First of all I wanna apologize for the way I reacted to no one seeing my thread or giving me 'attention' (for lack of a better term honestly but I don't mean it that way) and I understand it's a peeve for a lot of people on here.

Hex has been a home for me for a while off and on. I've never felt like I fit in. First, I felt like it was my house, then I thought it was the staff, but it took some time to realize it was about 20% those things and 80% me and IRL I was able to go on a journey of self help, get mental help, overcome a lot of my illnesses, and so on.

I'm still legally disabled. My hearing is diminishing, my eyesight is bad due to pseudotumor cerebri and my spinal cord injury, while getting better, is still kicking me in the rear end most of the time. And I love Harry Potter, I've been called white washed for liking it but I can't help it! I just love the aspect of spells and hexes and positive portrayals of witchcraft (despite being Catholic).

So here I am, attempting to give Hex another try! And make it my home again and gather some friends that get me, maybe get some RPs going and try to have some happiness here before it's taken away from me.

I've realized, honestly, since I posted this and discussed it with my amazing mother that being half Asian isn't a bad thing. In fact I have more cultural exposure than most people get in their entire lives and that is a form of privilege I will GLADLY take upon me! I'm exposed to Korean, Ainu, Japanese, Irish, and Russian cultures and it's amazing.

When people question my ethnicity out of curiosity I won't be hostile anymore. I'll simply... answer! And if they do it out of malice or because they know it makes me mad, I'll just explain their racism and move on.

It's been a rough few days on and off Hex, I didn't think I would be here on the site at the moment to genuinely thank you all for your replies. I can't believe anyone remembers my Quidditch days?! It's been far too long since I played, I really want to but of course... no room for me! I'm not as good as my house would deserve truthfully.

And I try to be a good friend to those that need it, so much more is there to me than getting in trouble or my ethnicity or my activism... I'm Mordecai and I'm a cool dude. I've come so far and nothing will bring me down again, and I'm gonna get comfortable with my ethnicity and even if no one else accepts me? I'll accept myself.

Everyone that responded to this is amazing. I really love and appreciate you all because... well. You rock.

Much love. <3