Again [A4A]

Again
[A4A]
by /u/Eves-garden


I was over you.

I had tucked you away
in a corner of my memory,
in the cool, dark place
where old friends and
adolescent crushes
linger
in nostalgic dreams
like benevolent ghosts

I had learned to think of you
with warmth
not heat
with affection
not breathless,
giddy desire
if I even thought of you
at all

And even though
I sometimes missed
the way my pulse
would leap
and flutter
beneath my
tingling skin
the way my breath
would catch
The way one warm
whisper against
the shell of my ear
would quake through me
like a sweet orgasmic
ripple of need…

I was glad to be free

But now
now….

I see you again
and the flutter
in my chest
silences my breath
I feel your hand
as it slips over mine
and I wonder how
I lived so long without
this touch
I hear your voice
and it's like
coming home

I should say no
and you should say no
but when your mouth
finds mine
and your arms pull me in
I am nothing but need
and heat and
desperate
liquid desire

My hands fumble
to find your bare skin
my fingers tear
at buttons and fabric
to get to you
to feel you again
to possess you
for a moment
for an hour
for a lifetime
for however long
I can have you
just to taste you again
just to sink to my knees
and worship you
Just to feel your
heat on my tongue
and your pleasure
in my mouth
and hear your cries
as I bring you
again and again
to that place
our place
where we neither of us
are free…

Where I am over you
and you are over me

and we crumple the sheets
and scatter the blankets
rolling and tumbling
thrusting and taking
biting the pillow
gripping the headboard
panting as we fuck
with our eyes as surely
as with our bodies
our skin slick with sweat
our limbs entwined
our mouths meeting
again and again
until that cool, dark place
where our memories have lived
alights again
and is consumed
a star burst of pleasure
and pain and
explosive desire

until we collapse

and through panted breaths
and slow smiles
our wise eyes
tell each other
in ways no words
ever could
that we will never be free
and will always
always
be back here

again