Well ive been abused all of my life ever since I was a child. My father would beat me and my brother and my mother and mentally abuse us as well. Eventually my brother started fighting back so my dad focused more on me and any time I tried to do or say anything it would just make things worse. So I've put up with him doing this to me all my life and eventually I got that chance to move out and get away. Only for me to end up falling in love with a woman who started beating me in front of her kids and belittling me. I stayed with her because I loved her even though she was abusing me,I had already become accustomed to it from the years of being hit by my dad. So eventually I guess I just wasn't enough for her and she starts cheating on me with her ex and then I found out and I begged her to please stop, like I was on my hands and knees crying my entire soul out to her. She proceeded to stab me several times with a broken glass jar and then beat the crap out of me till I pretty much blacked out. Then she stole everything that I owned and ran off with her ex. So now here i am trying to start my life back over from square one,no clothes or job or anything at all. So the only place I had to come back home to was my dad's which is where I am at right now. He still abuses me even now sadly. I'm a emotional train wreck and suffer from severe depression and anxiety and have tried to kill myself several times already in the past couple of years. I didn't die (obviously) but I came very close a couple of times and really messed up my body in doing so. My liver is screwed from downing a whole bottle of pills, so now I can't even take Tylenol or I run the risk of dying. I have heart issues which I ended up making worse and now they are just slowly getting worse and worse. And to top it all off not too long ago I just found out that my cousin sexually abused me multiple times when I was younger which is why I can't remember any of my childhood. I've had it drilled into my brain that I am not good enough for anyone or anything from all the abuse. Every girl I've ever been with has cheated on me and left me for an ex. And because of my fragile mental state, I cut myself because I feel like I deserve it for not being good enough and to distract myself from my severe emotional pain. So I'm also covered in scars from years of cutting myself. I just don't have any sort of value in my life
But I make it my mission to help any and everyone I can so they never have to feel like I do. No one deserves to feel this way