:55,680
- Painting class with Bob Ross.
- 444
- 00:32:57,893 --> 00:33:00,431
- He's dead.
- 445
- 00:33:00,520 --> 00:33:02,807
- Yeah, never mind. Uh...
- 446
- 00:33:03,815 --> 00:33:05,306
- Sex in the Vatican.
- 447
- 00:33:05,817 --> 00:33:08,651
- I'd rather help you meet Bob Ross.
- 448
- 00:33:10,655 --> 00:33:11,862
- I don't know.
- 449
- 00:33:13,283 --> 00:33:15,149
- I'd like to travel the world.
- 450
- 00:33:16,036 --> 00:33:17,993
- Actually get to see some of it and not...
- 451
- 00:33:18,997 --> 00:33:20,989
- from the inside of these hospitals.
- 452
- 00:33:28,131 --> 00:33:29,338
- Thank you.
- 453
- 00:33:30,759 --> 00:33:31,759
- For what?
- 454
- 00:33:33,178 --> 00:33:34,794
- For saying something real.
- 455
- 00:33:39,518 --> 00:33:41,009
- Was it the Vatican thing?
- 456
- 00:33:42,312 --> 00:33:43,473
- Can you hurry up?
- 457
- 00:34:02,290 --> 00:34:05,078
- Okay. I just thought you might want
- to know how this feels. You ready?
- 458
- 00:34:05,168 --> 00:34:06,909
- And I brought a jumping buddy.
- 459
- 00:34:07,462 --> 00:34:09,169
- Don't worry. I'll hold him tight.
- 460
- 00:34:10,090 --> 00:34:12,127
- All right, Abby,
- ready to jump out of a plane?
- 461
- 00:34:12,217 --> 00:34:15,210
- Ready! Happy birthday, Stella.
- 462
- 00:34:29,651 --> 00:34:31,688
- I love you, Stella. I'll see you soon.
- 463
- 00:34:32,487 --> 00:34:33,728
- I love you, too.
- 464
- 00:34:45,417 --> 00:34:47,409
- I like seeing you like this.
- 465
- 00:34:47,502 --> 00:34:48,868
- Like what?
- 466
- 00:34:48,962 --> 00:34:50,294
- Hopeful.
- 467
- 00:34:52,591 --> 00:34:53,707
- All right.
- 468
- 00:34:55,760 --> 00:34:56,921
- Hey, Julie.
- 469
- 00:35:00,724 --> 00:35:02,260
- What if this doesn't work?
- 470
- 00:35:03,977 --> 00:35:05,468
- What if it does?
- 471
- 00:35:45,560 --> 00:35:47,017
- Ha-ha!
- 472
- 00:35:53,818 --> 00:35:55,184
- Why cartoons?
- 473
- 00:35:55,862 --> 00:35:57,353
- They're subversive.
- 474
- 00:35:58,365 --> 00:36:01,483
- They can be light and funny
- but pack a powerful punch.
- 475
- 00:36:01,576 --> 00:36:05,069
- I think a well-drawn cartoon
- can say a lot more than words ever could.
- 476
- 00:36:05,163 --> 00:36:06,324
- Yeah?
- 477
- 00:36:06,414 --> 00:36:08,531
- What does this say exactly?
- 478
- 00:36:09,292 --> 00:36:12,535
- A lot more than words ever could.
- 479
- 00:36:13,046 --> 00:36:14,878
- I think it's actually pretty good.
- 480
- 00:36:15,256 --> 00:36:17,293
- I think that's really good. Behind you.
- 481
- 00:36:17,384 --> 00:36:18,670
- What is that?
- 482
- 00:36:19,219 --> 00:36:21,211
- Oh, those are lungs. That's brilliant.
- 483
- 00:36:21,304 --> 00:36:22,465
- Did you do that?
- 484
- 00:36:22,555 --> 00:36:25,389
- Uh, no, my older sister, Abby.
- 485
- 00:36:25,475 --> 00:36:26,807
- Wow. She's really good.
- 486
- 00:36:26,893 --> 00:36:29,306
- I'd love to see more of her stuff.
- Do you have any?
- 487
- 00:36:31,272 --> 00:36:35,016
- We don't have to, uh,
- share our stories, okay?
- 488
- 00:36:35,110 --> 00:36:37,067
- We can just do our treatments together.
- 489
- 00:36:44,452 --> 00:36:47,786
- Hey, guys!
- I have to get a nasal poly...
- 490
- 00:36:47,872 --> 00:36:49,238
- Polypectomy.
- 491
- 00:36:49,332 --> 00:36:51,449
- We're removing polyps
- from your nasal passages.
- 492
- 00:36:51,543 --> 00:36:52,909
- And Stella's nervous.
- 493
- 00:36:53,002 --> 00:36:54,959
- But I'm gonna be there
- to sing her to sleep.
- 494
- 00:36:55,046 --> 00:36:56,662
- Just like always.
- 495
- 00:36:56,756 --> 00:36:59,339
- ♪ I love you a bushel and a peck ♪
- 496
- 00:36:59,426 --> 00:37:02,169
- - ♪ A bushel and a peck ♪
- - Don't sing the whole thing yet.
- 497
- 00:37:02,262 --> 00:37:04,115
- - You're gonna jinx it. Shh!
- - ♪ A hug around the neck ♪
- 498
- 00:37:04,139 --> 00:37:05,366
- - ♪ And a barrel and a heap ♪
- - You're gonna jinx it.
- 499
- 00:37:05,390 --> 00:37:08,929
- ♪ And a barrel and a heap
- And I'm talkin' in my sleep about you ♪
- 500
- 00:37:09,811 --> 00:37:11,097
- But seriously.
- 501
- 00:37:11,521 --> 00:37:14,935
- I'm gonna be there when you go to sleep
- and I'll be right here when you wake up.
- 502
- 00:37:16,985 --> 00:37:18,192
- Okay?
- 503
- 00:37:19,237 --> 00:37:20,444
- Okay.
- 504
- 00:37:21,448 --> 00:37:22,984
- I love you.
- 505
- 00:37:23,074 --> 00:37:24,315
- I love you, too.
- 506
- 00:37:24,409 --> 00:37:26,321
- My sister, Abby, ladies and gentlemen.
- 507
- 00:37:26,411 --> 00:37:28,403
- - She's single, by the way.
- - Okay, stop it!
- 508
- 00:37:28,496 --> 00:37:30,078
- - Her digits are...
- - Stop it!
- 509
- 00:37:30,707 --> 00:37:31,914
- That was last year.
- 510
- 00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:34,492
- Abby's not in any of
- the videos after that.
- 511
- 00:37:34,586 --> 00:37:37,750
- I found Abby's Instagram.
- I mean, it's mostly art,
- 512
- 00:37:37,839 --> 00:37:39,831
- her and Stella, but you're right.
- 513
- 00:37:40,550 --> 00:37:42,633
- She hasn't posted in, like, a year.
- 514
- 00:37:54,856 --> 00:37:57,189
- Barb didn't see you come in, did she?
- 515
- 00:37:57,275 --> 00:37:58,516
- No.
- 516
- 00:38:10,622 --> 00:38:12,204
- Abby's dead, isn't she?
- 517
- 00:38:16,211 --> 00:38:17,873
- You're as delicate as a jackhammer.
- 518
- 00:38:18,671 --> 00:38:21,630
- We don't have time for delicacy, Stella.
- We're dying.
- 519
- 00:38:22,801 --> 00:38:25,965
- Can you stop reminding me that I'm dying?
- 520
- 00:38:26,679 --> 00:38:28,921
- I get it. I get that.
- 521
- 00:38:29,015 --> 00:38:30,426
- - Okay? I just can't.
- - Okay.
- 522
- 00:38:30,517 --> 00:38:32,634
- I have been dying my whole life.
- 523
- 00:38:32,727 --> 00:38:35,720
- Every birthday, we celebrated it
- like it was my last one.
- 524
- 00:38:35,814 --> 00:38:37,271
- - I know. Me, too.
- - You don't know.
- 525
- 00:38:37,357 --> 00:38:40,270
- Because then, yeah,
- as you pointed out, Abby died.
- 526
- 00:38:42,737 --> 00:38:44,399
- And then my parents' marriage died.
- 527
- 00:38:44,489 --> 00:38:46,606
- And it was supposed to be me.
- 528
- 00:38:46,699 --> 00:38:49,942
- Everyone was ready for that.
- Everyone was prepared for that.
- 529
- 00:38:50,036 --> 00:38:51,993
- I just... I can't die.
- 530
- 00:38:53,957 --> 00:38:56,290
- I just... My parents... I can't.
- 531
- 00:38:57,293 --> 00:38:59,580
- Is this why you're so obsessed
- with your regimen?
- 532
- 00:39:00,588 --> 00:39:03,422
- Y-You're not afraid of dying.
- You have survivor's guilt.
- 533
- 00:39:03,508 --> 00:39:05,921
- - Will?
- - You're a sick girl with survivor's guilt.
- 534
- 00:39:06,010 --> 00:39:08,218
- - This is out of your control.
- - Look, look, Will.
- 535
- 00:39:08,304 --> 00:39:10,796
- I just don't have any other choice, okay?
- 536
- 00:39:10,890 --> 00:39:13,450
- - That's what I'm trying to tell you...
- - I don't! Will, I don't.
- 537
- 00:39:15,186 --> 00:39:16,848
- Okay, Stella. Hey, I'm sorry.
- 538
- 00:39:16,938 --> 00:39:19,271
- We're supposed to be medita...
- Stella, come on!
- 539
- 00:39:21,568 --> 00:39:23,150
- You knew he had boundary issues.
- 540
- 00:39:23,236 --> 00:39:25,979
- For what it's worth, I don't
- think he meant to hurt you.
- 541
- 00:39:26,072 --> 00:39:27,483
- Yeah, but it's still annoying.
- 542
- 00:39:27,574 --> 00:39:31,238
- Like, he said "Abby" and "dead" in
- the same sentence like it was no big deal.
- 543
- 00:39:37,709 --> 00:39:39,416
- I should've been there.
- 544
- 00:39:39,502 --> 00:39:42,415
- - I should've been there.
- - Stop. Stella.
- 545
- 00:39:43,840 --> 00:39:45,376
- Stella, look at me.
- 546
- 00:39:45,884 --> 00:39:47,546
- You can't know.
- 547
- 00:39:47,635 --> 00:39:49,467
- You just can't.
- 548
- 00:39:49,554 --> 00:39:51,420
- Stop torturing yourself.
- 549
- 00:39:52,640 --> 00:39:54,677
- Oh, this disease is a prison.
- 550
- 00:39:55,226 --> 00:39:57,058
- I wanna hug you.
- 551
- 00:39:58,563 --> 00:40:00,805
- Just pretend that I'm doing it right now.
- 552
- 00:40:03,526 --> 00:40:04,607
- I love you.
- 553
- 00:40:06,070 --> 00:40:07,186
- I love you, too.
- 554
- 00:40:09,782 --> 00:40:11,239
- You wanna get ice cream?
- 555
- 00:40:11,326 --> 00:40:13,113
- - Yes.
- - Come on.
- 556
- 00:40:35,266 --> 00:40:38,100
- If the infection
- gets into the bloodstream...
- 557
- 00:40:41,356 --> 00:40:42,597
- Hey.
- 558
- 00:40:44,108 --> 00:40:45,474
- It's gonna be okay.
- 559
- 00:40:45,568 --> 00:40:46,900
- You don't know that.
- 560
- 00:40:47,570 --> 00:40:50,313
- You're right. I don't. It's risky.
- 561
- 00:40:51,032 --> 00:40:53,319
- But sepsis is the bigger monster.
- 562
- 00:40:55,453 --> 00:40:56,660
- Hey.
- 563
- 00:40:58,081 --> 00:40:59,743
- You're a fighter, Stella Grant.
- 564
- 00:40:59,832 --> 00:41:01,573
- You always have been.
- 565
- 00:41:05,213 --> 00:41:06,329
- So...
- 566
- 00:41:07,674 --> 00:41:08,835
- Yeah?
- 567
- 00:41:09,217 --> 00:41:10,298
- Yeah.
- 568
- 00:41:11,678 --> 00:41:13,044
- Tomorrow morning, then.
- 569
- 00:41:15,181 --> 00:41:16,717
- I'll let your parents know.
- 570
- 00:42:09,777 --> 00:42:10,938
- Hey.
- 571
- 00:42:12,572 --> 00:42:13,608
- You're here.
- 572
- 00:42:14,532 --> 00:42:15,568
- I'm here.
- 573
- 00:42:15,658 --> 00:42:17,991
- I got your cartoon.
- You're forgiven. Back up.
- 574
- 00:42:21,497 --> 00:42:23,177
- You missed our treatment. What's going on?
- 575
- 00:42:23,249 --> 00:42:25,081
- Infected G-tube.
- 576
- 00:42:26,002 --> 00:42:29,541
- Dr. Hamid's worried about sepsis,
- so she's replacing it in the morning.
- 577
- 00:42:30,339 --> 00:42:32,626
- - I'm going under general.
- - Shit.
- 578
- 00:42:32,717 --> 00:42:34,458
- Are your lungs up for that?
- 579
- 00:42:36,179 --> 00:42:39,889
- Do your nebulizer at 8:00,
- and your AffloVest, okay?
- 580
- 00:43:46,624 --> 00:43:48,081
- What are you doing here?
- 581
- 00:43:49,043 --> 00:43:50,705
- I thought this was the bathroom.
- Honestly.
- 582
- 00:43:52,296 --> 00:43:54,253
- It's your first surgery without Abby.
- 583
- 00:43:55,716 --> 00:43:57,127
- How do you know that?
- 584
- 00:43:57,218 --> 00:43:58,709
- I've seen all your movies.
- 585
- 00:44:00,138 --> 00:44:01,504
- Some might say
- 586
- 00:44:02,181 --> 00:44:03,547
- I'm your biggest fan.
- 587
- 00:44:03,641 --> 00:44:06,679
- So, I really hope
- that I don't mess this up.
- 588
- 00:44:10,815 --> 00:44:14,058
- ♪ I love you a bushel and a peck ♪
- 589
- 00:44:14,485 --> 00:44:15,896
- - ♪ A bushel and a peck ♪
- - Go away.
- 590
- 00:44:15,987 --> 00:44:18,104
- - ♪ And a hug around the neck ♪
- - Go away.
- 591
- 00:44:18,197 --> 00:44:21,690
- ♪ A hug around the neck
- And a barrel and a heap ♪
- 592
- 00:44:21,784 --> 00:44:23,241
- ♪ A barrel and a heap ♪
- 593
- 00:44:23,327 --> 00:44:26,570
- ♪ And I'm talkin' in my sleep about you ♪
- 594
- 00:44:28,583 --> 00:44:30,745
- Our grandma used to sing that to us.
- 595
- 00:44:30,835 --> 00:44:33,873
- I had to Google it. It's really old.
- 596
- 00:44:33,963 --> 00:44:34,963
- I know.
- 597
- 00:44:35,047 --> 00:44:36,163
- What the heck's...
- 598
- 00:44:36,257 --> 00:44:38,044
- - a barrel and a heap?
- - Barrel and a heap?
- 599
- 00:44:38,134 --> 00:44:39,796
- Yeah.
- 600
- 00:44:47,977 --> 00:44:49,343
- You're gonna be okay.
- 601
- 00:44:50,104 --> 00:44:51,436
- Promise?
- 602
- 00:44:58,863 --> 00:45:00,070
- Hey.
- 603
- 00:45:00,948 --> 00:45:03,235
- You ready to get this show on the road?
- 604
- 00:45:03,743 --> 00:45:04,824
- Yeah.
- 605
- 00:45:16,547 --> 00:45:18,413
- Oh, hell, no!
- 606
- 00:45:18,507 --> 00:45:19,707
- Will!
- 607
- 00:45:24,096 --> 00:45:25,428
- She was scared.
- 608
- 00:45:25,973 --> 00:45:27,635
- I just wanted to do something nice.
- 609
- 00:45:32,521 --> 00:45:34,012
- Come on!
- 610
- 00:45:34,774 --> 00:45:38,358
- She's in more danger under the anesthesia
- than she is with me.
- 611
- 00:45:42,823 --> 00:45:44,064
- Trevor Von.
- 612
- 00:45:45,368 --> 00:45:48,156
- That's who you remind me of.
- 613
- 00:45:48,246 --> 00:45:50,829
- Trevor Von and Amy Presley.
- 614
- 00:45:50,915 --> 00:45:52,781
- Oh, they were...
- 615
- 00:45:52,875 --> 00:45:54,457
- They were in love.
- 616
- 00:45:55,920 --> 00:45:58,628
- And I let them break the rules
- so they could be happy.
- 617
- 00:45:59,006 --> 00:46:00,463
- And let me guess.
- 618
- 00:46:01,425 --> 00:46:02,425
- They died?
- 619
- 00:46:02,510 --> 00:46:04,422
- Yes, Will, they did.
- 620
- 00:46:06,764 --> 00:46:08,630
- On my watch.
- 621
- 00:46:11,519 --> 00:46:14,353
- And I'll be damned
- if I let that happen again.
- 622
- 00:46:36,961 --> 00:46:38,702
- It's gonna be okay.
- 623
- 00:46:57,356 --> 00:46:58,642
- You know what to do.
- 624
- 00:46:58,733 --> 00:46:59,974
- Mm-hmm.
- 625
- 00:47:01,944 --> 00:47:04,561
- Ten, nine...
- 626
- 00:47:05,239 --> 00:47:06,480
- ...eight,
- 627
- 00:47:07,283 --> 00:47:08,649
- seven...
- 628
- 00:47:09,327 --> 00:47:10,327
- six...
- 629
- 00:47:10,411 --> 00:47:12,073
- Shh.
- 630
- 00:47:46,447 --> 00:47:47,688
- Hmm.
- 631
- 00:48:05,341 --> 00:48:07,754
- Oh...
- 632
- 00:48:41,210 --> 00:48:43,668
- Hi, it's me.
- 633
- 00:48:44,296 --> 00:48:48,540
- Call me
- 'cause I miss you, okay?
- 634
- 00:48:49,343 --> 00:48:53,132
- But don't call me, 'cause I just
- got out of surgery and I'm really tired.
- 635
- 00:48:53,806 --> 00:48:57,015
- But call me though when
- you get this because...
- 636
- 00:48:58,269 --> 00:48:59,385
- you're cute.
- 637
- 00:48:59,478 --> 00:49:02,346
- And I wanna see you
- 638
- 00:49:03,357 --> 00:49:05,815
- and your fluffy little hair
- 639
- 00:49:06,986 --> 00:49:10,525
- and your little skinny legs.
- 640
- 00:49:10,614 --> 00:49:11,900
- Okay?
- 641
- 00:49:12,575 --> 00:49:14,487
- Don't call me, though, because...
- 642
- 00:49:15,369 --> 00:49:18,953
- if I hear your sexy voice,
- I won't be able to sleep, so...
- 643
- 00:49:20,541 --> 00:49:23,079
- Call me when you get this, okay?
- 644
- 00:49:24,503 --> 00:49:25,835
- Bye.
- 645
- 00:50:41,539 --> 00:50:43,030
- Will's not coming.
- 646
- 00:50:45,209 --> 00:50:46,416
- Will?
- 647
- 00:50:48,003 --> 00:50:50,086
- I'm not leaving until you open the door.
- 648
- 00:50:54,134 --> 00:50:55,341
- I can't.
- 649
- 00:50:58,430 --> 00:51:01,138
- Just please open the door
- and we can talk about this.
- 650
- 00:51:01,225 --> 00:51:03,433
- Okay? I don't care what Barb said, just...
- 651
- 00:51:03,894 --> 00:51:05,101
- open the door.
- 652
- 00:51:05,187 --> 00:51:06,849
- Stella...
- 653
- 00:51:07,273 --> 00:51:08,389
- I can't.
- 654
- 00:51:08,482 --> 00:51:09,939
- Will, come on.
- 655
- 00:51:23,914 --> 00:51:25,371
- Go away, Stella.
- 656
- 00:51:30,045 --> 00:51:31,661
- Maybe it's better this way.
- 657
- 00:51:31,755 --> 00:51:33,917
- No, I can figure this out.
- 658
- 00:51:34,008 --> 00:51:35,544
- I need to figure this out.
- 659
- 00:51:35,634 --> 00:51:37,341
- We're not normal kids.
- 660
- 00:51:38,596 --> 00:51:40,337
- We don't get to take chances like this.
- 661
- 00:51:40,431 --> 00:51:42,844
- Oh, come on. You're not gonna
- give me that, too?
- 662
- 00:51:42,933 --> 00:51:44,799
- Admit what's going on here.
- 663
- 00:51:44,893 --> 00:51:46,885
- Will's a risk-taker, just like Abby.
- 664
- 00:51:48,606 --> 00:51:50,142
- What's that supposed to mean?
- 665
- 00:51:52,026 --> 00:51:54,860
- You think that I'm the one
- that's afraid to take risks?
- 666
- 00:51:55,529 --> 00:51:58,647
- What about you and your life
- and your relationships?
- 667
- 00:51:58,741 --> 00:52:00,824
- You and Tim, you and Rick,
- you and Michael.
- 668
- 00:52:00,909 --> 00:52:02,775
- - Don't go there.
- - Oh, I could keep going.
- 669
- 00:52:02,870 --> 00:52:05,078
- They knew you were sick
- and they loved you.
- 670
- 00:52:05,164 --> 00:52:08,453
- - You were the one who ran.
- - You don't know what you're talking about.
- 671
- 00:52:08,542 --> 00:52:10,829
- You ruined every chance
- you've ever had at love,
- 672
- 00:52:10,919 --> 00:52:12,706
- so just keep your advice to yourself.
- 673
- 00:53:36,964 --> 00:53:38,125
- Bitch.
- 674
- 00:53:38,590 --> 00:53:39,831
- Asshole.
- 675
- 00:53:41,844 --> 00:53:43,460
- You know, you're right.
- 676
- 00:53:44,388 --> 00:53:45,720
- I am afraid.
- 677
- 00:53:46,473 --> 00:53:48,465
- You know what someone gets for loving me?
- 678
- 00:53:49,059 --> 00:53:53,099
- They get to pay for all my care,
- and then they get to watch me die.
- 679
- 00:53:54,773 --> 00:53:58,107
- Deductibles, meds,
- hospital stays, surgeries.
- 680
- 00:53:58,193 --> 00:54:01,152
- When I turn 18,
- there's no more full coverage.
- 681
- 00:54:01,530 --> 00:54:03,066
- Who should I put that on?
- 682
- 00:54:03,157 --> 00:54:05,069
- Michael or my family?
- 683
- 00:54:05,993 --> 00:54:07,700
- It's my sickness, it's my problem.
- 684
- 00:54:10,330 --> 00:54:12,788
- Maybe we can get Will to marry you.
- He's loaded.
- 685
- 00:54:14,460 --> 00:54:16,372
- He's not picky. He likes you.
- 686
- 00:54:21,967 --> 00:54:23,333
- I am sorry...
- 687
- 00:54:24,762 --> 00:54:26,298
- about you and Will.
- 688
- 00:54:41,028 --> 00:54:42,644
- Stella?
- 689
- 00:54:44,531 --> 00:54:45,738
- What?
- 690
- 00:54:47,993 --> 00:54:49,325
- Stella?
- 691
- 00:55:20,776 --> 00:55:21,983
- Hello.
- 692
- 00:55:22,069 --> 00:55:26,313
- There is something a little bit different
- I want to talk about today.
- 693
- 00:55:26,990 --> 00:55:29,073
- Burkholderia cepacia.
- 694
- 00:55:29,868 --> 00:55:32,326
- The risks, the restrictions,
- 695
- 00:55:32,412 --> 00:55:34,950
- and the rules of engagement.
- 696
- 00:55:35,040 --> 00:55:39,626
- B. cepacia is a hardy bacteria.
- 697
- 00:55:39,711 --> 00:55:45,082
- Okay? It is so adaptive
- that it literally feeds on penicillin.
- 698
- 00:55:45,759 --> 00:55:48,923
- So, our first line of defense is...
- 699
- 00:55:49,555 --> 00:55:53,469
- Cal Stat, a hospital-grade
- hand sterilizer.
- 700
- 00:55:53,976 --> 00:55:56,969
- Apply liberally and often.
- 701
- 00:55:57,062 --> 00:56:01,432
- Next is good old-fashioned latex!
- 702
- 00:56:01,525 --> 00:56:03,983
- Tried and true.
- 703
- 00:56:04,069 --> 00:56:07,278
- Used for protection
- in all types of activities.
- 704
- 00:56:08,323 --> 00:56:13,318
- B. cepacia thrives best
- in saliva or phlegm.
- 705
- 00:56:13,412 --> 00:56:16,075
- Fun fact, a cough can travel six feet,
- 706
- 00:56:16,164 --> 00:56:19,202
- a sneeze can travel
- up to 200 miles per hour.
- 707
- 00:56:19,293 --> 00:56:24,664
- But the "no saliva" thing
- also means no kissing.
- 708
- 00:56:25,507 --> 00:56:26,543
- Ever.
- 709
- 00:56:27,259 --> 00:56:30,002
- So, our best defense is distance.
- 710
- 00:56:30,596 --> 00:56:33,134
- Six feet at all times.
- 711
- 00:56:33,932 --> 00:56:35,548
- Ta-da!
- 712
- 00:56:35,976 --> 00:56:37,262
- Here's a pool cue.
- 713
- 00:56:37,352 --> 00:56:40,140
- It measures approximately five feet.
- 714
- 00:56:41,481 --> 00:56:43,347
- Five feet.
- 715
- 00:56:43,442 --> 00:56:46,276
- I've given a lot of thought
- to foot number six.
- 716
- 00:56:47,321 --> 00:56:49,358
- And you know what? It made me mad.
- 717
- 00:56:50,490 --> 00:56:54,530
- When you have cystic fibrosis,
- so much is taken from you.
- 718
- 00:56:55,162 --> 00:56:56,869
- You live every day of your life
- 719
- 00:56:56,955 --> 00:56:59,413
- according to treatments,
- and pills, and schedules.
- 720
- 00:56:59,499 --> 00:57:01,286
- Most of us can't have children.
- 721
- 00:57:01,710 --> 00:57:04,794
- A lot of us don't even live long enough
- to try to have children.
- 722
- 00:57:04,880 --> 00:57:08,373
- Shit, it's complicated to try to explain,
- 723
- 00:57:08,467 --> 00:57:12,051
- but it's even hard to fall in love.
- 724
- 00:57:14,056 --> 00:57:17,220
- So, after all that CF has stolen from me,
- 725
- 00:57:17,976 --> 00:57:19,183
- from us,
- 726
- 00:57:19,269 --> 00:57:22,057
- I don't mind stealing
- a little something back.
- 727
- 00:57:23,148 --> 00:57:24,514
- One foot.
- 728
- 00:57:25,609 --> 00:57:27,316
- One fucking foot
- 729
- 00:57:27,986 --> 00:57:30,945
- of space, of distance,
- of length, or whatever you wanna call it.
- 730
- 00:57:31,031 --> 00:57:33,318
- I don't mind stealing that back.
- 731
- 00:57:34,076 --> 00:57:35,658
- Because CF...
- 732
- 00:57:38,121 --> 00:57:39,908
- you're not the thief anymore.
- 733
- 00:57:40,582 --> 00:57:41,993
- I'm the thief now.
- 734
- 00:57:55,514 --> 00:57:56,880
- Five feet apart.
- 735
- 00:57:57,432 --> 00:57:58,513
- Deal?
- 736
- 00:58:01,687 --> 00:58:02,973
- Are you in?
- 737
- 00:58:14,157 --> 00:58:15,568
- I'm so in.
- 738
- 00:58:20,872 --> 00:58:23,159
- Atrium. 9:00.
- 739
- 00:58:34,302 --> 00:58:36,043
- Why didn't I pack anything nice?
- 740
- 00:58:36,138 --> 00:58:39,722
- Oh, 'cause you always pack
- for a hot hospital romance.
- 741
- 00:59:08,712 --> 00:59:10,248
- Is this see-through?
- 742
- 00:59:11,256 --> 00:59:13,043
- Don't even think about it, ho.
- 743
- 00:59:45,832 --> 00:59:47,323
- Hi.
- 744
- 00:59:48,251 --> 00:59:49,367
- Hi.
- 745
- 01:00:13,068 --> 01:00:15,276
- He cut and ran when I was born.
- 746
- 01:00:15,362 --> 01:00:17,854
- I guess having a sick kid
- wasn't part of his plan.
- 747
- 01:00:18,532 --> 01:00:19,943
- What about your mom?
- 748
- 01:00:20,033 --> 01:00:22,867
- She's beautiful and driven and smart.
- 749
- 01:00:22,953 --> 01:00:26,788
- She's just focused on me and me alone.
- 750
- 01:00:28,291 --> 01:00:32,376
- So, starting tomorrow, when I'm 18,
- I will be making the decisions for myself.
- 751
- 01:00:32,754 --> 01:00:34,211
- Wait, wait, wait, wait.
- 752
- 01:00:34,881 --> 01:00:36,167
- Tomorrow's your birthday?
- 753
- 01:00:37,843 --> 01:00:41,007
- You could have told me that.
- I don't have a present for you.
- 754
- 01:00:42,764 --> 01:00:45,802
- How about you just promise
- to stick around for the next one?
- 755
- 01:00:49,229 --> 01:00:50,310
- Come on.
- 756
- 01:00:51,815 --> 01:00:53,477
- I'm getting out of here.
- 757
- 01:00:56,361 --> 01:00:58,193
- There is this one theory I like
- 758
- 01:00:58,697 --> 01:01:01,656
- that says, "To understand death,
- you have to look at birth."
- 759
- 01:01:03,118 --> 01:01:04,734
- So, like,
- 760
- 01:01:05,120 --> 01:01:09,080
- while we're in the womb,
- we're living that existence,
- 761
- 01:01:09,166 --> 01:01:13,627
- not knowing that our next existence
- is just an inch away.
- 762
- 01:01:14,296 --> 01:01:17,380
- So, maybe it's the same with death.
- 763
- 01:01:17,465 --> 01:01:22,631
- Maybe death is just the next life,
- but an inch away.
- 764
- 01:01:24,055 --> 01:01:27,799
- Or maybe it's just a big sleep, baby.
- 765
- 01:01:29,144 --> 01:01:30,385
- Lights out.
- 766
- 01:01:31,104 --> 01:01:32,265
- Done and done.
- 767
- 01:01:32,981 --> 01:01:34,142
- No.
- 768
- 01:01:36,943 --> 01:01:38,525
- No, there's no way that...
- 769
- 01:01:40,030 --> 01:01:43,364
- Abby just blinked out.
- 770
- 01:01:43,450 --> 01:01:45,032
- I refuse to believe it.
- 771
- 01:01:46,828 --> 01:01:49,241
- What happened with Abby?
- 772
- 01:01:53,835 --> 01:01:56,748
- She was cliff diving in California.
- 773
- 01:01:57,923 --> 01:02:00,506
- She landed wrong,
- broke her neck and drowned.
- 774
- 01:02:04,471 --> 01:02:06,679
- They said she didn't feel any pain, but...
- 775
- 01:02:08,391 --> 01:02:10,508
- how would they know if she felt pain?
- 776
- 01:02:11,853 --> 01:02:15,017
- I was supposed to be there
- with her, but I got sick.
- 777
- 01:02:15,482 --> 01:02:17,269
- Like I always do.
- 778
- 01:02:19,569 --> 01:02:22,562
- I just keep imagining it
- over and over again,
- 779
- 01:02:23,782 --> 01:02:25,114
- what she was feeling.
- 780
- 01:02:31,081 --> 01:02:33,619
- Without knowing that,
- she just never stops dying.
- 781
- 01:02:33,708 --> 01:02:35,040
- Stella.
- 782
- 01:02:35,627 --> 01:02:38,586
- Even if you were there,
- you still wouldn't know.
- 783
- 01:02:38,672 --> 01:02:40,208
- But I wasn't there.
- 784
- 01:02:43,677 --> 01:02:45,293
- She died alone.
- 785
- 01:02:48,014 --> 01:02:49,676
- Isn't that how we're gonna die?
- 786
- 01:02:51,434 --> 01:02:54,142
- Drowning, just without the water.
- 787
- 01:02:55,063 --> 01:02:57,271
- Our own fluids doing the dirty work.
- 788
- 01:03:01,611 --> 01:03:03,477
- I think about that last breath a lot.
- 789
- 01:03:04,864 --> 01:03:06,480
- Gasping for air,
- 790
- 01:03:07,867 --> 01:03:09,449
- not getting any.
- 791
- 01:03:11,162 --> 01:03:12,448
- No air, just...
- 792
- 01:03:14,374 --> 01:03:15,615
- black.
- 793
- 01:03:17,877 --> 01:03:19,459
- But that's only on Mondays.
- 794
- 01:03:19,546 --> 01:03:21,208
- Otherwise, I don't dwell on it.
- 795
- 01:03:25,427 --> 01:03:27,384
- There's that smile.
- 796
- 01:03:33,518 --> 01:03:34,975
- God, you're beautiful.
- 797
- 01:03:36,938 --> 01:03:38,349
- And brave.
- 798
- 01:03:43,361 --> 01:03:44,977
- I wish I could touch you.
- 799
- 01:04:33,828 --> 01:04:35,160
- I lied...
- 800
- 01:04:35,914 --> 01:04:37,371
- when we met.
- 801
- 01:04:40,418 --> 01:04:41,534
- I've never had sex.
- 802
- 01:04:46,216 --> 01:04:48,424
- I've never wanted anyone to see me.
- 803
- 01:04:48,510 --> 01:04:50,001
- The scars, the...
- 804
- 01:04:53,848 --> 01:04:55,805
- the tube, nothing about it's sexy.
- 805
- 01:04:57,268 --> 01:04:59,100
- Everything about you is sexy.
- 806
- 01:05:01,940 --> 01:05:03,397
- I think you're perfect.
- 807
- 01:07:10,527 --> 01:07:12,393
- - Good morning.
- - Good morning.
- 808
- 01:07:19,160 --> 01:07:20,901
- See those lights out there?
- 809
- 01:07:21,329 --> 01:07:23,491
- Abby and I would call them stars
- 810
- 01:07:23,581 --> 01:07:25,664
- and we would make wishes.
- 811
- 01:07:27,835 --> 01:07:29,872
- She'd never tell me what
- her wish was, but...
- 812
- 01:07:32,090 --> 01:07:34,298
- I knew she wished for new lungs for me.
- 813
- 01:07:35,843 --> 01:07:37,584
- I hope she gets her wish.
- 814
- 01:07:38,012 --> 01:07:39,969
- Yeah, me too.
- 815
- 01:07:43,017 --> 01:07:44,974
- - Mornin', Barb.
- - Good morning, Robert.
- 816
- 01:08:11,462 --> 01:08:12,998
- Where are they?
- 817
- 01:08:14,507 --> 01:08:15,748
- Who?
- 818
- 01:08:16,551 --> 01:08:18,133
- What are you talking about?
- 819
- 01:08:31,190 --> 01:08:34,274
- - Oh, shit. Barb knows we're gone.
- - Okay.
- 820
- 01:08:34,360 --> 01:08:37,398
- Uh, she'll look for me first
- in the NICU, so...
- 821
- 01:08:38,281 --> 01:08:40,238
- Bye! Okay.
- 822
- 01:10:15,545 --> 01:10:17,377
- I'm free!
- 823
- 01:10:18,464 --> 01:10:19,625
- Oh...
- 824
- 01:10:20,049 --> 01:10:21,631
- Oh, my gosh!
- 825
- 01:10:21,718 --> 01:10:23,050
- Happy birthday!
- 826
- 01:10:23,136 --> 01:10:24,843
- I'm so sorry. I forgot.
- 827
- 01:10:24,929 --> 01:10:26,045
- No, it's fine.
- 828
- 01:10:26,139 --> 01:10:28,158
- What are you doing? Are you busy?
- Let's take a walk.
- 829
- 01:10:28,182 --> 01:10:29,889
- I can't right now.
- 830
- 01:10:29,976 --> 01:10:31,217
- I'm sorry.
- 831
- 01:10:31,978 --> 01:10:32,978
- Studying.
- 832
- 01:10:33,062 --> 01:10:34,519
- Maybe later?
- 833
- 01:10:35,022 --> 01:10:36,763
- My friends are actually coming later.
- 834
- 01:10:36,858 --> 01:10:38,099
- That's all right.
- 835
- 01:10:38,192 --> 01:10:39,649
- We'll figure something out.
- 836
- 01:10:40,862 --> 01:10:42,444
- I was just, uh,
- 837
- 01:10:43,239 --> 01:10:44,605
- missing you.
- 838
- 01:10:47,702 --> 01:10:49,318
- Talk to you later.
- 839
- 01:10:49,412 --> 01:10:51,244
- All right. Bye.
- 840
- 01:10:57,336 --> 01:10:58,452
- Jason.
- 841
- 01:11:00,173 --> 01:11:01,209
- Yeah, no. Don't...
- 842
- 01:11:01,299 --> 01:11:03,040
- No. Don't worry about it. It's fine.
- 843
- 01:11:03,760 --> 01:11:05,717
- No, seriously, I'm not mad.
- 844
- 01:11:07,180 --> 01:11:09,137
- It's fine. Just do your thing.
- 845
- 01:11:10,391 --> 01:11:11,848
- I'll talk to you tomorrow.
- 846
- 01:13:50,635 --> 01:13:52,297
- Thought you'd never find me.
- 847
- 01:13:55,097 --> 01:13:56,713
- I know it's late,
- 848
- 01:13:56,807 --> 01:13:59,299
- but we had to wait
- till the cafeteria closed.
- 849
- 01:13:59,936 --> 01:14:00,936
- "We"?
- 850
- 01:14:00,937 --> 01:14:02,428
- Mm-hmm.
- 851
- 01:14:06,943 --> 01:14:08,855
- Surprise!
- 852
- 01:14:08,945 --> 01:14:11,562
- Happy birthday, Will!
- 853
- 01:14:12,281 --> 01:14:14,398
- We felt so bad for ditching you, dude.
- 854
- 01:14:14,492 --> 01:14:17,735
- But your girlfriend DM'd us
- and convinced us to surprise you, man.
- 855
- 01:14:17,828 --> 01:14:19,535
- - "Girlfriend"?
- - Happy birthday.
- 856
- 01:14:19,622 --> 01:14:20,703
- You're so good.
- 857
- 01:14:20,790 --> 01:14:22,497
- Yeah, I'm good.
- 858
- 01:14:22,583 --> 01:14:25,041
- - I can't believe he's real.
- - I know!
- 859
- 01:14:25,127 --> 01:14:28,211
- - And he's even hotter in person.
- - Seriously.
- 860
- 01:14:28,297 --> 01:14:30,380
- Hey, the food's almost ready!
- 861
- 01:14:31,008 --> 01:14:33,716
- And happy birthday!
- 862
- 01:14:40,226 --> 01:14:42,969
- Just wanted to observe the master at work.
- 863
- 01:14:43,437 --> 01:14:45,804
- - Are those roses?
- - Mm-hmm.
- 864
- 01:14:47,566 --> 01:14:50,183
- They're so beautiful. How do you do that?
- 865
- 01:14:50,528 --> 01:14:51,860
- I've been practicing.
- 866
- 01:14:55,866 --> 01:14:58,483
- 'Cause next month, Michael
- and I are gonna go see my mom.
- 867
- 01:14:59,495 --> 01:15:00,702
- Really?
- 868
- 01:15:02,164 --> 01:15:04,406
- He's coming to lunch tomorrow
- and I'm gonna go for it.
- 869
- 01:15:04,500 --> 01:15:06,958
- Oh, my God!
- 870
- 01:15:09,296 --> 01:15:10,332
- He loves me.
- 871
- 01:15:11,465 --> 01:15:12,626
- And I love him, too.
- 872
- 01:15:13,843 --> 01:15:17,177
- - Aw, Poe, I'm... I'm so happy!
- - No.
- 873
- 01:15:17,263 --> 01:15:20,176
- Don't go all soppy on me.
- You know I can't let a girl cry alone.
- 874
- 01:15:22,393 --> 01:15:24,134
- They're hap... They're happy tears.
- 875
- 01:15:25,062 --> 01:15:26,678
- I'm happy for you, Poe.
- 876
- 01:15:32,069 --> 01:15:33,185
- Let's eat!
- 877
- 01:15:48,794 --> 01:15:50,911
- Poe, where did you get all of this?
- 878
- 01:15:51,005 --> 01:15:54,089
- Hospitals have VIP kitchens
- where they keep all the good stuff.
- 879
- 01:15:54,300 --> 01:15:56,542
- You know, for celebrities, politicians.
- 880
- 01:15:57,136 --> 01:15:59,423
- But tonight, Birthday Boy, it's for you.
- 881
- 01:16:01,390 --> 01:16:02,506
- Salud!
- 882
- 01:16:02,933 --> 01:16:04,390
- Salud!
- 883
- 01:16:18,032 --> 01:16:19,489
- We were, like, ten!
- 884
- 01:16:19,784 --> 01:16:22,572
- Yes. And we literally
- put sheets over our head
- 885
- 01:16:22,661 --> 01:16:24,243
- and ran into the dementia ward!
- 886
- 01:16:28,292 --> 01:16:29,828
- It was just like that!
- 887
- 01:16:30,086 --> 01:16:32,166
- - Woo!
- - It was pandemonium.
- 888
- 01:16:32,338 --> 01:16:35,422
- - It was crazy.
- - It was the best Halloween ever!
- 889
- 01:16:36,550 --> 01:16:38,041
- We got in so much trouble.
- 890
- 01:16:38,135 --> 01:16:41,754
- And it wasn't even our idea. Remember?
- Abby... Abby came up with that.
- 891
- 01:16:51,941 --> 01:16:53,477
- Abby was wild.
- 892
- 01:16:54,318 --> 01:16:56,480
- - She was free.
- - Hmm.
- 893
- 01:16:56,570 --> 01:16:59,654
- She always said she was gonna
- live big because Stella couldn't.
- 894
- 01:17:01,075 --> 01:17:02,075
- She did.
- 895
- 01:17:02,159 --> 01:17:03,616
- She lived big.
- 896
- 01:17:03,702 --> 01:17:05,489
- Bigger than any of us.
- 897
- 01:17:06,622 --> 01:17:08,955
- She would've loved
- a clandestine party like this one!
- 898
- 01:17:09,208 --> 01:17:10,289
- She would've.
- 899
- 01:17:13,045 --> 01:17:14,911
- - To Abby.
- - To Abby.
- 900
- 01:17:16,298 --> 01:17:17,334
- To Abby.
- 901
- 01:17:22,304 --> 01:17:27,015
- ♪ Happy Birthday to you ♪
- 902
- 01:17:27,101 --> 01:17:28,433
- Whoo!
- 903
- 01:17:30,146 --> 01:17:31,353
- Make a wish!
- 904
- 01:17:36,652 --> 01:17:39,360
- I can't blow the candles out
- or else you guys can't eat it.
- 905
- 01:17:45,327 --> 01:17:46,659
- I made a wish for you.
- 906
- 01:17:46,745 --> 01:17:48,031
- Thank you.
- 907
- 01:17:48,122 --> 01:17:49,954
- One. Two.
- 908
- 01:17:50,040 --> 01:17:51,184
- - All right.
- - Three.
- 909
- 01:17:52,626 --> 01:17:53,992
- Yay!
- 910
- 01:17:54,086 --> 01:17:56,419
- - Happy Birthday, Will!
- - Yes!
- 911
- 01:17:58,507 --> 01:17:59,507
- Barb?
- 912
- 01:17:59,800 --> 01:18:00,836
- Hey!
- 913
- 01:18:02,386 --> 01:18:04,218
- We thought you were off tonight.
- 914
- 01:18:04,305 --> 01:18:05,921
- You want us to fix you a plate?
- 915
- 01:18:07,349 --> 01:18:08,760
- That's it. That's it.
- 916
- 01:18:08,851 --> 01:18:11,594
- You're all confined to your rooms
- while we get respiratory cultures.
- 917
- 01:18:11,687 --> 01:18:12,768
- And you.
- 918
- 01:18:13,147 --> 01:18:14,729
- You'll be transferred in the morning.
- 919
- 01:18:14,815 --> 01:18:16,727
- Barb! Barb, it wasn't his fault.
- 920
- 01:18:16,817 --> 01:18:19,685
- Well, you might be willing to gamble
- with your lives, but I'm not!
- 921
- 01:18:19,778 --> 01:18:21,314
- Just like when we were kids.
- 922
- 01:18:21,405 --> 01:18:23,397
- But you're not kids anymore, Poe.
- 923
- 01:18:23,490 --> 01:18:25,231
- But we were safe like you taught us to be.
- 924
- 01:18:25,326 --> 01:18:26,487
- Oh...
- 925
- 01:18:26,869 --> 01:18:28,952
- I'm sorry, but it was fun!
- 926
- 01:18:44,595 --> 01:18:46,632
- All right,
- I'll let you sleep, okay?
- 927
- 01:18:46,722 --> 01:18:47,883
- Good night.
- 928
- 01:18:48,474 --> 01:18:49,635
- Good night.
- 929
- 01:18:59,735 --> 01:19:01,146
- A little pick-me-up?
- 930
- 01:19:01,237 --> 01:19:02,444
- Thank you.
- 931
- 01:19:03,197 --> 01:19:05,189
- It's just safer if he goes.
- 932
- 01:19:06,283 --> 01:19:07,569
- You're probably right.
- 933
- 01:19:07,660 --> 01:19:09,322
- She's gonna hate me.
- 934
- 01:19:09,578 --> 01:19:11,490
- Mm-hmm.
- 935
- 01:19:13,832 --> 01:19:15,073
- What's up, Poe?
- 936
- 01:19:16,835 --> 01:19:20,249
- He probably sat on
- the call button again. I got it.
- 937
- 01:19:23,968 --> 01:19:26,005
- Knock, knock. Poe?
- 938
- 01:19:30,849 --> 01:19:32,511
- Code Blue!
- 939
- 01:19:35,187 --> 01:19:37,144
- Attention,
- all medical personnel.
- 940
- 01:19:37,231 --> 01:19:38,688
- - Poe! Poe!
- - Code Blue. Room 310.
- 941
- 01:19:38,774 --> 01:19:40,231
- - Poe!
- - Stay with me.
- 942
- 01:19:40,317 --> 01:19:41,524
- No pulse.
- 943
- 01:19:41,610 --> 01:19:42,851
- Oh, God! Okay.
- 944
- 01:19:42,945 --> 01:19:45,358
- - Stay with me, baby.
- - He's not breathing.
- 945
- 01:19:45,739 --> 01:19:48,823
- - Come on, you can do it. Come on.
- - Bag him. Start chest compressions!
- 946
- 01:19:49,952 --> 01:19:51,513
- - Come on!
- - Come on, Poe.
- 947
- 01:19:51,537 --> 01:19:53,870
- - Come on, baby! Come on, baby.
- - Give him an Epi!
- 948
- 01:19:53,956 --> 01:19:56,573
- It's a massive tension pneumothorax.
- His lung's collapsing.
- 949
- 01:19:59,503 --> 01:20:01,620
- - Put the pads on him!
- - Come on, buddy.
- 950
- 01:20:01,714 --> 01:20:04,172
- - What's happening?
- - Come on, sweetie!
- 951
- 01:20:04,258 --> 01:20:06,258
- - Come on, buddy!
- - Barb, what's happening?
- 952
- 01:20:06,552 --> 01:20:08,714
- Somebody get her out of here!
- Close that door!
- 953
- 01:20:08,804 --> 01:20:11,171
- - Barb, what's happening?
- - Goddamn it! Breathe!
- 954
- 01:20:18,063 --> 01:20:19,349
- Dr. Hamid?
- 955
- 01:20:19,440 --> 01:20:20,601
- Not now, Stella.
- 956
- 01:20:20,691 --> 01:20:22,523
- Dr. Hamid?
- 957
- 01:20:25,821 --> 01:20:27,062
- I'm sorry.
- 958
- 01:20:28,657 --> 01:20:29,943
- I'm so sorry.
- 959
- 01:20:30,034 --> 01:20:31,195
- No!
- 960
- 01:20:33,120 --> 01:20:34,361
- No!
- 961
- 01:20:35,122 --> 01:20:37,114
- I'm so sorry.
- 962
- 01:20:50,012 --> 01:20:51,012
- No!
- 963
- 01:20:56,518 --> 01:20:57,759
- Oh, my God.
- 964
- 01:21:00,189 --> 01:21:02,272
- Oh, my God. He's gone.
- 965
- 01:21:03,650 --> 01:21:07,314
- Michael's never gonna see him again.
- His parents are never gonna see him again.
- 966
- 01:21:09,406 --> 01:21:11,773
- I'm never gonna see him again.
- 967
- 01:21:16,872 --> 01:21:18,488
- I never hugged him.
- 968
- 01:21:20,042 --> 01:21:21,283
- I never hugged him.
- 969
- 01:21:21,377 --> 01:21:24,620
- He's my best friend
- and I never fucking hugged him.
- 970
- 01:21:27,341 --> 01:21:28,798
- Oh, God!
- 971
- 01:21:32,346 --> 01:21:33,837
- I'm losing everyone.
- 972
- 01:21:34,348 --> 01:21:36,010
- Hey, you're not losing me.
- 973
- 01:21:37,226 --> 01:21:38,342
- What are you doing?
- 974
- 01:21:39,978 --> 01:21:42,186
- - Get out! Get out!
- - I'm sorry.
- 975
- 01:21:42,940 --> 01:21:44,306
- Just get out!
- 976
- 01:24:47,541 --> 01:24:48,952
- I wanna go see the lights.
- 977
- 01:24:49,960 --> 01:24:52,122
- It's gotta be, like, two miles away.
- 978
- 01:24:54,047 --> 01:24:56,084
- - Hey, come on, let's go inside.
- - I'm going.
- 979
- 01:24:57,301 --> 01:24:58,587
- Come with me.
- 980
- 01:24:59,428 --> 01:25:01,636
- Stella, now's not the time
- to be rebellious.
- 981
- 01:25:01,722 --> 01:25:03,008
- Is this about Poe?
- 982
- 01:25:03,098 --> 01:25:04,134
- It is about Poe.
- 983
- 01:25:04,600 --> 01:25:06,683
- It's about Abby, it's about you and me
- 984
- 01:25:06,768 --> 01:25:09,181
- and all the things
- that we'll never get to do together.
- 985
- 01:25:09,896 --> 01:25:13,105
- This whole time, I've been
- living for my treatments
- 986
- 01:25:13,191 --> 01:25:15,649
- instead of doing my treatments
- so that I can live.
- 987
- 01:25:17,988 --> 01:25:19,229
- I wanna live.
- 988
- 01:25:23,493 --> 01:25:25,155
- It's just life, Will.
- 989
- 01:25:25,245 --> 01:25:26,861
- It'll be over before we know it.
- 990
- 01:25:32,794 --> 01:25:33,875
- All right.
- 991
- 01:25:36,131 --> 01:25:37,793
- Can we catch a cab at least?
- 992
- 01:25:39,635 --> 01:25:41,467
- I wanna walk and enjoy the night.
- 993
- 01:25:45,474 --> 01:25:47,010
- Glove. We're good.
- 994
- 01:26:03,408 --> 01:26:05,445
- How are you always
- getting me to exercise?
- 995
- 01:26:21,968 --> 01:26:23,925
- It sure looks better from up here.
- 996
- 01:26:51,957 --> 01:26:52,957
- What's that?
- 997
- 01:26:57,129 --> 01:26:58,995
- Yeah, you're gonna
- have to explain that one.
- 998
- 01:27:02,634 --> 01:27:05,468
- Abby got it for me
- the first time I came to the hospital.
- 999
- 01:27:05,846 --> 01:27:07,758
- I've had it with me every time since.
- 1000
- 01:27:10,434 --> 01:27:11,550
- That's a relief, honestly,
- 1001
- 01:27:11,643 --> 01:27:15,057
- 'cause I didn't have the heart to tell you
- that a third boob might be a deal breaker.
- 1002
- 01:27:46,762 --> 01:27:48,048
- Hey, Stella.
- 1003
- 01:27:49,347 --> 01:27:50,347
- Hmm?
- 1004
- 01:27:50,974 --> 01:27:52,761
- It's cold.
- 1005
- 01:28:02,694 --> 01:28:03,730
- Come on.
- 1006
- 01:28:04,279 --> 01:28:05,565
- Let's go see your lights.
- 1007
- 01:28:18,126 --> 01:28:19,458
- Let's take a breather.
- 1008
- 01:28:30,472 --> 01:28:32,259
- - Stella? Hey, don't do that.
- - Ooh!
- 1009
- 01:28:32,724 --> 01:28:33,840
- Stella...
- 1010
- 01:28:33,934 --> 01:28:35,300
- It's frozen solid.
- 1011
- 01:28:46,404 --> 01:28:47,404
- Hey, ladies.
- 1012
- 01:28:47,489 --> 01:28:49,697
- I just got a call from St. Luke's
- in Kansas City.
- 1013
- 01:28:49,783 --> 01:28:51,024
- Car accident with fatalities.
- 1014
- 01:28:51,117 --> 01:28:54,326
- One female, AB neg, 5'2",
- thoracic cage size...
- 1015
- 01:28:54,412 --> 01:28:57,450
- - Stella's getting lungs.
- - ETA three hours. Get her prepped.
- 1016
- 01:29:02,379 --> 01:29:03,540
- Oh, my God.
- 1017
- 01:29:08,176 --> 01:29:10,133
- No, no, no, no, no.
- 1018
- 01:29:10,220 --> 01:29:12,462
- No, no, no, no, no. No!
- 1019
- 01:29:23,441 --> 01:29:24,441
- Whew!
- 1020
- 01:29:48,717 --> 01:29:49,798
- Hey.
- 1021
- 01:29:52,053 --> 01:29:53,260
- Everything all right?
- 1022
- 01:30:04,232 --> 01:30:05,232
- Yeah.
- 1023
- 01:30:09,404 --> 01:30:10,861
- Yeah, I'm good.
- 1024
- 01:30:14,534 --> 01:30:16,196
- Oh!
- 1025
- 01:30:22,792 --> 01:30:23,999
- I love you, Stella.
- 1026
- 01:30:46,691 --> 01:30:47,772
- I love you, too.
- 1027
- 01:31:23,561 --> 01:31:24,802
- We can't.
- 1028
- 01:31:30,276 --> 01:31:31,392
- I know.
- 1029
- 01:31:33,321 --> 01:31:34,357
- Stella.
- 1030
- 01:31:51,214 --> 01:31:52,214
- Oh...
- 1031
- 01:31:52,465 --> 01:31:56,084
- - Shit!
- - Come on, come on. Come on.
- 1032
- 01:31:56,177 --> 01:31:57,384
- Oh my gosh!
- 1033
- 01:31:57,470 --> 01:31:59,336
- Come on.
- 1034
- 01:31:59,848 --> 01:32:02,181
- Barb. Barb? Barb.
- 1035
- 01:32:02,267 --> 01:32:04,680
- She's not answering
- and now it's going straight to voicemail.
- 1036
- 01:32:04,769 --> 01:32:06,689
- Stella would never run off.
- She wouldn't do that.
- 1037
- 01:32:06,730 --> 01:32:08,596
- - Have you been able to reach him?
- - No.
- 1038
- 01:32:08,690 --> 01:32:09,690
- This is Will's mother.
- 1039
- 01:32:09,774 --> 01:32:11,752
- - How long have they been gone?
- - At least an hour.
- 1040
- 01:32:11,776 --> 01:32:13,656
- If your son causes Stella
- to lose these lungs...
- 1041
- 01:32:13,737 --> 01:32:17,401
- - My son is just as sick as your daughter.
- - Stella would never do anything like this.
- 1042
- 01:32:17,490 --> 01:32:19,527
- Stella did this, Erin. Not Will.
- 1043
- 01:32:19,617 --> 01:32:21,324
- He doesn't know anything about the lungs.
- 1044
- 01:32:21,995 --> 01:32:23,236
- Lungs?
- 1045
- 01:32:23,329 --> 01:32:24,740
- - Is there a transplant?
- - Yes.
- 1046
- 01:32:24,831 --> 01:32:26,447
- Yeah, for Stella. They're on the way.
- 1047
- 01:32:27,125 --> 01:32:30,118
- Well, tell me at least
- you're a cat person. Do you like cats?
- 1048
- 01:32:30,211 --> 01:32:31,543
- I owned a ferret.
- 1049
- 01:32:31,629 --> 01:32:33,416
- I was a ferret kid.
- 1050
- 01:32:33,506 --> 01:32:35,293
- Oh, no. You would be a ferret kid.
- 1051
- 01:32:35,550 --> 01:32:37,382
- Hold on.
- 1052
- 01:32:37,469 --> 01:32:39,051
- - Don't answer it.
- - Come on.
- 1053
- 01:32:39,137 --> 01:32:41,073
- - Really, what do they need right now?
- - It's my mom.
- 1054
- 01:32:41,097 --> 01:32:43,589
- - Yeah, but...
- - Let me just tell her that I'm okay.
- 1055
- 01:32:48,605 --> 01:32:50,141
- Stella, they have new lungs for you.
- 1056
- 01:32:52,233 --> 01:32:55,101
- Hey, they have new lungs for you.
- Let's go to the hospital. Come on!
- 1057
- 01:32:55,195 --> 01:32:56,686
- I haven't seen the lights yet.
- 1058
- 01:32:57,864 --> 01:32:58,945
- The lights?
- 1059
- 01:32:59,574 --> 01:33:01,907
- Do you know about this?
- What are we doing out here?
- 1060
- 01:33:01,993 --> 01:33:04,055
- - Let's go to the hospital. Come on.
- - Five years, Will.
- 1061
- 01:33:04,079 --> 01:33:05,347
- - Five years?
- - That's the shelf life.
- 1062
- 01:33:05,371 --> 01:33:06,766
- Five years is a lifetime
- for people like us.
- 1063
- 01:33:06,790 --> 01:33:10,158
- - It's not! What happens when they fail...
- - Can we go the hospital, please?
- 1064
- 01:33:10,251 --> 01:33:11,854
- - Come on, let's go.
- - Will? Will?
- 1065
- 01:33:11,878 --> 01:33:13,039
- Stella!
- 1066
- 01:33:13,254 --> 01:33:14,415
- Stella!
- 1067
- 01:33:25,975 --> 01:33:27,216
- Stella.
- 1068
- 01:33:27,310 --> 01:33:28,426
- Come on.
- 1069
- 01:33:28,728 --> 01:33:30,640
- Please? It's cold.
- 1070
- 01:33:34,734 --> 01:33:35,815
- Stella!
- 1071
- 01:33:43,368 --> 01:33:44,575
- Stella!
- 1072
- 01:34:01,010 --> 01:34:02,010
- Stella.
- 1073
- 01:34:40,466 --> 01:34:41,466
- Help!
- 1074
- 01:34:54,022 --> 01:34:55,103
- Come on, Stella.
- 1075
- 01:35:14,500 --> 01:35:15,741
- Come on!
- 1076
- 01:35:16,169 --> 01:35:17,376
- Come on!
- 1077
- 01:35:22,133 --> 01:35:23,133
- Come on, Stella.
- 1078
- 01:36:56,936 --> 01:36:57,976
- What have we got?
- 1079
- 01:36:58,062 --> 01:37:00,224
- A 17-year-old
- female with cystic fibrosis.
- 1080
- 01:37:00,315 --> 01:37:02,056
- We already have lungs for her.
- 1081
- 01:37:02,150 --> 01:37:04,642
- - Can someone get the other mask on?
- - Oh, my God. Honey.
- 1082
- 01:37:04,736 --> 01:37:07,194
- It's okay.
- 1083
- 01:37:07,280 --> 01:37:09,442
- My son. My son was out there, too.
- 1084
- 01:37:09,532 --> 01:37:11,023
- I'm sorry. Step back, please.
- 1085
- 01:37:11,117 --> 01:37:12,233
- You're okay.
- 1086
- 01:37:12,327 --> 01:37:13,967
- - Where's Will?
- - It's okay, honey.
- 1087
- 01:37:14,037 --> 01:37:15,118
- Where's Will?
- 1088
- 01:37:15,204 --> 01:37:16,204
- Honey.
- 1089
- 01:37:16,289 --> 01:37:17,746
- - Coming through!
- - Will!
- 1090
- 01:37:18,750 --> 01:37:20,332
- - Is he okay?
- - He's okay.
- 1091
- 01:37:20,418 --> 01:37:21,704
- Will, I'm here.
- 1092
- 01:37:21,794 --> 01:37:24,457
- Get the other mask on her
- as soon as possible, please.
- 1093
- 01:37:24,547 --> 01:37:26,459
- O2 is at 45. Possible hypothermia.
- 1094
- 01:37:26,591 --> 01:37:29,611
- - We're gonna need more blankets over here.
- - It's okay. Just breathe.
- 1095
- 01:37:29,635 --> 01:37:32,298
- - Stella?
- - It's okay, I've got you, honey.
- 1096
- 01:37:32,388 --> 01:37:34,268
- - Stella?
- - It's okay, just breathe.
- 1097
- 01:37:34,349 --> 01:37:36,261
- You need to calm down.
- We have your new lungs...
- 1098
- 01:37:36,351 --> 01:37:38,231
- - No! I don't want them.
- - Yes, Stella.
- 1099
- 01:37:38,311 --> 01:37:39,847
- I don't... I don't want them.
- 1100
- 01:37:39,937 --> 01:37:43,137
- Stella, we've been waiting for these lungs
- for years. What are you talking about?
- 1101
- 01:37:43,191 --> 01:37:45,274
- If you don't use the lungs,
- they're wasted, sweetie.
- 1102
- 01:37:45,360 --> 01:37:47,773
- I love him. The new lungs
- won't mean anything without him.
- 1103
- 01:37:47,862 --> 01:37:50,195
- - Get that mask back on him.
- - Keep that on, Will.
- 1104
- 01:37:50,281 --> 01:37:51,592
- - Stop! Stop!
- - Hold still.
- 1105
- 01:37:51,616 --> 01:37:53,357
- Please! Stop.
- 1106
- 01:37:53,993 --> 01:37:55,905
- Will!
- 1107
- 01:37:56,204 --> 01:37:57,445
- Please.
- 1108
- 01:37:59,540 --> 01:38:00,747
- Take the lungs.
- 1109
- 01:38:02,418 --> 01:38:03,579
- For me.
- 1110
- 01:38:06,839 --> 01:38:08,525
- - Okay.
- - Come on, put the mask on.
- 1111
- 01:38:08,549 --> 01:38:11,132
- - I'm ready. Okay.
- - Okay. All right, let's go.
- 1112
- 01:38:11,219 --> 01:38:14,132
- Okay, okay. I'll be right here, honey.
- 1113
- 01:38:14,222 --> 01:38:15,383
- Let's go.
- 1114
- 01:38:16,140 --> 01:38:18,348
- - Okay, I love you so much.
- - Okay.
- 1115
- 01:38:19,185 --> 01:38:20,266
- I love you, Dad.
- 1116
- 01:38:21,729 --> 01:38:23,641
- - Okay, here we go.
- - I love you.
- 1117
- 01:38:23,731 --> 01:38:25,017
- Dr. Hamid.
- 1118
- 01:38:25,608 --> 01:38:27,190
- I gave her mouth-to-mouth.
- 1119
- 01:38:29,070 --> 01:38:30,936
- I'm sorry. I didn't have any other choice.
- 1120
- 01:38:31,030 --> 01:38:32,146
- You saved her life, Will.
- 1121
- 01:38:32,240 --> 01:38:34,402
- If she has B. cepacia,
- we'll deal with it, okay?
- 1122
- 01:40:30,733 --> 01:40:32,520
- Bacterial cultures came back.
- 1123
- 01:40:33,945 --> 01:40:36,733
- I don't know how, but she's clean.
- 1124
- 01:40:37,532 --> 01:40:38,818
- She didn't get it.
- 1125
- 01:40:42,537 --> 01:40:44,199
- But that doesn't mean she won't.
- 1126
- 01:40:48,751 --> 01:40:49,992
- What about Will?
- 1127
- 01:40:51,671 --> 01:40:53,128
- Is the treatment working?
- 1128
- 01:40:58,135 --> 01:40:59,296
- No.
- 1129
- 01:41:01,681 --> 01:41:03,092
- No, it's not.
- 1130
- 01:41:11,649 --> 01:41:12,765
- I'm sorry.
- 1131
- 01:41:15,111 --> 01:41:16,397
- - For all of this.
- - No.
- 1132
- 01:41:16,487 --> 01:41:18,524
- No, no, no, no, sweetie.
- 1133
- 01:41:20,241 --> 01:41:21,698
- It's not your fault.
- 1134
- 01:42:25,348 --> 01:42:26,964
- Mom. Hey.
- 1135
- 01:42:27,683 --> 01:42:28,799
- Hey.
- 1136
- 01:42:28,893 --> 01:42:30,759
- What? What is it? What is it, honey?
- 1137
- 01:42:31,937 --> 01:42:33,644
- Could you help me with something?
- 1138
- 01:42:38,194 --> 01:42:39,480
- Are you guys in?
- 1139
- 01:42:39,570 --> 01:42:41,152
- - Absolutely.
- - Mm-hmm.
- 1140
- 01:42:42,114 --> 01:42:43,275
- Barb?
- 1141
- 01:42:45,159 --> 01:42:46,650
- Hell, yeah, I'm in.
- 1142
- 01:42:47,912 --> 01:42:49,995
- She's sedated. We have a few more hours.
- 1143
- 01:42:50,623 --> 01:42:51,909
- We have time.
- 1144
- 01:42:52,249 --> 01:42:54,286
- It's done. They said yes.
- 1145
- 01:42:56,212 --> 01:42:57,328
- Okay.
- 1146
- 01:42:57,755 --> 01:42:59,337
- - Let's do this.
- - Let's do it.
- 1147
- 01:43:10,643 --> 01:43:14,353
- I've done all I'm doing
- with this, Will. I'm done.
- 1148
- 01:43:17,692 --> 01:43:19,274
- Thank you.
- 1149
- 01:43:20,486 --> 01:43:21,897
- She's waking up.
- 1150
- 01:43:26,575 --> 01:43:27,986
- Hey, honey.
- 1151
- 01:43:33,082 --> 01:43:35,540
- - Hey, sweetie, you did great!
- - Hi! You really did.
- 1152
- 01:43:35,626 --> 01:43:36,912
- - You did great.
- - You did!
- 1153
- 01:43:40,923 --> 01:43:43,381
- - You did wonderful, baby.
- - Yeah.
- 1154
- 01:43:43,467 --> 01:43:44,674
- You did good.
- 1155
- 01:43:45,886 --> 01:43:47,127
- It's okay.
- 1156
- 01:43:54,395 --> 01:43:56,307
- We have something for you.
- 1157
- 01:44:01,902 --> 01:44:04,144
- My beautiful, bossy Stella.
- 1158
- 01:44:05,197 --> 01:44:07,689
- I guess it's true,
- what that book of yours says.
- 1159
- 01:44:08,659 --> 01:44:10,651
- That the soul knows no time.
- 1160
- 01:44:12,621 --> 01:44:14,578
- My drug trial's not working.
- 1161
- 01:44:16,083 --> 01:44:18,826
- I want you to know that this past month
- 1162
- 01:44:18,919 --> 01:44:20,535
- will last forever for me.
- 1163
- 01:44:21,547 --> 01:44:24,335
- My only regret
- is that you didn't get to see your lights.
- 1164
- 01:45:19,647 --> 01:45:21,388
- I finally got you speechless.
- 1165
- 01:45:26,195 --> 01:45:27,464
- You know, people are always saying
- 1166
- 01:45:27,488 --> 01:45:29,946
- if you love something,
- you have to learn to let it go.
- 1167
- 01:45:31,617 --> 01:45:33,358
- I thought that was such bullshit.
- 1168
- 01:45:35,788 --> 01:45:37,825
- Till I watched you almost die.
- 1169
- 01:45:38,874 --> 01:45:40,706
- In that moment, Stella,
- 1170
- 01:45:43,546 --> 01:45:45,128
- nothing mattered to me.
- 1171
- 01:45:46,924 --> 01:45:48,256
- Except you.
- 1172
- 01:45:52,888 --> 01:45:54,254
- I'm sorry.
- 1173
- 01:45:58,477 --> 01:45:59,809
- I don't wanna go.
- 1174
- 01:46:02,898 --> 01:46:04,890
- All I want is to be with you.
- 1175
- 01:46:09,071 --> 01:46:10,312
- I can't.
- 1176
- 01:46:12,616 --> 01:46:14,152
- I need you to be safe...
- 1177
- 01:46:15,536 --> 01:46:16,868
- from me.
- 1178
- 01:46:20,249 --> 01:46:21,865
- I don't know what comes next,
- 1179
- 01:46:22,877 --> 01:46:25,620
- but I don't regret any of this.
- 1180
- 01:46:30,593 --> 01:46:32,129
- Could you close your eyes?
- 1181
- 01:46:33,512 --> 01:46:36,676
- I just don't know if I can walk away
- if you're still looking at me.
- 1182
- 01:46:44,523 --> 01:46:45,684
- Please.
- 1183
- 01:47:03,083 --> 01:47:04,449
- I love you...
- 1184
- 01:47:05,502 --> 01:47:06,868
- so much.
- 1185
- 01:47:35,950 --> 01:47:37,691
- He left this for you.
- 1186
- 01:49:09,209 --> 01:49:10,689
- Human touch.
- 1187
- 01:49:11,962 --> 01:49:13,999
- Our first form of communication.
- 1188
- 01:49:14,089 --> 01:49:17,708
- - Say, "Hi, Auntie Stella."
- - Safety, security, comfort,
- 1189
- 01:49:18,510 --> 01:49:21,173
- all in the gentle caress of a finger.
- 1190
- 01:49:22,306 --> 01:49:24,889
- Or at the brush of lips on a soft cheek.
- 1191
- 01:49:24,975 --> 01:49:26,932
- Hey, Stella. You can't record that. No.
- 1192
- 01:49:27,352 --> 01:49:29,184
- It connects us when we're happy...
- 1193
- 01:49:31,231 --> 01:49:32,938
- Abby, no.
- 1194
- 01:49:33,025 --> 01:49:34,665
- ...bolsters us
- in times of fear...
- 1195
- 01:49:35,986 --> 01:49:37,727
- - Can you turn that off?
- - Stella!
- 1196
- 01:49:38,447 --> 01:49:40,564
- ...excites us in times of passion...
- 1197
- 01:49:41,408 --> 01:49:44,321
- Ah. No. Stella, no. Stop!
- 1198
- 01:49:45,079 --> 01:49:46,320
- ...and love.
- 1199
- 01:49:49,666 --> 01:49:53,376
- We need that touch from the one we love
- almost as much as we need air to breathe.
- 1200
- 01:49:55,714 --> 01:49:58,422
- But I never understood
- the importance of touch,
- 1201
- 01:50:00,052 --> 01:50:01,384
- his touch...
- 1202
- 01:50:03,764 --> 01:50:05,130
- until I couldn't have it.
- 1203
- 01:50:09,770 --> 01:50:11,807
- So, if you're watching this,
- 1204
- 01:50:13,023 --> 01:50:14,514
- and you're able,
- 1205
- 01:50:17,569 --> 01:50:18,901
- touch him.
- 1206
- 01:50:19,780 --> 01:50:20,941
- Touch her.
- 1207
- 01:50:23,450 --> 01:50:25,487
- Life's too short to waste a second.
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