Right, so, League of Legends.
Here's the fucking thing: I don't like playing against each other.
I hate it, in fact.
Despise it even.
You know why?
It's because I try hard.
I try hard to win.
I try my best.
I can't take it easy, because I strive to be the best amongst my peers.
I can't do that.
I simply can't.
And that's the reason why I can't have fun.
Cazza's just fucking better than me.
That's all there is to it.
And I simply can't win against him.
Because he's just better.
And that's why I can't have fun.
I have fun when I'm winning.
I don't when I'm losing, mostly to my friends.
I want to be a person they look up to and they'll be all like "Mark, you're so great!"
And that's the same reason why I'm so demotivated with things like Cazza getting 83% on a test while I get fucking 26%.
Because I tried my best, and it wasn't as good as him not giving much of a fuck.
He did barely any work for the test, and still does better than me.
Meanwhile, I'm worrying about it the entire fucking week and not playing games because I'm too busy worrying about it.
Then he's like "Hey mark, let's play League."
So eventually, after I get over worrying a bit, I'll play a game. He just plays it constantly and still does better than me in most things.
It's annoying.
I don't see him revising ever.
Maybe for 5 minutes.
Does best in  the class, does nothing at home.
Does homework day before it's due, without fail. Sometimes asks me for the answers at school if he's not done it.
I feel like life fucks me over.
I'm out.