A Broken Promise (Eshmun) [9/06] Boom/Angery

[02:22] Eshmun Hirai says, "So."
[02:24] Ardith Hirai says, "So..."
[02:24] Ardith Hirai asks, "I told ya what happened to Mert. Right?"
[02:24] Eshmun Hirai says, "...Pinata."
[02:24] Ardith Hirai says, "...Yeah."
[02:24] Ardith Hirai says, "Went up there. And they challenege Sors. Directly."
[02:24] Ardith Hirai says, "Was the fuckin' stupidest thing."
[02:24] Eshmun Hirai says, "Not surprised."
[02:24] Eshmun Hirai says, "He told us he did, before they left."
[02:24] Ardith Hirai says, "Esh...I told ya not to give 'em that shard. Damnit."
[02:24] Ardith Hirai says, "Now he's got /everythin'/."
[02:24] Ardith Hirai says, "And he's been usin' it."
[02:24] Ardith Hirai says, "...If they march on the mountain. I ain't want you up there. Period."
[02:24] Eshmun Hirai asks, "...Have they been working on creating something?"
[02:24] Ardith Hirai says, "Can't say for sure. But that kinda' power in his hands? I know Sors. He'll be usin' it."
[02:25] Ardith Hirai says, "He's real industrious."
[02:25] Eshmun Hirai says, "Of course he will, it's what we expected."
[02:25] Ardith Hirai says, "Promise me."
[02:25] Eshmun Hirai says, "I expected something bad to come from the entire thing."
[02:25] Ardith Hirai says, "I need ya to promise me."
[02:25] Ardith Hirai says, "Unless it's with me...you ain't go up that mountain."
[02:25] Ardith Hirai says, "Not to attack. Not nothin'."
[02:26] Eshmun Hirai says, "...I'd be lying to you if I promised you that right now."
[02:26] Eshmun Hirai says, "And I don't want to lie to you."
[02:27] The Accursed snorts, leaning in to narrow her eyes.

"Esh…" she growls with emphasis.
(Ardith Hirai)
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[02:27] Eshmun gives a small sad smile, something they had been giving more lately.
(Eshmun Hirai)
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[02:27] Ardith Hirai says, "No. Don't."
[02:28] Eshmun Hirai says, "I don't plan to."
[02:28] Ardith Hirai says, "Then promise me."
[02:28] Eshmun Hirai says, "But if a force was put together, if Ely were to go up there."
[02:28] Eshmun Hirai says, "It's why i cant make a promise...The chance."
[02:28] Ardith Hirai asks, "I /need/ you...Your son'll need you. Ya wanna undo all I done? All we've done?"
[02:29] Ardith Hirai asks, "Are ya gonna do that to me?"
[02:29] Eshmun Hirai says, "..."
[02:29] Eshmun Hirai says, "Ardy."
[02:29] Ardith Hirai says, "You said you weren't gonna leave me like that again..."
[02:29] Eshmun Hirai says, "I /never/ wanted to do that, I /never/ want to do that."
[02:29] Ardith Hirai says, "You promised."
[02:29] Eshmun Hirai says, "I will never plan to die, but Ardy."
[02:30] Eshmun Hirai says, "Ely."
[02:30] Eshmun Hirai says, "You know exactly how I'd feel, if I were to have only his body come back to me."
[02:31] The more he speaks, the more the Accursed visibly becomes distressed. It's not hard to imagine the loss all over again.

"I...I know, but..."

Ardith grunts, reaches out for him, and attempts to pull him into her lap. Where he belongs. Where he's safe.
(Ardith Hirai)
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[02:34] There is no resistance, their body being pulled into her lap. Huffing, his weight would just be given, to be held.
(Eshmun Hirai)
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[02:34] Eshmun Hirai says, "We both know..."
[02:35] Eshmun Hirai says, "It's why I never want to imagine it again, or have to deal with such a thing."
[02:35] Ardith Hirai asks, "...You'd rather it be you? Comin' back dead?"
[02:35] Eshmun Hirai says, "I want neither."
[02:35] Ardith Hirai asks, "Sometimes it's gotta be one or the other. Ain't it?"
[02:35] Eshmun Hirai says, "It never has to be that."
[02:35] Eshmun Hirai says, "That was proven with my revival."
[02:36] Eshmun Hirai says, "It /never/ has to be that way."
[02:36] Ardith Hirai says, "...Esh. I...I ain't know if I can do that shit again."
[02:36] Eshmun Hirai says, "No...I'm not saying we would bring him back."
[02:36] Eshmun Hirai says, "I just mean...The impossible, there is never only those choices given."
[02:36] Eshmun Hirai says, "There is always a third choice."
[02:37] Ardith Hirai says, "Then what's the third choice here?..."
[02:37] Eshmun Hirai says, "There are a lot of choices here."
[02:38] Ardith Hirai says, "..."
[02:38] Ardith Hirai asks, "If Ely goes up the mountain. Ya got up to. No matter what?"
[02:39] Eshmun Hirai says, "It's never a no matter what."
[02:39] Ardith Hirai asks, "Then are ya only gonna go if he asks?"
[02:39] Eshmun Hirai says, "You know my philosophy on these things...I'm going up, if I'm not stopped."
[02:40] Ardith Hirai says, "..."
[02:40] Ardith Hirai says, "I'm gonna stop ya, then."
[02:40] Eshmun Hirai says, "Which is why I need to get stronger in general, it's just..."
[02:40] Eshmun Hirai says, "Ardy."
[02:40] Ardith Hirai says, "I'll stop ya my damn self. No."
[02:40] Eshmun Hirai says, "Please."
[02:40] Ardith Hirai asks, "The fuck'd ya have me do?"
[02:41] Eshmun Hirai says, "You know my thoughts on things like this...It's ju-..."
[02:42] Ardith holds the Hirai. Tight as she can, without choking off his air. Her eyes are already brimming with tears. She waits for his explanation.
(Ardith Hirai)
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[02:55] Eshmun starts getting squeezed real tight, they could already see the moisture gathering upon their eyes. Quietly he just nestled into them, tiredly.
(Eshmun Hirai)
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[02:56] Eshmun Hirai says, "...You are such an enormous part of my truth, but Ely is also a part of my truth...I just cant betray myself, can I? "
[02:56] Ardith Hirai says, "..."
[02:57] The Accursed has no verbal reply. Her clutches wind a little more tightly around him. The claws of that mutated hand, against her volition, start to curl inward.

While she doesn't say anything it's clear. The outward signs of distress only grow worse.
(Ardith Hirai)
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[03:05] Little needs to be said, he knew their beloveds thoughts, and they knew his. Instead their head just turned to look at Ardiths own, a arm breaking free of the tight grip to let him wipe beneath one of their eyes gently.

A small smile would be given, the hand then dropping to place itself where his heart was located. The rhythmic thuds of the metal object sounding every moment. Lightly they'd maneuver to place his own ear against her chest, listening to their own heartbeat silently.

Comfort, love, affection, and so much more was being felt towards the accursed. All of it covering the grief that was there, hiding away the thoughts of death that still plagued his mind...The fear that he was trying to push forward away from.
(Eshmun Hirai)
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[03:16] The Accursed is dolefully still. The energy from her has been sapped, at least any that isn't devoted to keeping him tightly in her clutches. Everything she has in her is poured into that simple, covetous task. She can feel the steady rhythm of the heart in his chest; the heart she'd labored over.

Life. Life to the man she loved at all costs. Blood, sweat, tears, and her undying devotion all packed into the organ that thrummed beneath her very hand. For his sake she had done what so many deemed impossible.

Her heart thuds in his ear. Slow. Sluggish. Dispirited.
(Ardith Hirai)
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[03:17] Eshmun would actually just let this go on for however long it was needed before speaking up.
(Eshmun Hirai)
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[03:17] Eshmun Hirai asks, "...Should we get some sleep?"
[03:17] Ardith Hirai says, "..."
[03:17] Ardith Hirai says, "He offered me a way."
[03:18] Ardith Hirai says, "Up on the mountain."
[03:18] Eshmun Hirai says, "..."
[03:18] Ardith Hirai says, "A way to give ya more time..."
[03:18] Eshmun Hirai asks, "...What was it?"
[03:19] Ardith licks her lips. They've become try as she tries to figure out how to explain.
(Ardith Hirai)
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[03:19] Ardith Hirai says, "...A life for a life. Not mine."
[03:21] Eshmun Hirai says, "..."
[03:21] Ardith Hirai says, "I was given a list."
[03:21] Ardith Hirai says, "...If I was able to kill someone on that list. Ya'd have more time."
[03:22] Eshmun Hirai says, "..."
[03:22] Ardith Hirai says, "...I ain't take it. Yet."
[03:22] Eshmun would raise their head from the slow, sluggish moving heart. Amber-hued eyes looking up into her own.
(Eshmun Hirai)
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[03:22] Ardith Hirai says, "But the deal might change."
[03:23] Eshmun Hirai says, "...No, Ardy, I don't want you to take a deal like that...In the least."
[03:24] Ardith looks down. The rest of her moves just as sluggish. Eyes included, still brimming with tears.
(Ardith Hirai)
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[03:24] Ardith Hirai says, "...I told ya. And I meant it. I told ya what I'd do to make sure ya could live."
[03:24] Ardith Hirai says, "Did ya not believe me?..."
[03:24] Eshmun Hirai says, "...I'm sure you already knew that...Ardy, I always knew what you would do...I know you too well."
[03:25] Eshmun Hirai says, "It's what what I would want you to do...That makes me not want you to do that."
[03:25] Ardith Hirai says, "...I ain't think you believe me."
[03:26] Ardith Hirai says, "I was ready to 'bout kill myself, or damn near, to have ya back."
[03:32] A very long silent moment is taken, where Eshmun just stares at his beloved. Nothing was said, until with a small movement, he stood up from the ground and picked up the accursed. Though they were actually a bit rough, a hint of anger actually flashing in his eyes, they merely brought her to the bed and sat her down.

"No, Ardy. Don't you ever dare think about ever killing yourself. Be it over my death, or to bring me back. No. Never." Their voice is strongly stated, eyes peering into her own, "If there is one thing I hate more then the thought of dying...It's the thought of you hurting yourself over me, or dying. So no, never, don't you ever 'dare' think about something that might harm you." Arms wrapped around the Hirai, pulling them down onto the bed in a hold.

"I hate that idea, so, very, much...So please."
(Eshmun Hirai)
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[03:40] Ardith is no stranger to a rough touch, but in this context it's not precisely welcome. She responds, after being sat down, not with quiet, solemn sadness.

The Accursed replies with a steadily growing indignance.

"...You think I ain't hate the idea of you gettin' hurt after I sacrificed so much for ya? The work that was done? That you're gonna go up on the mountain for people that didn't wanna sacrifice? I hate that too. I fuckin' despise it."

She's pulled down onto the bed, but her tail's tip twitches wildly in immense displeasure. Stubbornly she stares right back at him. There is so much she wants to say, but can't find the words for.

All she can do is grab him again, possessively, as they're both drawn down to the bed.
(Ardith Hirai)
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[03:40] Ardith Hirai says, "Just...just get some fuckin' sleep. Fuck..."
[03:42] Eshmun Hirai says, "Just...Ardy."
[03:43] Eshmun Hirai asks, "...You know I love you, right? That I never have planned or wanted to hurt you?"
[03:44] Ardith Hirai says, "..."
[03:44] Eshmun allows the possessive grab, letting the accursed pull him in, with a small huff. This was a rough night.
(Eshmun Hirai)